Beautiful souls.
Today we're going to be working with resentment.
And I want to start by telling you why this one is so hard to shape.
Resentment is not one emotion.
It's several emotions stacked on top of each other.
First,
There's bitterness,
That sharp,
Heavy residue that builds up in our system and has nowhere to go.
And just underneath that,
There's anger.
A boundary was crossed or something happened that was not okay.
There's hurt.
That tender place underneath the anger that never got tended to.
Underneath that,
There's powerlessness.
That sense that nothing that you ever said or did could create the change you needed.
There's false hope.
The part of you that's still holding on,
Believing that if you just hold on to this pain long enough,
They'll finally see it and get it.
And underneath all of that,
There's grief.
Mourning what was never going to be.
What you needed and never got and what you deserved but never received.
This is why resentment is so complex to resolve in the body.
It isn't just one emotion you're releasing,
It's all of these.
So today,
We're going to move through every layer.
We're not skipping anything.
We don't want to rush this process with toxic positivity.
Instead,
We're going to approach this with honesty.
And our goal.
.
.
Is to get to a place of release and acceptance.
Not because what happened is okay,
And not because they've changed,
But because you are done letting this live in your body rent-free.
Alright,
So let's begin.
We're going to start by taking a deep breath in through our nose.
Holding it at the top and a long,
Slow exhale through pursed lips like you're blowing through a straw.
Let's start by tapping on the karate chop point which is the side of the hand.
You can tap on either hand so feel which one feels good to you.
We're going to stay here for a moment and we're going to say even though I'm feeling this resentment.
I choose to love and accept myself exactly as I am.
Even though I feel this resentment living in my body.
I choose to deeply and completely accept myself.
Even though I don't know how to let go of this yet.
I choose to be kind to myself right now.
Okay we're gonna start with bitterness now bitterness is what happens when hurt doesn't know where to go and just sits in our body It hardens and it becomes this weight that you didn't ask for and you can't seem to put it down.
So we're going to name it first because we can't release what we won't acknowledge.
So let's start by tapping on the eyebrow.
You can use either hand,
One side or both sides,
Tapping at the eyebrow.
I am carrying bitterness.
Side of the eye It's heavy.
And it's been heavy for a long time.
Under the eye.
This isn't something I'm choosing to hold on to.
Under the nose.
It built up because the hurt had nowhere to go.
On the chin And now there's a residue in my body from all of this bitterness.
Collarbone.
I can feel it.
I'm not going to pretend I can't.
Under the arm.
The bitterness makes sense given what I've been through.
Top of the head.
ICU bitterness.
I hear you.
I'm just ready to put you down.
So now under that bitterness,
We want to deal with the anger,
The real anger that's there.
Something wasn't okay.
A line was crossed.
And maybe more than once.
Maybe so many times that you stopped counting.
The anger showed up because part of you deserved better.
That part was right,
So let's let it speak.
Go back to the eyebrow point.
I am angry.
Side of the eye.
Something happened that was not okay.
Under the eye.
A boundary was crossed and I felt it.
Under the nose.
This anger showed up because I deserved better.
On the chin I am allowed to be angry about this.
Collarbone.
I don't have to make this smaller than it was.
Under the arm.
This anger is not the problem.
Carrying it forever is.
Top of the head I honor this anger.
And I'm letting it start to move through me now.
And let go.
Now we can get underneath the anger.
Because anger is almost never the first feeling.
It's more like a protector.
Underneath this anger,
There is something much more tender.
There was a need that didn't get met.
Something you needed.
To be seen.
To be protected.
To be heard,
To matter,
To be chosen and it didn't happen.
That hurt is still there.
So let's be with it.
So start again at the eyebrow point.
Underneath this anger.
There is hurt.
Side of the eye.
Something I needed wasn't given to me.
Under the eye.
I needed to be seen.
And treated with care.
Under the nose.
That need was real.
It was valid.
And it mattered.
And it didn't get met.
And that is genuinely painful.
