What's Up With Emotions?! Diabetes Discussion & Meditation

This meditation is for people who live with diabetes. The session begins with a short discussion on the challenging emotional side of diabetes and why it happens. A guided meditation follows that offers healing and peace to the parts of the body most impacted by diabetes.

Transcript

My name is Patricia Daker,

As I said.

I'm with a company called Better Diabetes Life.

I'm the owner and founder and the purpose of the company is to help people that live with diabetes like me with some of the other aspects that they don't cover in your doctor's office and that's kind of how to deal with it day in and day out and sort of the mudmuck of things.

If you'd like to learn more about my services you can go to my bio there's a link there.

Tonight we're going to be talking about emotions.

What's up with them anyway,

Right?

They're all over the place with diabetes and so it's not as random as you might think and nobody really prepared me for this.

So that's what I really want to bring with you is what I've learned about how all this works and hopefully give you some tips and tools and then we do a really fun meditation at the end that just kind of blesses and cares for our bodies that get so stressed out and have to live with diabetes we might as well give it some goodness back.

So there's a talk portion and there is a meditation portion we'll do both.

I do have Q&A at the end so if you have questions anything you want to talk about or do that's open at the end.

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So I thought that was nice you could kind of schedule and set it up and put it on your calendar if you are the forgetful type but tonight every Monday I'm doing this at seven o'clock so trying to be predictable and it works really well with my schedule so thunderstorms and hail aside.

So that's how it works that's what we'll do we'll get started.

As I'm talking feel free to ask questions I may hold them off till the end just so I can kind of get through the content but I like I said I'm happy to answer anything for you.

Okay so I like to get started by the idea of gathering so we'll breathe together but first of all I want you to imagine we're all in a room together maybe it's a cloud above your head maybe you're visually just picturing people gathering in a room sitting on couches wherever we may be and the cool thing about all these people is we all have diabetes and we all get it right there's so many people that don't understand what it's like to have to think about what you eat what you do your medicine your exercise your diet like all this stuff all the time and you you can tell people about it but there's something very intimate and personal and helpful about being with others so as we gather I just want you to imagine that you're safe and you're secure and together we're better than we are individually.

So we're going to take a deep breath.

Ah there you go.

I just feel good.

Relax your shoulders.

I'm going to have you do several breaths it's called polyvagal breathing and it really helps shift you from kind of a busy busy nervous sort of energy to a calm receptive healing type energy and we'll do that.

Basically the trick is you breathe in and out through your nose and you breathe out longer than in.

I usually count from four breath in eight breath out.

So we'll do some of that and that um you know just helps us pull together create our energy and get us all linked up a little bit.

So breathe in for four and out for eight two three four five six seven eight in two three four out two three four five six seven eight and relax your shoulders.

Breathe in two three four and breathe out two three four five six seven eight.

Relax again soften let your eyes get soft deep breath in two three four and out two three four five six seven eight in and out through your nose and it stimulates your vagus nerve to calm things down.

We'll do one last one in two three four and out two three four five six seven eight.

Okay relax soften whatever is going on today can wait this time is for you.

Be selfish it's really good we need to indulge every once in a while so take this time and enjoy it.

So I'll set an intention tonight for our time together and that is that we have peace that we find acceptance and we all come together for our highest good.

Okay everybody comfy got your headset on listening tuned in thank you for everybody who's joining.

So tonight's topic is what's up with all the emotions like what is it?

So nobody told me about this part so I'm 30 years and now I'm type 1 and I wear an insulin pump.

These talks are not for type 1 or type 2 it's for anybody that has to live with diabetes because in my personal opinion it's a hardship no matter which type you have to deal with.

But everybody so when I was diagnosed I was a registered nurse so I kind of knew all the clinical stuff no one told me at all about the crazy emotions right so things like being angry and mad and going sad sad and this is horrible and frustration and being overwhelmed to fall I can't do all this and then guilt for not doing it right shame being embarrassed right all of this stuff all these emotions and I really thought I should just do it I kind of thought you know what here's the thing I'm a nurse I know how I should just do that and it should be fine.

