Leading Ourselves | IT Live Replay

Recording from the Live community gathering here on IT (May 27, 2026). May has been WILD as Uranus moved into Gemini, Pluto began its retrograde, and we have our second Full Moon this coming weekend (called a Blue Moon because its two in the same month). Astrology is showing us new possibilities... are you feeling it?!

You may be experiencing erratic energy shifts, lots of ideas flowing, old beliefs dismantling. It is a karmic moment according to astrologers, filled with potential. The invitation again and again is to trust our own Truth and lead ourselves through this inevitable change.

These conversations offer energetic support as you navigate shifts in Consciousness. They are not a replacement for professional medical care, and no diagnosis, treatment, or medical advice is provided.

Suggested tracks from this Live: New Moon in Aries (April 2026); Full Moon in Sag (May 2026); Light Protocol for Grief; Remembering The Void

Transcript

Hello, Hello, Everybody. It is two o'clock on May the 27th. Look, My favorite faces are all popping in. Oh, Hi, Everyone. Say hello in the comments if you want me to say hi back to you. So Caitlin, Bex, I see others are joining. We are going to shift frequency together today. It may mean that things get wonky with technology because that seems to happen when we up level or upgrade our frequency. Okay, Yeah, I was thinking it's probably going to happen. Okay, Let's see how, Let's see how it goes. So you have to just let me know how the sound is. Hello, Hello. What may happen is that the call gets disconnected. We have a storm coming in here, A big storm with thunderstorm lightning that's supposed to arrive. I am holding a different frequency for this space very consciously. We are also moving towards the second full moon of this month, Which is a blue moon. So there is a lot of turbulence in the field, And when that happens, What I often find is technology is the first thing to kind of thrive. Keep me updated on how it sounds if I need to make changes. Is it a little steadier? Good. It's better now. Excellent. If we get disconnected. Just come back, I will open the room back up again, And we will just continue from wherever we ended, And it will be perfect. It's like holding a frequency that is new. We all sort of calibrate to that. And it just takes a minute, So it's okay. Robert, I see Robert just joined. It just takes a minute. So if things happen. Just roll with me. Okay. Hello, Hello. So fun to see all of your faces. I am just gonna dive right in with energy readings. Hello, Neil, Maribel, Madeline, Rebecca, Bex, Everyone. I love when we all greet each other. So beautiful. I'm just going to dive right in. So if you already know that you want an energy reading, Let me know and let's talk about what it is that you want to explore. I'm not going to be using tarot today. We're going to do old school energy reading the way that I used to do it before tarot became kind of the bridge or the vehicle that I would use. I don't believe that you need the tarot from me anymore. We're just going to. Play. Who wants to go first? Neil's like, All in. Just listen to your good old grounding meditation. And an hour before that, Did an energy alignment. I love it. I love it. Okay, So let me say something about the full moon in Sagittarius and then maybe someone will be like, Yeah, Now I want you to take a look. We opened the month in May. With the first full moon which was in Scorpio. A full moon in Scorpio is going to illuminate or show for us the places where maybe we're not fully in integrity or truth, Usually with ourselves, And the people around us will reflect back to us what we kind of already know inside we're not in full integrity with. So if we have been playing small, For example, Or not allowing our full gifts to be shared or seen, Or not loving with our full heart, Kind of holding back and protecting, The full moon in Scorpio at the beginning of the month could have come in and been like. . . Do you see? Do you want to see? Lots of people are like, No, I do not want to see. Thank you. I shall pull back into my little cover and pretend that that illumination did not happen. So when we pull back. . . The illumination doesn't end, The tapping at our consciousness doesn't stop. Because once we have something starting to stir inside of ourselves, It's because it's ready to be awakened. And so when things start to get awakened, Our consciousness, Our subconscious, Is going to bring us little extra things to sort of poke at the bear or Nudges. Kindly, Not very kindly, Out of our sleepy spaces. So all of this started bubbling for many of us at the beginning of the month. And then we moved to the middle of the month and had a new moon in Taurus. The new moon in Taurus said, OK. Taurus is about the body. It's about our resources. It's about being steady and grounded and present and here. It had a lot of. Other things going on at the same time. I'm not an astrologer, So I can't tell you what they were, But it was definitely connected to betrayal and the witch story, The times where we shut our voices down or had our voices shut down finally coming up to be activated. And so even though the new moon was from a grounded place, It could have added even more to what you were already feeling from the Scorpio energy at the beginning of the month. So how you may be arriving, Hi Sarah, How you may be arriving right now is like dragging yourself. To this moment, Crawling with, Like, Ear fingernails. Because you made it, You're here, And oh my God, What else? Or what's next? And I don't say that lightly. I don't say that to make fun of the experience. It's hard. It's brutal at times to be an awakened human, To be a human who chooses to allow the soul to continuously expand and grow and emerge through us. It's way easier, I believe, To stay sleepy or hiding or not aware. And yet. I think we came here for the awareness. I think we came here for the adventure, For the living of it, For the stretching and the growing. And when our lives end and we go back to just being the soul. I wonder if we would regret that we didn't get in the mud and get a little dirtier and crawl our way through some growth so that when we return to being the soul we have more wisdom, We have more experiences that we can philosophize and share about with other souls who have never had the chance to come be a human. You know, If you, It's like. The famous football players who got a chance to run the ball all the way down the field and win the Super Bowl. They've got a story that people will always want to hear about because who gets to do that? How many people get that moment? It is very similar for us as souls when, I believe, We return outside of Earth. And we're all flying around the universe. Talking to each other telepathically about all the things. I believe the souls that can talk about the moment. Gather more souls around them. Creates, More life in the universe, Create more energy. Inspire other souls to do things that will stretch them in more ways. So cool moon in Scorpio at the beginning of the month New Moon and Taurus stirred it all up. We're finding our way here, Maybe we're crawling, Maybe we're like doing okay. The good news? Great news is that we have a full moon in Sagittarius on Sunday. So let your body start to feel what I am naming energetically for you. You may not have been able to tap into this yet or you may not have had it on your radar yet. So I am bringing in The bright lights, The flash and dazzle, There's hope. Magic ahead, A full moon in Sagittarius. First of all, It's the second full moon in one month, And it's called a blue moon. This happens every two and a half to three years. A blue moon, If you've heard the phrase once in a blue moon, Is this bonus, In my opinion, This bonus magic. It's just a time for exciting things to happen. Full Moon, Scorpio, New Moon, Taurus, And now this Blue Moon in Sagittarius, Which is about the fun, The razzle-dazzle, The play, The adventure. The other magic that is happening right at this full moon in Sagittarius, And I'm giving you a lot of astrology, But don't worry if you don't get it, It's about what you feel as you hear me say these words. I was watching a video. By an astrologer I follow who's really good, And she was saying that this full moon in Sagittarius has this extra, Because we need more, This extra thing that is happening. There are four royal fixed stars of Persia. Let that simmer in you. They're called the Sky Watchers, The Celestial Guardians. Not gardens. I keep saying that. The Celestial Guardians. There's four of them, And they're placed around the chart for this full moon. Three of them, I think, Are exact or something like that. But what she said is these four fixed royal stars show up when there's going to be a shift in leadership in world affairs. Oh, Yay. Hi, Rene and Cindy. When there's going to be a shift into the new paradigm, When something really profound is going to happen. Four fixed stars become prominent in the chart. Take it or leave it, I like to add that in with the blue moon magic and go, Something really cool is going to happen this weekend. So that is the energy we are headed towards. What that may feel like in your body is hope. Or possibility. Creativity. Praise the Lord. It may feel. Like there's some sweetness coming. And so the music that I chose to listen to myself, Which you can listen to if you want, It's named at the top. The music holds that frequency of play, Of belief in the magic, The joy, The abundance, The sparkle of being the soul in the human journey. It's a way that we can calibrate to Life is meant to be good and abundant and rich and magnificent. We are meant to have communities around us who love us. We are meant to feel hope and creativity and desire to express that through us. Like there is this flow, This current of life force that is innate in every single human. And when life feels like it squishes us down and we forget that we have that. This is your reminder to let it start to bubble back up. So now who would like a reading? Cause I think that's all I have to say. Renee, How are you doing? I love it. Or tell me your reflections and we'll have a conversation through the comments. I feel like the last few times I've just been talking, Talking, Talking, So I would love to read. Yeah, Okay. Whoever wants a reading. If you could leave me a little line or two. Paul, It's a reading. Leave me a little line or two of what you want me to look at. Olivia? Pics. I love you. I like hearing you talk. I like when you're here. Okay, Renee, Tell me first. We'll start with you. And remember. . . Everything that comes up is for all of us, So. When I show up here, You're bringing me wisdom, I'm