Being And Doing

A life-long search for freedom took Eli Jaxon-Bear around the world and into many spiritual traditions from a Zen monastery in Japan to a Sufi circle in Marrakesh, among others. His search ended when he was drawn to India (1990) where he met his final teacher, Sri H.W.L Poonja, lovingly known as Papaji; a direct disciple of the renowned Indian Sage Ramana Maharshi.

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Thank you. You you you you you He wouldn't hear for the first time. So, Welcome. Welcome to Sat Zone. That song is Sanskrit. Made up of two parts, Sat is immortal being. Sangha is association. The word Sangha. Community of truth seekers comes from the same root. So, Association with a mortal being is what satsang is. In order to. . . Associate with your true immortal being. You have to see deeper than the identification with yourself as a human being. That's why we're here. As long as the veiling of the identification, I am a human being. Is what you believe to be real. That you missed. The Shining. Of the immortal being. And so what we're here for is to be willing to pierce the veils. To see through the false identities. So that we can find what's real. Because what's real. . . Doesn't appear as long as what we believe is real. If we put our attention on what we believe is real. And that's what appears. And we've all. . . Are born into identity. As a human being. That's what we believe is real. And as long as we believe that's real, We miss the reality of ourselves as immortal beings. That's what satsang is for. Is to bring us back to the truth of ourselves. Someone brought up last week. . . This distinction of teachers. I've been very lucky in my life, I've had some wonderful teachers. One of my teachers is a Taoist teacher. I spent three years with my Taoist teacher. Learn so much from him. And he was a teacher of form. Most teachers are teachers of form. This is what you do. So I learned Chinese calligraphy from him. In order to do Chinese calligraphy, You have to hold the brush a certain way. You have to make your strokes a certain way. You have to copy the teacher's form. And if you copy the teacher's form perfectly, You'll be able to do Chinese calligraphy or Tai Chi or whatever it is the teacher is teaching. With my Tibetan Buddhist teachers. There's a certain form. You had to do prostrations, So I did that. Thousands of prostrations, And learn different prayers, And different visualizations, And different practices, And these are all very useful. These are all forms, And the point of it is the teacher has a form and you learn the teacher's form. And if you can do the form, As well as the teacher does, And you've become a master of that form. Satsang is not like that. There is no form. There's nothing to practice. There's nothing to copy. You can't do it the way the teacher did it. There's no way of being yourself. There's no form you can follow. So if you believe a teacher is. . . It's a category mistake, As if you tried to copy the teacher's form. As far as immortal being goes, Because it doesn't work. You can't copy spontaneity. You can't copy your own true inner wisdom. There's no pattern that you can follow. So when I went back to see my Chinese teacher after many years, I was with him in the 70s. First and he's. . . He's such a, He's a true master. I started out with him when I was 28. Went back to seeing them, I was maybe 60. And done. First thing he said, Huh, Eli is so fat. He looks exactly the same, You know. He's in his eighties and he's still in better shape than I was. You know, I am, You know, When I was twenty-eight he was in better shape, I'm in sixties in better shape. The point of that story is that after cancer and after. . . Being in bed for years, Literally. I lost my form with my teacher, With my Chinese teacher. I can't do my Tai Chi anymore. I can't do my stretching anymore. Anything that you. . . Learn as a form. As a practice, You will lose. Eventually, Either when you die or when you stop practicing it. Satsang is not about that. It's not about practicing something. It's not about learning something. It's not about something that you can lose. It's realizing what's always already here. That can't be lost. And so it's a category mistake if you try to take the role of the teacher that's teaching you something and put it into the realm of satsang. Because here there's nothing to learn. You can't learn to be yourself. And there's no form. You can't lose it. You can't forget it. You can't, In some way. . . Make it happen, Or lose it happening. You already are. What you're searching for. And so the willingness then is to give up all form. To lose everything that can be lost. To stop all the searching. For some way of being or way of doing. To find what's already present. And that's the confusion between being and doing. That is all of ego is about doing. And all of our culture is about doing. All of. . . When I was in Berkeley in the 70s, I remember walking down the street and seeing some graffiti on the wall that really impressed me. I still remember it. It was. . . To do is to be, Sartre. To be is to do, Lao Tzu. Doobie doobie doo, Sinatra. And so the existentialist