What Is Non-Attachment

With her signature humor and ability to put words to vague perceptions and feelings, together with her healing touch, Premasudha's work is life changing. She has a truly great knack of assisting people out of the emotional prison of their ego/intellect into true freedom. This means that sometimes even serious diseases disappear too, as part of the emotional shift into a new more love-based understanding.

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As I prepared for this Zoom about attachment,

I was thinking about attachment so deeply and about,

You know,

We all know if you try to like grab the wind in your hand or water,

How useless it is.

And,

You know,

I think any of us who've been like sort of madly in love with somebody or wanting somebody to phone and be with us and that grasping feeling,

Or if we've really needed money,

You know that feeling.

And,

You know,

On one level we're light beings and we really are just pure light.

We're light,

You know,

Everything's made out of energy.

It's just light.

But we're manifesting here as mammals and mammals are comfortable with their caves and food and a partner,

Herd.

And so we live,

You know,

We humans live in that the tension between the fact that we're just pure light and love and we're mammals and sort of will be somewhere on the spectrum,

You know,

More towards the light,

More non-attached or more in the mammal more attached.

And one of the great things about getting older is,

You know,

You make a lot of spiritual progress just as a by-product of the gray hairs or the white hairs really,

So you know,

You don't have to stress and strain about our progress because the years on the spiritual journey will just bring us to greater wisdom.

You know,

All those days,

All those dreams,

Nighttime dreams all those events,

All those meals,

All those experiences,

They just bring you forward.

And remember,

God is doing the whole thing.

You know,

It is one whole,

The world.

It's one thing,

One whole.

And you know,

It's expressing God's will basically.

And so,

You know,

We can really desire to unite with God and bond with Ama or Neera or that's really what we can do.

We can do that with all our heart and,

You know,

Cry for God and then that will actually solve our attachment as a by-product.

It is so simple.

It's just difficult,

The journey.

It's just so simple.

But you know,

Living it and say,

Being behind on your mortgage and still trying to have faith in God is a whole other experience.

Or,

You know,

Not having enough to eat like some people.

I can feel you all now.

I can,

I'm beginning to feel you all.

Yeah,

Your presence is,

And what's going on.

So I'm going to be working with you.

I might not be quite so explicit about all the ways I'm working with you because I think when people come to watch the video,

The Zoom,

It leaves them kind of at sea.

So I may work more energetically with you,

But I'll tell you by turning up for something like this,

You're signaling to the universe and to your own subconscious that you're really wanting a shift.

That's it,

Yeah.

I can feel how much all of you want to shift.

Yeah,

And it's our time.

We're in the speed up time right now where it really is possible to drop lifetimes of material.

I read somewhere that astrologically this next year that the mainstream was going to really open to this kind of material,

You know,

To the true meaning behind everything,

Which should be interesting if like a little destabilizing,

But still,

I mean,

It has to,

So.

It's like,

Don't be,

You know,

We all get scared.

Like,

Remember we're mammals.

So mammals get scared,

You know,

Their house food or their herd or meat is threatened.

So it's really easy to get scared.

It's just,

It's a function of your mammalian self.

It's not really real though,

Because it's all light.

So the whole thing really is just sort of ridiculous in a way,

But we're in it and we're here to learn.

Yeah.

Okay,

That's very good.

Okay.

You know,

The thing is attachment makes us unhappy.

If you think about little kids,

You know,

When remembering when you were a little kid,

You didn't need much to be happy.

For me,

It was like a sunny Saturday morning was just my idea of bliss.

Their culture,

As we all know,

Is really oriented to human worth being what we own,

How much money we have.

Like we're so blatant,

We'll say somebody's worth is,

You know,

$800 million.

I can feel that you're all needing permission,

Permission to accept yourselves,

To love yourself.

Yeah.

We're in this culture where,

You know,

Most of us have kind of agreed to us in a way that's not really natural.

It's more like our culture,

The way we've been taught.

So just noticing it really,

Noticing it and noticing it,

How it distorts your experience.

I remember in England,

I used to buy a paper on the,

You know,

Get the bus to work and I'd buy a paper on the way and then I'd read it and give the paper away at the end of my trip.

And I remember walking into work and just mentioning that,

You know,

I gave my paper away after having read it.

And this person went,

Oh,

You shouldn't have,

You bought the paper,

You shouldn't give it away.

Like,

But I read it.

What,

Like I'd finished with it.

It was just going to be burdensome if I tried to keep it.

So,

You know,

Noticing these things,

Just noticing.

Do you know what I'm actually feeling is,

Because self-acceptance,

You know,

The need for self-acceptance,

All of you.

So that will help,

You know,

It's the need,

It's when we accept ourselves,

We come back to being like a child and we don't need so much because we accept ourselves.

So whether we have a house or a car we've got,

It doesn't really make a difference.

Just as you become as little children,

You cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.

So,

You know,

Self-acceptance and you can even get subliminals,

YouTube,

To help with that.

Because I'm really feeling it,

Everybody could do with some of that more would help.

I can feel a little bit of a barrier and this is normal,

You know,

At the beginning,

Our shells come up and even the people watching after the video,

Well,

They experience that too and a clearing around their shells,

A little bit of self-protection,

You know,

For our gentle hearts,

Which really we can experience really is dangerous,

Which is so sad,

You know,

Love is dangerous.

It's so dangerous,

Isn't it?

Well,

You know,

The more attached we are,

The more we'll experience fears of really letting ourselves love.

Yeah,

Because our eco thinks our safety is in what is outside us,

What we're attached to.

The thing is,

You guys,

Because everything's light,

The attachment thing doesn't work,

There's no safety in it at all.

You know,

It can all disappear overnight,

Our money,

Our house,

Our partner,

Our kids.

There's no real safety.

And also,

You know,

The more attached we are,

The more we'll be disappointed in them anyway.

It's like our mates or our children will never live up to what we want for them,

Because that's coming from our attachment and ego often,

You know,

Unless we're really got a developed heart where we just want,

You know,

Them to express their soul energy.

But then if we're attached to that,

And they don't express their soul energy,

Then that upsets us.