bringing you wisdom. Thank you, Bex. We're all working together. So we'll give Renee a minute and let her drop what she would like into the comments of what we want to look at. Just got off a psychiatrist call and it felt good to share about our live call about the origin. Oh, I'm so glad. I am so glad. I love that you had good news. Doesn't that feel amazing? And do you want me to share some more about the origin or? Which direction do you want us to take a look? If you want a reading and you're able to phrase it in a question or a little context, Maybe type your question or your thing and keep it ready. When it's your turn, You can drop it in and then I'll have a direction I can go. I can just read, But it's, I think it's more fun when you tell me which way you want us to really focus the energy. My eyes and my glasses keep fogging up. I don't know if you guys are listening to the music, But he is so great. I really enjoy this artist. We're gonna give Renee a moment. There's a lot of pressure when you have to think about what to say or what to ask for, So I try to not rush people. I've been rushed before when I've tried to comment and it just. . . It's very stressful feeling. So you have plenty of space here to think about what you would like us to look at and then to write it in so that we can guide us together. And if you are here to receive, I would invite you to lean back to. . . Relax your muscles to put your feet on the ground. To open your crown chakra and really allow yourself to receive this frequency that's moving through. Yeah. Jade. Well, She's not here right now, Bex. So let's hope she stays away, Because when she pops on my lap, Hair goes everywhere. But she's doing great. She's probably feeling a little neglected. I've been working quite a bit lately. She gets me distracted. I feel like connecting with what is alignment. Bex, I know you're culinary now. I guarantee she'll be here in a few minutes. I feel like connecting with what is alignment with my highest good. I am reducing my medicine more and interesting the fear that came up about being able to handle this and feel more. I am also curious about my brother Laszlo and the special connection we have had and possibly had in past life experiences. " Awesome. I love tapping into past lives. Okay. Although I feel like he's going to show you the future, Not the past. Here's what I would offer. What is in your highest and best good is to keep connecting with the frequency that brings you the biggest expansion, The biggest magic, The biggest joy. That to me is such powerful healing medicine for the soul. So I won't comment on like actual medicine. I'm not licensed to support anyone on that. But when you tap into a frequency that lights you up inside, I just feel like that's good for everybody. So expand those things. So much shifting these past weeks, Themes of sensuality as well. Yes, Feeling, Touching, All of it. And being able to embrace this moving forward and healing to the most nourishing. I love it. I feel like you've already told us everything that you need to be doing. That feels perfect, Renee. So let's tap into Laszlo, If that's cool with you. And I know we've connected with him before. I can't remember in this moment, Though, What. He said, We'll have to see what he's wanting to say to you right now. Okay, For those who don't know, Laszlo is no longer here, Correct? Oh, That was your father. You're kidding. Same name? I don't think I knew that. Maybe that's why it feels so different. So your father and your brother are both past? Rene, I didn't realize that. With the same name? Your brother is here. Okay, Thank you for clarifying. They are definitely, Uh, Connected. Like the two of their energies are. . . They're like this. They're wound together. And I feel like I want to unwind, You know, Like they're wound together and I feel like they need to unwind. Like move back. I don't know how. Harmonious, Your brother is with your father who's transitioned. Maybe the reason that you are bringing him up right now is so that you can support him in the unwinding. The energy right now with this month, With the Scorpio, The Taurus, And now the Sagittarius, I feel like it really gives us an opportunity to unwind. There's a comment, Who said that before, About Sarah, Something around releasing the old emotions and letting go of old identities. I really feel that as a theme for so many people. We're unraveling from. The ways we have limited ourselves. Consciously, Unconsciously conditioning from other people because we decided to do it ourselves. Locked ourselves into some ways of being and seeing and acting. And I think the opportunity this month has been to unravel, To unwind, To pull back and look at things from a broader perspective. And the astrology is supporting that. So. . . An identity crisis or shift can really be something that people are experiencing this month. And towards the end of it, It can squeeze harder. So even if it has felt like everyone's got things handled, You may find over the next couple of days, People are actually squeezing, Feeling squeezed, Feeling the intensity. My son called this morning. He was like, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah, Blah. And he's not normally like that. And so we just had to unravel. Sum of the energy and reframe and put him back in his power. So there may be a match for your brother in connection to your father, Rene, Your ability to have that image and to hold that spaciousness for him or that possibility for him, Maybe all that he needs from you. It's like you don't actually have to facilitate it or tell him or do anything, But if you can maybe just connect with him and check in and just open the energy field You know how to do that. Open the energy field wider for him. Expand the space so that he can feel like he can breathe more. He'll find his own unwinding. You don't have to do the work. This is such a big message for all of us. You don't have to do the work for other people anymore. That is old school. It is old ways. It is not what is going to be needed for leaders and for guides moving forward. We can support, We can show up and be present. Present, We can love with our whole hearts. But I don't believe we're meant to do the work anymore. It is a time for each person to find their own power, To stand in their own power. And if we're leaning in and cleaning everything up all the time for everyone around us, How do they find their power? It's just easier to have us do it for them. But we create codependency when we do that. We enable others to stay dependent on our energy work, And that doesn't serve. I mean, This is going to sound kind of strong, But it's sort of selfish to do that. It's like we stay the strong ones, And the ones who are ready to grow don't get to grow because we're doing everything for them. And so that. Isn't the way we're going. This full moon in Sagittarius is like freedom, Creativity, Travel, Travel in your mind, Your consciousness, Your gifts, Your abilities, Not just physical travel around the world. It's expansion. Expression. Yes, As much as you can hold more space open wider for him, He will find his way. Rene, He will find his way. I don't remember the story of Laszlo. Isn't there, Is Laszlo the one who flew too close to the sun? Why am I thinking that? Is that the name? I know I've heard the name, But remind me if that's what it's from. Lazarus, I know, Is the Bible, But was Lazlo the one that was flying? I'm curious what his name stands for. Yeah, And then I know that you work in the forests. I- I- Icarus. Laszlo was my father and he was told he was my brightest son. Now his spirit- Okay, Sorry, What is your- Didn't you say your brother has the same name? Yeah, I feel like there's a meaning to Laszlo. Have you ever looked it up? What the name means? I don't know. Yeah, Look up the name, See what it means. There's a definition there that I think will give you a little bit more insight into both of them. Is there anything else for your brother? When you were little children and you were growing up, You said you were a special bond since you were children, Yeah. Maybe go back through a couple of your memories and. What were the things that he most loved to do with you or that you most loved to do with him? And tap back into that frequency, Like when it was just the two of you playing. Yeah, When you were in a good space with no fear, Just the two of you, What was the magic that you shared? Tap back into that. And expand that. Feel that like when you're in the forest. Feel that in your body and hold that frequency and think of him. And you will be amazed what that does. Beautiful. Do you feel complete? And then whoever was after Renee, If you want to put your comments in next, That would be great. You're so much love. You're just this big, Beautiful heart. Walking around on our planet. And we're so lucky that you hang out with us here. I'm so grateful. You already know that. I don't need to, I don't need to answer that. You tell me, Renee. Did you share past lives together? You don't need me to answer that question. I am seriously fogging up my glasses today. It's so funny. They keep getting steamy. In a different temperature today. So are you. You are both very special souls. And I find that very special souls tend to find their way back together because they have so much fun together. I would imagine that there's a lot of stories that the two of you share, But you do not need me to validate that for you. So I would focus on how you can help him right now, And that is by all the things I suggested and being really present and loving him. Openly. Yeah, I feel that. I feel that. And then let us know, Come back and let us know. You're welcome. I'm so glad you opened up this space. I just feel like it's. . . You've opened this field that's really gentle and wide and loving, And I'm so grateful that you do that here. So thank you. Big love to Renee, You guys, For creating such a gorgeous opening. And then Maribel, Drop your thoughts in whenever you're ready. You guys are amazing. Isn't it nice to just, Like, Slow things down for a moment? I feel like it's been just a, What do they say, The hamster wheel for I don't know, Weeks. It just has been feeling so intense. So I'm looking forward to the pace just smoothing out a little bit. And I think we're doing that here. I think Maribel is still here, But if not, Paul, Do you want to go next and we can circle back to Maribel also? Barbara is ready. You said creativity and I'm all in. What's Maribel? Okay. So Maribel, Are you ready? Do you want to put yours in and then I'll come back? No, Paul, Claim it. What could I have overlooked about the creativity process in the spiritual world? I'm happy to step back. Love