view is that to do is to be, Is that I am what I do. I am my career, I am my art, I am my relationships. Whatever it is I do, That's who I am. And that's what we're trained to do. That's a survival strategy. That's how we've been trained to survive as animals, Is to be successful doers. To do. Grrrr. Accumulating wealth, Accumulating family, Accumulating relationships, Accumulating power, Doing art, Whatever it is, There's a sense that if I do it right, If I do enough, I'll be happy and fulfilled. But it never leads to happiness and fulfillment. That leads to actually an existential angst, A sense that there's something missing, That even though I've been so successful in whatever it is I've done. I'm not happy, I'm not fulfilled, It's not enough. So that's the. . . Sartre's position, Basically, And Sartre ends up with this nausea of the existential emptiness of everything, Of all doing. And that there's nothing after that. But that's because Sartre didn't go deep enough. He went as far as this black hole. Of voidness, But he didn't go through the black hole, He didn't birth. Because a black hole is like a birth canal. It's like this dead, Empty. . . Space that you must pass through. To find a deeper emptiness. Get deeper. An emptiness that isn't dead, But an emptiness that's alive. Emptiness that's filled with. Being. Filled with thought. Your own self. And so to find it is to pass through this death of emptiness. And this death of emptiness is brought on when you start telling the truth that everything I've done doesn't bring fulfillment. When you just simply tell the truth to yourself that no matter what it is. Whether I've been successful or a failure. It may be pleasant, It may be satisfying, It may be happy, It may be momentarily fulfilling. But not ultimately fulfilling. You can't say, Okay, I'm complete. You know, It's now, I've painted the best painting, I've done, I've made my 10 million dollars, Whatever it is, It's enough. Who's ever said that? Who's ever said, You know, Okay, It's enough. Because. . . Doing never leads to being. It just simply doesn't work that way. So are you willing to give up? Are you willing to surrender? The one who does, That's the one. That's the veiling. The doer is the veiling of being. The I did it, I want it. I, I, I. This I that does and wants and needs and is successful and is sad and is happy and is. . . That I is the false. That's the doer. That's the one that veils the being. And so that's what has to be seen through. That's the one that surrenders. That's the one that says, Okay, Enough. I've succeeded enough, I've failed enough. It won't lead me home. That's the one that says, OK, I must return to my source. I must return to being. Doing just makes me tired and wears me out. And doesn't lead me to fulfillment. And then in this return, There's a surrender back into your own heart. Back to your own self. And out of that naturally arises the next line of that little thing. Being yourself quite naturally. Doing happens. But it happens without the sense that I am doing it. To make myself whatever. It becomes a natural expression of being. Then the world is right side up. Before that, It's really upside down. My teacher said, A true teacher has no teaching, And a true student has no head. And so satsang is to cut your own head off. I spent 18 years searching for a true teacher. I had a profound awakening and I knew that I had to find someone more awake than I was. And I found many beautiful teachers along the way. But all of them gave me a teaching. All of them said, Do this. Follow this, Practice this. So finally I met my true teacher in 1990. And when I met him, I knew. Without a doubt. Living truth is real. There is. Reality, Yes, This is a confirmation. Everything I knew to be true is true. And just sitting in his presence. Just sitting in his presence, My mind stopped. Quite naturally. He didn't say do this or do that. Just being himself. Sitting on his bed with her. And that was his transmission. Purity of silence. That living transmission of silence. Is what he passes on to you. From his teacher. In silence, There's no one doing anything. Silence is a living intelligence. This is who you are. This is sad. Speak. And this living intelligence expresses itself through. Each one of our forms. Our own particular language, Our own particular bodies. Or a particular wiring. As the flavor of every one of us. And since it is silent and empty, It has no problem with any flavor. There's no judgment or blame. Is clearest of heart. Any questions? Hello. Hi. My name is Bodhi. I've been in satsang with Gangaji quite a bit. I got to see you at a book signing. I got to witness the male ego. I thought everyone, At least, Would go to something that would have respect. To see the way that you handled the confrontation was cool. I have a story about you in my head. You know, What happened, I came on the scene about a year ago, And you know, That a spiritual being should be perfect, And you know, Whatever went on with you and Gangaji, I don't know, But there was definitely a mind in my head that had resistance to you. So, Coming here and seeing you there and feeling that energy was beautiful. It