Release Trauma Signals - Creative Insecurity

The trauma signal associated with creative insecurity might initially seem minor, but its impact can be profound, especially when divergent thinking is crucial for navigating challenges or ensuring safety for yourself or others. This signal often stems from deep-rooted fears of failure, judgment, or inadequacy, and when activated, it can paralyze our ability to think clearly or act decisively.

In critical moments, where adaptability and innovation are essential, this inner block can leave us immobilized, trapped in cycles of overthinking and hesitation.

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It's a beautiful time for us to connect my treasures and I love it that we're all finding our way into the space.

However you choose to be here,

Just know that you are so welcome.

Bring your energy in.

We have an intention to hold the space together.

So it's really just a wonderful little moment and you imagine all these energy synaptic connections coming in from all over and holding this moment together.

Just patching and connecting a new structure.

That's my plan.

Let's restructure this grid that we're in.

It'll be wonderful for us to come into that next space.

It's right here.

For as long as we are holding a space,

We're making it possible for it to arrive.

No mistake that we are holding energy together.

So let's drop into the space.

Use our time well my treasures.

So that we can unwrap one of these trauma signals as we are on a mission to unwrap these hideous trauma signals that get locked into our energy systems.

We think that they're all ours.

They're just ours and they belong to us and that we're broken and we're ridiculous.

And of course we're going to feel like that because we're the ones encountering them and they are attaching or connecting to us in some way.

So then of course we feel a little bit distorted or a little bit disconnected or we feel the pain of our story as it's unfolding and it's enacting through us and around us.

So then it's hard to separate ourselves and say well it's just a story.

There's something here for me that I can gain insight through this and through gaining that insight I have this opportunity to elevate my energy field,

The consciousness of my being as we step towards awakening.

But if we just get into the point where we think oh this is just me,

This is my story and I'm broken and something's wrong with me and I'm just the ridiculous one.

If we go there then we're going to just drop ourselves into a pit of that despair,

Self-loathing and judgment,

Shame,

Blame and guilt.

Low,

Low,

Low,

Low,

Low energies.

So imagine dropping into this pit and if you were sprightly and you had a lot of energy and you were staying connected to the possibilities and what can you do now to get out of it?

How could you reframe the situation and you would make plans,

Think of it,

Coordinate with others.

You'd be activated and alert.

But if we drop into a pit and we go oh I'm never going to get out and this is my fault and I'm the broken one and I don't deserve to get out.

Then we're not going to get out are we?

We're just going to stay there in that very difficult place.

I don't want you to be in those places.

I want you to come on out into the lovely open sunshine.

No more shaming and blaming and judging and persecuting yourself.

Please my lovelies it'll be wonderful for you but more than just wonderful for you.

For every time we stop playing that game of persecution,

We stop entertaining that as an energy in the field that is so suppressed with so much condemnation,

Hate and all the other horrible frequencies that are so low that the species is starting to choke in the mud of it all.

It's just awful isn't it?

So every time you're willing just to make a little adjustment and check your connection and your mind,

Body,

Feelings and upgrade even if it's just a tiny little bit,

You are making a great difference in the collective field that we all belong to.

So let's do it not just for ourselves but really let's do it for this entire humanity.

Don't think you don't have an input,

An influence that goes beyond,

Beyond,

Beyond what you could imagine.

If you need to be convinced of that you just go into a still place,

A still pond and you pick up a little bit of water and drop it in and you will watch the ripple open.

It's the law of nature and it will happen.

You will make an impact.

Something will change because you created that moment of connection.

Yep.

Can we do that?

Let's hold the space now and make a little readjustment and come into a much better space within us.

Today we're going to talk about that story of creative insecurity.

This is a signal that sits not on the base energy but on the one just one up.

So it fits into that sort of the lower part of our body but it's still just one up from that so it often gets into the lower back,

Lower tummy sort of part of our being.

We want to notice where we feel impact when we feel a little desperate or despairing.

It's really good for us then just to make a new connection.

Settle down.

Try and see if you can be very,

Very present.

It's just a little half an hour,

Not long,

But in this time dedicate your full attention to what it is that we can unfold and unwrap and then watch what happens in your life as we start letting go of all these signals.

It just somehow gets better.

It's really just so wonderful.

So let's take a deep breath in.

Long slow out breath.

Drop,

Drop,

Drop into this moment.

As you rest here feel as if you're placing yourself right in the center of this moment.

Everything that is around you is just around you.

