Releasing Drama & The Voices In Our Head

Where does drama come from? What is it exactly? What are these whispers that keep the drama circling inside of us never letting us rest? Is there any value in drama? Or can it be let go completely? Let's dive in and explore what it means to live a drama-free life.

Please note: This track may include some explicit language.

Transcript

So today we're going to talk about releasing drama.

Releasing drama mostly from our mind.

There's a lot of different kinds of drama that can happen whether we are telling a story to other people about our own lives,

Whether we're talking about other people,

But it's the drama within our minds that I really want to talk about.

I love Joss Whedon.

I'm a Buffy the Vampire Slayer nut and an angel and Firefly and all those kind of great shows by Joss Whedon and one of his shows called Angel with David Boer,

Boer and Anz,

I don't know how to say his name.

So these shows were all about the supernatural.

Of course what's interesting about the supernatural is it's a very clever way of describing perhaps something that's more truthful than we can look directly at.

If I just tell you a story that this is the way it is that's very hard to bring in but if I create a mythology around it I can bring that story into my consciousness and I can work with it.

There was this one show,

Angel had gone back to this Hyperion hotel and Angel had lived for hundreds of years because he was a vampire.

In this hotel years ago when he had first visited there,

There was a woman there who was really struggling and the whole hotel was really struggling and there was all this drama all the time and there was fighting and everything just went to went to hell it was really bad.

What was happening is there was a paranoia demon in the hotel and what this would do is it would whisper in your ear.

It would whisper,

Do you know what they're saying about you?

Did you see how that guy looked at you?

You know what?

This is what he's probably thinking.

All of a sudden all this fight and rage would rise up and there'd be a battle right in the middle of the thing or if somebody was struggling in their life see the paranoia demon fed on emotion so he would just go and he would take your fear and he would repeat it to you and he would change the story just a little bit so that you could circle and circle and circle in this and then you would be enslaved to him and he could feed on you for decades.

This is a really creepy way to start the talk I recognize that but it's just a story but it's an interesting model for sometimes how our mind works.

Something happens and all of a sudden a voice comes into our head and that voice might be our parents it might be our own fear it might be something we heard on TV it could be anything.

I remember when I was about 13 years old I walked into a convenience store and there was a mug there and the mugs it was all all the zodiac signs and I'm a Virgo and it said Virgos tend to fall asleep during sex and make great bus drivers.

Well at that time I was extremely self-conscious desperately not wanting to be a nerd it was in the 80s not wanting to be a goody two shoes Greece completely destroyed that for us and I really wanted to be cool and interesting and sexy and all these things.

That mug created a whisper in my mind so the next thing you know I'm doing anything I can to not be a goody two-shoes.

I am drinking and doing drugs and doing everything I possibly could because of a mug.

Just I mean maybe I had some other karmic stuff going on but that mug was the voice in my head I will never fall asleep during sex I will make a good bus driver I'm cool I'm I'm not like that.

