Hello beautiful soul.
I want to share my journey of awakening with you as I wrote it in my book called Be Nobody,
Become Everything.
First of all I want you to know that my awakening didn't come in the easiest way.
I've been going to a massive rock bottom where everything in my life started to not make sense anymore.
I was breaking up from my girlfriend which whom I was nine years in relationship with.
I was addicted to smoking three packs of cigarettes a day.
I was addicted to alcohol.
I was addicted to gambling.
I had no motivation to do my job,
To work.
I lost my job.
I lost pretty much everything and I want to share this journey with you because after I saw the reality I was living in I knew I had to do something good for myself.
So I decided to try quitting smoking.
There was an e-book on my computer that I had kept for years about quitting smoking.
I liked it so much because it had a unique approach explaining exactly what the chemicals in cigarettes do to our bodies and how they drag us into addiction.
This was also the first book I ever read from the beginning to end.
I was hooked on it and I'm especially grateful for it because this book not only helped me quit smoking but also initiated me into the biggest spiritual awakening of my life.
What I'm about to share with you is the most significant moment of my life.
I've had quite a few but this one was the reason why everything else happened.
As I was reading through this quit smoking e-book more than halfway through if I remember correctly I came across a paragraph that said something like this nothing can have control and power over you unless you let it.
It was referring to nicotine but in general this sentence applies to every situation or person.
When I read this sentence my whole body reacted.
I felt this current of energy flowing through me and I passed out in my desk chair.
In my heart I felt this immense aliveness.
It was warm,
It was love,
True love.
I have never felt such powerful energy in my entire life before or since.
I truly believe that for the first time my entire soul entered my body.
Suddenly I felt this connectedness and unity with everything.
With nature,
The plant and animal kingdoms and all humans on earth.
I felt like I was the entire planet and it didn't stop there.
It extended into the universe.
I felt like I was the entire solar system.
I could feel the connection and co-creation between all the planets,
Our sun and our moon.
It went even further.
I felt one with the entire galaxy.
I felt that I was the galaxy with all her spirals,
Stars and constellations.
I understood how everything worked together.
It was really fascinating.
I was feeling this and receiving visions at the same time.
This feeling radiated from my chest while the visions played into my mind.
Then out of nowhere I saw this huge puzzle.
Every piece of the puzzle was an experience in my past that led to that very moment.
The puzzle was completed at that moment.
The awakening was the last piece that I needed.
The liberation and freedom I felt are hard to describe in words.
Afterward I started to open my eyes and realized what had happened.
Everything changed inside me.
The alchemical composition of my human design,
My perspective,
My emotions,
Everything was different.
The immense love in my chest remained.
I went into the living room where all my friends were chilling.
I tried to tell them about my experience but I couldn't find the words.
I remember saying that I felt love for the first time and that I quit smoking,
Drinking,
Gambling,
Excessive gaming and anything toxic for my body in that instant.
They all looked at me like I was losing my mind.
Indeed I did.
I went to the fridge and grabbed a sandwich with salami.
As I was about to eat it I realized it had meat in it.
It didn't make sense why I should eat meat anymore so I threw it away and became a vegetarian just like that.
Days later we had conversation,
Me and my friends,
About what happened to me.
They understood to a degree but I couldn't feel it.
They were living it through me probably as you are right now and if you've had a similar experience then you know exactly what is like.
If not,
You might try to figure it out.
Don't.
Just receive it and trust that a seed has been planted.
Seeds are planted when we share our stories in the most vulnerable and truthful ways.
I explained to them that the only way forward is to fully accept where they are in their lives,
To fully accept the present moment.
That's what I eventually did.
It felt like until that point in my life we were all living in ignorance,
Resistance and denial of our own lives and creation.
But I had a wake-up call,
A massive one,
And I cannot describe how grateful I am to have experienced it.
If you're reading these words maybe this is your wake-up call as well or maybe it's just a reminder to have faith in yourself and your path.
Whether you've had an instant awakening like I did or a more gradual one,
We all have different paths.
I've met people who've been awakened since birth and other who've had an awakening so sudden and intense that they struggle to cope with their lives afterward.
Trust that whatever is meant for you will happen without forcing it.
I didn't chase any of this.
I didn't try to make it happen.
I didn't try to activate my Kundalini.
I didn't meditate or follow any spiritual practices until that point.
In fact I had no idea about spirituality whatsoever.
I was the biggest atheist I ever knew.
Your soul knows your unique puzzle and how to bring the pieces together for you.
I'm not saying that spiritual practices don't help,
They definitely do,
But ultimately be open and receptive to life's surprises,
To your own journey,
To your own path,
Which can go far beyond any effort to control your outcome.
If you enjoy this and you want to connect more with my work,
With what I do,
With all the courses I have here on Insight Timer,
Feel free to check out my profile,
Check out my page and see all the beautiful things that I'm sharing with you.
Much love.
