Sometimes when I'm feeling low it is compounded by a sense of singularity,
A sense of emptiness both within and around me,
An aching silence of perceived solitude,
And that's when I begin to reach for artificial fixes.
Fences like cigarettes,
Series and sex,
Momentary comforts that numb the pain yet ultimately increase the trauma,
All the while falsely believing that I am alone,
But I am not.
Still stepping outside of our bubble and encountering others with the same problems and hurts can make us feel less alone,
And I do definitely encourage that.
The relief is often short lived,
Because our salvation doesn't come from others that also need help,
It comes from within.
At all times you have an army of wizards and warriors in your flanks,
A council of beings that know you intimately and can see the road ahead clearly,
Ancestors and angels,
Spirits and saints,
Deities and dreamers,
All proud,
Willing and able in your acts,
Carrying your flag and cheering you on.
If you haven't met them yet,
I'd like to introduce you to them.
Now come to stillness and close your eyes.
Draw your attention in towards your breath,
Your breath that flows easy and free.
Feel your eyelids heavy and your heart light.
Inspect the drumming of your heart and the fire in your belly.
Feel the earth underneath and the heavens above becoming one through you.
Now breathe in slow,
Really,
Really slow.
Hold the top gently without clenching and then slowly release.
Take your time,
It's not about getting to the end of the breath,
It's about embracing the flow.
Deeply in and slowly out.
Full breath in and full breath out.
Once more,
Deeply in.
Breathe out halfway,
Very slowly,
Linger here for a moment.
Enjoy the stillness in breath and mind.
Soft body,
Soft focus.
Then breathing in again.
Slowly release all the way out.
Let all the air exit from your body and then pausing at the bottom.
Soft body again.
This time we're holding for a little bit longer.
Let go of thoughts and dive into the sensation of tingle in your hands and beating in your pulse.
That's it,
Just surrender.
Now when you are ready,
Breathe the air in again down your spine and feel your body getting lighter and brighter as you begin to breathe again at your own pace.
Very soft and very slow.
Invite your guides to come and sit with you now.
Welcome them with love like you would an old friend.
Say to them,
I am so happy to have you here and I'm so eager to get to know you.
And let them speak to you in whatever language they choose.
Sometimes they communicate through thoughts,
Sometimes images,
Sometimes just feelings and sensations.
Sometimes they don't talk at all and they just join you in the sweetness of your breath.
No expectations,
No demands.
Just listen and lay down.
You really are never alone.
You are held and adored beyond description.
There is a love shined at you so bright that turning away from it can be felt viscerally and sometimes take you to your knees.
But that doesn't mean that love went away.
In fact,
It's proof that the love is still there.
We just need to lay down our shields.
Whatever messages you might have received today,
Maybe through images or ideas,
Maybe from the words I spoke,
Sit with it for a moment and let it sprout in your heart.
Trust your guidance and your intuition.
It's the language of infinite intelligence speaking to you.
May you know today that you are not alone.
Go out and shine your light.
That's what you're here for.
