Hi,
I feel like crap.
And I wanted to make a meditation for people when they're feeling like crap,
Because I feel like there's a lot of meditations about,
You know,
Moving yourself from a place of feeling like crap to a place of feeling better.
And that's well and good.
And I think those are valuable.
And sometimes I do those and sometimes I make those.
But right now I'm feeling the need to have a meditation for when you just feel like crap and you're like,
Ah,
Everything is horrible.
So here we go,
We're gonna do the nothing is good meditation.
So let's just first acknowledge that everything sucks.
There's nothing good happening.
Physically,
Emotionally,
Spiritually,
It's all just a major disaster right now.
So let's just notice that for a moment.
Go through your body and notice everything that hurts or that's not feeling right.
And if you're already done doing that,
Go listen to another meditation because you need more things wrong with you for this one.
And if you're still doing that,
Good,
Keep it up.
We're doing a litany of complaints right now.
Okay,
Great.
Now emotionally,
Let's go through all the emotions.
I'll say an emotion and let's both try to feel it.
Sadness,
Grief,
Anger,
Frustration,
Fear,
Jealousy.
Envy,
Lethargy.
Can you think of some other ones some other emotions that contribute to making you feel like crap right now?
Oh,
Judgment.
Loneliness.
Those are some goodies.
Anxiety.
All right,
Great.
Okay,
Spiritually,
Let's list all the ways we have failed spiritually.
I've been meaning to do this for a while.
All right,
Here we go.
I'll list some for me and maybe you can relate to those or maybe you'll have your own and there'll be some quiet time after I list these to come up with your own.
Let's see I failed by I was a jerk to my son when he wanted me to appreciate something of his.
I failed by forgetting to connect with God today.
Each day I've been connecting with God and today I forgot to pray I forgot to connect with God.
Failed by not meditating,
Not stretching doing yoga.
I ate food without thinking about it at the wrong time and it didn't feel good.
I didn't love myself.
Judged myself.
All right,
I'll stop talking and let you fill in the blank for a little bit.
All right,
So let us count the ways we failed.
We failed spiritually and emotionally.
Things are bad physically and emotionally and spiritually.
Everything sucks and there's no way out of it.
I'm just sort of going through the thoughts in my head.
And what was the point of cataloging all this I mean really how's this supposed to help it just drives us down into a negative spiral right.
Well,
I guess it could,
But I want to take this opportunity to do what I know makes me feel better every time,
Which is to connect with God.
And when I say God I mean God as I know God.
So my own conception of God.
My assumption is that you have a conception of God or a conception of unconditional love or conception of aliveness that you can connect with.
So let's just spend a moment and just not try to fix anything.
Really celebrate the crappiness that's happening right now in all of all of us.
But at the same time,
Let's connect with God.
And I'll tell you what my prayer is.
You may have your own,
So I'll say my prayer first and you may like it.
But I'll leave time so that you say your prayer after if you like,
Or your intention.
Hey God,
I feel like crap.
It's really true like there's,
I really I can't imagine if I getting anything done ever again if I continue to feel this way.
That's really true and so I'm talking to you right now.
As a friend to say,
I really want to,
I really want to connect with you I feel so much better when I connect with you.
And I know you're always available to connect with me.
But right now,
I get it that it's my job to connect with you I get it that that's something that I need to choose.
And that as soon as I choose that I'm going to feel a lot better.
So I'm just telling you what's going on for me says,
So that the moment that I choose to connect with you.
You'll know what's going on as if you didn't already.
I have no idea why I'm even telling you all this it's not like you don't know all this it's not like we're not already connected.
But I think there's a piece where I have to connect with you I need to say yes,
I accept your love,
I'm allowed.
I think there's a way in which I need to say I'm allowed to be loved even when I feel like crap and feel like I failed.
So I want to do that now I'm saying that right now.
God I accept your love.
I'm ready to receive your love I'm receiving it right now.
Without judgment and with full unconditional love for myself.
Physically,
Emotionally,
Spiritually.
Here I am,
He nanny,
That's Hebrew for here I am.
I'm Jewish.
By the way,
I'm telling you the listener God knows that.
So God,
Thank you so much.
Thanks for being there for me to connect with and for your love and letting me receive it.
I know it's really up to me but I keep thinking that it's like you're giving me a gift even though I get it that intellectually I know I have to receive that gift that's the only work.
The gift is always there.
Thank you so much.
I'll be quiet for a few minutes for you to have your own connection with God.
Yes,
TV.
Thank you for being here with me.
Thank you for feeling better with me and feeling worse with me and feeling better with me.
Thank you for allowing me to talk to God right in front of you,
Which I've never done before.
And thank you for loving yourself and allowing yourself to be loved.
I love you and I'm aware that God loves you and that God loves all of us.
And I know you are too.
Amen.
