Freedom Along The Way To Self-Realization GF Live 11-18-23

Just as we wouldn't try to pry open a rosebud, interfering with the natural process by which it comes to display its yet-revealed beauty, so must we learn to give every impression planted in the soul the time it needs to grow, develop, and reveal its latent power to free us from whatever we fear.

Transcript

As always,

I want to begin our time on an insight timer,

Just continuing to hope that you understand the purpose of our meetings,

What we share,

Is to stir in you what I hope as a result of the impressions that you receive from the material.

What I hope is the thought of at least maybe I don't understand what I've always thought I do,

And maybe instead of giving myself,

As I am so likely to do,

More and more answers and then insistence,

The way I see myself and the world around me conform to my ideas of it,

Because there's nothing more punishing than,

There's nothing more freedom-stealing than clinging to the idea that we know what the nature of freedom is.

We need a completely new understanding,

And we can read about it,

You'll hear about it,

We're going to cover some important ideas together.

But at some point,

I,

You must become the actual awareness and experience of the truths that you know in your heart are real,

But that aren't a reality for you yet.

And there's a great distinction,

Isn't there?

You wouldn't join me,

Those of you particularly who've been working with me for years,

You wouldn't join me if you didn't feel,

Think to yourself,

Have some sense of the truth.

But I don't have that when push comes to shove,

And that's what we're going to look at together today.

We're going to begin with an insight or two into some higher self-knowledge,

And by that I don't mean what is outside of you,

Though the idea as above so below holds true.

In this instance,

And what we're looking at here is this idea of the first and last freedom along the way to self-realization,

What we're looking at here,

If we can see it,

Meaning if we can be it,

Is that everything in creation,

With no exceptions whatsoever,

Everything in creation is incomplete,

It is unfinished,

And yet,

In the very same moment that it is incomplete and unfinished,

It is always being completed.

It's like the water of a pond pouring into itself,

Because we can understand,

Even if only scientifically,

The leaf that feeds the tree that grows the fruit,

The leaf is fed by the sun,

And every moment the light of the sun entering into the leaf stimulates what is passive in that leaf into an activity that then becomes part of the way in which the whole of the tree is nourished,

And the tree brings up from the ground the minerals,

The supplements,

The water,

And takes from the light the energy to bring all of that into something that completes not just the leaf and the purpose of it in the moment,

But in the grander sense of that,

The individual purpose of the tree and all that the tree feeds,

So that all serve an individual purpose and yet at the same time a greater plan.

And this is important to understand,

That there is this incessant,

Perfect process by which all living things,

Including you and I,

Are being reconciled into the moment and the purpose of our existence in that moment,

And in that ceaseless reconciliation,

In that ceaseless marriage of all of these elements,

Comes forth the possibility for you and I of being conscious of being a participant in that movement,

Of being incomplete and complete at the same time,

Completed at the same time.

And these impressions,

If you're following me,

Are lovely.

We all like the idea of feeling complete when we look out,

Because we're having a particularly gorgeous fall here in Southern Oregon.

Love the idea of that impression,

Because in that moment I'm given to see certain things,

And I want to drink in as deeply as I can every last part of that revelation,

Where for a moment I have a realization of myself as not being apart from the beauty I see,

But rather that the beauty I see is a part of this consciousness,

And has just been sitting there waiting to be revealed,

So that I could realize my part in that greater scheme of things,

Which is to be the recipient of that impression,

And to experience through that revelation another order of reality of myself,

Where I'm not apart from life,

But a part of it,

And an important part of it,

I might add,

Which we'll get to.

So we love those ideas.

But what about in those moments,

And they happen unfortunately for us far more frequently than do these moments of beauty,

Where all of a sudden we see something beastly?

And I'm not just talking about in the world around us.

The world around us is a manifestation of this consciousness that you and I are basically institutionalized by,

That we are a captive of not understanding our real role in life,

And for that matter,

How all of these things that play out within and around us are intended to help us fulfill the purpose that we're created to fulfill.