Someone could say something to you and that one phrase could start to roll in your mind and that's what we do right if someone says something that you can't believe they said it you actually walk away repeating it in your mind you actually repeat it with their voice over and over again and then later it's like it's in your program and something happens and this this this phrase comes up and it's like it takes you and it starts to spin you and now you're lost now you're spinning in a drama it's not real and the reason I start with the angel story is because I actually think this is really serious I don't actually see the world in terms of spirits and stuff like that like that's not my story that's not my reality I don't disagree with it it's just not what I see but I don't think we take it seriously enough I don't think we take the dramas and I'm gonna say it like the nonsense that we put ourselves through I don't think we take it seriously enough we waste our life playing out scenarios in our head over and over and over again scenarios from the past scenarios from the future and we don't live we don't actually live in this moment it's almost like we weren't even trained how to be in this moment right now so we just play out these dramas that aren't even happening and we think it's normal and I think this is really really important to look at so first I'm going to define what I mean by drama a drama is a story we tell in order to get an emotional response and normally it's a negative emotional response if I tell you a funny story because I want to make you laugh or I want to lighten the mood or I want to make myself laugh or whatever that's not what I call drama I call drama whatever story I tell so that you you hate that guy too and you realize and you kind of feel the rage that I have inside of me yeah like I want you I want to incite that inside of you or I want to incite the sadness inside of you that I feel that's drama and you can always tell because if you're telling a story and it's looping and you're feeling worse and worse and worse and worse that's when we have to check ourselves and go hold on a minute what's going on so other reasons we want to talk about this is one these dramas keep us circling but they don't just keep us circling on the spot we circle down it gets worse our cortisol levels are raised we get sick our bodies get sick we get tired we get stressed out our joints hurt the amount of effects that this kind of stress causes and again the story that we're telling now is not current what it happened once maybe what could happen maybe maybe but it's not real and we are destroying our bodies circling in these emotional cortisol loops I completely destroying our bodies and our life and our thoughts like is that really what I want to spend today doing and we have normalized it and I don't know what part Hollywood has played in this I was raised watching soap operas Young and the Restless General Hospital what's a good drama we got to find out what happened to Victor can you believe what Victor said to her oh my god let's talk about that for three months like we were almost raised to think this was completely normal I'm gonna take this little tiny story I'm gonna spread it out over a year I'm gonna call it a soap opera but this is what we do with stuff and the other real challenge is that when we're telling stories to ourselves or to each other point is to raise the emotions that's why we're doing it if it was a flat story if it was just if I'm just telling you the facts that's not a drama a drama you know we've talked about the drama triangle that there is a persecutor a savior and a victim drama emotional response well if I am perpetually either telling dramas to each other telling them to myself we cannot think straight as long as emotions are online and this is a real thing I remember years ago lots of you guys have met my friend Nelda she's very intuitive woman and when I was sitting on her couch complaining and crying the blues about some guy I was dating and she's very patient and she'd made us coffee and we were sitting there and we're drinking a coffee and I'm just like oh and then you know what I just don't know and like what about this and doing what we do because I'm a real romantic so I can get pretty involved and she just really quietly looked at me because she doesn't do drama at all I don't think I've known Nelda for 25 years I don't think I've ever seen her fall into a drama triangle and she just looked at me and she just said you know I think we'll have a better discussion about this later when you're sober and of course she wasn't talking about drugs or alcohol or anything like that she was talking about emotional sobriety and at the time I'm like you know what you're talking about what I'm talking about is real this is how it is this is you know this is my reality I'm not being drunk on emotions this is real this is being alive this is being human you know and I didn't say all that to her I just said it inside my head it's like well you'd be different if you were in a relationship and I had all these millions of comebacks and I never actually said out loud but I had them in my head but the reality is as long as our emotions are high we cannot think stream and I'm not talking about emotions as positive feedback mechanisms from the world that's not what I'm talking about I'm not talking about someone did something and anger rose inside of me to protect myself that's an important emotion there's a lot of power there something happens and I feel sad that's an important emotion but it ends there I feel sad I do something about it life continues no story gets attached to it it's an emotion and we move on this is when a story gets attached to the emotion so that we can continue to feel that emotion forever because one of the challenges is in our society we don't really believe in healing not really we believe that whatever has happened to us we will live with for the rest of our lives and obviously there are people who are exceptions to that but as a general rule you go to the doctor they give you something well how long do I have to take it oh the rest of your life you go to a psychiatrist you're like well how long should I take these pills well you'll probably be on them the rest of your life this trauma that well you'll probably deal with that the rest of your life and there are some really unspeakable traumas that do live with us for most of our life but we also can heal from a lot of things we can heal like it's a very different belief in the Eastern world you know I remember one time it was a story about heroes and how in the Western psychology a hero always it's almost like you can always see all their scars like I have like Clint Eastwood in my head you know in this weathered face showing all the battles all the years out on the prairies and that's the sign of the hero because you can see all the scars you never really heal you're always a little angry whereas in the East there is often a very different perception that but it's renewal that matters and indigenous cultures and renewal is what matters that we can be new all the time we can heal our mind we can use pranayama we can use yoga we can use philosophy we can use community we can do things that actually allow us to heal be in the present moment and continue living it's a very different philosophy and it's really important when we try to look at the drama in our life which do I believe in do I believe that we can actually heal from our past or do I think I will carry this for the rest of my life and therefore tell the story for the rest of my life so I want to talk about three different kinds of drama the first one is telling our personal stories to other people now when we are healing there is a journey to be taken if there is a story that we have had hidden for some reason because it's too painful it's unspeakable it's just too much maybe we've never even found anyone that was safe enough for us to open up with then telling that story is really important this is not drama this is releasing a trauma this is actually sharing something coming out that has been kept in the shadows that is very different and it is possible that while that wound is healing we will repeat that story in many different ways we might tell this story to the first person we tell it to in a very very raw space and then maybe later we tell our partner and then maybe we tell our children and maybe we talk to psychiatrists about it but maybe it's still not fully healed and we go to somatic therapists and then maybe we try other things and we keep trying but we keep turning the dial towards healing so there is a time that when we're telling stories over and over again they're all varying degrees of healing and that's not what we're talking about here.