I thought I was stronger than that I really didn't think I was that quote unquote weak but man these emotions um they were so hard and interestingly enough everybody around me encouraged me to be strong you know just be tough fight through it and you got this you can do it my mom even told me you know of all my kids and I'm one of seven you know you're the one that can do this because you're the nurse you're strong blah blah blah blah blah blah blah so you know everybody is encouraging your doctors like you're gonna be okay you know diabetes strong on and on and on I'm just say those things are not bad or well intentioned but what happened is I felt like I couldn't feel the bad stuff right so I put my chin up I pulled my big girl panties on and we act like we're fine okay we got it but then inside by ourselves or with certain people you just crumble you're like oh my god and how am I gonna do all this what's it's like for the rest of my life so I was not prepared and I tried really really long and hard to keep it down to act like it was fine to just you know be what everybody else needed me to be my doctor needed me to be perfect my friends and family wanted me to be happy and okay and safe good it's not a bad thing but it just didn't give me much space to like deal with some of this stuff so what I did I held it all in and then one day some person someplace the grocery store clerk or you know a patient perhaps god forbid but at some point I blew up right I got mad at my doctor I met at my family for doing something right it just comes pouring out and then the next day you're like what the heck happened to me who was that person right I hope I'm not the only one that's ever experienced that but it seems like there's just a lot of stuff there's a lot of expectation and a lot of emotion and a lot of mixed up stuff in between all right so I did that for about three years of just acting okay and I went from doing nothing to doing everything to staying in going out like I just couldn't find peace anywhere and I ended up going to see a counselor because I was just crazy I just knew I was crazy I knew I was ineffective and I couldn't handle all this stuff and there must be something wrong with me so guess what I found this was the shocker of all shocks to me I just never ever put these two things together but looking back I'm like how did I miss it right it's so obvious but what I found out is I was grieving like grieving I'm like nobody died I'm alive I didn't die why am I grieving right but someone did die the part of me that didn't have diabetes was gone that person was gone she couldn't come back um that life that I used to know without it it still kind of chokes me up um they're going right and that is a loss that you need to grieve and nobody helped me see that or understand that but it's a loss it's significant right and carry you to yeah so nobody tells you this stuff and they don't really prepare you for grief right like somebody died and think about the different kind of expectations and experiences if someone that you know loses a loved one what do we do we're so super tolerant we hold them in we care for them we sit with them when they're crazy emotion when they're mad when they're sad when they're happy we're very tolerant very tolerant right but if you get diabetes and you're like that all of a sudden people are very judgy right well just cheer up you can do this are you supposed to eat that you know can you do this can all this and so instead of getting a soft warm fuzzy place to land all of a sudden people around you because they are scared like they're scared for you they are but they're all the sudden kind of overbearing on you so it's grief on both cases but you don't get that same space and compassion and tolerance right so just that piece of information right there made so much made it so much different for me because it started to make sense in my head and so as we deal with our world as we deal with the way the world goes things that are unknown are scary things we can't make sense of tend to shake us just make us feel unstable but when we can understand how it works together it gives us a little bit of balance and we feel a little bit more in control so that's what I want to talk about these emotions and grief so um you know just knowing it was grief clinically I knew what that meant all of a sudden like oh well it's a process and things that people go through and it's normal people grieve you know it would be very abnormal if someone had died or had a significant loss and they just went back like nothing was wrong right that's weird that's weird grieving is not weird but if nobody knows you're grieving and you don't know you're grieving there's all this mismatch it just doesn't align and we suffer right we suffer and we beat ourselves up so learning that it's like I was normal so I want to talk about the basic stages of grief and I hate the word stages because stages make you feel like they're very linear and that the five that I'm going to talk about are all-inclusive they're not grief everybody grieves differently so I'm just going to start at the very clinical 101 kind of you know just just the basic facts you're gonna as you hear this some of it may resonate some may not you may find that you had other things and as these things happen you find that you go in and out of them back in time right so as we go through you might start off kind of here and go up here and back here and then you're back there it's all normal like I said everybody grieves how they how they do grieve the thing I want to share with you tonight are kind of the basics and the purpose so that's the other thing grieving has a purpose it's good for you it does something so let's talk about that okay so there's five Elizabeth Kubler Ross and and different associates have written you know the the five stages of grieving it I think was written in the 60s it's really old but it's really kind of foundational and I think it's easy to understand so that's the model I use but stage one is denial right not me I don't have diabetes not me you may have it I don't have it that's not right this the tests were wrong I need a second opinion the doctors are wrong nobody in my family has it how can I have it right and on and on oh I've never been I've never been around somebody none of my family members like it goes on and on and on all these things where you're like what the heck right not me not me and I I was classic right I I don't have anybody in my family with it and I didn't see it coming even though I'm a nurse I'm like that's not what that was right just denial like and you think about it there's a lot of things when you lose something let's say you lose your keys the first thing you do you're like there's no way there's no way they've got to be here right so denial is always kind of the first step not me after that we might find anger why me this is not fair I didn't do anything to deserve this who did this to me who's to blame right somebody did this to me I gotta go find the doctor the person how I got this who did this to me who didn't raise me right you know what what genes did I inherit that made all this happen right it's just mad like I'm gonna go find the person who did this to me right very angry a lot of rage and you'll see that often it's not fair and it's not fair it is not fair there's nothing fair about it but that's a good reason to be mad right when something happens to you that doesn't happen to the rest of the world that is a reason to be mad it's good third stage is bargaining and so Teresa is still clinging to the Nile well that's okay if that's where you're at that's where you're at right we we go through each one I'm going to talk to you a little bit about why we have each of those in a minute um so bargaining so bargaining is how can I do this oh my god how can I live the whole rest of my way in my life this way and bargaining goes on forever let me just tell you um bargaining is kind of trial and error so um bargaining might be like I'll do this but not that like for me I'll eat a cookie but I will never drink a regular soda why it's the same sugar I don't know I just won't write that's my thing I'll go to that doctor I won't go to that doctor I'll do fasting labs on this day but not that day you know I'll I'll do this exercise but not that exercise just whatever they are we're trying stuff on think of bargaining is like trying on clothes right like trial and error it's like if you're negotiating right we're trying to figure out how do I make this work right that's what it is bargaining next comes depression and that's stage four and that is just for me this is so sad you've kind of gone through some of these steps and you're realizing this is not going away this this is here right and the realization is sad it's very sad right there's tears there's crying there's sadness because your life changed it's a huge change right and change can be hurt that hurtful and traumatizing if you get through all of that you get to this place called acceptance and that that's my little catchphrase for that is this is me and I'm happy to say it can happen you can get there and for me understanding I was grieving was the fastest train track to get me there because it made sense then and so acceptance is like I have diabetes I do I have to do stuff differently yes I do I have to think about things I have to buy blah blah blah blah blah I have to but guess what I also get to and I get to still be on this planet and I've gotten to have beautiful children I have a career I do stuff right so yes I have diabetes and I still in here right and I quit what I quit needing it to be different I guess that's where acceptance that might be something that you could ponder you know when you're wanting it to be different and not to say that you shouldn't that you're just gonna say okay this is how it is for life and I don't care about the results but it's being true of what is now right so maybe that and you know I hope there's a cure and when someday in the future it's all goes away but today just for this you know 7 20 p.