Whatever is happening around you just is.

Whoever is in that space may they just be there.

You bring your awareness back to you and feel right now that you are being held,

That the arms of gravity are holding you in a loving way.

Drop a little bit more of your weight,

Your burdens,

All your troubles into the arms of gravity.

Feel held and hugged.

Soften your tummy.

We want to remember that this is our sublime trick,

Is to soften the tummy.

The moment we have a soft tummy we are stepping into the space that holds a much higher vibration.

When our tummy is tense we're in reactive mode.

That means that we are on the alert,

We're defensive,

We're reactive.

So our tummy hardens up trying to protect and defend our field.

When we're in that mode we cut off so many of our other capacities,

Our heightened awareness,

Our intuition,

That creative spark.

Because we drop into management,

Just managing,

Just coping.

Soften your tummy now.

Then relax into it and feel like you're being held.

Breathe into this beautiful body.

Then check in again.

How's your tummy?

Have you noticed the little tightness creeping in?

You use your mind,

Your amazing being,

Your brilliance.

Reconnect.

Relax,

Drop,

Drop,

Soften your tummy.

We're going to have to do this a lot,

Mindfully at first,

Because the setting for us to be protective and defensive in the idea of just trying to survive,

It's the only game we've been playing as a human species to this point.

All the time our bodies are going to be into that defensive mode,

Protective mode.

Every time we make an adjustment we're sending a signal to this mind-body that says,

Not necessary,

I know how to be calm,

I know how to manage.

We rebuild our confidence in ourself,

Being able to be in this moment,

At this time,

As anyone,

In any way,

And just know that we are held safe.

Check your tummy again.

So we'll go on and on and on doing this until this becomes our new default setting.

Every time we do this we open up the space around us just a little bit more,

More potential,

More possibilities awaken because we are holding a different space.

We haven't shut down all the imaginative,

Creative faculties.

Those are like the first things that just go.

Just stop anything that doesn't need to be done right away,

Just everything gets chopped off,

Just the very,

Very basics.

Run for your life,

Fight back with all your might,

Lie down,

Play dead.

We want to be much more imaginative than that.

So in all the tuning,

Fine-tuning of this human instrument through eons of time,

We've been taught to be in this defensive,

Protective mode.

We have been training ourselves to go into just management,

Just enough,

Just coping.

And if that's what we've been doing for so long,

It almost becomes the default setting automatically readjust to that.

So now we want to come into our space where we are far more creative.

We can express ourselves and see the value of who we are,

And we can start to do things way beyond our capacity that we don't even know about yet.

So many more skills,

So many more abilities coming in.

We want to be ready to embrace those and awaken into them,

But we cannot possibly even awaken into them if we don't start to retrain this mechanism,

This vehicle that is trained specifically for survival.

The moment we drop into that space where we are just managing everything that is more than everything that is potential falls away,

And therein lies the pain of this creative insecurity.

It is a signal that has been sent along our lines,

Especially when families have been experiencing massive trauma and where they've been hideous situations all the way through the line.

Families have had to fight for survival.

There's been no time for anything else.

Just get on with it,

Manage yourself,

Do the best you can,

And that's it.

If you have a code like that because your family has gone through stuff,

You may or may not know what they've gone through,

Because mostly when you speak to the older people,

They'll just say things like,

Well,

Let bygones be bygones,

Or don't worry,

That's just history.

We can't bother with that now.

We're not going back there.

They'll cut you off.

So often the older folk will cut you off from not having to repeat their horrific stories and to retell of their despair and struggles.

So that energy that gets cut off and trapped just stays locked in,

Doesn't free itself,

It doesn't expose itself to sunlight and openness.

When that dear soul passes,

That feeling,

That dread,

That foreboding,

The trepidation,

Those insecurities,

They get passed on in the genetic information,

And this is energetic information.

It gets passed on as a sense,

And so often we have a sense that makes no sense.

When have you been with people and they've said to you,

Oh come on,

That's not like you.

Surely by now,

They will say things that make you go like,

But they don't know me at all,

But they can see something else in you,

But your protective mode has closed yourself off to a very limited view of yourself and your point of view of yourself in this world.

That's defensive mode.

It's just been passed down as a loving message from our ancient ones that said,

When you feel threatened,

When you are asked to do something different,

Don't you be doing it,

Because if you stick your head up,

Yours is going to be the head that's going to be chopped off.

Don't be doing that.

You stay down,

You stay in the mud with everybody else,

And you don't try and become more expressive,

More creative.

