Right before I got pregnant,
I remember suddenly feeling the spiritual presence of a little boy.
I felt his energy and I indulged in a visualization of accepting him into my life.
I hugged him metaphorically and told him I was ready to love and take care of him.
It felt as if my son's energy pierced the veil as he prepared to manifest physically into this world.
Soon after I found out I was pregnant and sure enough it was a little boy.
I'd like you to have that same experience.
I'll offer a guided meditation and visualization to help facilitate,
But please try to keep yourself completely open to what comes rather than driving the experience through your ego.
For example,
Maybe you always wanted a little girl but the energy that comes forth is male or androgynous.
Try not to force what you want to happen,
But be open to going on a journey of discovery.
If you feel nothing,
That's okay too.
Don't force it or feel like it's a sign that you won't get what you want.
Only do this if you feel ready.
Get comfortable.
Relax your body by tensing all your muscles with a double inhale through the nose.
Vibrate as you hold and then release and relax as you give a double exhale through the mouth.
Again,
Double inhale,
Tense every muscle in your body,
Vibrate and then relax and release on the double exhale.
One more time,
Double inhale through the nose,
Tense all your muscles and relax and release as you exhale.
Now physically relaxed,
Quiet your mind by practicing five rounds of even count breathing.
Inhale through your nose,
Hold and then exhale through your nose for the same duration of your choosing.
I'll lead you through the first round.
Inhale,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five,
Hold,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five,
Exhale,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five.
Practice four more rounds of even count breathing at your own pace.
You Give three exhales through the mouth and enjoy any silence that follows.
Release control of your breath and simply watch your natural rhythms.
When you're ready,
Match the mantra Hong Sa to your breathing.
Every time you inhale,
Mentally say Hong.
On every exhale,
Mentally say Sa.
Enjoy any silence in between breaths.
Hong Sa.
Hong Sa.
If thoughts arise,
Simply go back to the mantra to quiet your mind.
You you you you you you you Ask them to come and sit beside you.
Wait without expectation.
If no one appears,
Mentally say,
My child,
Please reveal yourself.
If they come to say hello,
Give them a hug.
Thank them for coming to greet you.
Let them know that you accept them for who they will be and are ready to love them unconditionally.
Let the child lead the experience.
Engage for as long as it feels good.
I'll give you a few moments to do so now.
Whether or not a child came to call,
Let's end with an affirmation.
I have so much love to give.
Affirm out loud.
I have so much love to give.
Softer now.
I have so much love to give.
Whisper,
I have so much love to give.
Now mentally repeat with great conviction,
I have so much love to give.
Sit in that knowing.
Enjoy knowing that one way or another you will touch a child's life in a meaningful way.
You have so much love to give.
