Hello and welcome.
Welcome to this evening practice before sleeping.
The day is done or close enough to done.
Whatever is still unfinished it can wait.
It's going to have to actually because right now we're going in the other direction.
Most of your day your mind has been in charge.
Planning,
Deciding,
Managing,
Reacting.
It's been running the show and it's been doing its best.
But for the next few minutes we're going to hand the controls over to your body instead.
You don't need to do anything clever.
You just need to lie down and if you can let go.
Begin by getting comfortable.
Really comfortable.
Not the oh I can tolerate this kind of comfortable but actually get yourself really comfy.
Adjust the pillow if you need to.
Move the blanket.
Find the position where your body says okay yeah this this is nice.
And then when you're comfortable and you feel ready to do so,
I invite you to just gently close down your eyes.
And the first thing we'll think about is your jaw.
Open your mouth slightly and just let your jaw hang slightly.
Don't hold it in any position.
Just let gravity have it.
If you've been clenching all day,
Which some of us maybe have been,
This can feel surprisingly intense.
But just let it be loose,
Slack,
Ungraceful.
Nobody needs you to hold your face together right now.
Now let's just watch the breath for a moment.
Don't change anything.
Just feel what you're breathing is actually doing right now.
Is it shallow or rapid?
Is it held?
Is it tight in the chest?
Whatever it is,
That's just today's data.
That's what your body has been carrying.
You don't need to judge it.
Just notice that's that's where I am right now.
All right now I'm gonna do just one simple thing with the breath.
This is the only technique in the whole practice really.
Everything else is just letting go.
So I invite you to just allow your exhales to become longer than your inhales.
Not dramatically and not forcefully,
Just when you breathe out,
Let it be slow.
Let it take its time.
Let the air leave like it's in absolutely no hurry.
Just breathing through the nose,
Just naturally,
Don't inflate too much,
And then out through the mouth,
Slowly,
Nice and slow.
Letting the breath just thin out until there's almost nothing left.
Again,
In easy,
Let the body take what it needs and on the out long and slow,
Like you're fogging a mirror from across the room.
And again,
In and then a nice long slow out.
You almost can't breathe out too slowly,
All the way to the bottom.
When you reach the bottom of your next breath,
Just rest in that space,
That empty still point where the breath has gone and the next one hasn't come yet.
Don't rush the inhale,
Let it arrive when your body is ready,
Not when your mind thinks it should.
Keep going with the rhythm you've established,
In through the nose,
Naturally,
And then out through the mouth,
Long and slow,
And just resting a little in the pause at the bottom each time.
I'll be quiet for a minute or so now,
Just leave you to breathe.
Now let go of the technique,
Stop directing the exhale and just watch.
Your body knows how to breathe for rest,
It's been doing it every night of your life while you were asleep,
It's just that you usually aren't awake to feel it.
So feel it now,
Feel your body breathing itself.
Notice the rhythm it chooses when you're not interfering.
It might be slower than you expected,
It might be barely there.
Just watch,
Like you're watching a sleeping animal breathe,
Just gentle curiosity,
No involvement,
No interfering.
Now while your body breathes,
Let your attention drift slowly down through the body,
Not with effort,
More like water flowing downhill.
Start at the head,
The face,
Soft,
Your throat,
Open.
Your shoulders,
If they're still up,
They can come down,
Let them melt into whatever's beneath you.
Your chest,
Feel how it rises and falls without you doing anything.
The heart,
Beating in there,
Doing its quiet work.
It's been beating all day,
Every moment of every meeting,
Every email,
Every conversation hasn't stopped once.
You might just acknowledge that for a brief second.
Letting your attention flow down softly into the belly,
Feeling the belly as soft,
Not braced,
Not held,
Let it be round and formless and completely unimpressive.
This is not a moment for holding anything in.
Feel the breath here,
Feel how the belly rises gently on the inhale and gently drops on the exhale and that little pause at the bottom where everything is still.
Your attention just wandering lazily down towards the legs,
Probably the most ignored parts of the body,
Our legs,
Our feet,
Just feel them,
The weight of them,
The warmth,
Let them be heavy,
Let them sink.
And now the whole body,
All at once,
Not part by part,
The whole thing,
This breathing,
Living,
Warm,
Heavy,
Tired human body lying here.
You spent the day up in your head,
Up there in the control tower,
Managing everything and your body was down here the whole time,
Carrying all of it,
Tension,
The emotion,
The effort,
Without complaint.
So now just be in it,
Not managing it,
Just inhabiting it,
Feeling what it feels like to be here in this body at the end of it.
There's a quality that sometimes shows up when you lie still like this and stop trying.
It's not quite a relaxation,
It's more like the body remembering what it feels like to not be needed for anything.
You might feel it as heaviness or warmth or a kind of gentle dissolving at the edges or you might not feel anything dramatic at all,
That's okay too.
The practice isn't about reaching a state,
It's about removing the pressure to be in any state at all.
You're allowed to just be here,
Exactly as you are,
Exactly as tired or wired or numb or restless as you actually are right now.
If you're heading to sleep,
You don't need to end this practice,
Just let it become sleep,
Let the edges blur,
There's no clean boundary needed,
The body can take it from here.
If it's still awake,
Just stay here a little longer,
There's no rush,
Your body is doing something useful right now,
Even if it doesn't feel like much,
Right now it's learning,
It's allowed to stop.
Good night,
Your body did a lot today,
Let it rest.