The story I remember still moves me in so many directions.
I recall the pain.
It is too hard to get it out of my mind.
The visions,
The stories,
Every feeling that came still comes.
Can I look at the world in a different way than what I remember from before?
I keep seeing too many people in pain and dying right in front of me.
Opening the heart to recognize what I remember from yesterday is still here now.
I can focus on that story in a new way.
No longer fighting with the memory.
I can look at me,
Look at the world from my eyes,
How I understand what is happening.
A heart-opening moment when I can look inside of me to see the world I see comes from me.
Opening the heart,
Stillness in the mind.
No longer fighting with myself to get what I need.
The hard times I have seem to revolve around something or someone else,
But I take it home with me.
If I could see everybody as my teacher,
Then what I experience now from the pains of yesterday,
I can look in a new light for tomorrow.
My compassion is blocked when I struggle too hard to find love for myself.
On a deeper level of compassion,
It must come to me too.
The memory of the sickness and the dying around me so quickly,
With no time to think about me,
Helped me to give selflessly.
Can I return to that when I take care of me?
I can burn up all those feelings in myself that want to destroy the joy I have for taking care of those in need.
How to be brave and know that I can make the changes in the world I see.
I take a moment to look at the pain,
The suffering,
The feelings that are way too big for any person.
And I bring that to my heart.
I want to burn it to dust,
Then crumble the dust to air,
Gone forever.
Every sickness,
Every tear,
All the sadness and the sorrows of the world are burning away inside of me and my determination to love myself and to love you just the same.
The fire of that love will end all the suffering.
My body is blazing in light.
Every naked emotion is gone in this moment,
For this moment.
Walk through the world and turn everything into a path.
The road that takes us to tomorrow,
Knowing that the way that I have been so caring to others will be here for me.