Advaita SE Meditations - What Does The Word I Refer To?

Listen to Ektaji guide us through an Advaita self-exploration meditation, ‘What does the word I refer to?’. Explore how every perception, sensation, and thought arises, plays for a while, and recedes in the changeless background of Awareness. Discover that everything refers back to this field of Consciousness from which it arises and into which it dissolves.

Finally, follow the "I" thought back to its source and recognize that it has no permanent existence. Rest as the changeless background of Awareness- the Infinite, the Absolute, the Nothingness.

Transcript

Beeping Let's do a self-exploration. On the question. What does the word I mean? Refer to. Let's sit comfortably. And let's close our eyes. Relax the body. Sink into the change. And be still. Empty out the mind. Just be. Take your attention. To the sound. Of these words. Notice that the sound arises. Please for a while. And falls away. What does sound refer to? Any sound. What does any sound? Really refer to. The mind might see. That the sound. Of these words. You put. To the voice of the speaker. But look closely, Is that your direct experience? Direct experience is devoid of assumptions. The void of logic. Devoid of analysis and devoid of hypothesis. When we were innocent babies. We were devoid of this conditioning. You were devoid of this learning. We were devoid of cultural, Religious and educational colouring. I experience. Was direct experience. It got conditioned later by words from the mind. Drop oil conditioning. Drop all words or logic. Drop all assumptions. And look closely at your direct experience now. What does the sound of these words refer to? In your direct experience. You do not have proof of the independent existence of a speaker. Or his voice apart from your own awareness. You do not know anything outside. Your own field of awareness. So instead of focusing on that, Which you have no proof of, Let's focus on that which is your direct experience. Your own awareness. Take your attention to the perception of the mind. This sound. Arise in your own field of awareness. And fall away. In your own field of awareness. The sound arises and falls. On a changeless background. That is all that is your direct. . . Exceedence. In your direct experience. There is no proof that the sound is arising from an external source. What if this was a dream? And you were hearing. These words. In a dream. How do you know this is not a dream? Just like in the dream, You have no proof. Of the existence of some speaker. Similarly in this waking dream. Do you have proof? Of the sound of the words of some speaker external. Do your own awareness feeling. You are that changeless background of awareness. In which perception arises and falls. That which arises from the background. And receipts. Back into the background. Obviously refers to the background. The background is its source. Just like a wave. Arises in the ocean. And recedes back. Into the ocean. It is obviously made up of nothing but the ocean. So it is referring back to the US. It cannot refer to anything outside. The ocean. The reef is the ocean. Perception is not different from the background. It is part of that background itself. To raise it. In that background, It plays on the background and it just feeds back into the background. It ripples. Only to that background. That changeless background is who you are. You are not the perception of the sound. How can a perception change? Be danced by you. That arises in you. That plays in you. That recedes back into you. Refer to something other than you. The changeless background. You the changeless background. Are the source from where it is directly experienced as arising from. You, The changeless background, Are the source into which It is directly experienced as receding into. You are the source. The origin. You are its destination. It is made up of nothing else but you. The changeless background of awareness. You are that awareness, That knowingness, That consciousness that it is referring to. Not just this perception of sound, But every perception of sight, Sound, Smell, Taste, And touch. Refers back to you. Is made of you. It arises in you, Plays in you, And recedes back into you. Every sensation. Is made up of you. Is experienced by you. It arises in you, Plays in you. And vanishes back into you. You are the field of consciousness. Out of which every thought is made. Every thought. Arises in you, The field of consciousness. It is made up of you, The field of consciousness. It plays in you. The field of consciousness. And it recedes back into you. Everything. Is made up of you. The word I. Is simply a thought. It's called ISO. The I thought. Rises in you, Plays in you. Vanishes in you. It is experienced by you. It is made up of you. It refers back to you. You the changeless background of awareness, Consciousness, Knowingness. This background does not speak. This background does not see eye. Background is quiet, Calm. No thinness. The word I refers to it, But when you follow the I. The eye disappears into this background. I does not really have a permanent existence. Just like a weave. Is impermanent. And disappears back into the ocean. Semi-permanently. The eye. Does not have a permanent existence. It disappears back into the ocean. The ocean of consciousness. There is no I. There is only the infinite. The ultimate. The Absolute. The no tameness. Follow.