Hello and welcome to one more of my insights.
This insight is on freedom and how it relates to my personal life.
First I would like to say that this exploration of freedom is an ongoing work,
Never ending.
I think we all have some amount of awareness of what freedom means.
But today I'm talking about something very subtle,
Which is desire.
What I see in myself is that sometimes I have a desire that relates to my partner,
Wife.
If that desire doesn't have the outcome that I'm expecting,
I have suffering.
That desire sometimes runs in an automatic way.
I'm not really aware of it,
It's just happening.
I'm not conscious of it and I go through all the process of having the desire,
Not having the outcome.
Then I'm trapped in the suffering and then I become aware.
I become aware because I'm suffering.
This is not a path of freedom because I'm attached and suffering the consequences,
The desire.
In many religions they talk about this,
The desire to get away from it.
There's peace.
But here the pattern I see is that because I'm not so aware of it,
When the desire emerges my mind automatically wants to have an outcome to that desire.
So I manipulate unconsciously or sometimes consciously my desired outcome.
But to manipulate your surrounding for a desire,
It's not being free.
I'm just drawing my own prison and becoming slave to it.
And putting people that I love inside my own prison of desire.
This is not a healthy path.
So I've become through the years more and more aware of the subtleness of desire and I've learned to let it go and also letting go of the outcome.
And what happens in that moment when the desire,
First to be aware of that desire and then to let it go,
What happens is that a greater empathy for me and others rises.
And the release of conflict,
There's no more conflict because I don't have the expectation of something or an outcome that should come.
And that creates a sense of presence of now and freedom.
And this is the essence of this insight for me is first to become aware of the desire,
Then to release it,
To have no condition or expectation of that outcome.
And in that moment to be very present and letting the deeper love come out.
And when that deeper love comes out,
I don't feel anymore any blockage or suffering.
And I know that all of us have a desire for freedom.
And I think the ultimate freedom is death because in that moment we have no alternative but to let go.
But I think awareness can create a very similar sensation to the highest level of letting go,
If you understand what I mean.
Because in death we must let go of everything without any other option.
But here we have the option to let go and still be present.
And it's also an exercise that will prepare us for the moment of death.
But also it will allow us to be free in the moment and allowing that everything around us be free of an outcome.
Of course when we have a conscious desire and we are very aware of it,
It can happen and also can be joyful for everybody involved in that desire.
But there has to be the light of awareness for it to be joyful to everyone.
Even if the outcome is not the one you expected.
So imagine that I have a desire to go to a movie and my wife doesn't want to go.
And then I ask her to please go.
And then we arrive to the movie and that movie is not playing all the time that she can be in the movie so we have to choose a new one.
So the outcome was totally different.
But because I'm very attached to that outcome I say no I don't want to see this other movie,
I don't like that director,
Blah blah blah.
And so I ruin the moment and we are back to square one.
But this simple example can be applied to many many levels of life and of course many others that are more intimate.
And I think the most simple solution is to become aware of desire.
And in the exercise of awareness we become more empathic,
Loving,
Understanding and we can see through the other person.
And we stop suffering with a very simple solution to overcome and letting go of desire.
By being aware.
So awareness is key.
And that's how I've been evolving in this ongoing process that I have.
And I wanted to share that with you and also thank you for following my channel and I wish you a beautiful day of freedom.
Blessings.
Thank you.
Thank you.
