Allowing your eyes to close down and relax.
Surrendering your energy to settle along with your body.
Seeking your attention and your awareness available to sense the weather of your body.
Seeing the season,
Sensing the different weather patterns in different parts.
Removing the responsibility to need to change or alter what you find.
Trusting that what presents itself is exactly the way that it should be.
There,
Where it appears.
.
.
That there is a lack of trust.
Can be because there is an overflow of doubt and confusion.
Doubt is born when you lose touch with the wonder of imagination.
Confusion when you rely too heavily on logic.
Doubt is the foundation of logic,
Whereas confusion is the breeding ground for imagination.
Doubt is a huge question mark wired into the brain.
The left brain sees things in terms of repeating patterns.
This has been a key ingredient in human evolution to ensure its survival.
Doubt can be a very positive force driving evolution forward.
The thing is,
It never goes away.
It sits in the circulatory of the subconscious and causes a huge pressure.
In truth,
It is simply the word we give to this constant mental pressure.
This pressure results in different outcomes from person to person.
The common thread being,
We all try to put an end to the pressure.
As humans,
We can't accept a deep,
Unsettled feeling inside.
Doubt can lead to the gift of inquiry and trusted truth.
Truth and trust comes as an illumination from within,
Rather than an answer from without.
There is no answer to doubt.
Doubt is truly impersonal,
But we make it personal.
Doubt is here to serve genuine inquiry.
It becomes creative,
But as soon as it becomes personal or internalized,
It becomes destructive.
It is self-doubt that restricts you to innately trust in your creativity and divine magic.
Doubt belongs to the collective.
Self-doubt is a low vibrating conditioning that pressures all human beings to evolve to a higher life of service.
The best thing to do with self-doubt is to share it with others.
By doing so,
You can embrace it and allow it to move on through you.
Repressing doubt can construct a false logical reality that gives the mind answers to the doubt.
When the logical mind is prevented to doubt,
It also stops evolving.
The human mind is not designed to be certain of anything other than the beautiful paradox of life.
The human mind wants certainty,
And if it cannot find it,
It will manufacture it.
Doubt is not the enemy.
Your fear of uncertainty needs to be recognized and graced.
The deeper you can embrace uncertainty,
The closer you can come to the transcended,
Trusted truth.
If we trust in our own doubt,
Then we must even doubt our own self-doubt.
Unless awareness detaches from the identity of self-doubt,
Nothing you do or say will ever feel good enough.
Reactive doubt leads to suspicion.
It gets projected outward.
This is also rooted in self-doubt,
But transformed into anger and taken out on others.
But the gift of inquiry,
While remaining open,
Without finding a definite answer to life,
This is what unlocks the secrets of nature and even magic.
When inquiring on a deep level,
You will become to notice that you,
The observer,
Are integratedly bound to that which you are inquiring.
This is the beginning of the end of the logical approach.
Doubt makes us human.
Truth is every step of the way.
Inner surrender the cost.
After all efforts,
You have to become one with your own doubt.
Doubt is truth.
It might sound like a deep letdown for the questing spirit.
The truth is there in the doubt,
Waiting to be realized like a pearl within an oyster.
It needn't be prized out,
Simply recognized.
It's time now.
Dear one.
To remember to trust.
In retrospect,
You hear clearly the melody,
What is life.
In retrospect,
You will understand your life was phenomena and happenings made moment to moment,
In the name of love or preserving that love.
Everything you do will be wrong or broken.
Perched above your experience,
You will one day understand.
Every day is woven together in the song of life.
Takes,
Retakes,
Mistakes,
Every single one needed to marry the notes together.
Heartful choices,
Ecstatic joy,
Heartbreak,
Redemption,
Love and the denial of that same love through those choices representing a certain frequency.
Through these happenings,
A melody awakens,
Sweet and achingly bittersweet.
Each time you make a choice that took you further away from love you longed for,
Think again dear one.
For each step and each phenomena will come together in a beautiful paradox called life.
We compound our suffering by looking too closely at that which is causing us pain.
Like listening repeatedly to only one note in a symphony,
Trying to figure out the melody.
We forget that soon a revelation will come from this very place.
That these spots of painful happening is often the entry point here to break you open to something larger and more loving.
If you have lost hope and feel the empty hole where your heart has left your chest,
Please dear one,
Just rest and trust.
Just listen.
Listen to everything but remaining complacent in your path.
Use anything but running from your moments and from yourself.
When you escape yourself,
It might be because there's too much shame and brokenness to look within.
Too much disappointment in the unravelling of happening.
The storm has come to wash you clean,
To nourish the drought,
To feed your earth.
You will find yourself and your heart by choosing to turn towards yourself.
You arrive when you stop running.
Allow your heart to take residence within you once again.
One step after another.
One breath after the one before.
There is not one that is not in service of you.
Arrive lovingly at your own feet.
Let your suffering,
Heartache and dread spread out before you like a beautiful orchestra.
Aafirah.
Allow every sound,
Every note,
Every instrument to be weaved into a blanket.
An blanket of comfort and utter trust.
Nothing you have chosen is wrong.
Nothing fits into the fabric of your symphony.
Correct note.
Correct chord.
Correct timbre.
All of this in your life's mellifluous melody.
Be still here at your own mercy.
You are in the process of experiencing a concerto.
You are learning,
You are remembering what you truly are.
Allow these words to rest on the ear of the silent listener,
Hearing this.
There are no false notes in the song of your life.
If you choose the one next thing,
Choose to arrive here like you did now.
To give love to each part that appeared to grow distant from your center.
That is how you grow and expand.
Being here as often as you can will help you love and trust your journey.
It's time to remember,
Dear one.
Trust that life is in your favor.
You are in your favor.
You are in your favor.
You are in your favor.
You are in your favor.
You are in your favor.