it. Totally agree, Madeline. Okay, So Maribel, Drop your comments in here, And then we're going to circle back to Paul. Paul, Taking up some room. So proud of you. I'm so proud of you. Paul's normally like, Everyone else first. No, Today you claim it. Which is beautiful. Paul has just finished a project for me and you guys are going to be absolutely blown away when it arrives. It's supposed to be here hopefully by next week. And then I have to get it framed and I need to paint the wall over there and put it up and get a chair. And then once all of that is ready, We will have this space and we will have another space. And so there will be two different frequencies or play areas that we're going to be moving between. And you guys are going to be like, What? What is this thing that Paul created? And then everyone's gonna want one. Everyone's gonna be lining up to get these made by Paul, But we'll wait until it's here and then I will properly introduce his creative process to you guys. It's pretty remarkable. Now, Maribel, All I see is the yes. I didn't see, Let me go back. Um. . . There it is, Okay, Perfect. All right, So we're gonna start with Maribel and go back to Paul. I had an idea many years ago, And this year I started focusing on it. But as I move forward, I keep thinking about things I can improve in the project, And I feel like I'm complicating it myself. I don't know if it's imposter syndrome holding me back, But I do feel like I'm finally making progress, Even if it's slow. So your question is, Do you keep doing it? What is your actual question? Tell me that. Do you keep doing it? Yes, You keep doing it. I love how you guys already know, But then you come to me to answer it and I'm like, Yeah, You already know. But it's good. We need validation sometimes, Don't we? We need to be reminded that we are absolutely on the right track. So I'm going to give you a couple very specific. Timing or alignment things that. Sometimes we feel like we're supposed to be moving faster. We should have had the thing done. It should have been out. We should have done this. Why didn't we? We're procrastinating. We're sabotaging. We, In our minds, We get all this stuff and we're like, OK. I'm behind. I could have had this success by now if I had done this. I would have had these results by now if I had just taken the leap. What if. . . The soul inside, And that may be true. It may be true. And you can believe that story if you choose to believe that story. I prefer to believe that the soul inside is constantly bringing us what we need to strengthen our gifts, To refine our gifts, To believe in ourselves more. And if we pull back and we hide and we don't allow reflections and we don't show up in conversations like this and we just put the walls and the blinders up. Then I believe sabotage and procrastination become our friends and our buffer and We may never do the things that we could be doing if we choose to do them. But when we have an idea, Hello Jacqueline, When we have an idea and we're talking about it and then we come into a group like this and we say I have an idea and I'm still sort of refining some of the things, I don't see that as hiding. I don't see that as procrastinating. I see that as I'm sort of testing the frequency. I'm listening to what's happening in the collective. I'm tracking what's happening with the energy and the astrology. I'm strengthening something within myself that I know is going to make the work better, More meaningful, More powerful. And there is always the flake. Thing that happens. Where we just know it's go time, It's now, We do it now, This is the thing. And then we fumble forward. And I think that's the moment you're at, Maribel. You've thought about it, You've processed it, You've done the work, You've shown up, You've raised your hand, You've been willing, And now there's this. Okay. Let's do it. Let's actually do it. Because what happens when we start doing the thing that we know we're here to do and our soul is lit up and we're excited about it and we show up and we do it, The reflections come back that help us refine, Check the frequency, Steady ourselves, Take the next step. It's a new feedback loop that we create. We share it. The world or clients or whoever reflect back. We take that in, We let go of the things that we know. Are just someone else's projection, Perhaps, Or someone else's thing they're working through. We keep the pieces that will make what we're doing stronger, More effective, More in alignment. Because we took the information and we. Sifted and sorted and kept what we needed. And then we take the next step. The next time, It's better. It's stronger. It's more direct. It's more aligned. We get more feedback, But the feedback this time is. Maybe more nuanced. More powerful. Maybe it's going to some of the deeper layers. Maybe we thought we had cleared that block way back in that relationship or way back at that job. And now here is that same block back up again. So we sort through it. We go back to our practices, Meditation, Yoga, Breath work, Nature, Swimming, Walking, Whatever it is. We come back to our practices and what happens is we start harmonizing mind, Body, Soul, Heart even stronger, Faster, More clearly, More powerfully, More beautifully. And then there's that next moment where we're like, Here we go again. Giving it back to the world, And more feedback comes in. And the more people that we're sending it to, The more feedback we're receiving, The steadier we need to be in who we are and what we know to be true about ourselves and what we know our path is meant to be. We're steadier, We're stronger, So we can handle more feedback. It doesn't rock us. It doesn't shake us off. And then we start stepping forward and it's from this place of That time you're terrific. We step forward from this place of like, Yes. You always pop in at the right moment. Like, Let's go. Let's do it. And so the energy as we come in is, It's bigger. It's like more. And then more feedback comes and then we. You getting this, Maribel? Give me a thumbs up, Let me know that this is landing. It's time for the next step. Whatever that is, You'll know. It's time for the next step. So you share it in a bigger way, Or you share it with someone who you know is actually ready to receive it, Who will give you good feedback, Who will show you, You. So you'll know who that is. Just trust who you're thinking of. Hello, Tanya. And then whatever they bring back to you. Or maybe it's a whole group, A whole community. When it comes back to you, Your work is to really steady yourself in your own knowing. Take the information, Sort through it, But steady yourself in your own knowing. And then don't wait too long, Because we're going to be moving faster now. Uranus is in Gemini for the next seven years. That feedback loop cycle is going to be like, If we're grounded, If we're trusting our practices and following our practices and Oh, That's a good idea, Robert. That's such a great idea, Like a future story. Such a great idea. Maribel, I think you should connect with Robert and see what Robert thinks of the thing that you wanted to. I mean, I'm just saying. Maybe Robert is a good test audience. The pace is going to be faster and the feedback is going to come through faster, Which means your practices got to be steadier. You've got to be consistent. Whatever it is for you, If it's meditation, Great, Like commit to the meditation. Whatever is going to help you walk through this time, Double down as much as you can. You guys probably aren't going to like me saying this, But I'm now six months without alcohol. I'm still amazed at myself because I really like jalapeno margaritas and I haven't had one in a long time, But I'm six months no alcohol and my next thing is sugar, And. . . Yes, I know there's sugar in kombucha. My son was quite happy to point that out to me. Like, Give me a little bit of pleasure here or there. But my next one really is like ice cream, Chocolates, Cakes, You know, The things that I really love and I'm having a difficult time with it. But I do feel like the. . . I know, Right? I do feel like the. . . Um. . . More we can do to support our body, Holding a clearer frequency. The more those downloads messages from the soul can actually land and we can hold the frequencies in our bodies. It's just going to be a journey. Uranus in Gemini, I think, Is going to change so much about the way that we eat and care for our bodies. Robert, I have to tell you, We've talked about Cheetos, Haven't we? Is that why you brought it up? Some. Okay, So my weakness for quite a while with my grandchildren was Cheetos. I would buy the big bag and they knew every time they came over, Because they don't have Cheetos at their house, Their mom is such a great caretaker and cook for them and they make everything from scratch. Like even her baked cakes and icing, Everything's from scratch. She's amazing. Me, I'm usually the box girl. But I would have Cheetos here and they loved it. And so we'd always open up a bag of Cheetos. And just recently. I can't eat them, But you know what I love now are sun chips. I really love the cheddar sun chips. So I've been going down bags of those. I'm going to work on not as much, But one vice at a time. Ice cream has always been my favorite and I am slowly weaning myself off of ice cream. I know, Sun and chips, Right, Tanya? It's so good. I love that your husband is excited about ice cream, Caitlin. That's so good. That's so good. Okay, Maribel, Let me know if you feel complete. And then we will go to the next person. Oh, Paul, We're going to come back to Paul. So Maribel, Let me know you're good. I like the salsas on chips. You got a little spice, Jacqueline. Okay. Maribel, You're welcome. You're welcome. I'm excited to hear what this is going to look like. So share with us, Please. Okay, Paul, Circling back up here. You said creativity and I'm all in. What could I have overlooked about the creativity process in the spiritual world? The creativity process in the spiritual world. What could you have overlooked? That's actually a really good question. What I see, Like if I were to give you an image. It's so creativity to me, If I talk about creativity in its most pure state, It would be the very origin of everything, Which is light desiring to create itself out of darkness. This is what we talked about in the origin masterclass and the replay, Which got rejected because I said things in there I shouldn't have said about plant medicine, So I need to redo it and send it back up. And I will do that. The origin of everything, Creativity, I believe, Is when light emerged from the darkness. And in order for light to emerge, It would need a desire to express itself, A desire to exist. And so if you