Without an invitation,
Without a call,
Without any form of notice,
It's back.
Without any knowledge of how it got inside,
It's back lurking in the corners of my heart,
In the open spaces of my mind.
It starts consuming everything.
To get noticed,
To get fed my attention.
Oh how I wish it would go.
Oh how I wish you would forget where the door is to enter.
Pain and suffering can draw a lot of attention.
But when you solely pay attention to that pain,
You might miss that you are alive and full underneath that.
To gain a different perception does not mean to fake or pretend.
It really asks of a life to end,
A life as you know it to die off.
It is scary.
But please trust me when I say,
Everything that happened for you is in your favor.
Please understand that the unknown offers a very,
Very special gift.
It offers the opportunity for pure and raw experience.
With no option or expectation for any story to yet be attached.
Being available to the discomfort instead of avoiding it.
Accepting the discomfort that comes with being alive.
Acknowledging the truth of abundance cocooned in every moment.
Expressing your trust safely in the hands of knowing.
That nothing happens because of something you did or did not do.
Being present mostly involves trying to do perfection this time.
Which involves a lot of analyzing of moments,
Far,
Far away from this present aliveness.
Yet,
It is this very desire of doing,
Rubbing your being perfect.
Allow whatever is to be.
Remove your lenses of conditioning and let the pure,
Raw experience reveal itself to you like the rainbow,
Revealing more of the sun's extraordinary color after the rain.
Notice how the mask of this painted face of fear and pain melts away.
And in this process,
A cultivation of value and care reveals itself.
In this way,
It is possible to still be with pain,
But cultivating a new relationship.
Expanding your awareness like a parachute to slow down the descending into these perceiving offers the opportunity to notice that you are not the pain and the fear.
That you are not anything you observe.
It offers the opportunity to make these things impersonal,
Yet very useful and valid.
With the open parachuted awareness,
Notice that there is even grace to be perceived in times of challenge.
Try not to close yourself off to receiving during this time,
Precious one,
As this is a gift to creating feelings and generating what you truly came here to experience.
More than 100 years ago,
Everything.
Feeling in any form is a pure gift.
So it is such a huge blessing to feel so deeply.
Knowing that the only things behind these challenging feelings are support and love.
The pain you feel is not despair,
But desire.
Desire to believe in the essence within you instead of fearing or denying it.
Desire to trust in your strength.
Underneath all the distortion of pain and suffering,
You are prosperous and living.
Maybe just longing for your own love and acceptance.
Allow the pain to guide you towards the capacity to care for the life being lived through you.
Allow the fear to show you where you can experience this life flowing through you a little bit less distorted.
Don't be fooled by the voices of your not-self and your ungrateful false beliefs.
Trust in the wisdom that proceeds from behind these voices.
From this point of perception,
Everything can be experienced through love,
Curiosity,
And compassion.
And it is also how you unmask pain.
Awakening to the truth results in your perceiving being free with pain instead of wishing without.
Rest now and feel,
Precious one.
Experience the life flowing through you in all of its capacity of abundance.
As there is no right,
No wrong,
No good,
No bad.
Welcome it all.
Without labeling.
Namaste,
Precious soul.
Namaste.
Namaste.
