Before we begin,
I want you to consider something.
About the guard you carry,
The one that keeps a certain distance.
Even from people you trust,
Your body built that for you.
And without asking,
It too.
At some point you were hurt and your body found a way to keep you moving forward anyway.
Now that's not a flaw,
That's one of the most impressive things that's ever been done for you.
Today we're going to get a little curious about it.
Where is that God still doing its job?
And where might it be quietly holding you back from closeness,
Growth you actually want?
So let's begin.
There's a part of you that keeps a certain distance.
Even from people you actually trust.
It watches.
It waits.
It doesn't fully let its guard down,
Even when there's no real reason not to.
You might call it being independent.
But underneath that,
There might be something quieter.
A part of you that,
That.
.
.
Learned a long time ago that it's safer not to fully rely on anyone.
That's what we're going to sit with today.
Let's come into the body first.
Find a position that feels stable,
Feet on the floor,
Hands resting somewhere easy.
Slow breath in through the nose,
Let it drop all the way down.
And out.
Long and complete.
Notice if your shoulders are pulled up slightly,
Or your jaw is set,
Like you're bracing for something even now.
One more breath in slowly.
And I'll let it go.
Right now,
In this moment,
There's nothing to defend against.
You're safe here.
Think about a relationship in your life.
Close,
Maybe even good.
Where you still hold something back.
Not everything,
Just a piece.
A part of you that doesn't fully show up,
Even there.
Let that relationship come to mind.
Where do you feel that holding back in your body right now?
Stay with that.
Don't judge it.
Just notice what it feels like.
There's probably a tightness there,
A kind of readiness,
Like part of you never fully exhales.
That guard didn't appear for no reason.
At some point,
Trusting fully cost you something.
Maybe someone let you down when it mattered.
Maybe you learned that relying on people meant being disappointed.
Maybe it was never one big moment.
Just a slow accumulation of small ones.
So you adjusted.
You kept a part of yourself in reserve,
Just in case.
That wasn't weakness.
That was you,
Protecting something that mattered to you.
Who or what taught you that it wasn't safe to fully trust?
And is that guard still protecting you from something real?
Or is it just protecting you from the discomfort of being wrong about someone?
Here's what I want you to hold on to.
That God kept you safe.
Is not the enemy.
But a guard that's always up.
Even around the people who've earned your trust.
Stops protecting you and starts isolating you.
You don't have to drop it everywhere all at once.
Just start by noticing where it's actually needed.
And where it might just be a habit.
That distinction alone changes something.
One final breath in.
And out completely.
Feel the ground beneath you,
Steady,
Present.
Whatever came up today,
Let it sit with you quietly.
No pressure to act on it right now.
You don't have to trust everyone.
You just don't have to guard against everyone either.
Take your time coming back.
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