imagine everything in the universe is just blackness, And somewhere at the origin of everything, There was this desire for light to come into the void, The darkness, The black. That to me is the most pure state of creativity. It's I create myself. I desire to express as an individual. Consciousness Light. Breath, Sound, Whatever words feel true to you. I desire to exist and so I create myself. And so it comes from nothing into existence. So I agree, Madeline. Ice is one of my favorites. I'm like, How do you describe ice? The crunching of cold water into melting in your mouth. But then you add cream and sugar and ice cream. No wonder we all love it so much. It's like the best of everything. But yes, Being able to describe that is so good. So if the most pure state of creation is to create ourselves. When we overlay creativity with spirituality. To me, It feels like where's the most pure place within spirituality? Because spirituality could mean religion. Spirituality could mean. Hippies. Spirituality could mean a Buddha or Buddhism or. I don't know if that's necessarily a religion, It's more philosophy. Spirituality could encompass nature. Like, What's the actual pure place of creativity within spirituality? Oh, Hello, Alicia. There's no one place where you could say creativity is pure within the field or the understanding of spirituality. So I think when you use the word overlooked, To me it feels more like how do you find the origin or the grounding of creativity within the constantly moving dynamic energy of spirituality? And I think the only answer to that is within yourself, Within you, Like your own. Journey with your own spirituality. And creativity emerges from that space within yourself. So I'll give you some human tangible examples. She is, She's right on time. You're absolutely right. When I first had my spiritual awakening, I'm going to give you these stories, Paul, Because I believe it will give you and others a little bit of context maybe, And you can bring that into your own filter and go, Hmm. What would I ponder about in my journey? When I first had my spiritual awakening, I was going through a divorce. And so my idea of spirituality at that time was the Christian church that we were going to every once in a while because my parents thought that church was important and I wanted to show my kids to go to church. And so I was doing what I thought I needed to do. I would not say I had a connection to God. Um. . . I mean, I believed in God, But I wouldn't pray or talk to God. Go to church and pray when everyone else prayed, But it never felt that when the music played, I could feel my heart and my soul, But I didn't have that spiritual alignment. And so the divorce at the time was very much a heart cracking, A heart breaking. And in that, Like, This definition of spirituality started to emerge, Which is, What's the point of everything? Why are we even here? Why do we have to suffer? How do we find out who we are and identify ourselves? Be able to live a life that's not what we thought it was going to look like? How do we sort of recreate our identity? Exactly what we're moving through at this time as a collective. And so spirituality started to be defined through my spiritual awakening. And in that, I wanted to create. I was writing, And I was starting to meditate. I started to lead some meditations. I was learning to read energy. And when I was reading energy, I was moving between timelines. And I could see lives that people had had and how souls were connecting. And then spirituality started to mean Wait, How, Why would I agree to be in this life and then come back and be in this one and work with this? And how are all these same people overlapping? There's gotta be a bigger purpose to it. And then I found Journey of Souls, The book by Dr. Michael Newton, And I was reading that. And then things really started to come together and then I was creating from this place inside of myself of more. Excitement, More truth, More alignment, But it was coming from in me. I would gather the information from the books I was reading and the people I was supporting and the clients that I was working with. And I would discern truth, My truth, And I would clarify my truth. And then truth started to expand. Creativity flowed from within me. So does that make sense? Let me know how that's feeling, Paul. So I don't know that you've overlooked anything. I feel like you've been on a beautiful journey, And the clearer you're getting, The more this creativity is just flourishing through you. It's extraordinary. And I feel like you're just, Just starting. I don't even know. I don't even know. Olivia, Hi, Sorry, I am new. What do you do here? That is a great question. If anyone in the comments would love to offer your reflections on what I do here, I'd love to hear how you guys describe it. What do I do? I would say the biggest thing, Olivia, Is I hold space for you to explore your consciousness, For you to discover and hear things that percolate inside of you, And then you accept some of the things because they feel true and you let go of some of the other things because they don't resonate. And somehow you start to. . . Go through your own version of remembering, Like more about who you are. Yeah, I'm glad you're here. Glad you're here. And if anyone else wants to add, I call it reading energy. A good description. I used to do a lot of tarot and now I've kind of just decided to pull back a little bit and just do the straight up energy reading. You're welcome. Paul, Is there anything else you want me to look at or anything more specific? Let me know, That was really fun to tap into with you. Viv holds the space for us all to open up. Thanks. That's beautiful. Haha. Viv provides readings and sometimes lessons on spiritual subjects in a welcoming and open environment. The community here is great. I totally agree, Bex. I totally agree. And everyone welcomes everyone. So it's really beautiful to show up over and over because everyone's like, Hey, Hey. And then all the hearts start flying and all the colors of the hearts are so exciting. All right, If Paul feels complete, Olivia, What would you like for us to look at with you? You're welcome, Paul. So glad. So glad you raised your hand. And I can't wait for my package to arrive. To introduce it to everybody. I mean, The Buddha. Beautiful, But oh my goodness, What is coming next is amazing. I have stress with parents. They are sometimes. Rectine. Okay, Hang on. Oh, Is that a different Olivia? We have two Olivias. There's two different pictures. Oh, Beautiful. Look at that, Olivia and Olivia. Well, Apparently this message for Olivia with The beautiful little white background is also going to be for Olivia with the purple and the oats. They'll be for both of you. Okay, I feel like I am not sure what my next step should be at all. Like even though internally I feel like something is coming, I feel trapped in my job. I occasionally feel lonely and like a potential partner is more difficult to meet than I ever thought. Like I gather information, I read the books, But given some of my old programs, Must be actively doing to get any results. I would love some support, Guidance, Clarity on what's for my highest good to get things moving, Even if it's difficult to hear. Oh, Hello Salvatore. Yeah, Bex, I know, I think that is a common experience. Okay. Let's see what would serve. Okay, So we're gonna do a little energy work together. Whoever wants to tune into this with me, Go ahead and, Yeah, Olivia and Olivia, This is for both of you. So I want you to sit yourself wherever you are. Plant your feet like really firmly on the ground. Like, Puh-puh, Plant your feet. And then lean back. If you don't have support behind your back, I would scoot so that you actually can feel some support behind your back. And we're going to move some energy together. So we're not just going to talk about it. We're going to actually move some energy. You're going to feel things. And because there's a group gathering together and we're all focusing on it, Sometimes that experience is stronger or more powerful because we're doing it at the same exact moment together. So you may feel more and it's okay. The biggest guidance I can give you is just relax your body, Your muscles, And allow yourself to feel whatever is wanting to be felt. When When we repress, When we hold back, When we're constantly fighting and resisting our own natural flow of energy, Our body feels that as tension. And then we're a match to the fear, To the doubt, To the reflections of the world around us that lives in that constant state of friction. And so we're all pinging this tension. Tense energy off of each other, And that blocks what I believe is our natural, Creative, Beautiful expression of life force, Of energy. So what we're going to tap into is our own individual energy, But in a space that is really neutral and safe, Where no one needs you to be anything, Do anything. We're just Sharing time. We're showing up and feeling frequency together. Okay, So Olivia and Olivia, Specifically both of you, And then anyone else who wants to join in. So with your feet on the ground. And you're back supported so that you know like you're not doing this by yourself. Doesn't matter who's around you, What the reflections are in this moment, It's you in a safe space, Supported. What I like to picture, So you can close your eyes if this feels really good to you. Perfect. You'll have a beautiful sleep, Olivia. We're sending you lots of love. When we feel the support in our back. I like to see it as a hand, And it can be whoever's hand you decide you want it to be. So my favorite is my grandmother, Who's no longer with us. We would call her Momsi. And so I can often just feel her coming in like this, And just this really strong, Steady hand at the base of my back. You can invite my mom, C, To come and be with you if you want. She would be happy to do that. You can call in the archangels. You could call in someone you love who has transitioned or is no longer here. I wouldn't call in anyone who's currently alive just because they have their own things that they're working through, Let's get pure consciousness flowing through. There you go. You'll feel it. You'll feel it. So as you feel that support at the base of your back, Can you receive that support? So how do you do that? You notice what's going on in your body. You notice where you're resisting. And then you relax. So if it's your legs, You relax your legs. It's your back, You kind of loosen. The muscles in your back and your spine. You're like, I'm blocking this again. Why do I do this? When there's so much love that is just waiting for me to receive, Like why? You may feel a direct connection to