Introduction To My Healing Journey

This track is an introduction on how I came to be here today, a bit about where I came from, and what I plan to bring to Insight Timer as a teacher. Teaching, mentoring, and sharing my gifts, knowledge, and experiences is my soul's life purpose. I am grateful to start this new chapter of my journey and to walk with you on this planet we currently call home. Thank you for your support in being here with me, and I look forward to this new chapter. Much love and gratitude, Levi.

Transcript

Welcome,

My name is Levi and I am a new teacher here on Inside Timer.

I am very grateful to be here with you all today.

Today I will just be sharing a brief introduction about how I came to be here and what I plan to bring to Inside Timer as a teacher.

So since I was young I have encountered various types of abuse and also adoption as well and including in that adoption had also encountered various types of abuse.

With that trauma,

With that abuse,

I had been diagnosed with complex post-traumatic stress disorder also known as CPTSD.

I have also had many other mental health challenges in my life so that also included anorexia nervosa and some addictions.

I am grateful to be fully free of anorexia and addictions through the very very hard work I've done on myself and continue to do.

I am completely free of these disorders and very grateful for the people who helped me along the way and freeing myself from those challenges.

So CPTSD used to be the main focus in my life.

CPTSD used to be the one thing all day every day that would stare me dead in the face.

It was my biggest thing to confront and for a long time I was very confused.

I used to be so incredibly fearful.

For a large portion of my life growing up,

I did not recognize that all the things that I needed like strength and bravery,

You know,

Wisdom,

Love,

Power,

Courage,

All those beautiful things and more,

You know,

For the longest time I was constantly seeking these things outside of myself or looking for these things in something more materialistic.

I did not know where to find these things.

For the longest time I had no idea that everything I needed I already had within me the entire time.

I had,

You know,

For the longest time I had no sense,

No sense of purpose or direction.

I used to feel incredibly alone and isolated and just hopeless.

You know,

For the longest time I remember so many people commenting,

You know,

On my eyes how hollow my eyes looked.

It was very daunting to listen to these comments and I was the type of person that would never,

I would never admit to feeling off in any way.

You know,

Back then to admit to,

You know,

Admit to feeling off in any sort of way for me was to be weak because,

You know,

In my household I was conditioned that way.

You know,

I was brought up that way and there was a lot of harm done to me in many ways if I showed emotion that way.

So I had learned from early on that it wasn't safe.

But I had no idea that along my way in life that that perception,

That reality would shift for me for the better.

I had no idea that someday down the road I would find freedom.

I would find not only relief but peace,

Healing,

Love,

Unconditional love.

You know,

I would find all the things I had already inside me.

I had no idea that that day would ever come.

I always was in a constant loop of fear and denial and rushing through life,

Surviving through life,

Not living,

Running,

You know,

All these different things.

I had so much darkness to me and I was so closed off to people.

I've had many,

I've made many attempts to,

You know,

Have my exit to the other side early.

I've had so many attempts because I just could not see the light at the end of the I just could not see any way through the darkness.

You know,

It wasn't until the day that I finally decided for the last and final time to leave two of the most toxic and harmful people in my life.

And once I decided to do that,

I truly committed to it.

And with my therapist's help,

And I still see this therapist to this day,

With my therapist's help,

I was able to fully commit and I was able to gather all the things I had inside me and use them with all the strength I had in me,

All the power I had in me.

I harnessed all the gifts that were within me and I brought them out and I really worked with them.

I dug in deep and I began to really work on manifesting at this point.

And so basically,

I chose to make one of the biggest moves in my life and move about 18 hours away from these people.

And in this time,

Knowing that this is coming to an end,

That I'm going to be okay,

I'm going to be safe,

I am going to find a home,

Somewhere that I have a sanctuary that I can make myself a home.

And through this time,

I was able to start my transition.

I am a trans man.

I'm very proud to be a trans man.

I'm very happy to be a trans man and living as my authentic self.

And during this commitment to leave and go towards something bigger and brighter,

Somewhere safe,

Somewhere where I could have a brand new life,

Brand new me,

Brand new beginning,

Brand new challenges,

Brand new mistakes,

Brand new blessings,

Just brand new everything,

Like a total fresh start.