It's really a mug scheme,

You know,

It's no fun attachment at all.

And yet to clear it,

We actually have to experience some,

You know,

Pain.

And who wants to do that?

So maybe with the Zoom and for the people watching later,

You can just decide to let some blocks or resistances lift pretty painlessly.

Why not?

Why not?

You could even imagine,

You know,

A thread between you and your attachments,

And you can imagine just cutting the thread.

And not that you would necessarily lose any of these things,

But if you lose your sense of attachment,

You can actually enjoy them.

Enjoy life.

It's hard in cultures where people are measured by things,

You know,

By what they own.

I mean,

I think it's a form of insanity myself.

It just creates these people,

These guys who've got like $10 billion in their bag account.

It's like,

And people are starving.

I wonder what they'll think on their deathbed when they pass over to heaven about their $10 billion.

All of you have permission to be yourselves,

Please.

There's nothing more beautiful,

There's nothing more precious,

Nothing more valuable,

Nothing more captivating than your true self.

I mean,

What could be better than that?

You know,

I mean,

What car or what house or what club could be better than that?

Yeah,

That's it.

You know,

Everybody who's present in the Zoom is female.

So one of the things about us is we attach,

The female attaches.

She has to,

She gives birth.

So we have to attach to our kids,

Otherwise we wouldn't take care of them.

So we have to attach and we have to attach to our partners.

This is the feminine aspect of humanity.

And it's wonderful.

You know,

When the feminine attaches to God,

That gives her the freedom to,

Something the mama said,

The process,

If you want to grow in a life,

This is really priceless knowledge information.

So,

You know,

Open yours,

You attach,

Then detach and then make a shift,

Take a step.

And then you attach again,

Detach and make a shift.

So,

You know,

When she's hugging people,

She hugs and she's so there for them.

And then,

You know,

As the hug finishes,

Often before the person is ready,

The person will still want to be trying to hold on to their connection with Ama,

But she's already kind of come back to herself in preparation for the connection with Ama.

She's already come back to herself in preparation for the next hug for the person.

So that's the,

You know,

She hugs,

She's all there.

She pulls back,

That's the detach,

And then makes a shift and then hugs the other person.

Now,

As a female,

The more you attach to God and the more you're flowing in the river of love,

The more you'll attach and detach to people seamlessly without fights,

Really.

So often what we do is we're getting too attached to our child or a partner.

So we'll have a fight to kind of make more room.

And then often when,

You know,

In the aftermath of a fight or a conflict,

We might have an insight come up,

And then,

You know,

And then that helps clear the way and we attach again.

But the more you're bonded to God,

The less,

I mean,

I hate to say it,

But the less you expect from people,

Like this is what I've learned.

I just don't expect much from people.

And I expect a lot for myself and a lot for my connection to God.

And then I can let people be by and large,

I can be unconditional with them.

It's taken me a long time to get here.

It's taken me through a lot of disappointments,

You know?

And the disappointments were just to teach,

You know,

A prima sudah that she needed to bond her soul and stop asking people to fit into her idea of reality.

This is something I think we all do,

You know?

We felt like our idea of reality.

And so we think people should behave in certain ways.

Where for a long time,

I used to think that,

You know,

If I was really illuminated,

That then,

You know,

This is kind of embarrassing,

Money would like pour in and I'd be able to like,

I don't know,

Have total comfort.

Well,

It's interesting.

It's,

You know,

There's some of that,

But,

You know,

Not so much.

And it's kind of,

I don't care.

But in the old days,

I was attached to that idea and it was good in a way because it kept me going.

One of the things that I've said this before about growing up in an affluent household is,

You can have all the things in the world and if you're unhappy,

It just doesn't make any difference.

It doesn't help.

I remember that line from Howard's end about that there is nothing more,

When you're moving,

There's nothing more ridiculous in your furniture.

And at one point I had a fourplex and a furnished fourplex.

And when I sold it,

There was furniture from four apartments,

Because I'd furnished it.

So four apartments that I had to get rid of.

Like the meaninglessness of it.

But beautiful things,

Like it's beautiful.

It's lovely to have beautiful things and look at the beauty.

It's all good.

It's just not if you have to sell your soul for it.

Then it's like covering everything with kind of coal dust.

I haven't found your heart yet.

It's OK,

It takes time.

There's a little bit of antsiness about the topic,

About the attachment,

Which I so understand.

Again,

We're brought up in this culture that emphasizes things so much,

But just by turning up here,

Opening the door to a shift.

Truth.

You know,

I remember when it dawned on me that our idea of being grounded,

I read somewhere that men kept women grounded and it kind of bothered me.

What I realized is our idea of grounded means taking care of the bottom line,

Like actually doing the things to accumulate.

That's considered grounded in our culture,

Really.

But,

You know,

For Aboriginals,

They bond to the earth through the divine.

So they.

They're being grounded is just a very light,

You know,

Enjoying the earth.

Well,

Knowing that they're more than just physical beings,

And that is a whole other approach to being grounded,

And it brings happiness,

I promise you.

Yeah.

So you just,

You know,

Take care of your,

You know,

Pay your rent and everything,

But you do it with kind of a lightness.

You know,

There's a sadness and a loneliness under our attachments,

And that's what needs healing you guys.

And that,

You know,

Like I'm always talking about self-compassion or this,

You know,

Subliminals and self-acceptance.

Because when you really accept yourself,

You don't need a prop.

You don't need any props.

Yeah,

I'm feeling the sadness.

And kind of a loneliness.

Yeah,

Well,

That's what happens when we're not connected to our souls,

You know.

It's kind of a sadness and an emptiness,

And we try and fill it with things or people or,

But they will always finally disappoint us because the point of being here is to bond with our soul.

So you'll find that things never fulfill you,

Really.

They just won't,

Unless you've had,

You know,

Not so many lifetimes,

But any older soul,

They're just,

It's just not going to do it.

You can still have the things.

It's like the things are just like sort of,

It's,

It is kind of neutral.

I mean,

If you're bonded to your soul,

You can have things and be light.

And if you're not bonded to your soul,

You will have a kind of a grasping hold on things.

