Find a comfortable position.
You might close your eyes.
Take a slow breath in.
And release it.
And again.
You don't need to fix anything right now.
You don't need to be anywhere other than here.
We begin with two of the shortest,
Most honest words in all of scripture.
Jesus wept.
That's the entirety of John 11,
35.
Two words.
In the face of death,
Of grief,
Of loss,
Jesus did not offer an explanation.
He did not rush past the pain toward the miracle.
He wept.
He allowed the full weight of human sorrow to move through him.
Whatever you are carrying today,
You are not carrying it alone.
In a moment,
I'll invite you to bring to mind the loss you are holding.
It might be the death of someone you love.
It might be the end of a relationship,
A job,
Or a community that shaped you.
It might be a chapter of life that has quietly closed.
A future you had imagined that will not come to be.
Grief takes many shapes.
Whatever it is,
Whatever you're carrying,
It's real.
Gently allow that loss to come into your awareness.
There's no need to analyze it or explain it.
Just let it be present,
The way you might sit beside someone you love without needing to say a word.
Notice where you feel it.
In your chest perhaps,
Your throat,
Your stomach.
Somewhere you may have been trying not to look.
Grief can feel like many things.
A heaviness that won't lift.
A hollow space where something used to be.
Sometimes an unexpected wave that catches you off guard.
Other times,
A numbness that feels like nothing at all.
Whatever is here for you right now,
Let it be here.
You don't need to push it away.
You don't need to perform it either.
You might notice resistance.
The part of you that wants to move on,
To feel better,
To not be in this.
That's okay.
Just notice it.
There's no right way to grieve.
There is an ancient conviction at the heart of Christian faith that God does not watch our suffering from a distance.
God enters it.
The name Emmanuel,
God with us,
Is not only a promise for Christmas,
It is the promise of every ordinary moment,
Including the hard ones.
Especially the hard ones.
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Ignatius spent much of his life learning to pay attention to his inner experience.
He came to believe that even in our darkest moments,
Even when we feel most alone or most lost,
God is not absent.
He called this a kind of consolation.
Not the absence of pain,
But the quiet sense of being accompanied in it.
Can you sense,
Even faintly,
A presence with you in this grief?
Not an answer.
Not an explanation.
Just a presence.
If you can't sense anything right now,
That's also okay.
There are seasons when we feel only absence.
Ignatius understood this too,
What he called desolation.
And still he believed we are not abandoned.
We are held even when we cannot feel it.
There's a writer in the Hebrew scriptures who composed what may be the most honest book in the Bible.
The Book of Lamentations is exactly what it sounds like.
A sustained cry of grief.
And yet,
In the middle of its devastation,
Something shifts.
Not because the situation has changed,
But because the writer chooses to remember.
Yet this I call to mind,
And therefore I have hope.
The steadfast love of God never ceases.
God's mercies never come to an end.
They are new every morning.
This isn't optimism.
The writer is still in the pits.
Hope,
Real hope,
Does not pretend the pain isn't there.
It's something quieter and more stubborn than optimism.
It's the conviction that even here,
Even in this,
Something holds.
Is there anything,
However small,
That still feels like life to you?
A person,
A memory,
A moment of unexpected light.
Again,
No need to manufacture anything.
Just see if something rises up.
And is there anything this grief might be slowly asking of you?
Not yet,
Perhaps.
Loss rarely speaks clearly at first,
But sometimes grief opens a door we didn't know was there.
You don't need to walk through it today.
Just notice if it exists.
When you're ready,
Bring your hands gently to rest in your lap,
Palms open.
An open hand is a different posture than a clenched one.
It isn't resignation.
It's a willingness to receive whatever comes next,
Even if reluctantly.
The one who wept at a tomb,
Who cried out from a cross,
Who walked beside two grieving disciples on a road and was not recognized until much later.
That same presence walks with you.
You carry this grief.
But you do not carry it alone.
Take a breath.
And when you're ready.
Carry that awareness gently into the rest of your day.