From the moment I awake,
You are there with me.
Active,
Alive,
Creative,
And disruptive.
There is a relationship between the two of us,
An unbreakable connection.
But we need to talk to clarify the nature of our bond.
First I am not you.
Sometimes we seem so close that we are one.
And I get confused,
Believing that we are one and the same.
When you are angry,
I get swept away in the waves of your rage.
When you feel melancholy,
I'm inundated in the rain of your sorrow.
Because we are so close,
I experience what you experience.
Your pain,
Your confusion.
But I realize something.
Sometimes you experience things that aren't even real.
You lie to me.
And you do it so well that I'm caught in your illusion before I even notice,
Before I have time to question you.
You become afraid of things that are not there.
You confuse the past and present and get angry over things that happened years ago,
Forgetting that these things already occurred.
You get upset over things you think could happen in the future,
So I spend all day anxious over things that never happened and could be prevented.
Every time you lie to me,
You hurt me,
Drain me,
Kill me.
I die a little every time you imagine a catastrophe.
I give up my soul to you,
Thinking that I should devote myself to you and follow where you lead.
But I have to ask you,
Where are you ultimately leading me to salvation,
Bliss,
Inner peace?
How can you lead me where I want to go when you don't seem to know the way?
I love you.
You are,
In fact,
My mind.
And I cherish the experience of life with you as my companion.
But I need peace,
And you cannot provide it.
I cannot expect you to bring me tranquility.
I must help you find tranquility by ascending beyond you.
Oh yes,
Dear friend,
As magnificent and powerful as you are,
There is a state of consciousness beyond,
A state where there are no words,
No fears,
No hate,
No illusions.
In that state,
I become an observer of you,
And you become an observation.
I can see your thought activity without being drowned in it.
In this state,
Thoughts come and go.
I don't have to react to them.
Therefore,
In the realm of pure consciousness,
As the unbiased observer,
My negative thoughts and feelings have no control over me.
I love you,
But I cannot be your servant any longer.
You must serve the essence of the Creator that is within me.
I know you are afraid,
Even now you are contriving some way to get my attention.
What will you use this time?
Fantasies of lust?
Memories of being hurt?
Delusions of grandeur and ego?
Longing for love and dread of being alone?
Fear of not being understood by others?
When I was blind,
Those devices worked every time.
But as the observer,
I can see so clearly.
I can see the distance between you and I.
As I awaken to my true self,
I realize that I am limitless,
And as my mind,
You are a part of a whole.
I am mind,
Body,
Heart,
And soul.
I am here now and eternal,
Timeless.
I am infinite.
You as my mind are the portal through which my infinite self can enter into the finite physical world,
But I can only manifest in the world when you are at peace.
So be at peace.
Let me transcend so that together we can have tranquility and happiness.
From the vantage point of pure consciousness,
Beyond the mind,
I can see and experience everything.
The universe hides no secrets from me.
My mind is free.
Oh my love,
I understand you and I need you.
Now let's rise into the infinite.