Taken from my course Nature's Rebel and the Subtle Art of Discernment,
This lesson is called Return to Innocence.
Working with Trauma Response,
Stubborn Patterns,
Retraumatization,
Weakness from Flaw,
Self-Sabotage,
Limitation,
Core Wounds and Chaos.
Calling In,
Doing the Work,
Reinforcement,
Repair,
Clearing,
Restoration,
Transmutation,
Aligned Assistance,
Incremental Wisdom and Order,
Color Grey,
Animal the Beaver.
You are rebuilding a crumbling stone bridge that needs to be strong enough to get you back to the fertile and abundant green meadows of the other side.
It is a job of fine-tuning,
Where you may need to check each side of every stone you have previously used for flaws,
Before you commit them back to structure.
If you are satisfied that the outer stone is fully intact without flaw,
You can be assured that the center of this rock remains strong.
If,
However,
The edges are needing attention of any kind,
They should not be used for your supporting bridge until they are repaired.
The outer abrasions may indicate a hidden fracture to its core,
And this could cause your bridge to give way underfoot,
Bringing the whole thing down and you with it.
If the bridge is put to final structure with multiple stones that still show signs of trauma,
The bridge to the other side could even come down under its own weight.
A bridge made of flawless and optimally repaired stones is self-supporting.
The beauty of this process is that the stone that you have identified as needing your care-filled time,
Love and restoration,
Once fully remedied or repaired,
Will become,
As a result,
Stronger and even more reinforced than most of the stones identified as having never seen damage at all.
So you are not just doing the work in order to return to the same point you would have been at before damage or wound.
Rather,
You do the work so once each stone block is repaired,
The bridge you have built to cross will be stronger than ever could have been imaginable in this or any previous karmic lifetimes.
You are growing,
Expanding into and creating brand new spaces of alchemised magic.
This is the great unfolding into the evolutionary wisdom of beauty's way.
When you add each carefully inspected stone back into the bridge you are constructing,
You can know that once complete,
There will be no chance of falling alongside a collapsing structure.
In fact,
You can also confidently tread your in-construction bridge as you are rebuilding it.
And from this stable vantage point,
You gain the encouragement and reward of working from a present moment space that grows ever closer to the welcoming ripples of the other side.
And from this place of trust in the ground beneath you,
You can stand for longer spells of time to appreciate and breathe in the dazzling view that grows ever clearer and ever more familiar.
You start to realise the reality that you are actually working towards a point where you will no longer have to experience the frustration,
Despondency,
Despair or exhaustion of your path crumbling,
Leaving you feeling like you have to start from scratch once again.
Because each reworked brick is movement,
And each replaced brick is progress,
And each confident step forward is one towards a return to innocence.
Do you recognise the internal statement of,
But I've already done this work,
Why am I here again?
Well,
Each time you have experienced this sense of repetition,
Regurgitation or re-traumatisation in the past,
You were being offered another opportunity to give just the right care to that past wound that had once again given way to collapse after all your efforts.
You are being given the chance now to finally take that break that you have been waiting for.
The break that trips you or blocks your way or threatens to crumble underfoot,
And give it the attention it calls out for.
Only then can you add the block confidently back to build a better,
Stronger and more bonded structure than was ever previously possible.
Imagine it as you're constructing the best and most aligned path as you walk it.
Do not feel like you have failed at previous attempts,
Because often we must build our wisdoms incrementally to heal the past wounds bit by bit.
As we ourselves are growing in resilience and understanding,
Knowledge,
Bravery and compassion.
We will only be able to work a layer of stone at a time,
At which point we may have to leave that stone to collect more resources,
Better tools and maybe even a workforce in order to return and complete the job.
You may also then realise that some of the stones aren't actually yours at all.
And can therefore be lovingly removed or returned.
So maybe this is why it feels like you are going to all the places at the moment.
Maybe this is your time.
This is your chance to finally remedy and repair karmic relationships,
Ancestral ties,
Historic wounds,
Chords and trauma.
Through discernment,
Thoroughness,
Honesty,
Vulnerability,
Integrity and alignment to personal values and truth.
Through accountability,
Contrition,
Forgiveness,
Release.
Or whatever the lessons or healing might be for you.
You see,
You can't always mend what you can't see.
So sometimes you really have to go to the weak points in your structure to clear them and strengthen them.
It's time to reveal all the shapes under the carpet that you have been tripping over and habitually and exhaustedly step dodging.
They are slowing you down,
Affecting your flow,
Stunting your growth and your powers of manifestation.
They are intercepting the rational,
Clouding your judgment and your ability to discern your best possible course of action,
Word or behaviour.
So the trip hazards are uncovering themselves and presenting themselves to you now.
Flaws,
Cracks,
Fissures,
Lesions,
Dents,
Scrapes,
Scuffs and all.
Welcome them,
Good,
Bad and ugly.
Welcome them,
Investigate the cause and then do the relevant work needed to lovingly restore.
If you experience overwhelm because too much seems to be coming forward for your attention at the same time,
Then it is time for you to simply focus.
To try to heal everything at once can cause confusion and re-traumatisation.
Equally a sense of chaos can present through decision delay and this might look like distraction,
Procrastination,
Restlessness,
Deregulation or an analysis paralysis.
So just choose one stone using an I choose statement.
It doesn't matter which one.
There is no wrong way to choose.
Although too much deliberation and open consideration of it all only serves to open you to internal and external chaos.
So choice and movement are the stabilising,
Balancing ways to walk through and out of chaos and back into order.
So just to reiterate,
It doesn't matter what comes first.
Simply choose a starting point and this will create the workspace energy of order.
From this first stepping stone you can trust that the next one will present in an orderly and timely fashion for your consideration only when the right shaped space opens.
It is very likely that whilst working with your focus in that one space you will be without realising it sending out ripples of healing.
And if another stone is porous to that very same frequency of those healing ripples it will also suck it up and draw it in.
Where unseen alchemised healing will occur.
This is the beauty of order and chaos working hand in hand.
Where your focused order invites unplanned and non-linear healing through the natural balance of chaos.
Can you see how you are not limiting yourself through choosing just one place to start?
Rather you are choosing to work in a state of order so that chaos has its space to do its magic outside of your consciousness.
Rather than choosing to start work in the potentially limiting state of chaos and then having to halt or attend to your panic attacks or seek distraction due to the subsequent sense of blindsiding overwhelm.
So just to state again that the fullness of your care filled restoration will move any stone and those within a frequency shared ripple wave beyond all previous parameters of a perfectly restored state to a super strength state that exists far beyond anything you are yet to imagine possible.
Placing each perfectly worked stone back into your bridge will come with both personal and universal reward at the very moment you confidently place your foot upon it.
These rewards are yet unknown but are without fail expansive and healing and by nature will also be beyond all previous conceptions of possibility.
So enjoy building your strengthening journey path to the other side letting go of all that limits your you-ness as you return to innocence.
All of nature's rebels recordings will help you on your healing journey of clearing and restoring the bricks of your bridge to the other side For a specific guided practice to assist with releasing deep-rooted trauma and persistent shadow work please listen to my recording called Avoiding the Void.
Thank you for spending this time with me.
