Healing childhood pelvic shame.
Giving yourself a moment to orient into the space and noticing what you're going to need during the space and after the space to really self-mother,
Really tend,
Really acknowledge yourself.
I'm right here with you as you pause this audio and grab everything that you need.
And I'm also right here with you as you begin to settle into stillness and soften and do whatever you need to feel nourished,
To feel like you can unfurl a little more gently into the space and feel held.
Continuing to notice the space around you orienting into space.
If you've been in my meditations before then you know the invitation is to always orient into the space by scanning the space really slowly and noticing what's around you,
Behind you,
Above you,
In front of you.
And as you do so,
Noticing if anything invites you in,
Maybe an item or some kind of speck of dust even or inside the room or outside the room or maybe you're outside and you find something that feels nourishing outside and you continue to breathe with this orientation,
Continue to look around you for as long as you need while also finding an item that you can return back to as and when drawing this space together.
Continuing to orient our softening into the space.
Softening the body into the space where it can.
No need to force calmness.
No need to get it right,
Just arrive.
Notice the support beneath you,
The ground holding your body,
The breath moving without effort Just notice this quiet rhythm of being here in the now.
Invitation to bring eyes to a close or remain neutral with any item that you found in your space.
Continue to notice the breath moving in and out and as you do so see if you can bring a gentle awareness down towards the belly.
Softening the belly.
And lower belly.
The hips.
The root of the body.
Bringing awareness now if it feels welcome down to the centre of the body.
The power of S.
Notice what happens as your attention arrives here within the pelvis.
Perhaps there's tenderness,
Maybe discomfort.
Maybe there's just numbness,
And perhaps nothing at all.
All responses are welcome.
Witnessing you in this space and holding you here as you continue to remain present with whatever's arising.
Many women learn very early on to disconnect from this part of themselves.
So just noticing what's arising for you.
Many women hide or tighten their space or protect it.
Some feel embarrassed by it.
Others feel unsafe within it.
Simply because messages were absorbed before we really fully understood them.
Continue to breathe in the body and notice.
Continue to remain with the item with eyes open if that feels nourishing or continue to have eyes to reclose.
Turning inward.
We're going to notice what's arising as we think about the pelvis.
As we think about the pelvis in the context of childhood.
And messages that we may have received.
Messages about shame,
Modesty,
Silence,
Danger.
Cleanliness,
Sexuality,
Being too much,
Being too bad or naughty.
Messages when being looked at,
Messages about touch,
Messages about being female.
And often the young body,
It simply adapts quietly,
Not necessarily with any words.
So just noticing what's coming up sensation-wise,
Rather than labelling anything in this moment.
Continuing to breathe slowly into the body,
And as you exhale,
Softening into the arms of the Great Mother below you,
That deep feminine,
Unwavering presence that exists there,
Holding you as your pelvis lies on the air.
Yeah,
I'm right here with you.
Witnessing you in their space,
Holding you.
As you exhale.
With the next breaths.
Imagine softening your awareness towards the younger version of yourself,
The child that you once were.
We're not here to analyse,
We're not here to do anything more than just meet her gently,
Perhaps you can imagine her clearly,
Perhaps only a feeling arises.
Either way,
Just noticing what comes up for you when you think of her.
Notice her posture,
Her energy.
What she learned about her body.
Notice her,
Notice her in the space and continue to breathe here.
As you continue to think about her in the space.
The invitation is to quietly ask.
This question.
What did you come to believe about yourself here?
As you think of her.
What did you come to believe about yourself?
As you think of her.
Continue to pause and allow whatever arises to arise.
Allow it just to be in the space.
Perhaps she learned to stay small or to disconnect,
To stay vigilant,
To hide sensation,
To suppress emotion,
To leave the body to stay safe.
I'm right here with you.
Perhaps she learned that her body belonged more to the world.
Unto herself.
Continue to remain curious and gentle with yourself.
Continue to be with your breaths,
A holding of Mother Earth below.
Our clever bodies protect us in intelligent ways.
Remain curious in this space and begin to imagine,
And this is an imitation if it feels aligned,
To be with your younger self,
Imagining her sitting beside you.
Imagining not correcting her,
Not rushing her into healing anything.
Imagine giving her presence.
Imagine being with her and continuing to remain with her.
In this presence and offering her this acknowledgement that her body was never shameful.
That her softening was never wrong.
Remain with her and the offer is to continue to be with support.
Of her through some reminders,
And these reminders are that her body was never shameful,
Reminding her that her softness was never wrong.
Reminding her that her instincts deserve protection.
In reminding her that.
She deserves love.
And that she's here with you to connect back to herself because she's worthy of receiving love.
Noticing how your body responds to these words.
I'm right here with you if emotion arises,
If resistance occurs,
If grief needs space or if relief starts to move through you and right here with you for it all,
Holding you and witnessing you in this.
Reminding you that everything here belongs.
Invitation is to bring one hand to the pelvis or the lower belly if that feels safe for you.
And begin to feel that warmth,
That touch,
That pelvis.
At lower belly.
Moving towards the young root within you.
Noticing this warmth and tending not demanding any openness but only offering safety.
And as you do so imagine this younger self slowly realising that she no longer needs to carry shame alone and that the adult body she has moved into is beginning to hear her.
Is protecting her now,
Is honoring her.
Continue to breathe,
Continue to be,
And just remain curious with sensations that are arising The invitation is to reflect now and moving forward out of this space into your own space.
Around what would change if you no longer related to your pelvis through any shame that might arise.
Maybe there is no shame.
But if there is,
Just noticing how that reflection question arises for you.
This question of what would you change if you no longer needed to relate through any level of shame with your pelvis.
And with this question allow space for your body to answer with its own language,
With sensation,
Or image,
Emotion,
Or silence.
As we begin to close together,
Imagine wrapping the younger version of yourself in softness.
There's no need to.
.
.
There's no need to erase anything.
We're just here to notice.
Her in this space.
We're here to end the abandonment and let her know that we won't leave her behind.
We're taking her with us.
Take one final breath into the pelvis where your hands may remain.
And as you exhale allow the body to rest in the possibility that healing begins not through force but through meeting yourself through this tenderness.
Continue to be here for as long as you need.
Notice I'm with you for as long as you need.
And when you are ready,
Begin to slowly return into your space with so much more love,
Witnessing you,
Holding you,
Always.
