Hi,
I'm Bassem.
Thank you for joining me.
It never ceases to amaze me how relevant these lives are.
What happened this morning at 3.
30 a.
M.
,
The inner child,
The wounding,
And the experience that I endured,
Dark night of the soul,
That was akin to that.
And is very relevant to inner child work.
It was really remarkable,
And I'm hoping that I can share it with you.
Why do I like to share these experiences?
I suppose it's because I'm reporting from the trenches,
The war itself,
Not from some high-minded place of self-realization.
I'm a fellow traveler.
Now,
You might be enlightened.
I'm reporting from my own living.
Experience it.
I'm in the middle.
Of a shift.
Whatever it is,
It's a living commentary.
And I never pretend otherwise,
Or I don't want to pretend otherwise.
Others would call it crisis.
Sixty,
Alone,
Without a fixed address,
Recently suffered a stroke.
Last July,
The week of my birthday,
No savings,
No income.
Being guided on this all-too-human journey of recovery,
Discovery,
Ever unveiling,
Providing so many insights.
And sometimes.
I ask,
Why do I have to go through this?
Not that I'm the only one.
The answer was.
.
.
So that I may know.
So that I may share,
So that I may serve.
So my journey has been a journey of apprenticeship.
Into the ability to describe my experience as a lost soul.
Trying to find my way back to the light.
And last night was just a kind of attack.
And I want to share that with you.
The title of this conversation is The Abandoned Inner Child.
The relation to your emotional body,
The inner child.
Formed before we had words.
For what we felt.
Think about that.
Your inner child.
Explain.
Your moods,
Your longing,
Your hunger.
Also explains your emotional resonance.
The vibration that you are.
Outputting into this world.
Frequencies.
That everybody is outputting to create.
This collective habitat.
That we live in.
And that we tune into.
True.
Delivery frameworks like social media.
We can make a series just on this topic.
The inner child plays a very important role in our reality.
To the degree to which we understand reality.
The machinations of our reality.
Our relationship with the world that we inhabit,
Our relationship with our mind,
Our relationship with our emotions,
Our relationship with the frequency of all of this,
The inner child deals with.
Abandoned in a child signifies our emotional body,
Our feeling,
Experience,
And specifically describes the color of that experience.
The life department that did that experience.
Is shaping.
There are 12 departments,
12 different human experiences.
Speaks of our early emotional development.
So if your emotional development,
For example,
Was hindered in some way.
Which is usually the case.
Then It speaks.
To the result of that hindrance.
And why is this important?
Because It also conditions.
Your emotional resonance,
Your emotional output.
Through sensitivity.
Through reactivity.
Whatever the situation may have been.
So it's very important to understand our inner child.
And the role that plays in our life.
Not understanding that inner child.
Also serves as the obstruction to our becoming.
The hindrance to our unfolding.
And that starts to make sense when we relate.
The inner child to early development because wounding can get in the way of our becoming.
It can also guide our becoming.
And this is.
An interesting point because our grief,
Is also our Guidance.
So grief guidance is different.
Spectrums of the same thing.
Is also the place.
Which can guide our becoming.
We become experts in the area that.
Is represented by our wounding.
And that's why in a child's work,
All important,
So long that wounding is left unaddressed.
We're essentially leaking energy,
Continuously trying to escape it,
To distract ourselves from it.
And our life ends up being.
Organized around avoidance of wounding.
3.
30 this morning.
I wake up.
I go to the bathroom,
Go back to bed,
Lying down.
The inner child.
Is awake,
It's crying.
Whatever the cause of its.
.
.
Crying.
In a sense,
It's irrelevant.
Who knows what they're thinking?
Who knows what they're dreaming in the middle of the night?
So there I am.
I'm lying down.
My mind.
Is hosting all kinds of fears.
Running out of cash,
That to pay for soon,
The visa extension coming up.
The monthly rental is coming up.
The work still left undone,
Personal alchemy is not quite ready yet.
The VA to pay,
All of these things.
And I'm thinking,
It's 3.
30 in the morning.
What on earth am I going to do about it right now?
I can't do anything about it.
Right now in a child.
Doesn't care.
And the mother is concerned about the baby.
And wants to pacify the baby.
The mother is aware that.
We don't have enough to feed the baby.
We don't have enough money to keep the roof over our head,
And so on and so forth.
Complaining.