Don't try anything new.

This is the formula,

This is what keeps us safe,

And we're all going to just stay in this little box,

Because this box says we are safe,

And if we all behave in a certain way,

Then nothing terrible is going to happen.

Sound very familiar to the way we are operating our lives,

Doesn't it?

We're all becoming locked in to the stories,

And fear,

My lovely,

Controls it all.

So if we are all herded into a nice tight little box,

And we've all been pushed into that little space,

All we ever have to be fed every now and again to keep us in is a little crumb of fear,

A little morsel of trepidation,

A little dollop of anxiety.

Throw something in that threatens the status quo,

And everyone goes,

Oh,

And stops thinking,

And stays herded,

Trapped,

Locked in.

If we do that,

My lovelies,

We're not going to be able to get to the point where we can express ourselves as the beings who we truly are.

We are the very breath of the divine.

We are encoded,

Magnificently encoded in this being for this journey.

There is so much more potential in us.

We will reach that potential,

And we will awaken our consciousness as we step into things that are a little bit out there,

A little bit different.

So why do you think that in the world now there are so many young people who are expressing themselves in a very different way?

All I can do is celebrate them,

Celebrate these darling young people who are willing to not settle down into the status quo.

They're pushing the boundaries,

Even if it feels a little aggravating,

It's fabulous,

Because these precious beings are brave enough,

Courageous enough to try something different.

When we try something different,

We can do something different.

When we do something different,

We become different.

Every time we become a little different,

We embrace that,

We start to make a difference.

It will just open and open and open a little bit more.

We want to shut down a few of the buttons,

The self-loathing,

The condemnation,

The blame,

The shame,

The guilt.

We want to shut those down.

There is no more time for us to blame and shame ourselves or to reprimand or reproach or disregard another.

There's no more time.

We've only got this little window now to start to express ourselves in a different way,

To step into a different frequency where we can behave and create in a whole new way.

This is the time to truly start to do that.

It's not a big deal.

It's actually quite easy,

But what we want to do is let go of these signals that are sounding in our being and creating the sense of discomfort,

Unease,

Uncertainty.

So let's take a breath and let's reconnect our being now to a much higher stream of consciousness so that we can start to be more creative,

More inspired,

More adventurous.

In doing that,

We are opening up a whole new vista for every single one of us.

Let's come into the space now and let's hold this with as much love as we possibly can.

Can you just open your heart right now and beam love to everybody who's here,

To their families and all the darling children,

All the beings that are showing up in this world expressing themselves in such a very wonderful different way.

We'll not be labeled.

We'll not be identified.

We'll be able now to express and see ourselves in different ways.

Let's just open our hearts to all the possibilities.

Can you do that now?

Take a deep breath in.

Open the energy field to that.

There is so much more.

This beautiful heart of ours knows that.

This beautiful heart of ours is calling for something else.

Bring your hands to your heart.

Ask your being silently and deep within,

What is the deepest longing of my heart?

What is it that I would love to achieve or accomplish or create?

If I could leave a mark upon this world,

Something that would really be known and valued,

If I could make a difference and leave a little signal or stamp,

What would it be?

And for so many of us we go,

I don't know,

Because when have we ever thought about that?

When have we thought when we are no longer here,

What is it that might still be here as a feeling or a trend or creative piece,

An expression,

A bit of poetry,

Writing,

A painting,

A way of speaking and being?

What have we left?

What is it that we have used in our life that has inspired us and awakened within us that could possibly be the building of a legacy of something else to come?

So ask your beautiful heart that.

I wonder what it is.

There's your magic words.

I wonder,

I wonder,

Because it leaves a space open to all the possibilities as we wander around trying to decide what that might be.

We will wander around our entire life wondering how fabulous we could be.

What is it that this beautiful being would love to leave as an imprint,

The legacy that is energy,

That's a feeling,

A creative sense,

Something creative,

Something beyond just mundane day-to-day do-do-do.

As you ask yourself this day by day by day and you say I wonder what that is,

Part of your being is going to start opening up in the wondering of what it is that's going to be seeking the answer for you.

Then you will remember,

Oh gosh I used to love coloring in when I was little but I love coloring out the lines,

It was fabulous.

I love the way the pencils looked in that little pencil box,

A brand new stationery,

The smell of it the first day of school and the excitement of using all these colorful beautiful things.

Then the moment we got into the class there stood the teacher who wanted us to do it in a certain way.