Source, God, One, Buddha, Jesus. It's whatever your belief system is and your trust is. Allow yourself to receive the highest frequency. So, And you may feel the buzz in your body because we're all doing it together. So you just relax your muscles. Can you breathe? And you giggle if you have to move some energy if it's a lot you can kind of wiggle. By the way I'm looking out the window over the computer and there's this huge storm coming so if we lose connection I'll come back in but There's a lot. I'm just going to name it what it feels like. There's a lot of potential magic coming our way and our ability to receive, To allow that much energy, That much love, That much magic into our bodies. Often one of the most challenging things about being human. For some reason, It's easier for us to. . . Receive. Doubt and fear and judgment and pain and then we push away the good feelings. We push away the beauty, The magic, Like the storm coming in is going to clear the energy so fast. And on the other side of that is a rainbow or sunshine. The water is going to rinse, Even though we've had so much rain, Like the garden doesn't need another rinsing, But it will, It'll clear everything off. When we allow ourselves that. That freshness, That rinsing, The storm passes and then we're on the other side of it and something beautiful opens inside of us. We often resist that, Like, No, I'll stay in the storm. No, I'll fight to hold on to the hard stuff. Okay, So Olivia, Wiggle, Wiggle, Move it out, Move it out. Run the energy all the way down through to your feet, Stomp your feet. Tap your feet. Use your breath. Run any doubt, Any fear at your feet and into the earth. But the storm, Like. . . Move through and out your feet. The earth underneath you can Transmute energy like that. You can feel all this anger, Emotion, Everything in your body and you hold it and it swirls and it loops in you, But if you just direct it down to the earth and you choose to let it go into the earth, It's like, It gets sucked down the earth and then. Just gets diluted and the earth will send that energy somewhere else and it'll grow a flower. It'll feed a fish in the ocean. It will purify the soil and regenerate farmland. And instead, We're holding it in ourselves, Like, I got this, I've got this, I'll do this, I'll fight, And why? What if. . . One of the reasons that there are 8 billion souls on this planet right now is so that 8 billion humans Run energy through our body. And start alchemizing the energy in the earth. What if we're like. . . Turning over the soil. Because we're sending down toxic energy from our bodies and the Earth is too. Purifying it, Recycling it, Sending it where it needs to go. And suddenly we're this giant factory of This beehive, I don't like the word factory, Or this giant beehive. Of 8 billion souls in human bodies. Partnering with the Earth. Gaia? Too. What? Alchemized Gaia in her evolution? Speed up the consciousness. Of humanity? Catapult us into a new experience of being humans, Pull us out of the darkness, Out of the shadow, Into The other side of the storm. What if? But we're also locked in, We gotta hold on to our stuff, We gotta fight, We gotta. . . Salvador. Great job, Vivian. Oh, Thanks for spelling my name right. I love when you guys take the time to spell it right. Great job, Vivian. You have some good points. You're very clear. Keep it up. Thank you. That's so sweet. Robert, Olivia, Self-prompting, What energy am I bringing into this relationship? I love that. And what energy am I willing to receive in this relationship? Jaclyn, I'm literally in my garden right now. I was turning soil over as you said that. I love it. I love it. Thank you. Thank you for doing the work with us. That's so beautiful. All right, Olivia, That feels like plenty for now. Let me know how you are feeling. This is a practice that you can come back to. It's recorded. I'll be uploading this. Thank goodness I remembered. I'll be uploading this as an audio, So you'll be able to come back and listen to it again. Then let me know how you're doing. And then was anyone after Olivia? If anyone else would like to go, Let me know. We probably can do two or three more before we wrap up in a half an hour. Let us know, Olivia. Neil's like. . . Neil, Let us know what you want us to look at. And Olivia, Come tell us your set. Perfect. Neil and Alicia, And then let's see if we're complete after that. I've been trying to not have the music too loud because I don't want it to interrupt the audio, But. . . The music, Lunar Halo is the name. If you guys can put it on for the rest of the call, I think you'll be amazed at how it feels. I love the shared energy, Thank you. Still not clear, But I feel supported. Okay, Let me go back and look one more time before we move. I'm not sure what my next step should be, Even though internally I feel like something is coming. Thank you, Madeline. I feel like something is coming. I feel trapped in my job. I occasionally feel lonely and like a potential partner is more difficult to meet. Ah, Okay, I must be actively doing to get any results, Okay. All right, So Olivia, I want you to close your eyes for a second. Once you close your eyes, I'm going to directly say something to you and I want you to receive it without looking at anyone else or any comments or anything. I just want you to allow your heart to like pull these words into your heart. First thing is to match. Just say to yourself internally, I match the frequency that Viv is sitting in, In her heart space. I just match it. And I want you to feel how wide open my heart space is. I need nothing from you. You need nothing from me. " And yeah, When I sit here in this moment with you, It's like you are basking in a field of Pure energy. Total acceptance. There's nothing you have to do or be or say or anything. You're just completely you. And I am completely me, And we are just sharing a moment, A breath, A sound, A thought, An experience. And notice what it does in your heart space, How just being in this field expands what you know your capacity is now in your heart space. You're not doing anything. You're just being with me. This is the work. Just feel it, Don't open your eyes, Don't do anything, Just feel what it feels like. And then relax your muscles and lean back. Don't shrink your heart, Just relax your body and lean back. And keep your heart as open as you've been feeling it. Feel the support behind you so you can call in my grandmother, You can call in the archangels, The angels, Your higher self, God, Whoever you choose. Feel them hugging you from the back. Me just sitting in front of you in the front like Not squishing, Just. . . Sharing a Moment. And then expand your heart wider than that. Relax your muscles. So much to remember. Relax your muscles. There you go. Laughter and smiling are the shortcuts to allow your heart to relax. And then set this as a baseline moving forward. Steady yourself one more time and then you're going to open your eyes when you feel ready. That's your homework. Practice that. Come back to that as often as you can. Everyone else here too, If you would like. The recording will give you the tools, But you have to actually show up for yourself and feel it and allow it and practice it. And eventually you'll get tired of practicing it with me and you'll be like, I can do this on my own. And then you'll just sit in your meditation time. And you'll start laughing. And anyone who might be walking by like, What is that crazy person doing laughing by themselves? And you're just emanating love into the field. That's your job. From that, This is the part that our minds need to hold on to, I think. Our soul gets it, Your heart gets it, Your body knows. But our mind's like, Well, What's that going to do for a job? The job will come from this field of energy that you're emitting out into the world. And the job you get from this field of energy is way different. Than the job you get from the field of energy that's trying to make it happen. Is way different. Then the relationship where you're like, Where's the person? Why is the person not here? Why? Two totally different energies. So the. Quantum shift in your life, If you like to use those words, The biggest change maker, Catapulter into a new reality. Is to do this work. That's for everybody. That's not just for Olivia. Bye. Olivia was braving enough to say, I'm still not clear. Now let me know if that feels clear, Olivia. You're like, Man, That's a lot of homework. It's good homework. You're going to love that homework. Okay, When Olivia responds, We will move to Neil. Beautiful, Beautiful. The feeling is fabulous. And yes, Perfect reminder to remember that every meditation and quiet time is moving me. Absolutely. The smile and the laughter come naturally. When you allow that kind of bubbling to move through you, It's the best medicine for your heart. It's the best for everyone around you to allow joy to bubble through your body. Big love to Olivia for this beautiful gift that she brought to everyone. Kneel. Let's see, Looks like my path is to grow stocks in real estate and keep the energy flowing. I know, Right, Renee? So. What's the question, Neil? Are you wanting me to validate that, Like everyone here is wanting validation from what they already know? Tell me what the question is. Yes, Please. Is that your path? I mean, I feel like you want the honest answer, Right? Like you want them. You want the sole big answer, You don't want the business-y. I mean, I can give you the business answer, But I feel like maybe you want the. . . All answers. Okay, Neil, Who always chooses the option of all, All of it. Yes, Please. Everything. Okay, So I'm gonna just fire it at you really fast and I know you can receive this and whoever else wants to play at the speed that Neil likes to play at, You'll have a good time with this. When you try to map it out, So Neil, Just sit and lean back for a moment. Don't move so fast. Just sit, Sit your butt down. Lean back and allow yourself and your whole system to get this answer. So I want your complete undivided attention. If you're asking for all the answers, Then you need to be willing to receive all the answers. So it's not, It sort of comes in and goes out. It's like sit your butt down and actually receive what we're going to tell you because all answers is going to give you some bigger concepts to really play with. When you try to map a path. And force it to go a certain way and be a certain thing. And your mind is like, Yes, Check, Check, Check, Check, Check, Check. You have narrowed the field to this. Which is fine. And some people love that. And I've done this a lot in my own journey. It's like, This is the path. And when I check all the things off, I give myself an A. I'm doing the nine