was the same teaching. In the last years, It's been an amazing journey. And I doubt that I've seen what I've seen. And this nothingness that you talk about. Oh, So much fighting against nothingness and. . . Not knowing nothingness. Let's even forget the word nothingness. So right now, Everything, For a moment, Stops. Yes, Let's hear it. Yes, You know. What's the fight about? Ego, Being right. Being right, Fear of true awakening, Fear that when I leave Ashland, I won't have this that I saw. I want something. Yes, That's it. I want something. That's it. So right now, Just for a moment, You don't want anything. What's left? If you don't want anything at all. Right. And so, Be nothing for a moment. Anything needed? Can I ask you one question? Yes, Be anything. I had an image of India, And now that I'm leaving Ashland and I'm going to New Zealand, I may be lucky enough to come across and be in a retreat. I'm full of fear that I won't have the energy to support myself when I'm in New Zealand. That Ashland is a vortex and this, You know, Because of all the people that are here and going back to a place. You know, I have this story in my head that I haven't actually found my heart. Have you? I've found it. So there are all stories in your head. They're just bad dreams, Man. You don't need to scare yourself with them. So fun. It's like. . . Yeah, And. . . Anna. . . Just like you had an image in your head of what a spiritual teacher is supposed to look like or act like. You have an image in your head of what it's going to be like in New Zealand. It's made up. You have an image in your head of what India is like. It's made up. That if it's real. What's real is what is already here. What doesn't need any imagination? Doesn't need any storytelling. So if you stay true to that instead of to the story. And everything unfolds. Namaste. Namaste, Buddy. Yes, Chief. I came up because of what you said a moment ago. About um. . . When you brought up the question of wanting. And you said, What if for a moment you don't want? I don't understand that. I know. I understand distracting from a particular one. I understand you know, Ignoring the want, Don't touch it when it comes out. Being able from. . . A place of will, Of decision, To not want. I don't understand. Look at it this way, Janine. Everything you've wanted has now brought you fulfillment. And you've wanted so much. And you've chased so much, And you've pursued so much, You've accumulated so much. Experience so much, You've fulfilled so many of your wants. And it hasn't brought you fulfillment. It's just about telling the truth. It's not about forcing anything or willing something. Your whole life has been about willing it. And it hasn't worked. So this isn't about them using your will to do something else. It's saying, Tell me the truth, Okay, I've willed all my wants all my life, I've gotten a lot of them, I haven't gotten others, And none of it has made me happy. None of it has brought lasting peace. Maybe there's some other way. And it's not about forcing yourself to do this and forcing yourself not to want or distracting yourself. It's not about that. And say, Okay, This hasn't worked. Let's try something else. Let's look in a completely different direction. But to look in a different direction, You have to give up the old direction. So the ignoring of the want that I feel I've been doing is. . . Same. It's the same. That's just the ego fighting with ego. Will you say it to me one more time? Say what? Um, The third alternative. You tell me. What do you really want? The happiness of love. You really want the happiness of love. How you gonna get it? My aim is to be able to get it alone. Because trying to get it with others is. . . Not effective. Okay. It's how you get a good roll on them. Um. . . I'm trying to cultivate unconditional love. I can't say it's a dog, You know, I can't say it's dog failure. Better, Better. What a wonderful thing. If you're going to do something, Try to cultivate unconditional love. I don't know how you can do that, But that's a wonderful effort, If you're going to make an effort. It assumes that unconditional love is not already here. That's the problem. As if unconditional love could be cultivated and made. But aren't we just sort of in a languaging thing because there's the conditioned idea of love over the top of the. . . Unconditional love that's always here, But if that's if that's the program. Isn't it really essentially saying the same thing to cultivate the unconditional love versus get the conditioned perspective out of the way, Sweep that out of the way? No. And you don't have to sweep anything. No sweeping required. Because that also still assumes that there's something you have to do. That will get you something in the future. Mm-hmm. Or work, Right? And while you have homework, You also have the rest of your life. And then you can spend 20 minutes a day cultivating unconditional love in the rest of your day. Continuing to do the same old, Same old. It doesn't work. I mean, Yes, Better to do that 20 minutes a day than to spend it shopping, But whatever, You know? I'm talking about your whole life, Not a part of your life, Not homework. And so then