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On a Monday night I have diabetes that's true I accept that and that acceptance even if I don't like it I accept it and it takes the tug-of-war out okay denial anger bargaining depression acceptance and you're gonna have others too right you'll have frustration gets in there resentment there you know there's all kinds of negative emotions that we might find with different labels and we'll go back and forth like I said okay so what's the purpose of this why do we have these things let's talk about that because this one makes me helped me understand right so purpose denial let's denial do why do we need denial denial gives us space right and that is to process like imagine if everything that came up in our face we immediately agreed with right yes okay you know denial gives you pause and then that pause right we can go is this really true join you know you can work through the process right because it's taking anything at face value and just swallowing it whole is not healthy right so the denial gives you space and space to back up right and understand hmm what is really going on here like it's it's that time to kind of adjust right so denial is a good thing if you see it for what it is and you work through it and you know that's what you're doing if you stay in denial the rest of your life and just never deal with things that's not good but you know if we're dealing with this whole this can't be true this is the time this is what you're reconciling it in your mind of is this really true what's this look like how did this happen to me and you're answering questions right that's what you need to do anger so anger is about change right so when you get mad when you feel that you were treated unjustly something isn't fair it spurs you to action and that action might be research it might be you know finding the right people to help you it might be getting off your duff and doing something but anger can be very motivating and if you look at sort of a scale of emotions if you have apathy down here where you're laying around you can't do anything you're not off the bed anger at least is getting you moving right so as we go up the scale of emotions anger is an action typically so think about that so if you're angry what are you angry at why you know what do you really need which where do you want to direct that energy the anger gets you moving right get you up and get you moving so bargaining as I said is trial and error this is literally we're trying clothes on does this work does that work can I eat that can I not eat that what happens if I run what happens if I work out oh what if I work nights what if I work like when I first started I work nights I took nph insulin in the middle of the night some days and in the middle of the day other days it was crazy but I made it work and this was again a long time ago different influence back then but it was how I figured it out and so again we go back to is everything really really really really flat no life never works that way it's always up and down so bargaining is that trial and error I'm gonna run up this hill does it work do I like this place no I don't right so all of that negotiating that dealing if you notice that you're learning from that and this is how you you know figure out how this works how you do this dance then that bargaining isn't so frustrating when it fails because when it fails you go aha now I know what not to do right when it works you're like I like that better right so so often we can get very frustrated because it's not the same all the time right very frustrating so depression depression is a time for inner healing right when so we've gone through this thing we've worked it out we're figuring it all out and we get to the point where like this is not going away and it's a little bit of realization of our truth right and so when we avoid those tears when we avoid the sadness we don't work through it we get stuck in it right and we just drag that sadness no we put a big bag of rocks over our shoulder and we just lug it around with us so there are times to cry in your pillow and and can you know seek the comfort of a friend someone who understands someone who could be supportive that can embrace you right just imagine again that that what a person needs when they lose a loved one you need the same thing when you lose your non-diabetic self you need somebody to console you and to comfort you and there's nothing wrong with that there's absolutely nothing wrong with that and that will help you get through it because when you act like you're not sad and you put the happy face on when inside we feel horrible does no good no bueno and the last ones acceptance right we don't have to practice that we get there we've worked through a lot of this stuff we understand why we feel the way we do it makes a little bit of sense acceptance doesn't mean that you like it it it means it means that you see that it's true and that's what it is today right and that's very um calming I can just accept things there's a lot of things in life I don't like but I can accept them and that takes out some of the tug-of-war and the pull so those are kind of them right denial anger bargaining depression acceptance and there's going