Okay,
Let's talk about anger.
I record all those happy or deep and nourishing meditations,
But I think that I have this angry side.
I experience frustration,
Anger and a feeling of being violated somehow,
Offended and the need to affirm and establish my truth,
Defend myself,
Proclaim what is important for me.
And I want to dive into it now,
Because I am experiencing it over just a very,
Very minor and stupid thing.
And I feel that this anger has a right to be.
.
.
There is a bird.
I like those birds in the background.
Yeah,
This anger in me,
It has a right to be,
And it feels very uncomfortable,
But it is somehow trying to get something out of me.
What is it?
What is it?
Is it my truth or my sadness,
The affirmation of being me?
I am angry because something is not going how I think it should go,
And someone is not behaving how I think they should behave.
And I think that it is obvious that I have the truth here,
But maybe it is not so obvious.
Maybe another person has their own universe.
And in their universe,
The simple mistake that we're talking about with them is an unfortunate circumstance that they didn't intend to cause.
They didn't for sure intend to cause any frustration in me.
But I am frustrated,
As frustrated as I would have been if they created this on purpose.
So maybe not as frustrated,
But the intensity of emotion is high,
Even though I understand I have no one to blame.
So there is this disagreement with reality.
The reality being that someone is making me uncomfortable while following their life path.
They are in some situation where they need to give me some solution to a problem,
And they give me a bad solution,
Which creates more problems.
That's what I'm angry about.
But why?
Because they have made me overwhelmed,
Or this truly seemed a right solution for them.
They were completely innocent and pure when they did it.
Still,
Those mistakes and misunderstandings,
They disrupt the reality that I have,
The comfort of my reality,
And they disrupt the trust that I have in that person.
So this is the anatomy of anger,
Broken down into pieces.
And what do I see inside when I look?
A child in a tantrum,
Trying to get what they want.
I deserve this.
This is my truth.
I need it.
I have the right for it.
And I give this protest to you,
Reality,
Life,
My neighbor,
My friend,
The other human being.
I give this to you to address,
Because see me here.
I am in the right.
For me,
In this moment,
It is not important that you are in the wrong.
It is not the destructive anger that I am trying to punish someone for being wrong.
But it is the anger that cries to be seen.
See me,
Hear me.
And maybe,
Just maybe,
If I put even this out there,
Even this flow of words,
I may just a little bit be solaced and seen and heard.
Let us let the anger be,
And the fire of it be utilized to warm up things that are in stagnation.
Look around to your life and see what is in stagnation.
Here my audio blog is in stagnation with no recent updates.
Here you come,
A recent update.
An update all about anger.
It is completely imperfect.
And I'm not sure how it is going to help you guys.
But maybe if you are angry and you have joined me on this journey where I am processing my anger,
You can observe how it is shifting within me from a power that I am not able to contain,
And that is disturbing me and creating unhappiness in me,
To the observation of a beautiful fire raging and calling to be seen.
And when I do see it,
I am not it.
I am not my anger.
But I see that my being accommodates for this anger,
And I can now take it in my hands as a flame of energy,
Flow of energy,
And put it somewhere where I can be expressive.
Thank you for witnessing this journey,
And until next time.