You know,

You guys,

You've heard me say this so many times,

I think,

But I find that we're so,

I would say stupid in what we're doing,

It's like,

And I don't understand it because we know all those experiments where they,

With the monkeys and the mums who they didn't have mums,

Or they weren't allowed to spend much time with their mums.

And they got fixated on their blankets and their bottles,

And they did not make,

They couldn't bond with other monkeys in adulthood.

And they were fixated on,

You know,

Their blanket finally,

And their bottle was taken away.

And it's like,

We're making people like that because we're not,

We're not,

We are so ignoring the female bonding to the child,

The mother child,

You know,

Bond.

That's where,

That's,

It's in that,

Right in there that we get,

It's in the gap between what we needed and what we got that we get attached.

And we,

To avoid feeling that pain again,

We will attach to things or people or ideas or whatever.

And it will always take us to the glitches,

To our maternal pain,

To our mums,

To that pain.

And if we go through that pain,

God,

We will go directly to our soul.

But,

You know,

The rub is,

You know,

And I understand why.

First of all,

It takes time for the psyche to,

You know,

To feel all this pain at a pace you can stand.

And most people don't want to do it.

And so,

But the thing is,

You guys,

If you don't,

If you don't feel some of the deeper sorrow and find a way to make a safe place for it and go into it for short periods,

You can't really get what I'm talking about.

You know?

Well,

But you can do it through a high level of pain.

Well,

But you can do it through a hype from Amma,

Or you can do it through body work too,

Through a really wise person or spending time with a master.

You can do it that way.

That's really easy.

But otherwise,

It's you sort of when you're meditating,

Feeling some decrease and calling on help from God.

And that will clear your attachments.

It will.

Because you'll attach to God,

You'll start embodying your soul energy.

The thing is,

You know,

If we don't do it,

We just get circle round in the same stuff.

Really,

I think,

You know,

Women should all get together and just hold each other as they sob,

Really.

You know,

Vivekanda said,

I mean,

This is just going to depress you guys.

But Vivekanda said that if you're a woman,

The best thing you can do is to sit down and cry.

And what he was talking about was how far to the masculine this world was.

And it was by females feeling the sorrow of it,

That the.

The bold of the world,

We write it that we'd find start finding a balance between male and female.

If we women,

If we just suck it up,

You know,

What's going to change?

But I know it's like the duty is always on the women.

I mean,

Not only do we have to earn a living to take care of the kids,

Now we have to feel the world sorrow and it's like,

You know,

It's way too much for one person.

But you're doing what you can.

You're turning up for this.

And I can feel all of you,

You're making a bigger place in your hearts now for yourself to be able to feel.

Yeah,

Because,

You know,

When you make space in your heart.

So that you give yourself space to feel.

That's how you move into non attachment because you're you're you're attached to your own.

Process.

That's it.

I can feel it now.

I'm very grateful for this.

I mean,

It's the meaning of my life to share this knowledge.

And I can't tell you how it's the greatest gift for any kind of teacher is when.

When individuals when you shift like this,

Because what happens is if you don't shift,

The love comes out for me.

And then if it's not received,

It comes back to me and that takes more work for me to do that.

Whereas if it goes to you and it's received,

Then it shifts in me immediately.

So thank you.

That's it.

We all need each other.

You know,

No woman is an island.

No man is an island.

That's it.

If you think this way,

That this is a time when.

It's the easiest time for like 35000 years to make a shift.

Like I read that,

But we're in this particular time that comes once every 35000 years,

But beyond that,

We've got these other cycles where someone like Ama or Meera,

They're here.

You know,

There are a number of these people that are here and their presence on the earth.

What that does is it strengthens your soul connection when these people are here.

When there are a lot of them.

Strengthens your soul connection.

So it makes it easier for you to hear and also easier for you to grow and easier for you to drop things like let go of issues and things.

So we might as well do it now because it'll maybe get harder later.

Again,

You know,

When this opening closes up,

It's 1950 to 2050.

About is this time that we've had.

I'll tell you,

You know,

It's funny,

It is from,

You know,

The 1950 where we've had this,

You know,

Peaceful time.

And it's interesting what the human race did with it because we had this,

It was scheduled for us to be able to make these shifts,

Like to drop,

To grow,

To ascend,

To drop this old ideas that were holding us back.

And,

You know,

The symbol of the evolution,

I've said this before in the East is the tortoise.

Because,

You know,

Look at what we do with it,

What we've done with it.

We got the yuppies.

We got the 80s.

We got this crazy focus on accumulation.

I mean,

The hippie,

You know,

The hippie revolution turned into the opposite as usual to duality.

So we got this focus on things.

So now,

As we're 2020ish,

Where we got 30 more years and the pressure is building.

So now everybody's waking up and going,

Okay,

Okay.

But in a way,

It's the hardest ability.

It was easier,

Safer to wake up earlier when there was more stability.

So this is just,

You know,

The human condition.

And what we do,

We delay things like waking up.

And then when we finally wake up,

It's harder.

But oh,

Well,

We're waking up.

So that's the important thing.

I feel like that's depressed you a little bit.

But you know,

It's all a dream,

Really.

You know,

Although,

You know,

I always think the little munchkins who were alive today,

You know,

Get their hearts broken.

You know,

Non attachment,

We just get happier.

I remember when,

You know,

I had that cancer and I was in the hospital and I kept,

I mean,

Bless their hearts,

The doctor and the nurses,

They were all really nice to me.

But I kept on like shocking them because there was one,

I kept cracking jokes.

And there was,

I had to be examined and the nurse said,

Oh,

Do you want,

Should I go get you one of those blue things,

Blue costume things?

And because he was just going to,

The doctor is just going to check my chest.

And I said,

Oh,

No,

I'm too old,

It's fine.

The doctor and the nurse were like,

Looking at me like,

I mean,

They just weren't used to people,

I guess,

Being so lighthearted in the cancer agency.

But,

You know,

I was pretty non attached.

And I knew I'd be all right.

I knew I'd be all right,

Because I had that connection to my soul was telling me it was okay.

And that's why the cancer got smaller.

It's so safe to bond with your soul.

