I've lived away from France for almost 40 years,
And for most of that time I believed I had left behind the patterns of my lineage,
But in a recent healing session I was brought into the quiet presence of my mother,
Her mother and her sisters,
And I realised I was still carrying pieces of their story.
Some of what I found surprised me.
There was grief,
Yes,
But there was also pride,
Love and strength that had waited a long time to be seen.
In that space I allowed myself to receive their blessings,
And I let go of the responsibility I'd carried to heal what was never mine to fix.
This meditation is a doorway to do the same,
A space to reconnect,
Receive what is yours and gently release what no longer belongs.
Begin by coming home to your breath.
Let it slow,
Deepen,
Soften.
Feel the back of your body supported,
The belly relaxed,
The space around you becoming quiet.
A couple of more breaths,
Softly inhaling through the nose,
Gently exhaling through the mouth.
Imagine yourself sitting inside an open temple,
Deep in a forest.
The light filters gently through the trees.
There is birdsong in the distance.
The air is calm,
Clean,
Alive.
This is a sacred place.
You are safe here.
You are held.
You are watched over.
As you rest in this place of stillness,
Imagine a path gently opening before you.
It may appear as a ribbon of light,
A soft mist,
Or simply a feeling of invitation.
This path does not lead outward.
It leads inward,
Into the memory of your blood and bone.
Follow it gently and allow it to guide you deeper into connection.
Allow a presence to arrive.
The first may be your mother or someone who carried that role.
There is no right way.
You do not need to see her clearly,
Just feel.
Let her be joined by others,
Her mother,
Her sisters,
Any women whose lives shaped yours even silently.
Feel their presence.
Each one carries a different story,
A different thread of emotion.
Notice what you sense without needing to name it.
As you sit with these presences,
Know that not everything they bring is weight or sorrow.
Some may carry pride in you or a strength that was never spoken.
Others may hold love or a blessing that waited a long time to be seen.
Allow yourself to feel the whole spectrum,
The grief,
Yes,
But also the grace.
And from this place,
Allow yourself to see more clearly.
There are threads that are yours,
Woven from your own life,
Your own becoming.
But there are also threads that were handed to you quietly,
Silently,
Perhaps without you or the others even knowing.
This is the moment to notice the difference,
To honor what belongs to you and gently lay down what does not.
Some of what you carry is not yours.
Some of their pain became part of your path,
But it was never meant to stay.
Gently with love,
Allow any weight,
Guilt,
Grief or pressure to rise from your body now.
Offer it back,
Not in rejection,
But in reverence.
You are freeing them as much as you are freeing yourself.
And now let yourself receive their pride,
Their strength,
Their love,
Their blessing.
Let these words land in your body if they feel true for you.
I carry the gold,
Not the grief.
I choose what continues through me.
I am the mother I needed and the one I choose to be.
Let's repeat these words again a second time.
I carry the gold,
Not the grief.
I choose what continues through me.
I am the mother I needed and the one I choose to be.
Sit with those words for a moment.
Let them soften into you.
Notice how they feel in your body,
In your heart,
In your breath.
In the very core of your being.
These are not just words,
They are choices,
They are seeds of a new story.
Let them root in you,
So that as you step forward,
You carry them not only in thought,
But in the marrow of your being.
And now,
From this place of integration,
It is time to thank the mother line.
You may bow,
Place a hand on your heart or simply feel a quiet goodbye.
The doorway closes now,
But the connection remains.
Come back to your breath,
To your body,
To your space.
You are the root and the bloom.
You are the continuation.
You are free.
Know that what you have just experienced is deep healing work.
Be gentle with yourself as you re-enter your day.
Drink water,
Rest if you need to.
And allow the shifts to settle in their own time.
Carry forward only what nourishes you.
Leave the rest in the keeping of your ancestors.
And when you are ready,
Open your eyes.
