Dear body,
I've been reflecting on our time together,
The painful,
The peaceful,
And everything in between.
I've been wanting to share some reflections with you,
And please accept my humble apologies for how late this is in some ways.
Thanks for your patience all these years as I made my way back in relationship with you.
I hope this is a continuation of an ongoing friendship,
Not just a fleeting moment in time.
Dear body,
Thank you for holding me down all these years,
Through the moments of unexpected pain,
Those injuries,
The sicknesses,
And the times we chose from the sports and dance competitions,
To the nights out,
The drinking and the drugs,
To the tattoos I love that adorn you.
I'm sorry for all the times I ignored you or pushed you past your capacity.
And let's be real,
Sometimes do and might continue to ignore or push you when you're angry,
When you have to pee,
When you're tired,
When you're lonely.
Dear body,
Please forgive me for pushing you harder than what you had capacity for.
Please know I believed I needed to at the time.
I learned and was modeled doing over being because my ancestors were not afforded the privileges I have now.
I am so grateful we have more choices now.
I forgive you for slowing me down,
Even when it felt like it was to the point of retreat,
Self-sabotage,
Avoidance.
Because I know you needed to do that too,
In order to heal,
To move me towards more balance.
Thank you for the wisdom you brought in those moments of retreat,
Those moments where you let me slow down to grieve.
Grieve the pain in me,
In the world,
The sorrow that intricately links all of humanity.
I understand the world kept moving,
And there's some catching up to do.
But I don't regret a moment you invited me to play,
To rest,
To grieve,
To deepen our friendships,
And to heal our family wounds.
I hope I can continue to show you that even if we move towards more doing,
That it won't be in sacrifice of our wellness and health.
I hope I can rebuild your trust in me,
And in the community of souls that I have curated to hold you,
Dear body,
When the stress and sorrows of the world are too much to hold ourselves.
But please know,
Dear body,
If I ever veer off track,
If I fall back into busy doing,
Losing my intentionality,
Self-care,
Or balance,
May I trust you to steer me back on course.
Please come steer me back onto our path,
This path of love,
Of balance,
Of trust,
Of awakening,
Of peace.
Life is a balance,
Dear body.
I trust that there is wisdom in all you bring.
If you need rest,
Grant me the awareness and patience to honor it.
If you need me to prove myself capable,
Grant me persistence to keep showing up as needed.
Most importantly,
Hear my commitment to you.
I aspire to always try to attune to you,
To listen with curiosity,
To surrender to your messages instead of fighting them,
And to offer my deepest gratitude to you for the strength,
Courage,
Wisdom,
And love you have shown me my whole life.
Thank you,
Body.
Thank you,
Body.
Thank you,
Body.
Thank you,
Body.
Thank you,
Body.