The key though is to watch ourselves are we telling the story the same every time?

Is it exactly the same story the 30th time as the 20th time?

That's when we have to start watching because now we're just telling a story we're just invoking or evoking emotions in another person maybe we're trying to explain to you why my ex-husband is something or I'm trying to explain to you this experience that happened to me and I want you to know that you know I was a real victim there it was really bad but I've told the story so many times I'm barely even attached to it.

We have to really ask ourselves why am I telling the story?

Why am I invoking this drama again?

Because it's obviously an upsetting story it's not a happy story it's not a funny story why are we doing it?

And what's interesting is sometimes it's like if you imagine this idea that you know there's some kind of mechanism in our mind that almost whispers oh yeah look at that story let's tell that story it's almost like if I can tell you the story and you also think I am justified in how I feel about it aha see it's okay that I'm still telling myself this story because you're cool with it you agree with me right?

We're on the same page right?

What's really crazy if you hang out with people who don't engage in drama circuits first of all they can recognize when you're healing that's different but if you're telling the same story over and over again especially to the same person like I remember again it was probably Nelda that did this to me and I and I was telling a story because I'm always telling stories and she just looked at me and she said I've heard you tell this story a few times now why do you think you're still telling it?

And again you can say it in a very kind way and it really kind of stops you dead like why am I telling this story over and over and over again?

Because what's interesting is let's say for example because one of the really important things I think about releasing drama in our life is really coming to terms with our own mortality as much as I am very intrigued with immortality and living in the present moment forever and all that kind of thing Buddhists and Taoists and stuff they would definitely say some would even say that you only have X number of breaths it's a very Taoist tradition right so you don't want to do too much that way so if I actually only have X number of weeks to live there was a book actually that my friend was gonna lend me I forgot about it and it was all based on that from here on in you have X number of weeks to be on this planet how do you want to spend them?

Do you want to keep telling the same story?

Do you want to keep jumping timelines into the past?

Because you are reliving the story as you tell it always in the past what about now?

What about right now?

What's happening right now in our lives?

Why aren't we plumbing that depth?

Why aren't we talking about what's going on right now or what's possible right now?

So it's just a really interesting question to ask ourselves if we're telling a personal story for the 30th 50th time why?

Why are we spending our time doing this?