There's some of you that really want to and you're scared to.

You know,

Often it's the thing around money.

All you have to do is decide to be karma,

Karma,

You'll be to when you go to work,

You do your work just as beautifully as you can.

And you give the results to God.

And you when you're,

You just detach from getting paid,

You get paid.

But it's like you're doing your work for God.

And it's sort of it's just that,

You know,

The money to live on whatever it comes,

But you doesn't have a heaviness or you're not focused on it.

Yeah,

That shift,

All you have to do is someone here who,

Whose soul wants them to make it is sort of like their couple here.

And you just decide that you're going that way.

And then your soul will show you how to do it.

It's our souls that,

You know,

Guys,

Your soul evolves you all you have to do is make room just go help and your soul will do it.

It'll bring the people you need or the experiences you need to I'm feeling with all of you,

You could just shift into more trust.

You can imagine just now taking a step into more trust pathway and just taking a step forward into this lit path.

That's it.

That's it.

It's a lot of how I grew,

I just kind of would do visuals like that.

The studio society.

It's so much safer to make progress into,

You know,

Live so that like the universe has to give you a shove.

Is a disconnection happening?

It may be coming up to be cleared for those of you maybe you all did stepped into the light.

So that's what will happen.

We'll do something like that.

And then resistances will come up.

But they're just resistances.

Remember,

You can't do your journey like somebody else,

You have to do it your own way.

You have to basically bond to yourself and listen to your heart and take the steps that your soul is telling you to take.

You can't do it on anybody else's timetable.

This above all to thine own self be true.

I don't know if everything I say makes sense,

It doesn't really matter because the energy is clear.

There's no hope that will help you no matter if you don't understand everything.

You know,

It may be uncomfortable,

But if you really want to do an exercise that will really promote you becoming non attached,

You know,

Picking up the baby that you were imagining the baby yourself,

And just focusing on loving that child that will steer your psyche towards love and acceptance of your full self because that little baby was a Buddha baby she or he knows.

So when you know that is it's like your psyche will start steering towards you moving into acceptance of your full self,

Not just your conditioned self,

Not just say the part that you know,

You know,

When we nurse with our moms,

We let go of part of ourselves because we can feel what is okay in the family,

Pick up the baby and really hold her him and like,

Really think about it and contemplate it is focusing on loving your,

Your whole self.

Your,

It will start clicking in these unused capacities,

You have will start flowing into your life,

It your life will get bigger in these very subtle but powerful ways.

You have to keep doing it.

You know,

Don't do it like for like three days and then you know,

Forget.

I mean,

There's somebody I've said it million times too and I still don't think she really does it with the with the kind of heart and intent that I'd hope that she would.

You have to really mean it.

Not like do it to please,

But to really want your whole being free this lifetime.

Yeah.

And you know what you can heal lifetimes doing that,

Because that child self,

She was carrying all these lifetimes so you can heal the bigger your heart can get.

The more you can embrace whatever it is about yourself that you don't like too much.

That's it.

That's it,

And even just be a few,

You know,

If you do that,

The child on your chest and may really pay attention to how you feel about that child.

You know whether you're numb to that child,

Whether you've like got like a kind of feeling of you I don't want to do this.

Like notice because this is showing you how you really feel about yourself.

Yeah.

I'll tell you,

You know,

If you put what I say to practice,

This is zero to 100 work.

This cuts through the crap and goes straight to the heart of evolution.

You know there's dogma in it.

Uh-huh.

So some of you have heard me,

But I kind of what I say goes into a bit of a box.

And I'm wanting you to like hear me differently this time.

Yeah.

This is zero to 100 work.

You take what I say,

You will just save decades off your journey.

But it's uncomfortable.

That's the rub.

But if you know what you're doing and you're making kind of an executive decision about it,

You know,

Executive cutting your losses,

You know,

Then you can do it with a lighter heart.

What have you got to lose?

And the thing is that the more you become yourself,

The more what's really yours will come to you.

So you don't have to fight for it and the people who love you will just come to you.

And you'll feel closer to them than you felt to,

You know,

Than your previous acquaintances.

Well you'll know you've got a soul connection go.

Some people here have soul connections going between them and they know like it's a soul level.

It's not like making contacts or joining a club because you want to get on in your business.

Although you know,

If you're doing the karma yoga approach,

Then you do those things,

But you're doing it to serve God.

You're doing it all for God.

It's just a little inward shift between the attachment and then doing it for God.

Did you get the same money?

It doesn't make any difference that way.

The big change that's coming is women are going to have to be brave.

You know,

We're going to have to go forward with this bigger female face of God aspect and stand there and model it and be it.

And the levels of fear from years of the patriarchy and witch burnings and everything,

But it's just baloney.

It's just smoke and mirrors.

It's like you come forward with your true nature.

It's way safer than hiding.

And hammering you guys a bit,

I'm lecturing you kind of,

You kind of pulled into your turtle shells.

That's okay.

That's what it's like.

Very beautiful.

It's just no nonsense work.

And that's why you guys love me.

But that's also why people are scared of me.

It's a joke.

You know,

It's just a comedy because really it's just love,

You know,

But.

No,

Our egos get rattled.

There's something to think about that whatever you're scared of,

It's already happened.

No,

We,

You know,

It's the early abandonment you experienced.

That's what you're scared of.

Like it's already happened.

Like our moms or parents,

They could only be there for us to some degree.

And in the gap where they couldn't be for us,

They couldn't meet us with what we needed.

Fear came in to our little munchkin hearts,

You know,

And we decided that,

You know,

Life was like,

Oh,

You can just be yourself.

You had to like,

Please your family and jump through coops to be acceptable.

And it's just going back and redoing that,

Rebonding yourself,

You know,

So that you 100% of you is acceptable.

Really you guys are all 100% acceptable to me.

I mean,

I'll point out your ego stuff,

But you're 100% acceptable.

Totally.

You're all in my heart.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's good.

I'm seeing you all like sitting around a fire with your hands,

Like for the warmth.

Yeah.

That's what we're like.

That warmth is in you too,

You know,

Some of you go to kind of level of pain and then you feel that pain and then you look to others or look to something to pull you out of it.

