Find your way into a comfortable position.
Take a moment to arrange yourself,
Pillows,
Blankets,
Whatever you need,
Because we're not moving from here.
When you are settled,
Take a slow breath in and a longer breath out.
Allow the exhale to carry a little of the day with it,
Not all of it,
Just the layer that's right on the surface.
Imagine you've been travelling,
It's not an exhausting journey,
Just a long one,
A drive or a walk perhaps along a coast,
The kind of coast that's wild and a little grey,
Proper sea weather,
The wind off the water,
The waves doing what they do.
You can see a lighthouse ahead,
Not the kind that's a tourist attraction,
A working one,
Small and white,
Solid against the grey sky.
Next to it there's a cottage,
Low stone walls,
A pale yellow light in the window,
That light means there's warmth inside,
That someone has lit a fire,
That the inside is the opposite of the outside.
You open the door of the cottage and the sound of the sea drops immediately,
Not silent,
You can still hear it,
But muffled,
Like the walls have absorbed it,
Turned it into something ambient rather than loud.
Inside,
It's everything you needed,
Low ceiling,
A stone floor with a rug,
Thick and slightly worn in a good way,
There's a fireplace on one wall and it's going well,
The room is warm,
Not hot,
Warm.
Somewhere in the cottage there's food if you want it,
A kettle that's just boiled,
Everything you need is here,
Nothing you don't need is here.
You sit in front of the fire,
Or perhaps you lie down on something near it,
A low sofa,
Pile of blankets on the rug.
Whatever feels right,
The fire is the kind that's past its dramatic phase,
No roaring,
Just a steady,
Deep burn,
Orange and amber,
And the occasional quiet pop.
The light from it moves across the ceiling in slow,
Easy patterns.
Your face is warm,
Your hands are warm,
Your whole front is warm from the fire,
And your back is pleasantly cool against whatever you're resting on.
There's nothing to do except be here.
Outside,
The wind has picked up,
You can hear it around the corners of the cottage,
And the sea doing its thing,
Relentless,
Rhythmic,
Completely indifferent,
And you're inside.
There's something very specific about being warm inside when the weather is doing its thing outside,
A particular quality of safety that's hard to manufacture.
The outside making the inside more real,
The warmth actually meaning something.
Feel that,
The shelter of it,
The fact that the wind cannot reach you here,
The sea has nothing to do with you tonight,
You're inside,
You're warm.
The fire settles a little further,
The room gets slightly darker,
The light from outside has long since gone,
Your body has stopped holding itself up in any particular way,
It's given itself over to whatever it's resting on,
Your breathing has found the pace of the room,
Slow,
Easy,
Unhurried.
Outside,
The lighthouse beam turns a regular sweep of light around and around,
Doing its quiet work,
You don't need to do anything,
The lighthouse is taking care of the sea,
The cottage is taking care of you,
The fire is lower now,
Still warm,
Still enough,
The room has settled into its night time version of itself,
You can still hear the sea if you listen or you can let it become background,
Either is fine,
Allow your body to become heavy,
The warmth of the room to hold you,
Let the cottage walls do what they were built to do,
There's nothing outside that needs you,
There's nothing to track or solve,
The night will do what nights do,
Without your help,
You can sleep,
You're inside,
You're warm,
You are safe,
And let that be enough.