Collarbone.
I'm letting myself feel this.
Without rushing past it.
Under the arm.
This tenderness is not weakness.
It's the truth of what happened.
Top of the head.
I deserved to have this need met.
I am saying that out loud right now.
I deserved to have this need met.
And release.
Now we're getting to the layer that keeps the resentment alive longer than anything else.
There's a belief and it's usually under the surface and it goes something like if I just hold on to this pain long enough.
Then they will finally see and they'll finally get it.
They're going to see what they did.
And so you hold on.
And not because it feels good,
But because you believe that holding on to something is doing something.
Let's be really clear.
It isn't.
And we're going to name that today.
We're going to hold ourselves with gentleness and honesty and without shame.
Back to the eyebrow point.
Part of me felt powerless to change any of this.
Side of the eye.
Nothing I did seemed to make a difference.
Under the eye.
So I held on.
Because holding on felt like I was doing something.
Under the nose and some part of me believed it.
I believed if I stayed in this pain long enough they would finally see it.
But holding on didn't change them.
It only cost me.
Collarbone.
I'm not powerless.
I just haven't had a way to put this down.
Until now.
Under the arm.
I can acknowledge this false hope.
Without blaming myself or shaming myself for having it.
Top of the head.
I am allowed to stop waiting around for something that is not going to come.
And release And now we're going to go down to the deepest layer,
The grief.
Not for what happened but for what we didn't receive grief for the version of things that you needed but you didn't get for the care that should have been there but wasn't this is the morning that usually never gets acknowledged because usually we're so busy being angry or bitter.
That we never let ourselves acknowledge the grief underneath it all.
We're going to go there now.
Alright,
Come back to the eyebrow point.
There is grief underneath all of this.
Side of the eye.
I am mourning what was never going to be.
Under the eye.
The version of this that I needed.
That I deserved.
It never came.
Under the nose.
And I never let myself grieve that.
Until now.
It is okay to be sad about this.
It's a real loss.
Collarbone.
I'm letting myself mourn.
What was never taken care of.
Under the arm.
What was never held.
What was never honored.
What I needed and didn't receive.
Top of the head.
I give myself permission to grieve this fully.
So I can finally put it down.
And release.
Now we've finally set it down.
Not because what happened was okay,
It wasn't.
And not because they changed.
We have to accept they may never change.
We're setting this down because you are done letting this live in your body.
Carrying this hasn't protected you it's only tethered you to the thing that hurt you in the first place You are choosing yourself now.
And this is what this is all about.
So come back to the eyebrow.
This is what it was.
I'm not pretending otherwise.
Side of the eye.
I deserved better.
That's still true.
Under the eye.
I am choosing myself now.
Under the nose.
I'm releasing this now.
Not for them.
But for me.
Holding on has not made it okay.
It kept me in it.
Collarbone.
I accept what happened.
Not because it was right.
But because it was real.
Under the arm.
I grieve what I needed and didn't get.
And I let it go.
Top of the head.
I am no longer available to carry this.
I am choosing myself now.
And release.
Take a deep breath in.
Hold it at the top.
And let it go.
Beautiful soul.
What you did just now wasn't small.
Grief is one of the heaviest emotions we can carry.
Because as you can see,
It isn't just one emotion,
It's six.
And you just moved through every single layer,
The bitterness,
The anger.
Hurt.
The powerlessness,
The false hope,
And the grief.
You did all of it.
You didn't bypass any of it.
You didn't perform forgiveness and not really feel it.
You just told the truth to yourself.
In your body and you gave yourself permission to put it down.
What happened happened and you deserved better.
Both of those things are true.
And you are choosing yourself now.
That,
My friend,
Is not toxic positivity.
That is self-respect.
This session is part of a series called The Rewire,
From Survival Mode to Self-Trust.
And this particular session took us really deep.
I hope you're as proud of yourself as I am of you for showing up for this work.
You did an incredible job.
And remember,
You are magical and you've got this.
