Sometimes the best way to do this is to just talk about my direct experience and then as I dive into that you can sort of see where it applies to your own life and as it relates to deep spiritual insight and creating an awesome life.
I could just go to the moment at hand and look at what my experience is and see all of the different lives I could be creating in this moment.
I could be creating pissed off life given the circumstance,
I could be creating a sad life,
I could be creating a funny life,
All wrapped around the same circumstance.
And so let me share a little bit about my direct experience and then we will interweave that with some profound spiritual insights and see if that exposes anything that's relevant for you.
So here I am doing a live video.
I almost cancelled it because I'm not feeling well.
I have super super low energy.
I was in bed most of the day yesterday and I'm processing a flavor of detox.
So I'm not necessarily surprised by this.
It's just part of a process and then in combination with that right outside this ear I have a bunch of dogs barking and then out on this side is some sort of construction project.
So you can see the situation.
Right like here I am trying to work and I don't feel well and there's noise all around.
And this sets up the potential to have a life that might be less than ideal or a circumstance that's less than ideal.
And one of the insights that I often point to and we don't even have to say this is spiritual but to me everything is spiritual in nature.
But that insight being that my internal world,
My emotional state of being is never responding to what's happening out there.
It's never responding to circumstance.
It's always and only responding to my perception.
It's responding to how I see circumstance.
And so if I show up here and I have a particular outcome in mind,
An expectation such as I'm going to show up here and I'm going to feel awesome.
It's going to be super quiet.
I'm going to be able to focus,
Be able to stay on point and I'm going to deliver something of value that looks and sounds how I hope it will sound.
Now if I have that sort of expectation which we might also call a demand as I encounter which appears to be the opposite of it,
Then you can see how that conflict will create an interpretation that is saying something is going wrong.
Furthermore,
The more I'm attached to the outcome the more of a problem it'll be.
And this is maybe another deep spiritual insight.
To be attached to outcome is essentially saying that my worth and value is determined by the end result.
Meaning we have this future projection and case in point this experience where I might have an idea of how this should go.
The attachment to that outcome says if it ends up how I think it should be then it means that I'm worthy.
It means that I'm good enough.
Now you can see if you get the opposite then it means I'm the opposite.
Which is so interesting because in our search for wholeness,
In our search for being complete,
There's so many potential interruptions to that quest,
To that place we're trying to get to.
And of course those interruptions become annoyances,
Become enemies so to speak,
That are in our way as we endeavor toward some version of ourselves that we think is enough.
And this is really at the core of all of our flavors of suffering and it's also at the core of the human experience.
And granted it takes a degree of self-honesty to really see this that within the human experience there is a confusion which is on a quest trying to find wholeness in the future.