Whining.
To the husband.
Who knows,
She's not lying.
Who's carrying the burden on his back.
Doing his best in his own mind now to try to figure things out.
How am I going to solve this situation?
How am I going to protect my family?
How am I going to put food on the table?
And he's lying there.
He's trying to fix this situation.
How is he going to do it?
There's no help.
There's no one he can turn to.
All his friends are equally broke.
When he has looked to God,
God never answered his.
Prayers.
Thinks what's the point?
There's nowhere to turn to,
Nowhere to run.
There's no escape from this situation.
All of this is happening at 3.
30 in the morning.
Mentally.
Trying to find a solution.
To innovate,
To think how,
But at some point he realizes there's nothing he can do.
For me to do right now.
Maybe it's not about doing.
Maybe it's not about that.
Finding solutions.
Maybe it's not about finding resolutions.
Maybe it's about something else,
But what?
What is this about?
And then a question comes to the mind,
This situation,
3.
30 in the morning,
What is this an opportunity for?
And immediately.
Her realizes.
That it's an opportunity.
For healing.
So there he is.
He's worrying.
It feels like death.
There's nothing to do.
He can feel the pain in his body.
He's lying there,
Feeling the weight in his chest,
The rumble in his belly,
The tightness in his throat,
And it dawns on him.
There's nowhere to escape.
There's nowhere to run to.
He can't turn to God.
He can't turn to friends.
He can't turn anywhere.
He must resolve to some other course of actions.
It occurs to him to ask,
What is this an opportunity for?
Motivated by the heaviness in his body.
He realizes,
Could this be an opportunity for healing?
He releases,
He lets go.
It's not about doing,
It's about being.
Sitting in this fire.
Of uncertainty,
And this fire of confusion,
And this fire of worry.
Lying there in it,
With it.
Refusing to move.
An inch.
Refusing to turn,
Refusing to scratch,
Refusing to do any of it,
Just lying there.
Sinking into his body,
His nervous system.
Getting denser and heavier.
Different parts of the body beginning to wake up and release.
All the while,
His beautiful mind is reminding him.
What is this an opportunity for?
It's an opportunity for healing,
And he releases deeper and deeper and deeper,
Allowing deep-seated issues to surface and to release.
And then.
.
.
At some point it occurs to him that this is bigger than him.
That this release is not a release of his own.
Individual.
Experience.
Trapped emotions dating back to his own past.
It's ancestral.
That he's in fact healing gridlocks that belong to his whole family line.
Is lenient.
Ancestral gridlocks that have held His lineage.
Trapped in survival.
What is this an opportunity?
The mind.
Insists it sees.
The wonderful work that's taking place.
They're working together.
Just keep going.
Momentarily,
The wife doubts,
But how do we know any of this is true?
And the mind.
Reminds her.
No thought is true.
Nerd thought.
It's real.
It's simply that.
The mind.
Is causal,
It creates.
Thoughts become.
She seems satisfied by this momentarily.
And he feels that satisfaction.
He feels the relief.
He's encouraged by this rationale,
By this.
.
.
Astute logic.
Indeed.
It's not that the mind is true.
It's that thoughts become.
Whether they're true or not,
It's irrelevant.
Truth is subjective.
And suddenly.
.
.
I wake up in the morning.
I fell asleep.
The baby fell asleep.
The wife seems satisfied.
The husband woke up,
Rested.
He says,
Okay,
Let's get to work.
Goes to check onto the inside timer.
Goes,
Oh.
The talk is not until 12.
36.
Great!
I couldn't have planned it better.
So then I.
.
.
Was already dressed,
Already showered,
Grabbed my keys.
It's eight o'clock in the morning.
Got on my bike.
And drove to a beautiful cafe in the right field.
No one there.
It's an experience that I'm enduring that would ultimately liberate.
Through healing my ancestral lineage.
Wow.
And so suddenly my focus naturally shifts from scarcity,
From striving,
From.
.
.
Doing.
To gratitude.
All of my energy that was focused through the lens of scarcity,
Survival.
Shifts naturally to gratitude.
Gratitude becomes.
The lens through which my energy is now mobilized.
Fully aware that gratitude Expense while survival contracts.
So I naturally felt grateful for my experience.
I felt grateful for the challenge that I'm going through.
I really felt grateful for my mine 40 years of meditation.
Has.