So we look out and we see what we see,

And in those moments we see parts of ourselves we summarily judge,

We resist strenuously,

And when we judge and resist these things that we see in ourselves that are not beautiful,

And one day you'll see the beauty in what I'm describing,

In that split second what happens?

Our attention and our awareness is withdrawn from what we have been given to see,

And when our attention is withdrawn from what we're given to see,

Then in the withdrawal of our attention from what we have been given to see,

We are withdrawing the energy required by what we see to complete itself.

I hope you could follow that.

Because when we withdraw our attention from anything we don't want to see,

What happens?

We cover up what it is that we don't want to see.

We cover it up with blame,

With judgment,

With hatred,

With fear,

And in that moment of covering up,

Which it isn't you,

It isn't I covering up these things,

There's just this knee-jerk resistance to this sudden sense,

I shouldn't be like this,

This shouldn't be going on,

I shouldn't feel this way,

And in that summary unconscious judgment which takes place like that,

We're filled with this resistance that does what?

It casts the content that we've been given to see into the darkness of resistance.

It casts what we have been given to see by withdrawing our awareness from what we have been given to see.

All that could have been seen is cast into this darkness of what I call the darkness of resistance where nothing changes.

Because nothing changes that is resisted.

Or I should say the only thing that changes when we resist what we're given to see is the strength and the quickness with which we will react in a similar fashion the next time so that what's changed is the false sense of,

Oh no,

That shouldn't be,

So that we are removed from the moment in which these impressions are intended to be completed and we find ourselves placed somewhere where not only is the impression not completed,

But we stand incomplete in ourselves because we haven't served the purpose of being the instrument of those impressions.

Kate,

Let's bring up the second key lesson.

This will help explain what I'm talking about.

I have miles to go here and I'm taking too long with the introduction.

Here is the first key lesson that I want to share with you.

Just as we wouldn't try to pry open a rosebud,

Interfering with the natural process by which it soon reveals its latent beauty,

So we must learn to give every impression that is planted in the soul the time it needs to develop,

Grow,

And reveal its latent power of reconciliation.

Let me cover this.

It would be silly,

Wouldn't it,

To take a rosebud and try to pull the rose out of it?

It would destroy the bud and the rose,

Wouldn't it?

And we understand that.

And we can also understand that if the bud is left alone,

The sun and everything else will eventually bring about its opening.

And when it opens,

It will have served its purpose,

Which is as food,

Fragrance,

Beauty,

The continuation of its species,

All that business,

And then produce a rose,

A seed,

And on we go.

So we understand that when it comes to the rose,

The bud,

We don't try to take from that bud what we want it to be,

And we certainly don't destroy the bud trying to make it something that it's not in that moment.

The exact same truth holds true when it comes to these impressions that we are given of ourselves.

There isn't anything that we see with our eyes,

Consciously see,

That isn't a kind of a rosebud,

That doesn't hold within it something that is waiting to be born from it.

And when something is born from that moment of impression,

Then the whole of that moment is completed,

And we as witnesses,

Aware of that moment,

Are ourselves complete.

The first and last freedom along the way to Self-Realization is simply to know myself.

But to know myself is not to think about myself.

To know myself is not to call upon all the knowledge I've accumulated,

And then console myself and comfort myself with the knowledge of what a good Christian or a good Jew should be,

Or whatever the spiritual icon is to which we cling,

Because in that moment when we are busy identifying with these consoling icons,

We have,

Without knowing it,

Withdrawn our attention from what we have been given to see,

And now our attention belongs to something that doesn't want to complete the moment it has been given to complete,

And so instead it completes itself by consoling itself with something that isolates us in that moment so that the purpose of that impression can't be fulfilled.

To know myself,

I must be willing to see myself as I am.

To know myself,

I must be willing to see myself as I am.

