And this is a pretty powerful message from your future self,
The mystic that lives deep inside of you that perhaps hasn't been allowed to speak.
Because often,
Our minds get too cluttered with the expectations of others and the pressures of fitting in.
And that can lead us to decisions that can really thwart our ability to find meaning and authenticity in our lives.
So let's get comfortable.
And take a few deep breaths,
Allowing the belly to expand on the inhale,
Opening the shoulders wide,
Opening your chest,
Feeling the expansion in the collarbones.
And then exhale.
Continue to do this for a few moments.
With every exhale,
You drop the expectations of others.
You drop all those rejections that you have received that have led you to feelings of low self-worth,
A lack of belonging.
Because there's a deeper part inside of you that is aching to spring forth.
So let's listen to those words that your future self,
Your soul,
Is aching to say to you as you open your ears and your heart.
Your future self says to you,
You can exhale now.
You no longer have to hold your breath,
Waiting for someone to hand you permission.
It was never theirs to give.
You were born with a blessing already braided into your bones,
Your breath,
Your body,
Your hunger to know what lies beneath the surface.
You are the artist and mystic you've always been.
I'm you,
Just further down the path,
And I want you to know you didn't miss your moment.
You were the moment all along.
You were never too late.
Not when you sat on your childhood bed,
Imagining love.
Not when you walked hallways alone in high school.
Not when you obsessed over people who couldn't hold your devotion.
Not when you stayed in jobs or relationships that dulled your light.
Not even now,
When you feel invisible,
Unseen,
Or uncertain.
I remember how you thought you had to be productive or palatable or proven in order to matter.
I remember the ache in your chest when your creations barely made a ripple,
When that silence met your offerings like a closed door.
I remember how you tied your worth to attention,
Even as you begged to be left alone to think to pray,
To create.
But listen,
Because this is important,
Your value was never in the response.
It was in the radiance.
That quiet radiance of showing up again.
The trembling radiance of telling the truth.
The unpolished radiance of being deeply human and still reaching for the holy.
You did not come here to convince anyone.
You came here to remember who you are.
And once you remembered,
You began to create from a different place.
Not to be loved,
But because you already were.
You stopped hiding your depth.
You stopped apologizing for your mystery.
You stopped explaining or trying to explain your devotion in academic terms.
Instead,
You let your beauty be enough.
You let longing be your compass.
You allowed silence to speak volumes.
So,
I need you to hear this now before you retreat again.
You are the light you've been chasing.
You don't have to earn it.
You don't have to fix yourself first.
You don't have to be perfect or even healed.
You just have to be willing to show up as you are.
Let the ones who don't understand fall away.
Let the ones who mock your softness keep their armor.
Let the gatekeepers choke on their credentials.
And let the past rest where it belongs.
Because here's what happens once you fully say yes to this life.
Your words start to land in the hearts of those who have been waiting for them.
Your body starts to move not from survival,
But from sacred rhythm.
Your days don't get easier necessarily,
But they do get truer.
And that truth is worth everything.
So go light your candles.
Walk in the wind.
Write the things,
Create the things that make your voice shake.
Say the things that your soul has waited decades to speak.
And love yourself as if you finally see how holy you've been all along.
I'll meet you here with wild grace from your future self.
The one who never stopped believing in you,
Even when you did.
And so let these words settle in your bones.
You don't need to rush to understand.
You don't need to do anything at all.
Just let yourself be.
You are the thing you've been waiting for.
And continue to embody this feeling,
This presence within you that has grown bigger.
You hold this place sacred,
Untouched.
And you let this breathe through you as you take on this day,
This moment.
Take another breath.
Take care.