out of 10 or the 10 out of 10. But it's not the whole field. You've shrunken it because you're trying to make it a plan. And that's okay, So there's no judgment if that's what you decide you would like to do. What I feel you're actually asking in this space, Especially because I'm not giving you a tarot card, So you actually have to receive the energy. Shrink it to a picture, Right? You have to actually use your imagination. You have to use your wizardry and allow it to be bigger. When you allow yourself. To open the lens wider. In your heart. So your heart is beautiful and plays like this when you allow yourself to open your heart like Olivia just did. Bravely in front of all of us, Olivia's like, Okay. When you allow your heart to expand like that. And expand like that. It's very vulnerable because expanding our heart in that way Sometimes. People are mean. Sometimes people don't treasure open hearts. Sometimes people are wounded and they don't know how to manage their wound. And so the way that they deal with their wound is to throw all the shame at you or project it at you because they can't handle it. And so it takes a lot of strength and courage to walk this planet with our heart open, Leading with our heart. It can feel scary and dangerous. And if we have You can feel just even me holding the tension of it with you. It can feel like, I can't do that. I don't want to do that. And so what we do is we bring it in to what we can hold. Which is why I say it's okay. It's okay to do that. And I feel like if you've been doing this, And this is not just for Neil, Neil's bringing this through for so many of us. Is this for me too? We hold our heart in this way. And then we get a little brave and we stretch it a little bit. Someone pokes at it and we're like. But then we stretch it again and we're like, Oh. Oh, I mean, I survived that. Wasn't great. Wasn't great, But I survived it. Okay, Well, If I survived that. . . Maybe I'll try this. And we share our gift with the world, Like Maribel, And someone comes back and like, I'm like. . . And we pull back in. But we didn't pull all the way back into this. We've pulled back into this. And our spines a little stronger. And then we're like, Wait a second. I remember Viv has this recording. I need to go to that audio from May 27th. And I remember she did this thing with the heart where she had us sit in the chair and put our feet on the ground and put the hand at our back and like expand the heart space and feel everything. I'm going to go do that. And somehow in that, Gathering again in this field of energy, Our heart now has gone to this. And so much steadier. So much stronger. We're like. . . Has anyone else seen how strong I am right now? Did anybody notice? Look at how long I held the heart space. Right? Yeah. And all of a sudden, Look, Look at us. For then. We hear Madeline breathe, Breathe. Robert, Neil, I just got an image of you meditating at the pinnacles late at night. Go south for a camp out, Young man. And all these things start to happen because other people are feeling. You're going to hear your ears ringing. We've talked about this, Right? Frequencies start to shift and calibrate. And so your body has all these things going on. And you're like, What do I do? Hold please, I'll tell you what you do. You go, Too? The Lite Protocol 07 for ringing in the ears. And you calibrate to that new frequency. And then all of a sudden. Oh, You have such a headache. So what do you do? You go to the light protocol for headaches. More information comes in, Your heart stretches. Now it's a whole different experience, But then, Oh my gosh, What happens? You remember when you got hurt. And then you feel really sad. And then you have to grieve, And you grieve. And it's okay. It's okay. It's part of the human experience, And you feel all the grief, And you move through all the grief. And then all of a sudden, Underneath the grief, The beauty of the light protocol is that you remember in order to grieve this much, You must have loved just as much. And all of a sudden, The scales start to move and the grief goes away and the love starts to come back. I describe it in the meditation. Light protocol for greed. I describe it as like the regeneration of the forest after a fire. You know, The fire comes in and destroys it and takes it down to the ground. And it's just. Blackness for a while, It's absolute destruction, But then nature regenerates and it brings itself back to life again and then life starts to move and it happens in our heart space just like it does in the forest. There you go. So let me go back. This would be your homework, Neil. To expand the duality. So what do I mean by that? I'll give you a little. Precursor to this. Expanding the duality means I have, I'll keep my crystal in my hand. I have had the pain, I've felt the fear, The wanting to protect, And I still choose to trust. And I still choose to love. I understand the success, The path. I know how to do it this way. I can do that when I need to. And I'm willing to try it in a different way. I can hold both. The duality is. I'm the infinite soul. And I'm here living the human journey. And I can hold both. And sometimes one feels stronger than the other one, And that's OK. But when I trust that everything is always happening in the right timing, And I'm not hiding, And I'm not shrinking, And I'm not running away, I'm continuously leaning in. I'm stretching myself, I'm showing up in spaces and containers that push my consciousness to expand, To play, To explore in different directions. I'm stretching my heart space and allowing myself to feel more. You're on this path of evolution and growth for your whole life. It's going to continue moving and flowing through you. And then there come these moments, Like what we were saying that Paul brought up, When The creativity, The expression that wants to flow through you is coming from such a steady, True knowing. And new. You're unshakeable. I love that, Olivia. You're unshakable. You are. So steady in what you know. And so people can poke, And people can question, And the world can get topsy-turvy. And your heart can get beat up a little bit and it's okay. You keep going, You strengthen and you keep going. How does that feel? Neil, Who asked for all answers, Please. I can see you on Jeopardy. I'll take. . . All of it. And it's recorded, So you'll be able to come back to it. I'll get this one uploaded. I know the last one where you had a question, I didn't, But this one I will. So I thank you for bringing that very big message through. Thank you. That was a very courageous, Hard thing to be doing. All right, Alicia, Alicia for the wrap today. And Suleiman, I see you here. I don't always want to say hi to everybody, But sometimes I just feel like I need to. So I just want to pop a hello to you. Anyone else who is new here, This is a great way to get to know people. So say hi in the comments. Let me start to put names and faces together. If you've been here before, My friend Paul always says, Hello in the back of the room. Come say hello and let us get to know you. It's a really sacred, Safe space to play and you will be treated with great care here. So it's a good place to lean in. Okay, And then we'll wait for Alicia. And then we will complete. Oh, Thank you, Olivia. That's very sweet of you. Aw, Thanks guys! Awesome. Before I answer Alicia, I have been trying to get my retreat uploaded here and it's just been in the approval process. I don't know why. So I messaged them again yesterday, Insight timer, And I said, Hey, My June 19th retreat is still not up. Can you do it before tomorrow? And it still isn't here. If any part of you lights up when I say that, It's going to be here at my home for one day. You fly into Cincinnati, Get a hotel room, And then come over for the whole day on Friday the 19th of June. We will be together. All day doing exactly this kind of magic. I'll do another one in September. I'm going to do it on the 18th. These all run through Insight Timer, So you can sign up there or send me a message. And then we'll do one in November in Costa Rica, Which I'm hoping that Paul is going to go to and do some some portrait work, Maybe. We'll see. Okay, Lillian, Good morning. I've been here before, But not for a while. Grateful for the sweetness to have me here today. I thought I recognized your picture. I'm glad that you're here. I like the red hat. Okay, Alicia. Ah, Viv, My mom passed a week ago at a very young age of 68. All right, Hold on before I read any more. Let's just everyone feet firmly on the ground. Holding some space for you. A very young age of 68. I understand why she left. She has two other children on the other side. She held so much grief and guilt that has ultimately caused her death, Intimately caused her death. In the end, The holding of the trauma was just too much for the physical body. I'm having trouble processing this as a human. I just have a great understanding of why she has left to be with my brothers. I know she will come through. Am I correct on my belief that is why she has gone? Oh, Honey, Oh. Oh, Alicia. Okay, Honey. How do we support you the most? I think the first thing let's do is just breathe together. So if you can, Alicia, I would love, I feel tears just like choking up my throat. I would love for you to just close your eyes. Don't look at the comments. Don't look at the screen. If you, Alicia, If you can just close your eyes. And lean back, Whatever support you feel behind you. I want you to feel my hand at your back. Right at the base of your back. And as much as you're willing, I would love for you to feel this whole community just sitting in circle around you. All of us grounding, So everybody who's joining into this, If you could please put your feet on the ground. Run your energy, Your grief, Your compassion or empathy for Alicia, For her mom. Run it all the way down through your feet into the earth. Don't project it at Alicia because it will feel too heavy, Too overwhelming for her. But if you can help her run it down through your feet, She can match that and start running the grief down through her feet. Alicia, Just relax your muscles. You're going to feel a lot of energy moving, Sweetie. Just relax your muscles and allow it to release through your feet into the earth. Relax your legs. Tap your feet, Alicia. Tap your feet and let the energy move out of you. There you go. Into the earth. Feel my hand at your back. And everyone sitting by your side, There's a reason you showed up today. There's a reason we're all here with you today. Straighten your spine and just let the energy move. So we're gonna release first before we do anything else. I feel like you've been holding it all in and now you have this safe space. You might