there has to be a willingness. To say enough. Put your whole life on the line. For unconditional love. Not to practice or cultivate. But actually the one who wants to practice and cultivate is the one that gives up. Everything else. Gives up everything else to surrender to that. That's the part you're not getting. That's why you sat down here. Them. There's a realization of yourself as. Unconditional love. As love. Has love without name and form. That's unconditional. And that it gets expressed. Not Janine gets expressed, That gets expressed. And then it's quite naturally you'll find you can love others. That's where the happiness of love comes from. Not from being loved, But from loving. Then you have your desire, The happiness of love. Trying to get it by working on it is the same thing as trying to get it from someone else. It assumes you're over here, Love is over there. Whether it's inside or outside, And you have to do something to get it. So the one who is separate from love is the one who surrenders. But for that one to surrender, It has to be so fully. Gathered together into a cohesive unit that has to give up all of its secondary activities. All of its secondary desires. Because if what you really want is the happiness of love. . . What are you not willing to give for it? So you give everything for it. Then you have enough integrity to surrender. But as long as it's just a part-time pursuit or something you do. Moments or meditations or whatever it is, Then the whole rest of your life, The whole 99%, Is still running bad. That then wants to be gathered in as well. I have a deep distrust of that kind of surrender. Yes. You had a lot of them. It locks up the gears. I mean, There's like a paralysis. No, What locks up the gears is you're following the distrust instead of your true desire. You're serving distrust. As long as you serve distrust, This is the result. The terror of surrendering, That's right, The terror of surrendering yourself to love. And yet love is what you want. What you're most terrified of is what you're desiring the most. So. . . What I'm saying, Though, Is. . . There may be the mental intention to surrender and the open-mindedness around that, But in the moment, The animal You know, My brain locks up and my body stiffens and. . . So what? There are effects of this that make. . . Falling into not. . . Hey, If it was that big, If it was so easy, We wouldn't be sitting here. Right. It's a life and death encounter. And you only can serve one master. You'll either serve your body, Or you'll serve your heart. Doesn't matter. Of course there'll be fear, Of course. That's why it's so rare. It's fear of losing everything. Fear of losing control. I'm trying to build more flexibility in the machinery so that it can follow through. Yeah, It's nothing to do with machinery. No, No, No. Because it does get overload. So what? Trying to do that is also like trying to cultivate whatever it is you're cultivating. The same taste, Yeah. It doesn't matter. The machinery only acts that way because you're feeding it. There is no machinery besides you. That's an excuse. Consciousness doesn't need anything else. It's already sufficient. You assume that you're more important than consciousness and you have more to do than love. And so your self-importance is the biggest obstacle. And then that gets, Well, It's the machinery of the body that's freezing up. That's just your choice. Yeah, I do assume that it's. . . There's something. . . Too dense, Heavy, Big, Etc. Right. You assume that it's bigger than love, Bigger than consciousness. So you can see how diluted that is, Right? Yeah. I see that mentally, But in terms of having a knowing about that, I can't say that I do have a knowing about that. Right. It doesn't matter. It's like the person who comes for freedom and they're afraid to cross the road to freedom because they see a snake. Every day they come back, They're about to cross, But all they can't cross is a snake. And then someone comes from the other side and says, It's not a snake, It's a rope. You don't have to kill the snake, You don't have to fight with the snake, You don't have to tame the snake. You don't have to transform the snake. You don't have to cultivate the snake. You don't have to cultivate ropeness. It's already a rope, No matter whether you think about it or not. You can think of it as a snake, You can think of it as a horse, You can think of it as anything you like, It's still a rope. It's like that. So I've come from the other side to tell you it's only a rope. Nothing stands in the light of truth. Nothing is bigger than that, That can be an obstacle to that. It's just your own heart, Your own desire. It's your own willingness. That's all that's needed. You already are what you're searching for. You can't cultivate it. And the terror is to surrender to what it is you really want. And so instead, You'll go off and search for something else. Momentary short-term. Desire fulfillments. And all of that sucks energy and life away from what you really want. I'm looking for something to do. I'm looking for. . . A sentence that I can. . . Have, That I can integrate from everything you've just said, So I can