It is a lot more difficult than we ever suspect,

And yet because we are created to go through this process of allowing what is active to reveal what is passive,

What is higher to suddenly stir what is lower in this consciousness that it might be brought up into the light,

We're created for that purpose,

And here is the key idea at this junction of the talk.

When all is said and done,

What is it that we really suffer over?

I'm asking you.

We won't have time to do a poll here.

What is it that when I'm suffering,

When you're suffering,

What is it that I'm actually suffering over?

Is it the moment that I'm suffering over?

Is it what you said is what they did,

What they didn't do?

Or is what I'm suffering over in that moment?

The fact that something in me does not want to see what I have been made into by my reaction to that moment,

Isn't that really the pain in the moment,

Is not wanting the experience of myself,

And because I don't know that I cannot separate the experience of myself from the condition that brings it up into this consciousness,

I then believe that it's possible for me to change the things around me,

And that's going to produce a change within me.

If I want to change the world I see,

I must change the nature of the seer,

Of this consciousness in which the world is reflected as an expression of the content of this consciousness,

And nothing else,

And when we don't understand that and resist the way that we do these moments of revelation,

Anytime we resist revelation,

Some moment in which we're made aware of this,

You call it out,

Some unthinking anger,

Some resentment,

Some fear,

Some dark fear,

Any of those beasts that suddenly come into our eyes that we see them,

They take over our facilities so that I become the instrument of anger instead of the instrument of that moment in which the awareness of this condition has been brought into my consciousness so that my consciousness itself can be changed through that awareness.

This is hard for us to understand because the more we resist the conflict of what?

That's how things are,

This is what's coming up in me but shouldn't come up.

This is what is being revealed in me but I don't want to see it.

That's conflict,

Like trying to hold a basketball underwater,

It can't be done,

Great pressure,

And that pressure born of the conflict of resisting the revelation of ourselves is the source of all the source of our pain,

And if we can understand,

Then we can begin to work in a different way,

And I keep going here.

Two different stories I want to tell you,

First,

Three or four centuries,

I think it was,

Yeah,

Maybe fourth century BCE,

I believe,

There is attributed to a man by the name of Aesop,

His fables.

He was quite a genius,

Quite awakened,

It would seem.

So anyway,

One of his stories relative to what we're talking about is about a slave called Androcles,

And Androcles had escaped from his master,

As a slave,

Had escaped his master and fled deep into the forest,

Wanted to be a free man,

And as he was wandering about through the forest trying to make a living for himself,

Basically starving to death because there was very little to provide him,

He came upon a cave and heard a moaning and a groaning coming out of the cave,

And when he peered into the cave,

There was a mighty lion,

And the minute he saw the lion,

What happens when you see the lion,

What happens when we see the beast,

We run,

And that's what he did.

But he didn't run far for whatever reason the story goes on,

Just as you and I are learning not to flee from what we see that we don't want to,

But rather he discovered the lion didn't run after him,

And when it didn't run after him,

He could hear it moaning,

And he turned around and he went back into the cave,

And there he could see the lion was laying on the ground,

And his paw was all swollen and bleeding.

If you have seen a dog,

The lion is trying to heal itself.

The lion can't do it,

Can't heal itself,

And Andocles finds out why,

Because he finally was close enough,

And the lion somehow sensing that he meant no harm,

And he sees this great thorn between the paws and the paw of the lion,

And he pulls the thorn out.

Have you ever had a moment where,

By the grace of God,

Something pulls the thorn out of your soul?

You couldn't pull it out.

Anyway,

He pulls it out,

And the lion,

Who's soon able to rise,

He begins to lick the hand of Androcles like a dog,

Loving Androcles.

So for the next whatever period of time,

The lion brings meat to Androcles,

And allows him to live in the forest unperturbed with the lion as his companion.

The very thing that he was afraid of becomes his protector.

A fast story going.