feel tears. It's okay. It's just energy moving. If your body shakes a little bit, Just run the energy to your feet. Don't hold it in. Just let it run. Threw your feet into the earth, Let it go out of you. Feel the earth, This is a beautiful image, Feel the earth holding your feet. Feel Gaia. The trees, Whatever image you want to see, Nature. Massaging your feet on the bottom and allowing Like a good acupuncturist. Allowing all of the fear, The pain, The loneliness, To the grief to move out of your feet and into the earth. You're just letting it flow. Use your breath to steady your body. There you go, You'll feel it, It's just like waves of energy. Emotion, And… when we try to hold all of it. Anyone else who's been working with grief, You know what I mean, When we try to manage it. We make it harder on ourselves. And so if you can just allow it to move and go at your feet into the earth. I'll come back to that in a moment. Relax your muscles, Alicia. Okay, And then shake your feet one more time, Like stomp anything that's ready to go out, Stomp it out and lean back. And then when you're ready, You can open your eyes and just look at me. You don't have to worry about comments right now. OK, So I think your question. Her question is, Am I correct on my belief that that is why she has gone? I'm going to answer from my heart what I believe to be true. But always trust your own knowing more. You knew your mom. You knew your brothers. You knew the story. So you will know more than anybody else, Including me or anyone you talk to or any medium or any guide. I believe that every soul chooses, In a very complex way, Which moment of exit is the most precise. So if you think, You'll understand this, If you think of the birth chart, When a soul chooses to activate the human life, The exact second that we take our first breath. Exact second. Everything gets coded. The rising sign, The moon sign, The placement of all the houses, The planets, Like everything in the grid just gets activated the second that the soul chooses to come out of the mother and start breathing. If a soul chooses that precisely the moment of their arrival. Why would the exit be any different? Why would it just be random? I don't believe it is ever random. I believe there are multiple points along the timeline. And. From a soul perspective. We can look at it from a very different lens than the human perspective. So the soul perspective looking down is not just looking at the human life that's coming to the completion. The soul is looking at all the ones around. At the ripples that will go. Through consciousness, Through humanity. At the legacy that will be left in the wake of the death. The birth and the death are equally important and equally precise. I'll give you one little example. You'll love this, Alicia, You'll love this. It's such a magical story. This will be so good for your heart. I had, And this is a story about death, So if someone is not comfortable with that, Maybe you want to just walk away for a moment. I had. . . A beautiful shaman that I met many years ago in 2015, His name was Rafael. He was a young man from Mexico. He had an awakening when he was 17, And his whole life changed. He started learning different instruments and traveling around and leading sound healings. He went on big stages, Small stages. He went to all different countries. Somehow, His soul and my soul had an agreement that we would meet up in northern Ohio for a sound ceremony. I didn't even know what I was doing. I went to a sound ceremony. With this person I'd never met before, I paid $350 for an afternoon. I'm like, What am I doing? Drove up with my friends. Middle of the afternoon we're laying on the ground in a living room in northern Ohio and he starts playing his music and he's got this huge didgeridoo and everything is happening in the circle and I had this incredible That is where my soul journey was birthed from, My first name for my business. I saw everything. I saw my soul with my parents' soul, Making decisions to come to earth, How my dad went first, My mom followed, And then my brother arrived, How everybody met when I arrived. Like, I saw the entire thing. Laying in this living room. No substances, Music, It was all music. And his beautiful space. One of the most profound experiences of my entire life. We ended up chatting for a while after that, And he's like, I do a lot of individual support work. We're going to build some business together if you would like. I was in the process of leaving the partnership I was in at the time for my energy reading. He's like We're going to do this. And so I came home so excited, Ready to quit all the things. And then three weeks later, He died in Egypt. But here's the amazing thing. I will tell you the story of his death. You can actually look it up. It's fascinating to read. He was on an adventure. He was on an adventure. He went to Egypt with a whole big group of people, And they were in a caravan of trucks, Cars, And they were going from one place to another place. Somehow things got mixed up, The messages got mixed up, And the helicopter group from a different area decided that they weren't where they were supposed to be. And so the helicopter shot the arcade, The cars, And several of the people were killed, Including my friend Rafael. When I heard, Obviously we were all completely devastated, Shocked. He was a young man, Early 40s. None of us were expecting that. But I specifically thought, We had things to do together. How can you awaken me and then exit? And so right after that, I had a healing session with a woman who I called her the Ancient One, She's one of the Ancient Ones. And I was laying on her table, Grieving, And she's helping me move energy. And then we both saw it at the same time. I said, Oh my God! What an exit, Like what an exit. The story that he wanted was going to have the most impact and to me it looked like, I don't know if you've ever seen this in video games, It looked like when a target gets hit and then there's this big ricochet of green light, You know, Like neon green light. Well, Green is the heart chakra color. And both my healer and I at the same time are like, Oh my God, Look at the green light. They got released into the quantum energy field of earth like, Whoa. Whoa, The ripples that moved from what he activated. It was I mean, You can feel it in your body. It was. . . Incredible! And the legacy that he has left and the. . . The people who are forever. Touched by what he contributed in this lifetime. I still talk about him. I love him so much. I can't show you my phone right now because it's recording this. He's my screensaver right now because a few weeks ago, Of course, He's showing up right now to be in this message. This is for you, Alicia. I'll give you a little bit more. I grieved, I grieved heavily, And I had a lot that I needed to do. I left my partnership. It was horrible. Disastrous leaving. I did not navigate it well. I was in trauma. I activated more trauma. The community that I left, I left not in a good place. I started my own business, But it was from a place of disempowerment and fear and What do I even do? I don't even know what I'm supposed to do now. Like I stumbled for quite a while. And it was part of my awakening. It was part of the journey that I was going through as Vivian in this lifetime, Owning my gifts, Being forced to own my gifts. It took a while. I would listen to his music and the playlist that he created. I found the artist Alicia Mathewson through the music that he had left with our person who hosted the ceremony. And then, I don't know, Six months later, It wasn't even that long, Six months later, I was out running one day. So that was in September. He died in September, And it was the following spring. I was out running in the neighborhood like I would do back then because I was moving a lot of energy. And I'm running, Listening to this song, Sweet September. By Alicia Mathewson, And all of a sudden, In front of me. He's going down the road, His energy, I can see it. He's doing backflips. He's like showing off doing backflips, Running in front of me. It was the most incredible thing. I was like, What are you doing here? Wait, I can feel you. I can see you. What's happened? Where did you come from? Catch me up, Tell me everything. And then he started. Showing up in my meditation. He started giving me little projects, Nuggets of things to do. I would follow what he said. I would trust the messages I was getting. And my path started to do this. And then sometimes I would really miss him. And I had other people after that who left early. And I would grieve again, And I would pull back, And I would protect my heart. And I would say, I'm not going to love like that anymore. Every time I do that and they leave, It just breaks my heart. I can't keep doing this. I don't want to keep doing this. I'd work through it. And then some other new beautiful. Soul reunion would arrive and I was like. . . Fine, I'll love you too. And I would love them. And that more magic would happen in my life. Eventually, I started to realize. I'm never going to stop loving. I'm never going to stop losing people I love, But every time they leave. I circle back. They come back as energy consciousness and they play with me. Because I'm open to that. Because when you love with your whole heart. And then you do the healing and you keep your heart open. Those threads, Those connections, They never go away. You have to learn the new language. You have to learn to trust what they're showing you. You have to be really patient. And practice and you have to be still and you have to be willing to maybe get it wrong as you're learning to understand what they're saying. But then eventually the feeling, Amelie, Am, Amelie? Is that how you say it? Amelie? Coherence. Coherence is a felt. Experience inside of you, It's like you know. You know you're in sync with that energy. There's no denying it. Exactly. Right, Renee? They come back and play. And you know they're playing and no one can argue it. It's like. I don't care if you couldn't see Raphael. I saw him. I don't need to show you my screensaver. I see him on my screensaver every day. I managed to capture a screenshot from one of his videos. And he's got this little grin and he's just like. . . Are you gonna do it? Aren't you going to show up? Are you going to do the thing that I'm showing you that you need to do? And guess what, Every time I do the thing, More magic happens in my life. So. . . Doesn't mean it's easy, Alicia. I think. If you want to listen to the music by Alicia Mathewson, You might find some healing. She has a beautiful, Beautiful journey that she took with her own mother. Her mom passed. In May 20, Oh my gosh, I don't think it was the