Have you ever noticed?
An unwavering feeling of being off balance.
The feeling of not feeling quite right.
Like something is missing.
But you don't know what.
Or maybe even who it is.
Is it you?
Is there a gap within you that you try and fill but that always feels empty?
Sometimes we feel as though we are being held back.
And not fulfilling our true potential but don't always know why.
You can't grasp it.
Who are you?
And I don't mean a parent or a partner or a friend or a child.
I mean who are you?
The you who was born before things changed.
Or you were moulded into your expectations.
Who are you?
Do you know?
Have you changed to suit others around you?
Have you changed your direction to fit in?
Have you noticed a lot of the time we spent,
Time from our childhoods and adulthoods growing away from ourselves,
Distancing ourselves from our truth,
From our meaning,
From us.
To fit into society.
To do the mainstream thing.
Maybe it felt like trying to grow a beautiful oak tree through concrete.
It can happen.
But the cracks created along the way are difficult to cover up.
We can try and fix them.
But they're still there.
Perhaps your voice feels unheard.
Perhaps then you become quieter and quieter.
And begin accepting that what you say won't be heard.
That your truth,
Your words,
You,
Don't matter.
The further away from ourselves we move,
The more off balance we become.
And nothing feels right.
We try and scratch the surface,
Define the answer,
But it's so much deeper than that.
It's like trying to row a boat to the moon.
We seem to be going in the right direction,
But still seeming so far away.
But you can get there.
You can get there.
And you just have to dig deep and remember who you were born to be.
To reconnect with your inner child.
To tell your child that you are safe.
That you are offering him love and reassurance.
At times in life we can feel as though we have lost our power.
The barrier is high,
But the waves can be higher.
Think about your inner child.
He's stuck.
What does he need?
He needs you to guide him.
To take his hand and say,
I've got you.
It's okay.
It's uncomfortable being off balance and I can feel a lonely place to be.
And yes,
Sometimes we have to stay with our pain and feel it in order for us to heal.
But sometimes we are ready.
Ready to stop.
Ready to step beyond that pain and discomfort.
We are ready to dig deep and rise.
Take a deep breath.
Breathe deep.
And with each breath in,
Dig deeper.
And ask yourself a question.
Where do I need to go?
Where do I need to go?
Where within my soul is the depth of me?
Only you have the answer.
Only our instincts.
And breathe in for one,
Two,
Three,
Four.
And out.
One,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five.
Go a little further.
Dig deep.
Dig deep.
Breathe in.
One,
Two,
Three,
Four.
And out.
One,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five.
And lower yourself down.
Breathe in.
One,
Two,
Three,
Four.
And out.
One,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five.
And find yourself at the centre core of you.
If you don't feel right there within,
It's okay.
It can take time and you're allowed to feel any way you need to feel right now.
People have different beliefs about what happened with their inner child.
That precious part of you.
But very often it is spoken that the inner child went through a trauma.
And then almost like the floodgates opened and a river ran through,
Thereafter all thoughts go through the same river.
And the inner child just can't grab onto the side.
The current is too fast,
Too scary.
And so the child begins to get used to the uncomfortable current.
And it begins to seem like too much effort,
Too much pain to hold onto the side and get out.
So they just continue in this current.
And there it is difficult.
And there it can be lonely and painful,
But becomes familiar.
I wonder if you can see yourself in a memory of potential discomfort,
But knowing that you are safe because you are not there now.
Only see as much as you're ready to see.
You're safe now.
Can you see?
Can you see him?
You're in a child standing in a memory.
How is he feeling?
Is he sad?
Is he happy?
Either way,
He needs you.
You can hold his hands.
You can embrace him.
He wants you to take care of him.
Every thought and event goes through this current.
Your inner child,
No fault of theirs,
Has a distorted experience of the journey itself,
Believing that it must be them,
The way they are,
But it's not their fault.
You are not to blame.
You were a child and it was not your fault.
It's time to offer yourself what you didn't have.
It's time to offer yourself compassion,
Kindness,
And the deepest love you have ever experienced.
You are your inner child.
What do you need to say to your inner child?
I won't prompt you because these have to be your words and your decisions.
And maybe you won't feel a connection right away.
And again,
That's okay.
Allow what will be to be.
Now what does he say to you?
What does he need?
Listen,
Allow,
Empathize,
And love.
Ah.
Ah.
Ah.
Ah.
Ah.
Ah.
Ah.
Ah.
You are safe.
Breathe well.
As we begin to bring our inner child back into our lives,
To recognize and relate,
He will help you to become clearer on what you want and need.
Because your wants and needs won't be coming from a place of simple acceptance.
They will be coming from a place of you,
Of great depth and thought.
And your inner child will help guide you as you guide him.
Rise high with your inner child.
Allow him to remember that you can ask for what you want.
And you don't necessarily need an agreement.
But it's time to start putting your needs and your wants to the forefront of your life.
You are worthy of being yourself and having those needs and wants met.
You don't need to be accepted by anyone else.
Just accepted by yourself.
And there your power will be.
The power of you.
As strong as a light from the moon.
As big as the brightest star.
As beautiful as the ocean.
Dig deep and rise high with your inner child.
Take care of him.
Take care of you.
You are worthy.
You are everything.
Everything you need is within you.
Thank you for all of your trust in me.
With love and with light.
Namaste.