Unless we are consciously in a healing journey with it totally different but in a healing journey you will not tell the story the same I can even tell like when people come to me for counseling if they're telling the story and there's almost no emotion in it they're not in it it's almost like whatever this story is they're telling is not what's current it's actually old and it's gonna draw us it's gonna actually waste our time if I allow it because we're actually gonna talk about something that's irrelevant it's not actually what's current it's actually not what's burning inside so it can be very distracting from our lives however sometimes it's very very interesting to watch the stories that we're telling because if you believe in karma for example and I don't mean punishment I don't mean like you did something bad in your past life and that's why this is happening this that was created as a control mechanism I don't believe that's real but I do believe that we repeat patterns and I believe those energetic patterns continue regardless of what body or incarnation we're in so if we do see ourselves retelling a story over and over and over again this is very interesting this is very this you are watching your own karmic soap opera here are the players this is the victim this is the Savior this is the persecutor why am I replaying this and maybe I'm replaying it because somewhere there's an out somewhere there's something I can learn it's you study it you study it like an English student studying a book to understand the premise to understand how do we save the hero and we look at it and we go okay what if I played that out differently what if this changed what if I have to dig deeper into the stories of each of the characters in the story maybe that will help change how I tell this story because every time you change how you tell the story the loop shifts you're no longer cycling downward you're starting to cycle upward you're starting to shift you're starting to gain understanding you're starting to learn you're starting to go aha that's interesting so then suddenly as you watch yourself about to tell a story again you go okay I'm watching I'm listening your witness mind is online and you're watching the emotions you're watching the responses of other people so what is my intention here it's valuable information on our spiritual path then there's the weird thing about talking about others I was at the celebration of life on Sunday very sad and very just very upsetting it was young boy after everybody had sort of I don't know gone through the motions of what we had to do we were all standing and I was just standing in a circle with a bunch of the other kids you know in their 20s now but they're my kids friends and all of a sudden someone popped into the circle and started making fun of one of the kids that they had gone to high school with and all of a sudden they all started ganging up on this kid that wasn't even there and I was standing there thinking what a weird thing to do we're literally at a celebration of life for a young person who committed suicide believing he was completely alone in the world and all of a sudden there's eight of his friends sitting around talking about someone else completely dissing them like really like bullying this person that wasn't even there and they were all like oh you remember this one time oh my god remember this one time he did this and I was just watching them and I couldn't believe it it's like what are you doing this is the problem that we think it's okay that it's okay to judge other people that it's okay to take someone's story and blow it up and then gang up on someone who's not even there and this is a really weird thing and maybe you don't do this but talking about other people is a huge drama thing and you can hear people do it all the time and maybe they're talking about their family I'm always amazed when I hear people dissing like their own children or sometimes we're maybe talking about our parents or we're talking about the neighbor can you believe the neighbor did this the neighbor did this and then the neighbor did that and then I just you know and you're like if you're actually trying to understand your neighbor's psyche that's cool but this like hype up of emotion oh yeah and then the next person is like oh yeah then you and my neighbor did this once they people are just idiots like where in the world does this go that's of any value and again back to the whole you know why are we spending our time doing this but then we look at it what is the value of doing this why are we doing it people often ask you know and we say you got to do the work you got to do the spiritual work then they'll say well what is the work tell me what the work is or people think they're doing the work this is the work it's one thing if your neighbor's crazy and they do weird things there's all kinds of people in the world who do things we don't understand or we disagree with or we don't like we're allowed to have opinions we're allowed to say I you know I wish my neighbors didn't play their music so loud you know I can't sleep at night it's okay to not like what's going on around you it's when we repeat it why are we repeating it in genuine I'm not saying like why are you repeating it is such a loser I mean why are we repeating it are we actually frustrated with the world do we not understand why people don't care about other people do we not understand why someone didn't care about me do we feel that we don't matter do you know I'm saying to go under the story why am I telling this story why do I tell you know let's say go to the dog park later with storm and I decide to tell a story about some crazy neighbor you wouldn't believe my neighbor was doing why am I doing it and I know for me I don't talk about people very much I do talk about people but I'll talk about things that I regret if I'm nervous and if I don't know what to do if I'm feeling uncomfortable it's possible that the kids at the celebration of life always would be like this anyway but it's also possible they were just so uncomfortable they didn't know what to say next and so they just sort of fell into a old easy rat pattern and that's interesting so even sometimes if you watch yourself and you're suddenly telling stories and you're getting all excited and pissed off about something kind of look inside and say are you nervous are you uncomfortable is there something that's going on that's making you feel uncomfortable you know and this is something personally that I've been noticing myself because as I've been winding down for the summer I'm not as busy like I'm not I don't have as many irons in the fire and I'm resting more and I'm watching myself and I'm realizing I'm actually quite shy and when I'm in social situations I often will start telling stories they're not stories about other people but I'll try to be the entertainment oh I've got a story for that and I've got a story for that and then afterwards I get in my car I'm kind of exhausted and I feel kind of dumb and I'm like why did you do this like I almost get high on my own stories being the entertainment but then I have to sit there and ask myself okay why do I feel so tired and why do I feel so crappy and I realize because that's not really my nature I'm actually quite quieter than that so I'm kind of like going back in my life remembering back before I started teaching before I started sharing before I started doing counseling and remembering that woman that girl she's kind of quiet she's kind of nervous she's kind of shy but because I've been self-employed because I owned a dance studio because I've been teaching for so long I had to teach to groups and I had to teach to service clubs and I had to go and teach in hospitals and psych wards and all these things it's like I developed a personality that could just go in and do whatever I had to do but I lost myself in that personality so again it's just an interesting thing to watch ourselves and not with heavy judgment to just watch yourselves and say why am I doing that why am I talking about this other person I'm not looking for resolution do I just want to be one of the cool kids beaten up on the on somebody else's like what's what's really going on here and then we can actually go in and actually heal something inside so then I want to talk about the drama in our own mind because of course this drama thing has been really rolling my mind for the last few weeks which is why I want to talk about it but of course my frustration was in the drama I was seeing around me so then I instantly had to ask inside all right then what's what does this have to do with you and I was watching my mind I was watching my mind take very simple facts and add all kinds of fear to it all kinds of scenarios all kinds of oh my oh what if this happens what if this happens and I will sit there and disaster eyes and disaster eyes and even just add emotions to things that don't matter like