go, Okay, That's what he said to me today. Dibby dibby doo. You get a high five. Yeah, You can't tell me. You can just tell me it's only a rope. And I'll have to see whether I'm thinking it's a snake or a crocodile or a. . . Whatever you think it is, Let it be a crocodile, Beautiful. What difference does it make? If it's a crocodile. If what you want is on the other side, You have to go through the crocodile. And you can, You have the full capacity to meet the crocodile and go past it. To surrender. The issue is surrender. To give up control. Trust love more than you trust Janine's. That's the issue. And I think very highly of Janine's mind. That's the problem. That's the tragedy. Because Janine's mind has done nothing but bring you sorrow. Heartbreak, Loss, Tragedy, Melodrama. And a lot of stuff. And it's only because of bad training. It hasn't been housebroken. It's a bit loud to just. . . Make a mess. Hasn't learned surrender. One learns surrender, One learns where the real master is. That's a very useful line. As long as it thinks it's in control, It's a mess. It's a dog without training running all mad in the house. With no one home. Okay, Thank you. I'll have. . . I'll have a real sincere look at that because. . . That's something that needs to be questioned. Is the wake of my mind really a mess? Yes, That's right. In some areas it is, And in other areas I would say not. Once where I would say not, I have to have a real look at because that's why I've not been willing to. Look at this, The nation of your life. This is it, This is the summation of your life. You're not getting love from the outside, You're not getting love from the inside. That's the result of your mind. It's worth it. Very simple. Good. Well, I'll have a look at that. Thank you. Thank you, Janine. It's good to see you. Glad you're here. I'll see you in Australia. Oh, Good. Maybe I'll meet you in Australia anyway. Good, Good. Yes, Please. Hi, Eli. I've been with you a long, Long time ago in Marin County. And I was with you and Gangaji in Marin County when you were doing the Enneagram. And I never got a clue what that was about. And then I became afraid of you. I've been with Gangaji a lot. And we have a lot of beautiful rapport and basically a lot of fun conversation. But this is real on a deeper level. And God bless her. Changing for me. I have some very serious memory loss. I was originally diagnosed with Alzheimer's and I was suicide the whole time that I had that. And it was a false diagnosis. Now I have PTSD. But what's happening for me now is I'm really losing my mind. And it really took a long time for me to accept what was going on for me. And I feel like I've come a long way with acceptance, But now I feel the loss is speeding up. And that's scary for me. I don't know how to deal with that, Really. It's really great for me to talk about it in here, Because that really fills a need for me. I do very well with a lot of things. I've been a concert pianist for many years, And I still can practice. I still can play. And that's really saving me a lot. Also, I have a lot of people in my life that really love me and that keeps me together. In so many ways, And I feel really beautifully blessed to live in Ashland, And I have a beautiful apartment in the mountains, So life is good, But most of all, I find the people in Ashland. Very beautiful and very loving and accepting. But sometimes I just feel like I'm alone with this. You are. No, Is that a good thing or not such a good thing? It's a really good thing. No, I need to know how that's a good thing. Because you now have enough of your cognitive powers still intact. That you can find the truth of yourself. Yeah. That has to be the full quest of your life. I understand that and I feel like there's an opportunity for me to use what's happening for me with memory loss to open a channel. Yes. Deeper than opening a channel. Is you take full cognitive powers that you have left. And you turn them in. To find the truth of who am I. Who am I? When the concert pianist is gone, When the son is gone, When the father is gone, When all the relationships are gone, When I'm all alone. Facing death, Who am I? That's scary. I know that's true and that's real, But that's scary for me at this moment. Of course, It's scary for everybody at any moment. But that gives me. . . But this is what, So what if it's scary? You don't have much time left. I have to go through it. Of course. You don't have to. . . Without resistance, Without resistance. With or without resistance, Doesn't matter. Well, It's happening. And I'm glad this is part of the journey. I bless you. I love Gangaji. She sent me a birthday card. Oh, Good. Yes. This is the first time I've stood. Sat up here and looked you in the eye, But I don't know if you've seen me a lot. I have. Years ago. He told me to meditate, And I did, And I have. Effectuated a lot of changes in my life. It's become very obvious to a lot of people who know me and Gangaji who recognizes me. I just had a great change here today. And, Uh. . . It's a wonderful experience. I've been sitting back there and had no intention of coming up here or anything else. I experienced you and I thought, Wow. How