And then you leave it and you feel better.

But I'll tell you what I did was I would go down to that level of pain.

And then I'd go through that pain to a deeper connection to my soul.

And that's what I feel you guys need to learn to do.

The pain,

Feel the pain,

Very familiar.

We all know that kind of level of deep pain.

It's like,

Feel it till you connect to your soul.

What a lot of you are doing is you're stopping and coming back up.

Don't do that.

Go right through the soul.

If you feel your sorrow right through,

It turns into love.

Actually,

Anger does the same thing.

If you feel anger,

Don't act on it,

But you just keep feeling it.

It takes you to love.

All this stuff,

All this unhappiness in your egos will take you to love underneath.

It's your soul.

It's just where the ego formed over the soul,

Basically.

And you're strong enough to do it.

It's just sitting with the pain and not taking it too,

Not getting scared,

Just being with it and praying out of that.

Asking for your soul to really come in and help you.

Asking for God to come in for guidance and you will get it and it will lift you up.

And you guys,

This is where it's personal responsibility.

It's like if you don't let that happen,

Then you're going to be stuck with a short circuited life.

I mean,

One of the reasons I'm putting up the videos and I'm very grateful to Stephanie for having backing me with this,

Giving the support for this kind of knowledge to come forward.

Oh,

Deep,

Yeah.

Anger does turn into love.

That's what happened.

When I went through that really difficult phase and just acted out and just got totally caught in anger and expressed it all,

I finally got to love.

It's like,

Oh,

But first there'll be fear and grief in the underneath the anchor.

And that's that pain you guys go to when you even if you just feel it and ask for your soul to come in,

Your soul will download.

You will realize that when you come out of it,

You realize that you're more in your soul.

This is what this work is.

This is key.

This is key to this work.

And it's the thing that everybody has trouble with.

And you can hang around me for 10 years and not do it.

But it's way safer if you learn how to do that,

You can go through anything,

Anytime.

Nothing will stop you.

But I have great reverence for you all actually.

And I know how hard it is.

And I don't have those periods anymore.

So I've sort of forgotten them.

It's a little bit like childbirth pain.

I mean,

I know I had tremendous pain,

But I just don't go there anymore.

It's long forgotten.

So I know like I'm saying this,

But then it's another thing to do it.

But also I could walk with you through it.

And anyway,

You don't even have to do it.

It's okay.

But it will come at a time when we have our own,

It's a choreographed journey.

So it comes at a pace that you can handle.

So if you're working full time,

You got kids or whatever,

It's a different pace than if you were,

I don't know,

But I can't even know having children is very accelerated too.

So I wouldn't be who I am without my kids.

So it's a little bit of a quaking fear that's coming up to clear.

Yeah.

Yeah.

There's a lot of light behind it.

Yeah.

This is really good.

It's a kind of very quaking,

Like a kind of real fear of loss of control.

And it's just coming up to be healed.

That's very good.

Because our control doesn't work.

Anytime I look back at all my attempts to control is like good luck with that.

I have way more control now just as a byproduct of knowledge.

I hope that you don't have one negative thought about yourself or notice them.

Please notice because they're unjust.

Please don't do that.

And if you make a mistake,

Please don't be too hard on yourself.

Just take a mistake,

But don't spend three months going around in it.

Does anybody have any questions or comments?

Everybody gets monosyllabic with me.

I guess there's not much to say really.

I mean,

I don't know what you could say,

But I can feel in all of you this control.

What's happening?

It's as if your soul energy has been activated,

Which is actually the whole point of coming to a Zoom like this or watching it after.

It's like your soul energy is coming up and it's like you're allowing an awareness.

You either feel this now or later after it's finished.

The soul energy is coming up and allowing awareness about the futility of trying to control and how it doesn't work,

Makes you uncomfortable.

It's very narrow and you don't need it anymore.

That's it.

It's soul energy that's invincible and that can handle everything.

It's as if there's a clearing in your back of your neck around your self-esteem,

Your true self-esteem.

This is what solves things.

You register that you're a divine being and so you act differently.

You say different things and you become less attached to everything.

That's it.

So in all of you,

You're back in the next,

All of you.

The way attachment makes us,

It lowers our intelligence.

Like I know somebody who went to Ama once or twice,

I think,

And once I think.

And after the hug,

She cried for two hours,

Which is in any measure of a really enlightened being is our grief comes up,

Our fear and grief comes up.

Or grief and the fear and the anger comes up in their presence and we can heal it.

And this was two hours of grief for this woman who I know her.

Anyway,

At that time,

She was so attached to material things that she never went back to see Ama.

Even with going into that level of grief,

And she may not have even noticed that after seeing Ama that she was clearer.

See it's like we attached the wrong data.

She's probably attached to her pay grade,

But if she'd been attached to God more,

She would have gone back and seen Ama and become freer.

See this is the importance with attachment,

It blinkers us.

After sitting in Starbucks,

Parking Tilford around here,

I said,

This man,

I don't know if I sat next to him,

I came and sat down,

But he started talking about how he was going to buy property in L'Orland's Tale or something and going on and on and on.

He just wanted me to be an impressed ear to hear about him going to buy it.

And it's like he chose the wrong person.

But it was just sort of like I felt his loneliness and emptiness,

That he would be like talking like that to a total stranger.

Like I said,

It was the wrong person.

We attached the things out of our loneliness and our lack of bonding to truth.

No in the East,

They know that no spiritual seeker dies of hunger.

You know,

The sedus and the orange rope and everything,

It's just understood that they they can beg and they will always get whatever food they need.

What Christ say,

You know,

About the birds,

Don't worry about their food beyond the day.

Don't worry about their garments or their food.

It's you know,

What happens is you get so focused on truth and love and that you don't even think that way anymore.

And then everything I need comes.

You know,

With lots of ups and downs to it.

But I'm always all right.

It's like all of you could discover God in yourselves more deeply.

All of you could discover your souls more deeply.

It's making more room.

That's it more permission,

More permission.

Some of us have a we're on very tight ropes like we're very strict with ourselves about I don't know a lot of things like what we're allowed to say,

Even think.

