Hello and welcome to day eight of a 30-day experiment of living from love rather than fear.
My name is Liz Scott and each day for 30 days I am actively choosing and intentionally choosing to live from a place of love rather than fear.
So I'm choosing things like compassion,
Gratitude,
Joy and connection rather than insecurity,
Separation,
Frustration and anger.
And what I've been learning along the way is that this isn't about banishing fear,
This is about bringing my awareness back to that place of love.
Each and every day I experiment and then I write a journal and then I share what I've learnt for the day.
And today's learning has surprised me.
It's actually been quite spiritual and I say it's surprised me because when I started out today I was in a regular day full of minor frustrations and irritations.
So when I started the day I imagined that this would be about me bringing my awareness to a space of peace rather than finding myself lost amongst these petty frustrations and annoyances.
But something else has happened and I want to share that with you because this experiment is showing up some really beautiful poignant moments that maybe if I wasn't doing the experiment I wouldn't remember and I certainly wouldn't remember to share with you.
And it revolves around my neighbour.
My neighbour is terminally ill.
She has been ill for a long time and has declined quite a lot in the last few weeks.
Her husband is a carer and he has to do a lot of work for her along with the other carers that come along to give him support.
He is adamant that he wants his wife to stay at home and he's doing everything he can to keep her at home.
And the love that he's showing for his wife it kind of really feels quite almost feels like a knife in the heart of love if you know what I mean that sort of sense of intense sadness and love that is present at the same time.
Now I don't know this neighbour very well.
I don't know the wife and I don't know him very well and obviously know them to say hello to.
So I'm aware of her illness and I'm aware of the challenges he's facing but I'm not quite close enough to go and offer help.
Other people are doing that.
It's not mine to do.
And today I was left wondering well what might I do to support them?
What could I do?
And I remembered the experiment of living from a place of love rather than fear and I became settled and I quietened my mind or it would probably be more accurate to say I brought my awareness into that peaceful settled place within me.
And from that place I had this idea this imagined visualization come to me and it felt as though love was sharing a lesson with me.
And what I did is I imagined sending love or being present to the force of love rushing through my neighbour's house.
I could see love in this multi-coloured rainbow kaleidoscope pouring through the house this energy rushing through the house and with it radiating a sense of calm and peace and absorbing those fears and anxieties that no doubt are present in that house.
And it felt as though love completely enveloped the house and I was present in my mind as I imagined this.
I was present to love in its full power enveloping and covering this house like you might cover up and snuggle under a duvet when you're cold.
And this felt really profound for me.
It felt as though love was giving me an insight into how it works.
And it really helped me see something about love as well.
I saw in this moment that it looked like I had sent love into the house of my neighbour but that wasn't what happened.
It actually felt as though love was released like a cage of doves and they were released into the air and flew with freedom and joy and liberation and this was the sense of the feeling of love that I experienced.
So rather than me being like the conductor of an orchestra with love and I sort of get love to play when I think it should,
It felt as though love was more like a living,
Breathing being.
It was like the birds flying free and liberated.
And I felt this real sense of joy at the way love was turning up.
So isn't that interesting?
Today I start off by thinking my experiment is going to be about looking at some of these minor irritations and frustrations that pepper my day but actually I've had this real sense of connection and love and feeling a sense of connection and love to my neighbour as well.
So this has been my reflection today and this is the joy of living from love rather than fear.
And I really enjoyed reflecting on each day and just jotting down a few notes about what I've noticed.
You might enjoy that too.
Let me know how you're getting on.
I would love to know how you're getting on and what's turning up for you in your experiment as you intentionally live from a place of love rather than fear.