So anyway,

Shortly,

Not too much after that time,

Androcles and the lion are captured,

And returned back to the court to be judged by Pilate or the emperor,

Whatever was going on at the time.

So to punish Androcles for running away from his master,

He decides the emperor to put him into the arena,

And let loose a great lion to consume him.

And when the emperor releases the lion to eat Androcles,

The lion rushes out like that,

And runs over to Androcles,

But in a heartbeat,

Just before he leaps,

He recognizes that this is the man who pulled the thorn out of his paw.

And instead of jumping on him and eating him,

He knocks him down and starts licking his face.

Oh,

Don't you wish,

I do.

Is grace sufficient?

Well,

Let's see,

Strat.

Grace is sufficient when grace is received.

Grace refused is the refusal of the reconciliation that grace is intended to produce.

Let me go on.

So the emperor is shocked,

Can't believe what's happening,

And he goes out and Androcles tells him the whole story.

And when he tells him the whole story,

The emperor thinks it's a miracle.

He pardons Androcles,

Gives him his freedom,

And lets the lion and Androcles go back to the forest,

Where they lived happily ever after.

Now,

I don't know if you can pick up what is animated in a story like that,

But now I'm going to strengthen it a little bit.

I'm going to jump from the fourth century into something that Christ said.

He said,

Until the lion lays down with the lamb.

This is the passage.

The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb,

And the leopard shall lie down with the kid,

Kid being a baby goat,

And the calf,

And the young lion,

And the fatling together,

And a little child shall lead them.

The wolf shall also dwell with the lamb,

And the leopard shall lie down with the kid,

And the calf,

And the young lion,

And the fatling together,

And a little child shall lead them.

Who could understand these things?

What Christ was teaching,

As all true teachings do,

That there is intended to be a conscious relationship between the interior unknown beasts,

The creatures within this consciousness that are not complete,

Or that have been formed over time through a personality that did not know how to deal with its pain,

Into creatures that literally roam the desert,

The forest of this dark mind,

And they are intended,

As is every creature,

To be completed.

Each and every creation serves a purpose in the creation that gives rise to it.

And we don't understand that,

Because in our creation,

What we have created,

This kingdom that we live in,

Created by our consciousness,

Including all of the ridiculous religious ideas about who you're supposed to be,

And how things are supposed,

You shouldn't be like this,

But you should be like that,

That's the very definition of hatred.

That's the very definition of conflict.

And we look at that somehow or other to lead us,

As opposed to the child leads the marriage of these essential qualities,

The impressions that are produced.

The child representing the Christ,

The Christ,

Whether you know it or not,

The meaning of that word,

I am the light,

Is that I am that which reveals to human beings the content of their consciousness.

I am that which brings into the light,

That which is in the darkness,

And in that light,

That darkness is changed.

But for us,

The way we are now,

We live with this endless fear of these beasts,

This lion that Andocles saw,

That we take,

Meaning what I see,

The liar in myself,

The greed in myself,

I see these things,

And just like that,

I want to run,

Because I can't understand that I am always looking at some aspect of my own consciousness,

Whether I want to or not.

And the task here is to understand there's no such thing as not wanting to see parts of my own consciousness.

Anything in my consciousness that rejects the revelation of some aspect of itself is insisting that it cling to and keep the identity it's developed,

By which nothing can change,

Because now all that's going on inside of consciousness is clinging to what it believes it needs to do and be,

And shunning everything that it says is not a part of that,

And that way nothing is completed.

Nothing lives,

Nothing dies,

Everything is shunted off into a world of imagination.

So what's the point of this,

Of Andocles?

We must turn around and see the pain,

The creature,

Listen,

That has taken the shape of the pain,

Not the pain that has taken the shape,

The creature that has formed from the pain.

You have no pain presently that you don't know the name of,

That you don't see the source of it,

And the name and the source of what you call this pain,

Things you don't want to see in yourself,

Are not actually it at all.

