Hello,
Beloveds.
I find myself these days experiencing many emotions within the course of a day.
I can go from feeling at ease in nature to feeling bliss and reverence for the beauty of this planet,
For music,
For art that I stumble across whilst walking the streets of cities,
A smile from a human,
The excitement of a dog,
Who deep,
Deep,
Deep grief for all that's unfolding,
All that is unfolding on this planet right now,
And rage,
So much rage,
I just want to scream,
Stop,
Stop,
And then a bird will sing and I'll smile.
I'll put a piece of pistachio cheesecake in my mouth and moan in pleasure,
And then again a new wave of grief comes as I look up and there on the television are starving children,
And I just find myself with the question of when will we learn?
When?
When will we,
When will we remember?
Collectively,
Who we are,
Who each and every one of us is,
And everything that we see,
That we feel,
That we touch,
That we taste,
Everything,
When will we remember?
The evolution of us and the awakening,
The remembrance of this planet and all the beings on it,
It's so intense,
And it just keeps intensifying and intensifying,
Hello baby,
And here yet again I find myself being pleased by nature and smiling whilst this grief is sat in my throat,
This consciousness that we're all going through,
This awakening that has been ongoing for a very,
Very long time,
And just keeps intensifying and intensifying and intensifying and more souls are remembering,
And more souls are waking up,
And I know the dream that we're dreaming here is the world of duality,
You have to have the opposite,
That's how it works here,
You can't have up without down,
Hot without cold,
These things wouldn't exist,
So everything is polarizing with this awakening,
This speeding up of time,
As it were,
And intensity is having such a polarizing effect,
And so the more we rise,
We also,
The more we fall,
And it feels like such a breaking point,
Like it's ready to snap,
It's pulling so tightly against the other,
And I find the same with my emotions,
I remember once upon a time,
Once upon a time,
Within the illusion of time,
I watched somebody speaking about enlightenment,
And somebody I now know,
Since going through my own experience two years ago,
Was absolutely speaking from a place of having experienced it to himself,
And the polarity again of,
You cannot reach those heady heights of enlightenment,
And rapture,
And bliss,
And ecstasy without having roots buried in hell,
What goes up must come down,
What gets pulled down must go up,
And so I'm sitting with all of this,
Like in the space of a day,
In the space sometimes of hours,
Of minutes,
I mean,
Just looking around me now,
I'm in the north of Italy currently,
I needed some time away from my energies,
From a lot of people,
And so I'm out walking on a path,
And I am surrounded by green,
And by trees that are just sending me so much love,
And hills,
And mountains,
And insects,
And birds,
And it's so beautiful to just be in this,
If you were just plonked here,
Plonked down here on earth right now,
You wouldn't,
You couldn't dream what's happening in other parts of the world is happening,
And so I find myself having these moments of,
Ah,
Everything is just okay right now,
Everything is beautiful,
And so much love,
And the wind,
And the trees are talking to me,
And sending me so much love,
And also at the same time being in deep,
Deep pain,
And anger,
Anger at us as the one thing,
Despite knowing what I know,
And experiencing what I experienced,
Anger at myself as the one thing,
Anger at all of us as the one thing,
That this is the dream we're dreaming,
Okay,
Yes,
In this dimension,
In the other ones,
It is much lovelier,
But this one,
We're amazing when you look at it like that,
As painful as it is,
And it's fucking painful to dream all of this,
And to make it all feel so real,
Because it feels so real,
The pain,
The grief,
Anger,
And also bliss,
The joy,
The rapture,
The ecstasy,
And when I zoom out,
And I look at it from,
From what I know,
I just think,
Wow,
Wow,
Just wow,
Aren't we brave,
Aren't we amazing,
To be dreaming all of these different experiences so well,
So well,
That it feels so real,
Like a dream,
Like when you dream,
It's the same,
The same thing,
You dream,
Unless you lucid dream,
And you wake up within that,
You know,
Within the dream,
But when you dream,
It feels so real,
And some of them,
You can wake up and be so disorientated,
Like,
Oh gosh,
Where am I,
Like,
Was that not real,
Just like the immensity of us,
The absolute power,
The magnificence,
To be literally in the void of nothing,
Dreaming a dream so magnificent,
So beautiful,
And also so tortuous,
And for it all to feel so real,
And so I'm just allowing it,
I'm just allowing it all to be,
And it's like being on a roller coaster,
In fact,
Today,
I found a theme park an hour away,
No,
Maybe a little bit longer,
Two hours away from where I am,
And I intend on going there next week,
So I can scream,
So I can scream in a socially acceptable place,
Not into a pillow,
Not into my hand,
But out loud,
As loud as I possibly can,
So this is what I'm doing,
I am riding the roller coaster of the dream that we are dreaming,
And my god,
It's the most intense roller coaster I have been on,
It is up to the highest,
Highest peak,
And then tipped straight over the edge,
Straight back down,
And then up,
And down,
And up,
And down,
And round,
And round,
And upside down,
All within,
Sometimes a matter of minutes,
Sometimes just the present moment,
Which is actually what all of it is anyway,
Just one moment in time,
Which is even more mind-blowing of our magnificence,
This is,
This is how my days look,
Some days is more up,
Some days are more down,
Some days are more nice,
Gentle,
Little carousel,
You know,
Those horses you sit on and you just kind of go round,
Some days are more like that,
Some days are roller coasters in the dark,
I don't know if you've been on one of those,
Completely in the dark,
And you have no idea,
And you're just rolling,
Just rolling with it,
This is,
This is where I'm at,
And from the communities that I'm a part of,
The different soul connections I have in this life,
My friends,
My connections,
So many of us feeling the same,
And so I felt compelled and driven to record something,
Whatever came out of me,
Something to this effect,
Because I believe so many of us are experiencing this right now,
And to have resonance,
Like it's what we all seek,
Connection,
Resonance,
To feel like we're being seen,
Mirrored,
We're not alone,
So maybe this is that connection that you,
That you need today,
That resonance that you need to know that you are not the only one,
You are not the only one that feels this way,
And all we need to do is hold on,
Make sure we're strapped in like you do when you get on a roller coaster,
And ride,
Ride it,
We just need to ride it,
Allow it all to be,
Allow the grief to move through our systems,
The rage to move through our systems,
And also the joy to move through our systems,
The moments of bliss and pleasure and ecstasy,
And allow it all,
It's intense,
I know,
The collective awakening is just getting more intense,
It has been for years now,
And yeah,
Those of us that are more open to feeling this,
We're,
We're feeling it,
And it's good to know that we're all in this together,
Every single one of us,
All of us,
All of us are that,
The great I am,
The one thing,
Consciousness,
God,
Universe,
Whatever name,
And we're all in it together,
Yeah,
I think this is all,
Okay,
Beloveds,
I hope you are able to breathe,
Dance,
Make noise,
However you need to,
To move through all of these energies that are moving through us,
That are moving through the planet,
That are moving through the collective,
I'm with you,
You're with me,
We've all got this,
We've got this.