Turned it into a friend,
My inner child.
Woke me up in the morning.
I am emotional.
Body.
And my mind received it well.
The inner child woke up crying.
The mother woke up.
To nurse it,
To try to.
.
.
Pacify.
Unable to control her own fears.
I have rent to pay.
I have Visa to get.
I don't have any savings.
Her fears are very valid.
The horizontal experience needs to be addressed.
It's not about spiritual elevation.
By passing,
We have rent to pay.
We have food to put on the table.
This is real food.
Things.
But he also knows.
That reality on the outside reflects reality on the inside.
He thinks,
What is it then in me that is creating this Scarcity.
Life is presenting me with an opportunity to see.
That no matter what I think,
Reality is reflecting the truth of my inner state.
It's an opportunity become acquainted with that state not through action but through surrender.
Not through distraction.
But true.
Being willing.
To sit in the fire without pain.
Doing anything.
Just feeling.
Experiencing the pain in the body released by the nervous system as it begins to unlock patterns.
That are not just.
.
.
Belonging to the Father,
But to His whole lineage.
And then wakes up in the morning.
People often.
Confuse the wounded inner child with the mind.
It's all ego.
It's all mind.
It's not all mind.
It expresses.
Combines with the mind,
Influences the mind.
But there's emotional resonance just as there is intellectual,
Mental resonance.
Both of which combined with others resonating at the same frequency becomes like a collective threshold.
That we find ourselves quarantined in.
You could do 30 years of meditation and find yourself still in the same place.
That's why it doesn't work.
Not because the meditation is ineffective.
It's because while on the one hand you are meditating,
On the other hand,
You're tuning into the reality of others,
Not giving yourself a chance.
To elevate.
So I recently,
I deleted the social apps from my phone.
Why?
Because I couldn't continue to diet on this low-grade global frequency that was reaching me through these delivery frameworks.
And expect.
To come out of the trenches.
The collective war,
The collective threshold.
No one is doing this to you.
Or me.
It's a frequency resonance that has been built up over time through our own input,
Human input.
So I turned them off and replaced them with the high-quality.
.
.
Frequency of the spiritual masters.
I was already listening to them.
But they were being hijacked by that other.
It's like switching.
.
.
Diet to improve your health.
So you switch off the bad food.
And replace it with good food.
Simultaneously wise to take up an exercise to give yourself a better chance at health.
You might even.
.
.
Enlist the services of a fitness coach,
Or in this case,
A spiritual mentor.
Can support you even further.
That's when we counter the effect.
Of this threshold that is keeping us quarantined in survival.
And scarcity,
Complaining why things are not working.
And then you might decide you're going to do this in a group,
In a community.
Why?
Because as the teacher,
Gurdjieff,
Said,
One man alone can do nothing.
Two people together can do everything.
One hand alone is limited.
Two hands together,
Exponential.
Possibility.
All of this has led me to the discovery.
Of why spiritual work has been ineffective.
It's not because it doesn't work.
It's because we are trying to do these things while still plugged into.
An old frequency that is more powerful than the individual effort.
It's like trying to swim against the ocean.
You can't.
You might be a great swimmer,
But sooner or later.
You'll get tired.
You'll want to touch land.
So it's not just.
How you feel.
It's not just your comfort zone.
I want now to.
.
.
Ask you.
Simple question.
Right now,
In this very moment,
Ask yourself.
Honestly.
What frequency are you broadcasting into the field?
What frequency are you broadcasting every day?
Is it fear?
Scarcity?
Is it resentment?
Is it jealousy?
Is it anger?
Is it shame?
What is it?
Maybe occasionally gratitude when you remember.
Or presence,
It's a powerful frequency.
And if it is gratitude,
Presence is coherence.
How can you sustain this without reinstalling the old and can you afford to keep doing it alone?
Whatever frequency we're sustaining long enough becomes the field.
We inhabit individually and that others inhabit also.
And if there's enough people.
Resonating the frequency of gratitude,
Presence,
Coherence.
It can modify the collective field.
All it takes is a single match to light up a dark room.
One person alone can do nothing.
Many of us together can do a lot.
And it's not just for your own well-being.
Your well-being depends on the well-being of others.
We're in the same ocean.
We rise together.
Alright.
Take care,
My friends.
Lots of love to you all.
Keep vibrating.
A frequency of gratitude,
Of love.