All of this pain is born out of this divided mind that is ceaselessly in conflict with itself.

So we need the courage to look upon what we're sure we shouldn't be seeing.

If we want to be free,

We need the courage to look upon what we are sure in that moment we shouldn't be seeing.

Because for us,

This fear,

This regret,

This resentment,

This anger,

It comes naturally to us.

The beast takes the facility.

The beast becomes the seer instead of the thing seen.

The unconscious content becomes the content of our consciousness instead of a higher consciousness recognizing content of itself that's intended to be transformed.

Because why?

Because I don't know what to do with it.

It's stunning,

Really,

If you've studied yourself at all.

The only thing I know to do with what I see in myself that I don't want,

That I hate,

That I judge,

Is to shunt it off into some never-never land of hoping that one day I won't be like that,

Of believing that some god is going to come down and rescue me from the content of myself,

When by God's grace I'm given the capacity to transform it.

I have to go through a complete change that requires looking directly at what it is that I have not been willing to look at.

I've got five minutes left to tell you a story and wrap this up.

This is an old story of mine.

I've slightly revamped it because it just seemed to fit so perfectly.

I don't think most of you have heard it,

But I'm going to recap it ever so quickly.

Once upon a time,

There was a beautiful princess who lived in a distant kingdom,

And her father had betrothed this princess to a prince from another distant kingdom in order to bring peace and prosperity and all the yadda yadda yadda that goes with that,

A marriage of equals,

Blah,

Blah,

Blah.

But she wanted nothing to do with it.

She wanted to follow her own heart,

But she didn't know what that meant.

And so,

Because of her despair,

She would take long rides into the dark woods that were rumored to hold within it a monster.

But it didn't bother her,

Because she was so taken up with this idea of how am I going to have a whole life myself,

That the rumors just fell on deaf ears.

And so it happened that one day as that princess was riding through the dark woods,

Always a little bit deeper,

She hears cries and moans coming from someplace,

And she follows them until she comes around a little bend,

And there in an opening,

Leaning over a pond,

She can see what looks to be the body of a man,

But the head of a monster,

A misshapen monster.

Now that creature doesn't know that she's there,

But the moment she lays eyes,

And she doesn't see him directly,

She sees his reflection in the pond,

And that's what he's looking at too.

He doesn't turn.

She just captures a glimpse of the reflection in the pond,

And the minute she sees this face,

Oh my God,

Fear pours out of her,

Pain,

Strong.

She doesn't know what to do with the impression,

So great is it that she rushes away,

Gets on her horse,

And rides back to the castle.

But back at the castle,

Her fate is sealed,

And she can't get it out of her mind.

This is an important point.

Have you noticed that yet,

Or God help us,

Have you been successful in burying the depth and breadth of that violence that can come up inside of us,

That beast in a heartbeat?

The selfishness,

The insistence,

The demand,

Have you buried all of that so deeply behind all the excuses for it,

Or does it still in some respect,

As did this creature to the princess,

Do you still have,

What does that do?

What will I do?

Who am I to be as long as this is there?

And she's feeling that too.

She feels,

Without wanting to,

A certain compassion for this creature.

So she returns several times,

Never catching attention,

Always a little bit closer,

Trying to see it a little bit better.

And as she does,

This pain and fear that she felt initially,

This resistance that had ruled her before,

Begins to abate.

And she begins to have a certain relationship between what she's seeing and her experience of it.

And she starts to understand that this creature,

Whatever it is,

Is it dangerous?

I don't know.

And I'll never know.

Please,

I cut into my own story.

I will never know whether my anger is actually a danger to me or anyone else,

Unless one day I am willing to meet and see that anger as it is.

Because as long as I run from it,

It strengthens.

So she finally comes closer and closer and approaches,

And then it catches her,

She catches its attention,

And it turns,

And she looks at this face.

She looks upon something that she would rather not see.