to be other things and you'll go back and forth I guess one other thing I'll end on or often you have other emotions and typically a lot of emotions are about an unmet need right so some of the other things that you might feel or experience um if we think about the need behind it we have um you know like the need for safety when we have diabetes if you feel very unsafe right oh my gosh what's going to happen or what if my blood sugar is too low or too high um those feelings right I need to be heard I feel like people don't listen to me nobody gets it right so there's some needs in there and those needs can bubble up in those emotions as well so diabetes is an emotional rollercoaster oh my goodness thing it is it's just the truth I don't think doctors do a very good job of preparing us for that of explaining it to us or helping us work through that unless you happen to go see a mental health professional counselor coach somebody like me but so ponder that a little bit think about your own emotions and maybe does this connect does it make a little sense you know some aha moments are sometimes helpful okay so that's that's the deal with emotions most of them are rooted in grief have fruit latex allergy not begins round by me wow 24 pounds gone good job super okay so that was a little bit about emotions and that is just some good information to have in my my curriculum that I teach that's emotional stuff is like a whole step it's like 1 5th of what we do because it's so important so okay so now we're going to do the fun part this is the meditation so we'll transition from you know kind of learning a little something to actually giving your body a nice little treat and I talk a lot about clinical information right so um our body has your nervous system so you have your nervous system that that you control moving my hands blinking my eyes moving my head we have the other part of our nervous system the autonomic nervous system which is the part that you don't control and it just works on its own and that's the part that can cause a lot of wreak a lot of havoc with diabetes so there's the parasympathetic nervous system which is fight or flight or freeze 911 panic worry struggle oh my gosh you know what's going to happen that is to be reserved for car accidents being chased by a bear you know really really high or low numbers the other side is your sympathy excuse me your parasympathetic nervous system and it is relax restore rebuild regenerate this is what our bodies need our bodies are being bombarded by diabetes complications or potential for right fluctuating blood sugars whatever they are so we need time to heal and when you're worried you're in the fight-or-flight state your brain is releasing chemicals that make hormones get released that raise your blood pressure that cause you to have more irritated and inflamed state parasympathetic is goodness it's what we need it's why we sleep it's a slower slow down time you're instead of your resources being outwardly focused on the world this parasympathetic time is inwardly focused on our body so that's what the meditation does so again I've been kind of playing around with different sort of meditation so I follow an ER doctor his name is Anup Kumar so he's a doctor but he also is sort of a forward thinker when it comes to healing and he's also raised he has an Indian background he was born in the US but he's just he understands our you date our area Vedic medicine and a lot of different things so he's come up with this concept it's called second mind medicine but he has these five layers of the body and I'll go through that so I'm going to do the meditation using his five layers and it's just a little bit of a different way to think about ourself so I'll talk about the five layers real quick so the first one is your body your physical self right the bones of the blood the tissues the part we see the next part is mental aspect so body mind right the mental your mind emotions all that stuff and then he's got body mind spirit he divides spirit into three categories and I think this is the interesting part so we have our physical body our mental body our energetic body because we're you know from a quantum perspective we are made of energy so that's a whole nother way of interpreting and seeing ourselves we have an informational body which is our knowing but we know information so you know there's a lot of stuff even though there's stuff stored but information isn't just data it's bigger than that so there's an informational body and then at the end the center of that is the seat of the consciousness right so it's our conscious it's our essence so we're going to do a little meditation using that framework so it's really just a way to understand how our whole self I think so often with diabetes we only think of the body but there's a lot more to us right and so we're going to um oh sorry Kelly which one panic anxiety 9-1-1 that's a sympathetic nervous system yep so you always think of that sympathetic is like I sympathize with I want to run away and parasympathetic PA alright it's kind of paralyzed which is relaxed and you know really not moving so sympathetic parasympathetic you can look those up um I do hi Della so we're going to get started okay so we're going to use dr.