same day as your mom, But I don't know. Um Alicia Mathewson is an artist here on Insight Timer, So you can go to her. Her teacher profile and you can listen to her music. She has a song called Asatoma. It's a mantra, A prayer. That's the song that I found Alicia through that and Sweet September through Raphael. So of course, Raphael is circling back through all of this, Alicia. The asatoma is a mantra, A prayer, That says lead me from untruth into truth. Lead me from the known a noun into the noun. Lead me from darkness into light. Yeah, Thank you, Neil. The asatoma prayer is so healing. It's so healing. So maybe that's part of your journey to healing, Alicia, Is to listen to that mantra and allow your mom to speak to you more clearly than I am. I totally agree we all have an entry and exit point. I also believe our SoulPod family are chosen in our contract. We sign up beforehand to learn and teach each other certain experiences here in this physical realm. I realized after my mom's death that I do carry a rescuer syndrome that came from not being able to save my brothers and then my mother in her grieving process. I tried so hard to help her transmit guilt as it was not hers to carry each of her children. They had their own life journey and they had chosen her for her deep love and compassion. Thanks, Viv. It is all part of my contract here. My brother's come through, And I'm sure my mom will soon. And now it is time to transmute the rescuer syndrome. It has all been part of my awakening. Makes total sense. Much love and gratitude could really fill you with me and everyone. Much love to all. Iridina. It's a journey, It's a process, You can't rush it. It has its phases. When you allow the energy to move, I think the process is gentler. When you try to resist, I think it's a lot harder. Oh, You guys, I love how you love her. Yeah. Shower our girl with love. And we're here, Alicia. If you need more support, Always just let us know. I do think the music from Alicia Mathewson will be beautiful. There's a track i believe she uploaded here that's called gate gate g-a-t-e g-a-t-e it's a It's like the bridge between realms. I don't know if anyone knows more about it, But it's like a calling out to the field of love and then receiving that field of love back. It's a bridge. So chanting the gate gate with Alicia, Chanting the asatoma, I think will be beautiful healings. Yeah, I will tell her that she came up today. She'll be so touched. All right, Everyone shake it off. We're gonna separate energy in just a moment. Oh, Salvador, I wanted to circle back to you. Sorry, Alicia, I'm Italian and sometimes I struggle to translate certain topics. I think you were brave in sharing your story. It's not easy to share certain topics. I think you're right to seek your answers here. I hope you find the peace you deserve. Oh, Salvador, That's beautiful English. It's beautiful! Let me come back, You had a question earlier I just wanted to make sure to answer. What inspired you to follow your meditation path? Did you have a teacher or are you self-taught? I already answered that. My divorce? Activated my spiritual journey. And then energy reading, I learned from the woman I was a partner with that I ended up leaving. I don't usually share her name because I don't think she's doing that work in the same way. But I studied under her for several years, Mastered my craft, And then went off on my own. And I practiced. I practiced meditation. I've picked up, Um, I don't even know if I know. I've tried things. I've found. . . I found energy reading and meditation kind of flow really well for me. So when I close my eyes, I can see and feel and community meditation is my favorite. I do a live one, One Sunday a month. I call it an attunement, And everyone who gathers live, I can feel what they bring to the community field, Just like we do here. I can feel the words that they need. Colors to bring in, The images to mention. I've described it like I'm right on the edge of the crest of a wave and everyone in the space is right here with me. And my job is to take us through the hour. Like this. And as we ride that wave, I'm just speaking and guiding the energy and everything in our body is attuning and calibrating to what that feels like. Those of you who've done that with me, You can maybe comment if it feels that way to you, But it's more active than what we do here. Here, This is a sort of conversation, And when I do the attunement, It's riding the wave. It's actually being in the current of the energy and attuning to the frequency that I'm naming and holding. They're very healing for the mind-body-soul. Going through the mind, Using the mind to help a streamline. I don't know, I guess you gotta try it. You gotta try it and then you'll know. Any last nuggets before we separate our energy and complete the call? Let me know if there's anything else that we need to just touch on. I'm so glad all of you are here and that you are willing to stay. Thank you for holding this space together, For showing up and loving each other the way that you do. Rene. Laszlo, Meaning glorious ruler and ruler of glory. And biblical names of Lazarus, Close friend to Jesus. Who also wasn't Lazarus, Oh, Icarus went to the sun, Lazarus, Close friend to Jesus, Resurrected, Power over death. The story of the beggar and Lazarus, The rich man Parabellum. So interesting to look into this. Oh, I love it. I love it. I love it. I might have missed something with Abigail. Hang on, Let me go back. I love that, Renee, And that would be something beautiful to share with your brother if you haven't yet, If he doesn't already know what his name means. Abigail, What did you say? Sending you so much love, Alicia. Oh my god. Oh my gosh, Abigail, I did not see that. I am so sorry. I've lost six babies. I sometimes want to be with them so bad, But I have to stay for my alive children. Yeah, Madeline, You're right. I'm sure you're alive. Children are so grateful for you choosing to stay. All right, I'm going to do one more thing for Abigail before we complete everyone. So if you don't want to stay, It's OK. The energy will separate, Because I'm going to do that for all of us. If you want to stay, Then I invite you to just join me for a minute or two here with Abigail. So Abigail, I was talking earlier about the four fixed royal stars of Persia. How they show up this weekend for the full moon in Sagittarius, And they are the sky watchers, The celestial guardians, And they show up when there's a new paradigm being created, Being formed. So if it feels in alignment, And maybe this is something you want to explore on your own, You don't want to do it in the group space, But if it feels in alignment, I would visualize the six beams of light, The stars, That have been the babies that you have held in your body for however long you did. I would picture them in the grid with the four sky watchers, The four celestial guardians. And maybe see the connection, Like the cosmic connection, And then bring all of the points of light, The four guardians. The, What are they called again? Galactic guardians, What did I just say? Now I'm forgetting the words. The sky watchers will say that. Celestial, Celestial guardians. See them bringing light, Shining light down to you here on this planet. And then all of those six babies, The lights, All meeting under your feet to give you strength. To give you strength to stay. So from the bottoms of your feet, Any part of you that perhaps wants to leave, Thank you Madeline. Let that go out, Let the earth hold that with you and let all that light ground you staying here because one baby here alive needs you more than all the ones who are together as light. The one who's here needs you the most. And you still have a contract here with this one. The best thing you can do is be as present with this one or two or three or four or ten as possible. All right, Let's complete. So if you are new to the space, We do this at the end of all of our sessions. Whether you stay or not, We will always end this way. So we will always leave the energy clean. If you have been here before, It's always beautiful to stay and be part of the ending if you're able to. So everyone, Go ahead, Sit yourself down for a moment. Put your feet firmly on the ground. See yourself sitting in a circle space with me, With everyone who is here now, With everyone who has been in or out. We're all sitting in a circle, Feet on the ground, Backs supported. We can bring in our guides, Our angels, Momsi, Whoever, And our back again. Source God. And then with your feet firmly planted on the ground, Relax your muscles. I want you to see everything we've talked about in the center of the circle. All the stories, All the energy readings, The images, The wisdom, Everything is in the center of the circle. And it may look like it's a cauldron of bubbling energy or a lot of magic, All this stuff. I want you to pull your energy, Only yours, Out of the center of the circle and back into you and see everybody else doing the same thing. Whether they're here still or not, Each one of us is unraveling our energy from the center of the circle, Pulling our power back into ourselves, Nobody else's power. And then see everything in the center of the circle that remains just being rinsed down into the earth. You can see the storm that's moving in, Just rinsing the whole space with white light, With pure clearing frequency. Anything that's ready to go down into the center of the earth. Every one of us being rinsed with that white light? Then you relax your body, You lean back in your chair. Anything that's ready to move out of your feet into the earth, You just deposit. Whatever is old, Stagnant, Toxic. Into the earth underneath you. And then you hold your power in your body. You hold your energy, Your consciousness in you, And you close your feet at the bottom to hold your power in your body. Alicia, This is especially for you. Olivia for you too. So hold the bottoms of your feet closed and you want to feel your own power in your body. Fill yourself up with you. Allow your crown chakra to receive whatever light is coming in from your higher self, From your connection to God, The universe. The Archangels. Fill yourself up with you, And then slowly straighten your spine, Relax your muscles, And you open your shoulders just a little bit wider, Which is going to naturally open your heart a little bit wider. You steady yourself, You see everybody else in the circle, Steady, Strong in their own power. And then when you feel ready, You open your eyes, You stand up. Shake it off. You wave goodbye to all of your friends and you say, I will see you so soon. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for being here. Bye, Everybody. I will see you soon.