As she's looking at it,

The creature is so misshapen,

It can barely form words.

Its lips are almost sealed.

But she can hear it's trying to say something.

And so she comes close enough to listen to whatever it is that it's trying to say.

And here's what she hears as she's standing there,

It says,

Please don't turn away.

My only hope is that you will look upon me as I am.

Please don't turn away.

My only hope is that you will look upon me as I am.

And so she does.

And when she looks directly at this misshapen creature,

Lo and behold,

All of a sudden it goes through this transformation and it turns into a prince.

And a handsome prince,

I might add.

And he explains to her that years ago,

An evil witch that wanted me to marry her daughter cursed me because I wanted nothing to do with the powers that she promised if I would do so.

And when I was cursed,

This is what I was cursed into,

And the evil witch said that I shall remain this way until finally somebody will look at me and not look away from me.

And that's what you've done.

Will you marry me?

And then the princess finds the prince another kingdom and live happily ever after.

Will you bring up a second key lesson,

Kate?

And then we better bring an end to the talk.

Here's the summary of this story.

As long as we're only willing to look at what we want to see,

Shunning all other possibilities,

We are effectively rendered blind to the endless revelations that not only have the power to help set us free,

But to show us at the same time all that we are created to be.

When this replays,

Or if you can,

Copy it.

Not the idea,

But the understanding,

Meaning,

Can I get this?

What does that mean?

As long as I'm willing only to look at what I want to see.

I only want to see myself as special,

As perfect,

As beautiful.

I only want to see a world that confirms the image I have of myself and it and my places in it.

But as long as I only look at what I want to see,

Shunning all of the other possibilities,

I am literally,

Effectively rendered blind to revelations that are endless in their nature,

The grace of them that not only have the power to set us free,

But set us free because we understand gradually that what I am afraid of being only remains the fear of myself until what is shown and revealed is released as all manifestations,

As all creatures are meant to be.

These things that live inside us that we don't want to be,

They're all intended to be reconciled.

They're all intended in their karma to be brought into a completely different order of consciousness in which it's possible by the light of that awareness,

The child that lays down with the lion and the lamb,

To bring about a transformation in the content of ourself.

And listen,

Not where I exit some perfect,

Happy,

Promising human being,

But rather I am relieved of,

I'm released from the illusion that who and what I am is somehow connected to these parts of myself that I don't want to know,

That I don't want to see,

Because it is only in seeing these things that I am released from them because in the awareness of them,

They are changed and I am changed along with them.

36 minutes.

We have a few minutes.

Sorry I went on quite so long,

But sometimes that's how it goes.

We can chat it up here.

You can put questions or comments,

Whatever,

And I'll do the best that I can to address them.

Fiona,

Compassion for the fearful creature embodies and illuminates what I don't want to see inside.

Yes,

Beauty and possibility can only come from handing over what I see to what is bigger than me and truly good.

Yes,

That's it.

And we must live that,

Fiona.

We must live this.

I see the beast and I'm afraid of the moaning and the groaning as was Antichrist from the lion,

But I can't get it out of my head.

You can't escape yourself.

See what is not just from your point of view,

Silkenberry.

To see what is requires there is no point of view because any point of view out of what you're seeing sits outside of what is being seen.

We're talking about another order of awareness.

My father's kingdom has many mansions,

Meaning that there are places within this consciousness where the sun is made to shine on good and evil alike.

You can follow all these stories.

You can see they're all trying to say the same thing to us.

Can you share your morning evening practice you often refer to during your talks or at least in another talk?

I'm pausing,

Maji,

Because whatever it is that I have done my whole life and continue to do as it evolves,

And by the way,

If whatever you do as what you would call a practice doesn't evolve,

Then the practice is poison.

Most of us have a practice dedicated to the idea that there will be an outcome of it that will finally lead to my perfection,

And any practice that pursues an image is a prison.