Where we can just relax a little bit.

We don't have to be quite so rigid with ourselves.

Right,

I can I can I can really feel this.

Strictity is coming up wanting to be released.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You know,

Don't try to fix yourself ever because whatever if you're trying to fix yourself,

It'll just get it'll just get bigger.

Just whatever you find in yourself,

Just put your arms around it.

And it will if it's not the truth of you,

It will dissolve.

But if you fight it,

It will get bigger.

So don't fight anything.

Right.

Do you know and this from Andrea,

She's saying give yourself the benefit of the doubt.

Do you know,

Andrea,

That is what the German people really hold on to,

Too.

But they,

They put it like,

Side with themselves.

That's what they understand.

They don't give the benefit of the doubt doesn't translate to German as well,

I don't think does it don't seem to have an expression for that.

So I understand that like a side with yourself.

And in case,

How to be on your like that.

Yeah,

But listen,

It's really important to be really clear about how to side with yourself.

I don't mean side with yourself,

Like,

Indulgently.

I mean,

Side with the fact that you are eternal being side with that.

And then when you side with that,

You can side with your perceptions or your thoughts or feelings,

Just your take on life,

You can have more respect for it,

Regardless of whether it's understood or not.

I'm not talking about siding with yourself.

For like,

If you throw a temper tantrum,

It's like,

You know,

Side with yourself,

Like,

People use it like,

I'm not saying you do,

Andrea,

By the way,

But it has some other people have done this,

Use it as a indulgence to keep doing things that are not helpful.

From Asuda,

I was just thinking about it in the way of giving yourself the benefit of the doubt when you when you were saying,

Please don't have bad thoughts about yourself.

Right.

So it's like that.

That's what I'm that's what I know.

I know.

That's what you meant.

It was no,

No,

I know that I was just selling it out because there.

Yeah,

Just because I get what you mean.

But I mean,

Like,

For me,

It's like,

If you have,

Like some bad habits or things you don't like about yourself,

Just try to embrace or accept them,

But don't use to do them again.

Like,

You mean that?

No?

Yeah.

Well,

Yeah,

It's like,

Yeah,

Because it's like putting your arms around it and gently escorting yourself out of the bad habit,

Right?

As opposed to it's like an alcoholic.

There's somebody uses their will.

They're a dry drunk.

They use their will,

But they don't end up with the personal development that an alcoholic who stops drinking through allowing a higher power to help them and to making that room for the higher power.

It's sort of like.

But like,

You know,

Okay,

With eating like you put your arm around yourself as a flawed human being and you like say out of love for yourself that you want to take care of this body that is a temple for God.

So you you steer towards eating better.

See?

Yeah,

You don't want to keep just indulging bad habits.

This is what I'm talking about where it can get distorted the use of it.

Yeah.

This is the religious journey.

I mean,

This is the whole thing.

It's why the religious journeys,

They get corrupted by like these kind of misunderstandings.

But both of you get it like so I'm not.

Yeah.

I think one of the most important things I talked about is that sequence of attach,

Detach and step forward so that if we get too close to people,

We can strangle each other.

And that the more like say,

Instead of having a fight because you're too close to somebody,

The more you can.

Just work more internally,

Just say so you think to yourself,

Yeah,

Okay,

I'm too close.

Please help me detach a little bit more.

And then you will do all of you understand that if you have an intent,

The universe will make it true.

If you are united around an intent,

It will happen.

It's when you're conflicted about your intent that it won't happen.

So you could pray,

Bhavana about like with food,

You could a person could pray to be,

You know,

United in the intent to have better eating habits.

Yes.

Right.

Yeah.

It's,

It's things are solved by going working more deeply internally.

This is why it's so important to clear that deeper grief and shift into soul energy.

Because once you you've done it once,

You know that you can solve every obstacle in your life by doing that same process.

This is most of us are too scared to do it.

And I get I get I understand that.

But it's not that bad.

You know,

And once you realize you can tap into soul energy that easily.

It's pretty motivating.

See sometimes when we side with ourselves,

It's like reciting with our egos.

That's that's what I'm.

Yeah,

We have to side with our souls.

That's the other thing I want to say like I have been so scared that my hair stood up on end and you know,

It's not the end of the world,

It will it will just it comes up and it clears just sloughs off.

And then you have more love power.

You know,

I want to say that even though I've been emphasizing going through this grief to tap into your soul energy,

I really want to emphasize being patient with yourselves,

You know,

Not indulgent,

But patient.

You know,

The truth is some people are staying in their ego and they'll they'll kind of superficially try to deal with problems,

But their hearts not really in it.

They're in their ego and they're just playing a game.

They're not really serious about evolution.

And you know that that can happen too.

But you know,

I don't know what to say.

It's like I just did this my year for life.

This is my lifetime for like zero to 100.

It just is.

I wish I could say something would help make it feel safer to evolve.

Yeah.

So I'm seeing a big.

Like gate.

It's a big sort of big 10 foot tall gate.

It's a.

Wood,

A dark wood.

And it's interesting because it's like I'm seeing my little child self going and opening the gate.

And it's just opening into light.

It is our child self that knows.

How to grow.

At once too.

It's a lot of love coming to you all right now.

You don't feel it.

It's okay.

Just maybe you do though.

And just think to yourself,

Okay,

I accept this love.

I let it in.

Yeah.

It will help strengthen you.

You're all doing it.

Even if you don't feel it,

You're all doing it.

That's it.

It's a great thing about just turning up for one of these.

It's the turning up and just being with the process that.

That evolves you.

That makes the shift.

That evolves us all.

Me too.

That's it.

You know,

And you know,

Part of my prayer for you guys is that you could put your baby self on your chest and feel real love passion for her.

Because when you do that,

You will be really able to grow.

You'll be way more in that river of love.

If you can get to that state with your child self and you.

And it's something that if you just work on,

If you just keep this in mind and do it,

Your whole psyche will steer that way.

You'll start bonding to yourself and all of life.

I promise you,

If you do it with real sincerity,

Real intent,

You will start bonding with yourself and all of life.