well you look, How beautiful, And I can feel your changes. Oh no. But I was also starting to, And I was really grokking what you were saying. And then my. . . I started to have this experience of this gentleman here who would just continue to affirm everything with a kind of his own personal grudge. It totally blew me away. Change mine. My consciousness. I went back 50 years. To when I was 13 and television arrives in my life. And my mother would watch television at night. And I would hear it and I would close every door in the house to try to block out the television and I couldn't. And I couldn't concentrate, So I would leave the house. And I had to devise a lifestyle in my hole. Studious attitude, And I was very good student. Collapsed. I barely graduated high school and I went on with a lot of things. And it lasted until I was 60. And so here I am. Sitting back there and experiencing this man who is every time he grunts. I'm out of it. And pretty soon I can't. I'm gonna leave. Because I can't focus. And I go back and I can go through the room, The house, Closing every door. Begging my mother to turn the television down, Blocking my ears, I can't do anything. So I just leave the house. So right now. If everything stops for just a moment. What's alive here. A clarity. Yes. Yes. And that clarity. Can't be distracted. Yeah. So then you can give yourself more deeply to this clarity. Because clarity loves silence. Quite naturally, Even as a little boy you loved silence. Yes. And the television was a horror for you. Yes, It was. That's the sensitivity that's natural. When there's an open, Silent heart, There's a very deep sensitivity. That's very beautiful. Very beautiful. And so now, Yeah. I did love silence, There was something there. Yes, You still do. And silence is still here. It's waiting for you. It doesn't need anything. It can have the television or not. You can have people speaking or not. Silence is here, Calling back, Come home. Be still. Be still now. I'm always looking for somebody to play with. That's all I, That's what I had. Yeah, And that's just looking in the wrong direction. So right now. Look back into silence. Be silent. Allow yourself to be silent. And things will unfold quite naturally from there. Yeah. Right. That's very beautiful. Thank you. Thank you so much. And thank you all for bearing with me. Thank you. Hi. My name is Jim. Jim, Welcome. Well, I've been sitting here. I've been getting everything that you've been saying, But I've been getting it. . . Probably not through your words so much. Good. Yes. Like when you were telling the woman. . . Um. . . That she is unconditional love. It doesn't make any difference what she thinks about it. Yes. And I simply recognized you. As being completely unconditional love. And I thought, Not immediately, But a little bit further along, I thought, If that's the case, So am I. Yes, That's right. Yes. And so is everyone. Yes. And everywhere. Everywhere. That's right. And I also. . . When you said just a few moments ago, In talking to the man who just got up from here, That that this is where the silence is, In the heart. And it just so completely rang true. And bang, Bang, Bang, Bang, Bang, All kinds of things then fit together. Been aware of that a lot of times when I am. Raise it pretty much here. Um, That it is. That there's like a deep, Deep silence. Yes. And when words come from there. They're very simple and they're very brief. And. . . I've had an intellectual idea about that, And now I have a sense of why that is. Yes. This is your own self. Yes. So beautiful, Yes. You are silent, Intelligent love. That's your nature. So when you say I, This is what I really refers to. Than if you shift your allegiance from I being anything else except. Silent, Intelligent love. Than you are yourself. It's extraordinarily neat. Yes, At least. So beautiful, Such a good heart. Thank you very much. I'm so grateful, So good to see you. I love your sweetness. Thank you. What's your name? Jim. Jim. Thank you, Jim. Simple name too. Yeah. That's it. That's good news. This is the. . . When this true heart speaks through Jim's voice, It's everyone's voice. It's the same heart. Same love, Same intelligence, Same silence. That's such good news. And serving ourselves this way, And truly surrendering everything. Because this is the challenge now. So then there's an allegiance to the gymnast that wants and does and fixes and manages, And an allegiance to the true Self. You can't have both when you shift your allegiance to your true Self. This is. . . Serving not only love, It's serving the world. It serves everyone. Because now you become the living example. You become. The possibility, Because when people, As someone said, You know, If it's possible for you, It's possible for me, And that's absolutely it. We're all the same. If it's possible for one of us, It's possible for all of us. In my case, They took one of the slowest, Hardest cases. If he can do it, Anybody can do it. Thank you so much. Thank you for this gift. Thank you for satsang. May all beings be happy and at peace and free. Thank you. Thank you. You you you Thank you.

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