even something as silly as I decided I wanted my book to come out on Friday but then I realized I had a bunch of things I had to tie up for yoga teacher training and I had to tie up some things for the the cleanse that I'm glad to do this and I do that and all these different things it's like I'll never get everything done by Friday Gina you made up the deadline yourself and then thankfully in yesterday's class you know I think Mary Beth said just release it when you get home from camping don't worry about it it was like this part of me that's like oh yeah it doesn't really matter by next year all we'll know is that it was published in 2023 that's all we'll know we won't know whether Katrina got it out before she went camping or not I had created a huge drama around when my book was released I once promised it was gonna come out June 1st oh my gosh I created that just nonsense to complete nonsense and I kind of watched myself almost like make certain things so important it's really important no it's not actually doesn't really matter at all someone might invite me out for dinner and I don't want to go and then I put all kinds of drama on oh but what if they oh what if they're upset what if they're really disappointed and then oh maybe they'll never ask me out again and blah blah blah it's like it's dinner just say no like it's just not a big deal I make drama because it's a good people pleaser thing they're unhappy oh what will happen what if I'm in relationship and my partner does something and I don't like it oh I don't want to say anything because then we're gonna get upset and then oh my god and then what if and what if and what if and what if and what if and it says that you don't say something that is a hundred percent created drama in my head just say something and see what happens next then say something else so it's a very interesting thing to look into our own mind and ask is there anything whispering to us sending us into a spin sending us into the oh I can't do that and sometimes even we can get all bent out of shape say about something like money oh I don't know what's gonna happen oh my god where are we gonna live and I don't know I don't know I don't know this is a real thing having enough money for rent is a real issue but if we go into a drama swirl about it do you think we're gonna find any solution we can't think straight when emotions are online we either are gonna feel or we're gonna think a real emotion I don't mean some secondary emotion caught up in some drama in your head I mean a real heartfelt emotion so even if you're struggling with money the best thing we can do is come to a sober mind all right what are the facts let's sit down put on a piece of paper okay so now what are our options if we don't stay sober about it we will never find a solution and all we do is circle and circle and circle and circle and oh my god and now you want to meet all my kids and I just and you can't ever find a solution and I'm not saying we don't take our problems seriously we do we take our problems seriously enough to have a sober mind about them or else we never solve them this is really really important that's what I mean I think that this drama is the core of all of our issues everybody here is beautifully intelligent we all have a critical mind we all have a sober mind inside of us if we can live there we get to start walking in a straight line we get to actually start walking towards what we want to accomplish in our lives we get to start doing fun things we did a lot of talks here about David Hawkins power versus force his map of consciousness and if you're new to that it basically he looked at the different levels of consciousness that we tended to live in and on the very lowest level this was shame and to understand that if we are resonating in shame this isn't a this isn't a blame thing we often land there from very difficult lives if we are resonating in a place of shame we see the whole world through shame that's that's our drama something happens and it's like I should it's my fault I shouldn't have done that I know oh my god I can't believe it all that's the story that's the flavor of the drama and if you're stuck in shame there's nowhere you can go and then we pop up to guilt and maybe our dramas are guilt-infused so oh my god it's all my fault and you know what that's your fault you know what that over there that's his fault you know what he should have done that and he shouldn't have done that and it's all their fault their fault their fault their fault guilt maybe we're stuck in fear and we're circling in fear and all of our dramas are but like it but you wouldn't believe it but what if and I don't know and oh my god and I can't I just don't even know what's gonna happen next and you know if that's the flavor of your drama we are stuck in a fear level of consciousness maybe it's anger maybe we're angry at everybody right look at that jerk on the road and that guy can't drive and can you believe the politicians they're such a whole not locked on you know my neighbor they never shut up and that person just let their dog go to the bathroom on my wand and what a jerk like there is a flavor to our drama and then we keep going up we got go up through desire pride boba and then all of a sudden we hit a magical level of consciousness called courage this is the end of drama because in courage we look at whatever it is and we take a step out we take a step towards something and that changes everything because we stop the circle right we stop the cycle and we realize that wait a minute I have choice I have power I have power in my life I can make a different choice and this is the power of a sober mind this is the power of not allowing emotions to drive our lives it's one of the most beautiful things about getting up in the morning and doing something to help you get out of any kind of circle you're twisting it sometimes if I wake up in the morning it's journaling that's the best thing for me because I can only write circular thoughts so many times I can only repeat the same thing over and over and over again so many times before I have to go all right I've written it out enough got it sometimes we had to go for a run sometimes you have to get the energy out you have to run straight we're not running in a circle we're running straight whatever you do if you're in it if you're in a loop waking up don't run around a track run straight run straight down the road like have the metaphor be right straight in your mind go for a swim do whatever you need to do to get out of that circle talk to a friend do something to allow yourself to release out of that circle because it's like it's an absolute waste of a life and we don't have to live like that and again I don't know where it came up I don't know why we started living like this I don't know whether it's a I want to say it's like a fat cat thing where like if you're busy like when we were working on the farm there was no space for drama milk the cow just get milk the cow you know get the hay in feed the cows bed the cows drive that tractor you just work you just work all day long and you're too tired to think about anything else but maybe it's the blessing slash curse of having time in your hands but all of a sudden your world becomes in your mind and if you're bored you have to add some emotions in there so you make sure that if you're telling stories juicy ones get a rise out of this I can feel alive I can probably tell this story 50 times still get a rise out it'll be great David Bohm my favorite quantum physicist he used to say that it's very important to be aware of whether or not you are thinking about things in this moment or you are if you're thinking about things in the past you're actually thought you're actually just repeating thoughts in the same way are you feeling or are you felt it are you actually feeling something right now or are you repeating a feeling from the past in which case you're actually felt it and it is a very interesting discipline to be aware of the feelings we're having or the thoughts we're having right now as opposed to something you repeat in the past can I explain what felting means Oh felting so felting again this isn't a real word right if English is your second language felting means it's just like this drama right something's going through your mind and you're feeling something you felt ten years ago or felt a year ago but it isn't happening right now like a true emotion happens in the moment it's a positive feedback mechanism that tells us how to make change in our life if we're feeling something or if we're suffering from something that happened from feelings in the past we're felting we're not actually here in this moment but it feels like we are it feels like I'm feeling it in this moment not we're felting and it's just an awareness just an awareness that this is in the past again why am I repeating why am I living through this again well thank you so much for being here