And that will take care of all this stuff I'm talking about.

The thing that we're missing on the journey is it profoundly individual.

It is in all there in your baby self.

There's God in your baby self and the more you're loved for this baby that you can feel it and steer towards practice,

Feeling it till you do.

You could just make a quantum leap in your journey,

Just like a boom,

Boom.

Now this is the kind of thing I did in my journey.

And that's why I validate how much it works.

You could keep a really pure intent around that if you do that.

And you can also ask the universe that the transition comes at a pace you can handle.

But also reaffirm that you want to be bonded to yourself and all of life.

Because that's what brings us into non-attachment.

We don't need things to fill ourselves up,

And they never work anyway.

But you can still have beautiful things.

But you won't be counting on them so much.

You won't be worshipping them.

Okay,

There's a willingness to contemplate that about the baby.

I'll tell you guys,

If you practice that,

You will make progress.

In this day and age,

The thing we need most is the psychological development.

The spiritual journey,

Meaning psychological input to people to help them love themselves enough to grow spiritually.

Because if we don't love ourselves,

We will not grow spiritually.

Just the baby self,

You know.

And then the next step after this is we'll start working with moms,

With babies,

And helping the moms bond with the babies.

What happens to moms?

I've seen this before.

That,

You know,

Be a loving mom and her child's in daycare.

And she kind of disconnects from herself,

And so she doesn't even do the singing or playing with the child.

So it just is a very alienated patterning.

And this makes for alienated people.

And the social problems we're going to have if we keep going are off the chart.

So you know,

Really,

The sooner we start coming back to the bond with the babies,

First of all,

Our baby,

And then,

You know,

Working with helping moms bond more to their babies,

Bond more to themselves.

Well,

I mean,

That is the heart.

I mean,

Amma said that this whole shift is,

It's returning us to the nurturing pheno.

And I realized after going through all the things that I went through that it's just come back to nurturing,

You know,

And that we women feel that permission to be nurturing and nurture ourselves and nurture others.

You know,

Sad if moms if we're getting so disconnected that we're not playing with our babies.

And the other thing is,

I've heard too about sometimes well,

I'm not even going to really go into that.

It's,

It's for another zoom.

Okay.

Well,

I think that's everything I want to say.

So is there any questions?

Is everybody so confused?

Do you feel you don't you feel empowered and not like that you're doing it wrong?

Stephanie,

How about you?

How are you?

I feel I'm just thankful for what you've told.

I mean,

Again,

And again,

You always say pick up the baby.

You said it to me so many times.

And I think this time,

Hopefully,

It's getting through more and more.

But it's that hearing it again and again.

And just having that reassurance that it works and to test it ourselves like to me,

It's stop,

Stop,

Stop,

Stop,

Stop.

Don't ask me to say it again.

Again.

It's for you.

Yeah.

Not.

You do it.

Okay.

Yes.

You're right to do it to be it.

Yes.

Thank you.

You're very right.

You do it.

Yes.

I know.

And then you know what?

You do that and you and I will be on the same page.

Okay.

Which would be nice,

Right?

Okay.

Thank you so much.

As always,

Your wisdom is priceless.

Even just that correction.

I'm so grateful.

And thank you.

Thank you.

For your time and generosity.

Thank you,

Stephanie.

Thanks.

It's very sweet.

Andrea.

Yeah.

The clarity.

Okay.

What's the clarity you feel?

The connecting and disconnecting.

You know,

It was too much like that feeling of like,

Oh,

I shouldn't be connected to anything.

But you know what I mean?

It was too much in my head,

Like being connected in the outer world meant I'm not connected to myself.

But I love the,

Because I'm thinking about my son and thinking about my partner and thinking about all those things where it's like,

So necessary to kind of reach out.

Yeah.

Then disconnect,

Right?

And you're right.

It happens all the time that you get a fight in the middle of this when you're two bonded.

You only have this big fight because they're not doing what you want them to do or whatever.

So yeah,

That was super clear.

And I felt like it was like the penny dropped when you said that.

Oh,

Good.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Good.

Yeah.

Where would we be without her?

Well,

Where would I be without her?

I know we're good,

I think.

Anybody else have any comments?

Questions?

I'm very grateful to all of you for turning up.

You know,

This is really,

It's the meaning of my life to share this knowledge.

And I know it's like a rattle's chain because I really mean it.

I really mean it.

I mean,

When I think of the number of people I started out in this journey with,

And it's like,

I really meant what I said.

That was the difference.

I really meant it.

And in the East,

It's seen that teachers should say something once,

Stephanie,

Just once,

And the student does it.

But bless your heart.

You're very faithful.

So I'm teasing you.

Deep,

Did you have something to say?

No,

I think I enjoyed the talk.

And it resonates with me.

Good.

That makes sense.

Yeah,

Good.

Good.

I saw the,

The round your,

The square,

The yellow come up on your square.

So I thought that maybe you wanted to say something.

That's why I asked.

Okay.

Well,

I,

You know,

I,

I wish sometimes that I had more sort of honey water that,

Oh,

Atipa,

Did you have something?

Yes,

Yes.

If I may,

I wanted to say that I'm noticing that it's easy for me to bond with my three-year-old self.

I connect to her more and more.

I have been connecting to her since some months now more and more.

And it's very beautiful.

And imagining to put my baby on my chest is very difficult.

I don't know why.

So the three-year-old is beautiful and the baby is difficult.

No,

You know,

This is good,

Atipa.

This is just exactly what I'm talking about.

Noticing this stuff.

Thank you.

You know,

The three-year-old,

By the time the three-year-old,

Her ego had come on.

So with the baby,

It's more the Buddha and the baby's intense vulnerability,

Which,

You know,

Can be press our buttons.

And it's pure babies are pure,

You know,

Tao.

They're pure creator energy,

You know,

I mean,

A baby can cry for 24 hours without being tired because they're tapping into so much divine energy.

You know,

So that's why the baby and if you can love your baby fully,

Then you can love the parts of yourself that your parents couldn't love or that parts of yourself your parents had trouble with.

Yes,

And maybe also I had troubles with being so dependent.