Anup Kumar's second mind medicine his anatomy of the body of the self as a way to sort of think about ourselves a little bit differently so let's um we've got a lot more people with us now than when we started so let's kind of regather so I want you to again imagine in the cloud above you all the folks that are here together or you know people who live with diabetes who have diabetes in their life so we understand each other's stresses challenges the things we face we get it like you never understand that till you meet the first time you meet somebody who has diabetes when you've been diagnosed it's just amazing because they get it they just understand so we're in a group just like that there's many of us online together I like to imagine just a cloud of people or up together our spirits our voices because you're all listening to me and I'm speaking and that in itself creates a group so in that group right we can do more than we can do alone so it's a safe place is a place where we get each other it's a place where you can feel supported so as we gather for the rest of this meditation you can just lean back get comfortable close your eyes take a few deep breaths and relax there's nothing you need to do right now there's no right or wrong way to do this you just need to listen and relax be open be curious and know that during this time we're gifting our bodies with calming hormones we're lowering our blood pressure or increasing circulation we're doing things and even if you don't know how you're doing it by the fact we're shifting into a parasympathetic state it happens you don't have to really know so we'll gather let's do some deep breathing again we'll do a few more of the polyvagal breathing so that is count of four in through your nose count of eight out through your nose when you breathe in and out through your nose like that it actually stimulates your vagus nerve which helps get you from a fight-or-flight busy worry to a parasympathetic goodness heal restore you know that's where your body can say okay you know we're not in a battle so I can take my resources and turn them in inward and repair things and fix things and smooth things over that's what we need okay so we'll do about four of those breaths so we'll breathe into the count of four you ready one two three four and out two three four five six seven eight in two three four and out two three four five six seven eight in two three four out two three four five six seven eight relax your shoulders soften everything one last big breath in two three four and out two three four five six seven eight notice your body soften relax let go surrender and be open open to healing repeat our intention for tonight that we have peace that we find acceptance and that we come together tonight for the greatest good so I'm going to say a few affirmations just repeat them silently in your head or if you want you can say them out loud hmm I am safe I am breathing I am okay I am whole I am worthy I am enough I am learning I am becoming I am peaceful and all those things are true breathe in deeply and as we explore these five levels of the body from dr.