I worked so incredibly hard,

Saved up as much money as I could.

I was able to get some donated money from the church where I resided in the city that I resided in.

And I was able to make it work.

I was able to make that move.

So I took my cat and we together went into this U-Ride and drove 18 hours,

Just my cat and I and the driver,

To the city that I currently call home.

And it is truly home.

It's remarkable and beautiful and sacred,

And I wouldn't have it any other way.

And so we finally get home.

And it wasn't long after that,

I started to make connections.

And those connections turned into making friends.

And those friends turned into making,

You know,

Chosen families,

Not just one,

Not just two,

But,

You know,

Much more than that.

You know,

I started to go out every single day or almost every single day.

And I became social.

I became adventurous and thrill-seeking and excited.

And so many things have just kept on building for me in the terms of freedom and joy and abundance and love and connection and stability and security and safety.

Like the blessings continue to come.

The doors continue to open.

I can now say that I have so much confidence in me that I would have never seen coming.

I have so much peace and freedom in me now that I never thought was possible.

I'm actually able to receive unconditional love,

And I'm able to give unconditional love.

And that was the biggest thing,

The biggest thing that I've always wanted,

Other than to be physically safe as well.

Love was the biggest thing.

And I go from a previous life of feeling very unlovable,

You know,

Due to all the shame and all that.

And now,

Where I'm at now in this brand-new phase of life,

This brand-new city,

Brand-new people,

You know,

Brand-new everything,

I have that self-worth and that self-love and that self-respect that I've been yearning for for all these years.

I have so many blessings,

So much abundance,

So many doors are opening for me right now.

And it's remarkable.

Sometimes it feels very surreal.

And it's just,

It's amazing.

It's amazing just how much tapping into your gifts and tapping into the shadow,

Tapping into the magic,

You know,

Truly believing in the miracle of healing.

Healing is a miracle.

It is a gift.

And to be able to tap into the belief and the trust in that is profound.

I am definitely manifesting a lot of greatness in my life right now.

And I am just so grateful to be able to share,

To share my blessings,

To share,

You know,

To share different,

So many different ways,

So many different tools that I've cultivated,

So many different gifts that I use along my healing journey,

Along,

You know,

With manifesting.

You know,

There's just so many things.

It's limitless.

And so I'm just very grateful to be able to share this with you and to be able to connect with you and to stand beside you and walk with you on this healing journey.

And I'm just very excited for this chapter of my life to start.

I do know,

I did find out about probably a few years ago,

Now I don't remember if it came to me in a dream or it was just a download,

But I did get the confirmation from Spirit that teaching,

Mentoring,

You know,

Sharing these gifts is my soul's life purpose.

And so I'm here.

I am here and it is time.

It's divine timing.

And what a wonderful gift.

I am incredibly grateful.

Thank you so much for being here and for your support and for your love.

And yeah,

I am excited to continue on this journey with you guys and I will talk to you soon.

All right.

Bye for now.

Much love.

Reviews

Dear Levi thank you for so bravely sharing all of you. So glad you're here. Looking forward to connecting with you and sending so much love 🩷

Well done! 🙏 So happy for you! 💚 Thank you very much for sharing. ❤️🙏🎉

Amazing and inspiring Levi. Thank you for sharing some of your journey. You give hope to people when they have no hope. I look forward to hearing more, especially about manifesting but also of your other gifts and blessings.

Wow Levi, you did such a beautiful job to describe your journey so succinctly! I know you are going to help so many people with your kind and courageous heart! I am so proud of you and honored to know you! 🤗🎉💖

Dearest Levi- thank you for your sharing your journey back to courage, healthy beliefs, magic, manifesting and healing. It’s an honor to hear your story and walk alongside you. much love and many continued blessings your way. 👏🙌💫🔆😎❤️

Levi, what an incredibly vulnerable and beautiful introduction! You are truly an inspiration and I feel honored to call you friend 🥰

I am so proud of you 👏 I am so excited for you ❤️ I am so happy for you 🙏well done!!! Congratulations dear one 🤗