Reviews

So many nuggets of practical wisdom to apply to BEING HUMAN and choosing how light/heavy/mindful/kind you can be with yourself and the world. Cool to use the term "sober" related to emotions. Makes sense. Thank you Katrina

i love your talks. it’s always like hanging out with a close girlfriend ❤️

That was so helpful, thank you so much for adding this context to the actions, also the creepyness of the Buffy story was super impactful to me haha x

Thank you, your words helped me lift from an old 'felting' experience/pattern. Grateful. Sending good wishes. 🌻

oh dear. may i have the courage to face the fact that i am a drama queen. stuck in a story creating stress jealousy deep sadness and feeling so so sorry for myself. aarrrrgh. ok not going to judge. i do not want to waste the days in this old drama. omg!!! thank you, Katrina. i really enjoy your talks you are a creative thinker. ❤️

Wow! I really needed to hear this. My health has been compromised over the years due to my own choices. These unhealthy patterns follow us throughout our lives until we recognize our role and stop to ask ourselves why are we doing this.
Thank you again Katrina ❤️

Wonderful food for thought. My husband and I can get so wound up talking about things our children have done, and then get all spun up on scenarios of 'what ifs'... what a waste of time and energy. It's like we don't have something more constructive to do?!
Thabo you, Katrina, I'm taking this enjoyable monologue as a wake up call.

Thank you Katrina! This was so amazing like all of your talks! I could relate very much, especially about my neighbors! Mostly, I just go over family stories since they drive me so crazy and then I think to myself, why am I telling the story over again?!!! What really helps me are the morning pages Where I write a bunch of crap out of my head as fast as I can for about half an hour as Julia Cameron teaches in “the artists way” book. I started doing this every day, the past week and it really helps me stop thinking about my problems and even feeling the need to repeat my stories to other people!🙏🙏🙏 It saves me a lot of time and grief, so I’m really grateful I learned about this method. I think you know what I mean cause you mentioned something similar! Have a great week, and I look forward to listening on her every day since I keep missing the live classes😞.!❤️❤️❤️