Kumar I'll start with our physical body first I'll just name some different parts and as we go through I want you to feel that part of you that I mentioned from the inside not the surface often we think of the outside I want you to actually go within where it's dark where there's no light where these organs live feel them from the inside as I mentioned the area notice that expanding filling getting full and then we'll offer loving kindness to that area so as we start move inside your rib cage to your heart feel your heart beating in your chest imagine your heart expanding growing each contraction strong and rhythmic offer loving kindness to your heart and we thank your heart for beating continuously next move your attention to your liver it's in the right upper quadrant just below your ribs feel inside in the darkness imagine the area swelling growing infused with blood perfectly functioning perfectly healing offer loving kindness to this part of yourself and we thank the liver for its work remain inside your torso and move your attention under your back ribs above your waistline or your kidneys breathe into this area imagine the dark wet warmth and imagine your kidneys swell as blood rushes through them cleaning healing repairing offer loving kindness to your kidneys for the work that they do thank you to the kidneys for being part of yourself now move into your lower abdomen to your digestive tract your stomach your intestines your pancreas all these areas working together mysteriously automatically without your instruction as you breathe feel the space inside your abdomen expand and contract notice slow easy waves rolling through your abdomen offer loving kindness to these organs and we thank the digestion for providing us nutrition immunity and many other good emotional emotional chemicals travel down now inside both of your lower extremities notice your legs from the inside out give the muscles in your legs permission to let go give the blood and fluid flowing through your legs permission to come back easily and effortlessly to your torso offer loving kindness to your legs and feet thank them for their efforts to carry you around through the day move next to your upper extremities imagine your inside your forearms your upper arms your elbows and wrists into your hands look around at the musculature the blood vessels the fascia and tendons relax and let these areas become loose and receptive blood easily flowing with nutrition hydration and immune products offer loving kindness to your arms and hands and thank them for their service to diligently care for the rest of the body next move to your neck and throat area swallow gently imagine yourself inside your throat feel the warm air moving past you feel a swelling and puffing up as this area expands to allow air to easily move through relax the area of the muscles so your throat is gentle offer loving kindness to your throat and your voice we offer thanks for everything that happens in our throat next move to your brain the information center of your body take a deep breath let your scalp relax let your eyes relax let everything inside your skull soften offer loving kindness to your brain to the circuitry the energy and electricity and we thank the brain for doing its work tirelessly 24-7 and finally move our attention to our eyes take a deep breath relax the muscles between your eyebrows the small muscles around your eyes imagine the back of your retina puffing up as blood infuses easily smoothly bringing healing and clear vision to every part of your eye offer loving kindness for the work that your eyes do and thank your eyes for guiding you daily on your journey take a deep breath relax and notice what it feels like to be in your body just feel your body notice where it contacts what you're sitting or lying on notice your clothing notice the temperature of your skin we'll move to the next layer of the mental body so place your awareness in your thoughts most often we think of our thoughts inside of our head I invite you to imagine your thoughts on a movie screen inside your head what are you actually thinking about right now are you here are you listening to my voice have you drifted off what's your mental body doing right now how is your mood just notice notice what's going on with your mind and your emotions and there's no judgment or right or wrong it just is sit back and notice notice your mental body does your mental body have any residence or location in your physical body do you notice a connection between what's going on inside your head and any physical sensation in your body once again nothing right or wrong but just notice after our mental body we'll go to our energetic body this is a little bit different so we'll take a different approach sometimes to feel our energetic body if it's not something we've done it takes a little bit of focus so I want you to put your attention to your hands and just think about your hands feel your hands I want you to feel the life inside your hands can you imagine movement at a cellular level can you picture blood flowing through the vessels you might feel tingling or warmth a buzzing maybe you can feel the weight of your hands and this takes some practice sometimes sometimes it's very subtle when you start but if we just focus and we feel the life in our hands you can sometimes