Hello and welcome to this meditation.
I'm offering this meditation for women who are mothers to angel babies.
To begin,
Let's find a comfortable seat,
Either sitting cross-legged on the ground or comfortably in a chair,
Pressing down through the floor,
Or sitting on the ground or comfortably in a chair,
Pressing down through your sit bones,
Reaching the crown of your head towards the sky.
Take an inhale through your nose,
And as you exhale,
Relax your shoulders back and down.
Feeling the breath enter your body and expand your rib cage,
And a slow,
Smooth exhale,
Emptying out the breath.
To begin,
I offer a quote from Matthew Sanford.
He says,
I am not afraid of my sadness.
My sadness is an incredible gift that allows me to be with people who are suffering,
Without me trying to fix them.
And if that isn't the definition of holding space,
I don't know what is.
I offer this meditation as I hold space for you in my heart with so much love and compassion.
Having experienced losing a baby,
I have great empathy for women who have suffered the same.
The grief we carry in our hearts comes in waves and stages,
Ranging from sadness to anger and sometimes even guilt.
We will never ever understand this pain unless they've experienced it themselves.
This is a pain we wouldn't even wish on our worst enemies.
Many of us silently carry this pain,
Oftentimes not even sharing our loss because it was so early in our pregnancies.
There will be people who will mention our pregnancy or ask about our baby,
Not knowing that this child never took a breath outside of our wombs,
Or perhaps our baby was born sleeping or passed shortly after birth.
The comments are awkward silences where no one knows how to respond to our news,
But mostly all we want is someone to listen and hold space for us.
Without any judgment,
Without telling us,
It'll happen again.
Don't worry,
You're still young.
Know that their intentions mean well,
But it definitely doesn't take away our sadness and our grief.
Wherever you are on this journey of being a mother to an angel baby,
Know that there are others like you.
We are not alone.
Taking a few more breaths here,
Allowing your body to feel the pain if that has come up,
Breathing through it,
Knowing that this pain and sadness will come and go,
And it'll be triggered by pregnant bellies or small children,
Knowing I am here for you and I'm holding space for your sadness and your pain in my heart.
Be gentle on yourself.
We don't need to play the game of if I had done this or if I had done that.
I'd like to think that there was a reason or a plan unbeknownst to me as to why things happened the way they did.
I wish you nothing but peace in your heart.
And hopefully one day the ability to see why this happened the way it did.
I hope you say your baby's name and I hope you remember them.
And I hope you know that your baby is watching over you,
Guiding you.
And if you pay close enough attention,
Maybe you'll see some signs from your angel baby.
They're always communicating with us and guiding us and letting us know that they are there.
So hold them in your heart and thank them when you see the signs,
When you see the synchronicities.
And say thank you and be grateful that they're showing you that they're still there,
Loving mama from afar.
And sitting here for a moment,
Becoming more aware of your breath.
Begin to invite some deeper breaths to your body in through your nose and out through your nose.
Slow,
Smooth breaths.
On your next inhale,
Reach your arms up and overhead.
And as you exhale,
Bringing down all that divine universal energy to your heart space.
Keeping your heart open and receptive to love.
The light in me salutes and honors the light in you.
Namaste.
