What Am I Taking Too Seriously? A Poetic Bedtime Meditation

Part of enlightenment is humour at the illusions of this life. Are you laughing? This bedtime meditation was recorded during an Insight Timer "LIVE" event. A question was selected from a bag containing hundreds; we then reflected, pondered, and generated this meditation together. A gentle, creative meditation explored with a humble heart. Ride the waves of consciousness with your guide Robert Halley into the many spaces of your being, quite often to other dimensions relaxing into a deep sleep.

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What am I taking too seriously? What am I taking too seriously? What am I taking too seriously? Hmm, Perhaps this meditation for one. But can I be still and quiet and committed and disciplined and focused and not take on that title of seriousness? Maybe I sit in contemplation, Quiet in contemplative play. My cells dance in my body. My face may not sport a smile. Laughter may not fall and flow hour on hour, But it may not mean I'm taking it seriously. So what am I taking too seriously? My body, My appearance, My quest for love, Companionship, How the governments govern us, Rob us with taxes. Is this whole thing an illusion? Am I dancing like a maze, Like a mouse, Like mice in a matrix? Why does it hurt then? Why does it frustrate me? Am I free to not care? Hmm, How does discernment play a role in all of this? When did I lose my smile? Why can't I remember the last time I laughed, Laughed to tears and cramps? Isn't my commitment to me, To this adulting world of savings and investments and stable work, Isn't that celebrated, Respected? And how I contribute to myself, Society, My family, My friends. The days turn into weeks, Into months, Into years, Into decades. And sometimes that face that looks back is one of an upside-down smile, But just like a yin-yang symbol. I know I can turn that frown upside down and welcome back more lightness of being. What am I taking too seriously? Probably the whole plight of humanity. This duality can really do a number on you when you see the suffering. Maybe it's all of life in general. The collective consciousness hasn't reached that tipping point where we're in love more than fear. And it disturbs me because I'm there. I'm doing the inner work and I'm not going to be aloof to the destruction of my species, Of the million other species. My seriousness is actually a formal affair of my passion, My love, My joy, Of the beauty of creation. And maybe that is what is lurking behind the rigidity of this so-called mask, Realm, Boxed opinion that, Oh, Why are you so serious? If you saw what was behind that, It is a crystal gown of passion, Of ideas, Of concepts, To problem-solve, To creatively spark solutions. My perfect day, My inner sanctuary, It's all contained behind what you seem to want to judge as being too serious. I thank you for reminding, Awakening that reminder in me for what I take too seriously. There is no one or nothing more powerful than the mirror of another. Who do you spend the most time with? Sometimes there is an upgrade that we are avoiding. People come in cycles and seasons and maybe those opinions, They don't connect with where and who and how you are. So maybe it is the actions, The opinions of my so-called friends, Acquaintances, Families that I'm taking too serious. I live with me. You're not in my head, You're not in my heart. I live with me. Maybe it's time that I let your opinions go to let the judgment of others go well. What am I taking too seriously? Your judgments of me. But it's over. I woke up to the trick and my echo of awareness of being a perfectionist and how this realm and layer and goo and ooze of seriousness comes over me. I can put myself on this unreachable pedestal of my own journey with recovery in multiple months and the expectations I have as if it's been 20 years or more. I'm taking too serious that I shouldn't have cravings. I'm taking my humanity too serious. Something about my world, Something about my community, Something about my life is not supporting me. And then the spotlight is on me, My shadow. That it's on me that I'm taking things too seriously. When as a society, As a world, As a whole, We're not set up for loving kindness and success. How dare you blame me for being serious when it is a projection of what's going on and how we're not meant to live this way. I breathe. I see. I conceive. Another version. What am I taking too seriously? My changing body, Getting bigger, Getting smaller. The different expressions as I evolve in age. It's not the end of the world. Judgment of others, Judgment of myself. There is that inner critic. Then maybe it would be wise to start hearing as a trickster, As a joker, As my inner comedian. Lord knows that laughter medicine will be good for my soul. I take my overthinking too seriously. Hmm. But with the awareness of, The million thoughts, The million ideas, As fast as they come, I am learning to rapidly let them go, Let them flow. They're just visitors. I am the wizard with my wand of intentional thought to guide the sparks in, The sparks out. Maybe I'm taking reality too serious and I forget that I am my own magician, Healer, Doctor, Teacher, Guide, And then I don't have to do this alone. Hmm. Maybe I'm taking myself in that safe career, The safe comfort zone too seriously. Having these thoughts is awakening a deep urge, A birthing to listen to my deep inner guide, Inner soul, Authentic self. Once you expand you can't go back and I'm shifting into the vibration of joy where smiles come more freely, Laughter wings glide me through to feel splendors of adventure. Some in my head. I don't care what people may say or think with my spontaneous laughter. I know it's a ripple effect and I'm happy to be a creator in that regard. Joy is real. All seriousness melts away. Joy is real. All the seriousness melts away. Joy is real. Joy is real. Joy, Joy in my heart. And so it is. And so shall it be. Let this joy be and let it be now. Inhale. Exhale. Return to breath naturally. Bring ease and flow to mind, To body. Thank you. Thank you. And thank you again. The divine in me respects and honors the divine in you.