feel the energy we'll do that same practice in our chest move your attention to your heart and feel the life pumping inside your chest relax notice what does your heart feel like can you feel the energy that's making it beat do you feel a warmth the tingling any other sensation just notice the energy in your heart next notice the energy in your abdomen once again turn inward and just sense the life that's going on inside you without even thinking about it or knowing about it everything inside your abdomen is moving at a cellular level at an organ level at a muscular level see if you can tap in and notice that that energy again it might feel like a tingling a rippling maybe it's just the knowledge that things are moving in there see if you can spend time noticing that energy in your abdomen much of our emotions come from our abdomen it's a source of truth our abdomen might give us information they have a gut feeling you know something in your gut see if you can tap into that sensation as we did with the hands move your awareness to your arms and legs see if you can feel the life inside your extremities energy moving back and forth chemical reactions happening energy traveling through the neurons of your extremities bringing information from your brain to every part of your body what does it feel like to be alive inside of your body linger here just notice and then move your awareness back to your head imagine and notice pay attention to the energy in your brain millions and millions of small electrons firing neurons exchanging information your brain is abuzz with life and energy and activity just relax maybe feel it does your scalp tingle a bit maybe you imagine sparks behind your eyes notice the energy that is you from energy that you might feel with the shiver up your spine to the energy at the smallest subatomic particles of you that make you who you are next we'll go to our informational body this one again takes some practice but it's there I think you'll find it familiar your informational body is deep inside maybe in your stomach you might feel it different places for different people your informational body is quiet it speaks in whispers it's that small voice that talks to you that assimilates everything that you've done in your world it's telling you something that you may need to know what do you need is it telling you that you need to be seen to be heard to do something it's a quiet knowing inside that requires no one else to tell you this I'm going to be quiet for a few minutes just a minute to let you kind of sit in this space what I want you to notice are images pictures ideas and they'll likely be fleeting and quiet and you may not even know if they've for certain happened but what information does your body want you to know about we'll be quiet for a minute and listen what your body tell you actually the first word I had was appreciation I'm so appreciative of all you that was the very strong word that came to me and we can do these little exercises anytime so we felt our physical body we noticed our mental body our mind and emotions we began to learn about our energetic body we listened for our informational body and the last is the seat of the consciousness so this is the part of you that's been doing all this work that noticed your body that paid attention to your thoughts that felt the energy that was a receiver of the information it's a part of you that is true at the very core and root of you it's the part of you that is aware of all of what's going on it's the part of you that only you know and it's the part of you that you wish other people knew about because if they knew about they would understand you so much better it's your truth your essence it's your consciousness so take a breath we'll sit here for a minute see if any of those different levels of the body resonate with you see how you feel see what your body wants you to know receive the healing of this quiet and gentle time relax from your level of your seat of consciousness you can instruct your body systems to work together for your highest good to bring you healing to enjoy this parasympathetic state of rest and restore restoration set an intention for your body to go and fix what needs fixing that may be for the rest of this day and this evening you'll set aside worry and stress and focus on repair and rebuilding this maintenance work is important once again repeat in your mind or allowed these affirmations I am safe I am breathing I am okay I am whole I am worthy I am enough I am learning I am becoming I am peaceful thanks take a few more breaths relax enjoy notice appreciate the wonder and marvel of your body that it can heal itself when given time and attention you start to become aware of your body again move your hands and fingers notice the energy perhaps flowing through your legs up your spine across your scalp take a breath blink open your eyes and come back to the present moment I hope this was healing and peaceful for you I hope your emotions make a little more sense I hope you are at peace thank you all so much for joining me I hope that you found some peace in your emotions maybe some understanding maybe a little clarity maybe something to think about and that those things can bring you healing and peace take care of all my diabeties deep breath together I'll see you soon be well