Right.

That's what comes up.

Right.

Right.

All these things will come up,

You know,

But the baby's like pure.

I mean,

You know,

Buddha said,

You know,

You as much as anybody else in this world deserves to be loved.

And your baby self,

As much as any one else in the world deserves to be loved.

It's right when we were babies that we we disconnect from our true,

The deep you're saying I like this,

Don't you cry to a different kind when you can?

Yeah,

When you there are different kinds of tears.

There's a self pity tear,

And resentful tears.

They're useless.

They'll just take you round and round in the ego.

But if you cry in deep sorrow at how disconnected you feel at how abandoned sometimes and lonely and you feel that you will go right through to your soul.

The gateway will open.

Yeah,

But you can go to the same place if you cry for God,

If you cry in yearning for God,

You your ego melts to a T but it's really good that you play with your three year old though.

But you,

You know,

You could experiment,

If you really want to be unconditional,

Leveling with yourself.

The baby is a more powerful image.

Loving ourselves whether we're dependent or independent.

Yeah.

I mean,

With the three year old,

I reconnected to,

To her natural strength in a way you know,

And her knowledge also in a,

In a very innocent way,

Just naturally,

And that was a surprise to myself.

So I love being reconnected to be connected to that.

That's real progress,

A T,

But if you if you can feel close to your three year old like that's,

That's priceless.

It's,

It's awesome.

It's just the babies what everybody's leaving behind.

This is you guys,

This is where the walls that I I bang up against you are all related to what you left behind from your baby's baby self from your baby's capacity for love.

The baby was just unconditional love a blob of unconditional love,

You know.

Yes,

Thank you.

Thank you for saying that maybe the deepest grief was between zero and three years.

Yes,

Yeah,

Maybe that's why I left her behind.

This is it.

This is it.

But it's so empowering.

You will be adorned with jewelry,

Like gems,

Precious gems if you feel this stuff.

But you know,

If you've got,

If you're working and you've got kids,

You're going to have to do it at a pace you can handle,

You know,

But if you if you just start playing there,

You'll start getting empirical evidence about what I'm talking about.

I'll tell you,

I've seen so many people who again started back when I started on my journey,

And they've just gone round in circles.

Doing the usual spiritual things that you're supposed to do and obeying all the rules.

But when you get really wild and you go like right to the heart of things,

You will make enormous progress.

The key is psychological.

And we're ignoring it.

That's why a lot of the spiritual people,

They don't,

They don't love themselves personally.

So how can they find God?

They won't.

They have,

You can't get to God that way.

You have to love yourself personally,

Very,

Very deeply.

But not personally like going along with your ego.

You know,

Loving your full self and and feeling how your ego formed and what happened to you.

Yeah,

The baby Andrea,

The baby that will help.

Poor little munchkin.

Yeah,

Really,

It's my heartbreaks often I walk past babies and I get up with of their what they're facing the emotional climates and everything.

My heart,

My heart breaks and this is what happened to all of us.

But you can love yourself back.

Okay,

If you love your body self,

But your baby self,

You will start embodying your true energy.

Okay,

Like,

Yeah.

If you do it with real sincerity,

It will steer your psyche that way.

You know,

Lots of us have an emptiness underneath.

This is,

You know,

Actually,

We actually know in our hearts that the pursuit of things doesn't really help.

But we have this emptiness and we just fill the emptiness with things anyway,

Just because we we know it doesn't really work,

But we just go along with it just because it's in our culture.

But just tear to picking the baby up.

Tear towards embodying your divine nature.

Yeah.

It's like in my video where my upbringing was so awful at that stage of my mom having a nervous breakdown and my brother with a cephalitis like beating me up that the levels of pain were so bad that I,

You know,

To be any kind of human being at all,

I had to clear it.

So you guys,

You all seem a bit burdened.

So I want to address this.

So please,

It's not in your shoulders.

Remember,

You know,

God's doing it all.

God brought you to this park.

And God's going to make the penny drop or God's made the penny drop and then will also make the penny drop in future.

You cannot speed your journey.

But God brought you here to listen.

So there's a reason but you can't really accelerate your journey.

It's not on you.

All I'm doing is working with your understanding because if you see if your understanding develops,

It'll just be easier to grow.

But you're not in control.

Your soul has already decided what kind of progress you're going to make this life.

And maybe your soul's decided that you that it's going to make more progress and you think.

And if that's true,

You'll just find yourself picking up the baby more.

Don't worry about it.

Don't worry.

Don't put on your shoulders.

I'm just emphasizing what works because there's no point wasting time.

So just experiment with it,

See if it's true.

With everything I say,

Experiment with it.

See if it's true.

But you guys,

The more you clear when you're younger,

The better your old age is.

So anyway,

You don't want it to go on your shoulders again.

You're beautiful.

It's fantastic.

You turned up.

It's like awesome.

You're doing you've done really good work.

It's a tough topic attachment.

Amma took me to task for being overly interested in material things was she and she only does it when it's interrupting your progress.

She only like reminstrates most of the time.

She just lets us be ourselves.

But she took me to task over this because this is what I was running was that when I was really enlightened,

It's going to be like,

I don't know,

Rich insane.

She's like,

She's going up from the Sudan,

Just forget it.

So we're all human.

Anyway,

Bless your hearts and I adore you.

Thank you for coming.

I hope it helps.

Last call for questions or observations.

I'm going to I just wanted to say thank you.

I really feel lighter and yeah.

Thank you.

Oh,

Good.

Good.

That's the meaning of my life.

And thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you for coming.

You know,

Really,

Really,

Thank you for coming.

You have no idea.

It's such a blessing for me.

Okay.

Okay.

I'm going to go.

Bye,

Guys.

Bye.

Reviews

I didn’t listen to this all at once, but I got to the last part and was able to really embrace and love my baby self! ❤️🙏🏼

Thank you Premasudha❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️

This was an absolute blessing 🪷🙏🌱now I know what I have to do (and what I don’t have to do) ✨💖✨Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Pure gold 🌟 The depth of these zoom recordings are priceless ❤️ Deep deep gratitude for sharing such knowledge 🙏💕