You couldn't mix the colors and you couldn't go out the line and you had to sit up right,

You had to hold it in a certain way,

God forbid you held in your other hand or didn't hold it with the right grip.

If you didn't finish on time and if you wanted to go on playing with it and you couldn't because the next part of the day and the lesson was coming in.

Slowly but surely these little souls get crushed,

That's us.

All our imagination,

Our creativity has been slowly crushed.

Time for us to wake it up.

It's the connection to our creativity that is going to expand that part of our brain that can move towards heightened awareness so much more.

It's the endless potential and that's what we want to dream in.

Hold your heart,

Take a deep breath into this being.

Let's ask now that we can release and let go of all those imprints of survival,

Those condemnations and those shutdowns.

Bring your hands now to you as you activate them,

Give them a little rub and then flick your fingers,

Bring the energy to the tips of your fingers and imagine long streams of light that is growing from the heart through your being into your mind and you want to bring in a deep and profound healing.

Point these long fingers of light to your throat,

Don't touch your body but just move a little bit off it and up,

Over the chin,

The nostrils,

The forehead,

Over the top of the head,

Over the back of the head,

Over the shoulders,

Stretch your arms out and flick it off.

Let's take away all this stuff.

It's a mindful heart filled connection through this beautiful life,

This being here,

This beautiful one.

I ask now that I can release,

Let go,

Eliminate of all the pains,

The stories that created some kind of censorship shutdown.

I release and let go of all the blame and the shame,

The judgment,

The condemnation that has ever been known in my own life.

I also ask that I can release this in my family's line,

For all those places where those ancient ones felt amazingly insecure,

Vulnerable,

Who ached to do something wonderful but just didn't know how to do it.

Open and release.

Take a deep breath in,

Keep pulling this energy as if you're pulling it up and through and out your field.

Seems like such a silly exercise doesn't it?

But really what you're doing it is a mindful,

A mind-body connection with the intention to bring release.

The moment we decide that we're worth it,

This is what we want to do,

That we want to bring a release to us so we will no longer wish to carry this.

A simple movement with the intention and the heart open,

The mind recreating,

The seeking for us to be more creative in this world and to stand confidently within that.

No longer are we going to play the games that stop us from being in that place of our highest expression.

Just the thought,

The intention,

The movement,

The breathing,

The holding of the space and the calling of your guides and divine presence and us doing this as a collective is a beautiful step towards our deep and profound healing.

It's a reconnection,

Creatively connecting to all the other capacities of our being,

Our resources,

Awakening them with the intention to be here in the highest possible vibration so that us being here leaves a mark,

Leaves something that is of great worth to this human experience.

Why else are we here my lovelies?

All the accumulation of the stuff that we think is important,

After one or two generations all that will be gone.

No one will even remember your name perhaps.

But if you leave an imprint,

An energy legacy,

An imprint of something different and you're the one who starts thinking in a different way,

That gains momentum and it starts to create itself.

We just have to ask for something different to come in and be willing to hold the space for that to be possible.

While we're in this form,

Let's transform our energy so that we can step into our transformation.

That's how it works my treasures.

So lovely that we have each other.

We have this time and the space to hold an energy consciously and collectively.

Thank you for hopping in time after time and holding the space with me.

If you would like to go back and look at any of the other guided,

Any of these guided releases,

I'm posting them as I'm finishing them and they are on InsightTimer.

Just go ahead and do them.

Do one a week with all your heart and all your soul and focus,

Focus,

Focus.

Do it as many times as you need to to help yourself to re-establish a different pathway in your mind.

If we don't do it,

It won't be done.

Can you do that my lovelies?

Hold yourself with so much love and grace and kindness and support one another as we go through this very rocky bumpy time together.

But oh my gosh it's gonna be worth it.

Thank you for you and so much love.

Take care of you my treasures.

Reviews

These are so good Joy! Thank you for all your work. I really needed to hear these trauma releases and do the energy shift with the fingers. Thanks 💓💜💜

Resonated a lot with this one, as I’ve been so frozen in grief for many years that I’ve felt the creative signal has been lost. Thank you 💕

Always a joy practicing with you dear Joy. This is deep and meaningful awareness being expressed and unfolded. Blessings always to and for you.

Ty Joy! It’s no coincidence that I found this now. I’ve been doing a similar release process on my own the past 3 days as I heal from an illness. Your warm & compassionate guidance is like a giant hug and a confirmation that I’m on the right track. So grateful!💚