Any practice that pursues an image,

Something that I will become in time,

Any practice like that is a prison because it doesn't exist apart from the conscious already identified with what it believes it's supposed to be.

That's called imagination.

That's called a dream.

That's land of darkness,

And that's where resistance comes from.

Let love be the practice,

Maji.

Let love give you what to practice.

Let love tell you how to practice.

Whatever it is inside of Maji or guy that longs to know what is divine,

I didn't put that in myself.

You didn't put that in yourself,

Maji.

Something may tell you,

Yeah,

That's Maji,

But that's not Maji,

And if something put in me the love of the divine,

The love of God,

The wish to be a human being that doesn't hurt other human beings or himself,

If that put that in me,

Then surely that knows how to lead me,

But what I must be led to is in this revelation,

This realization,

The lion must lay down with the lamb,

And the only way the lion,

The only way the lamb can lay down with the lion is when the lamb,

For its love of what is good,

Tames the lion by its very willingness to pull the thorn from it.

What's the thorn?

The thorn is this conflict,

This resistance.

Again,

Sokan Theriot,

It's not a question of no,

It's not a question of no expectations.

See,

For us,

Expectations take one or two forms.

Most of our expectations,

In quote,

Are for beautiful oases,

Heavenly things that will make us whole and happy.

I expect more money,

I expect people to love me,

I expect the world to get better,

I expect my practice to finally deliver all the goods,

But you can't have an expectation which we can call a desire.

You can't have an expectation without it being attended to by its opposite.

You can't serve two masters,

You will love one and despise the other.

The expectation I serve becomes the expectation I despise when it is challenged.

Our task is to not have something to constantly identify with,

To be aware of the conflict born out of being identified with anything this mind has,

Including the images and ideas about itself.

It's all grist for the mill and it's intended for the wheat and the chaff to be separated,

But you can't separate it,

I can't separate it.

How ludicrous,

I'm going to separate myself from the source of my suffering.

The very attempt to separate myself from the source of my suffering is suffering because it's denying that in fact there are these beasts and yet there's another part of me that thinks it's the emperor,

That I shouldn't have to deal with anything other than what I want.

Maji says,

I meant prayers,

Not practice,

But it's the same answer,

Maji.

I will share with you this.

Years and years ago,

Decades ago,

I didn't want a mouth of prayer that wasn't born out of my own heart,

And so as the best I could back in those days,

I began formulating prayers of my own.

They all had in common the love of God and the wish for grace,

And more importantly,

The need for that relationship,

Most importantly,

The need for that relationship.

Most of our prayers satisfy that need and prayers with the mouth,

No matter how eloquent,

Cannot satisfy the heart that is a desert until it's visited by the water of truth.

It's impossible.

We're afraid to fall out of line with the world,

And the only hope,

In fact,

I'll just say it this way,

The real path is not one line that moves through this world that's created by the minds of men and women.

You find the path to the interior kingdom by stepping off the myriad lines of this place called planet Earth and all of the conditions that have formulated it into the endless pursuit of a freedom that it can't deliver.

Isn't one of the beasts that will face the fear of what will happen to me if I don't toe the line?

Who am I to make a prayer born of my own longing?

My God,

That must be blasphemous.

You just need to see it,

And then the love that brings you into a place where you understand I'm meant to participate in this reconciliation that is divine in nature,

It will begin to show you how you need to get out of your way,

Get out of your life,

Get out of your head,

And the more you're willing to see what that means because of allowing this thing that you look upon that at first,

No,

No,

No,

No,

I'm not,

I have this violence,

I'm that greedy,

I'm that self that all I can think about is me,

And then when you see that instead of looking away from it,

Which we do,

We judge ourselves and blame ourselves,

When we see that the very moment we see it,

The curse is removed,

Meaning the consciousness that is divided is suddenly no longer divided the way it was,

And when it is integrated,

All of a sudden the prince and the princess,

All of a sudden there is a union and the revelation of real liberation.