I am very happy to be with you again this evening.
You who may still carry in your body.
The imprint of a relationship that asked more of you than it gave.
Rebuilding yourself after a toxic relationship.
Is not only about healing from a person.
It is above all about finding again.
That inner point of reference that you have.
Without always noticing it.
Let's slide towards someone else.
Day after day.
Tonight.
We are not going to go back over what happened.
We are simply going to help you find that point of reference again.
That inner compass which never really disappeared.
Only lost a little of its volume in the noise.
It is normal.
That certain bonds leave a trace that takes time to fade.
Like a perfume that lingers on a piece of clothing.
Long after it has been put away.
This evening is not meant to erase this memory in one stroke.
But to help you breathe in again your own presence.
Beneath the one that had settled on top of it.
Over time.
You do not need to remember every detail of this relationship in order to move forward.
The body itself keeps a simpler memory.
Made of tension and release.
And it is with this memory that we are going to work tonight.
Without reopening what does not need to be reopened.
Let us clarify one thing.
Before going any further.
This meditation helps you to soothe the emotional traces left by a difficult relationship.
If you have experienced or are still experiencing a situation of violence or control.
Professional support remains essential.
And you fully deserve that help.
Gently cross your arms over your chest.
For a brief moment.
As if to welcome yourself.
Then let them come back down.
On either side of your body.
And now.
The meditation is about to begin.
Bring your attention to your breathing.
And imagine that with your next inhalation.
A delicate.
Clean fragrance enters through your nostrils.
Something like freshly washed laundry dried in the sun.
Simple.
Familiar.
Entirely your own.
This fragrance descends into your throat.
Which loosens.
Into your neck.
Which unfolds.
Into your temples.
Which stopped pounding so hard.
The same fragrance continues to circulate into your jaw.
Which relaxes.
Into your shoulders.
Which sink a little more into the bed with each exhalation.
It descends into your arms.
All the way to your fingertips.
And there.
An older,
Heavier smell.
The one you never really chose.
Gently evaporates.
Like a garment you finally take off after wearing it for too long.
The clean,
Familiar fragrance now descends into your chest.
Which widens with each breath.
Into your belly.
Which lets go into your lower back.
Which settles a little more deeply into what supports it.
It passes through your hips.
Your thighs.
Heavy and grounded.
Your knees.
Which lose all stiffness.
Down to your feet.
Wear the old smell.
The one that did not belong to you.
Escapes one last time.
Through the soles of your feet.
Absorbed by what is holding you.
Along your spine,
This fragrance seems to settle like a fine film.
Discreet.
Soothing.
That covers each vertebra with a scent you finally recognize as your own.
With no foreign trace mixed into it anymore.
Your whole face now breathes this clean scent.
This simple fragrance that belongs only to you.
The one you perhaps carried before other presences.
Came to layer themselves over it.
Layer after layer.
Without you always having chosen it.
Bring your attention for a moment to your palms.
Open on each side of your body.
They may have carried.
For a long time.
The weight of efforts you did not have to make alone.
Tonight they can simply rest.
Empty.
With nothing more to hold on to or to catch.
Feel the full weight of your body against what is supporting you.
There is nothing worrying about this weight.
It is simply the quiet proof that you are truly here.
And that nothing asks you to be anything other than yourself.
Now notice your entire face.
Forehead.
Eyelids.
Lips.
Nothing there needs to hold on to a specific expression.
Neither a polite smile nor an alert tension.
This familiar fragrance continues to circulate into the smallest muscles.
The ones we often forget.
Around the eyes.
At the corners of the mouth.
Which relax one after the other.
Effortlessly.
Your jaws.
Your shoulders.
Your belly.
Everything that is used to staying on guard can lay down that vigilance.
There is no one here to appease.
No one to keep an eye on.
There is only this familiar fragrance that continues its path within you.
Faithful.
Patient.
And your own rhythm.
Let an old garden appear on your inner screen.
A little overgrown with tall grass.
Under a late afternoon light.
That has just begun to turn golden.
You stand at the entrance of this garden.
A small wrought iron gate.
Slightly open.
As if it had been waiting for you.
This garden belongs to you.
Even if you have not visited it for a long time.
Even if some paths are covered with brambles that we'll need.
One day to be cleared.
You walk forward.
And with your fingers.
As you walk.
You brush against the tall grasses.
Their rough texture contrasting with the unexpected softness of the petals.
Of a few flowers that,
Despite everything,
Have continued to grow here and there.
Without anyone taking care of them.
A smell of earth turned over by recent rain rises from the ground.
Mingled with the subtler scent of old roses still climbing along a half-collapsed wall.
This mixture is strangely familiar to you.
Like a childhood memory you thought you had lost.
A little further on.
An old wooden bench.
Worn smooth by the seasons.
Seems to invite you to sit down for a moment.
The wood beneath your fingers still holds the warmth of the day.
Rough in some places.
Smoother than others.
Worn down by having been touched by so many hands before yours.
Birds you had not noticed at first are singing somewhere in the branches of an old apple tree.
A simple.
Repetitive song that seems to welcome your return.
Without asking any questions.
As you move further in,
You discover.
Half hidden under the grass.
Small familiar objects.
A notebook.
A Ribbon.
A smooth stone picked up one long ago holiday.
Pieces of yourself you had forgotten here.
As if a part of you had gone on waiting for you.
Patiently in this garden.
You kneel down to pick up the notebook.
And as you do.
A ray of sunlight passes through the branches of the apple tree and comes to warm the back of your neck.
A simple warmth.
Asking nothing in return.
Like a silent welcome.
You notice that,
Despite the brambles and tall grasses.
Nothing in this garden has really been destroyed.
Everything was simply waiting.
Patiently.
For your return.
As if time here had merely put things on pause.
Rather than erasing them.
You keep walking.
And as you move.
The tall grasses seem to part slightly in your path.
Revealing a walkway you had not noticed at first glance.
A path that leads toward the center of the garden.
Where the light is the most golden.
The garden is becoming more blurred now.
Its outlines gently dissolving.
Like a watercolor.
Seen through a fogged-up window.
Path you are following is no longer quite a path.
It becomes a sensation of continuous.
Peaceful moving forward.
Without any precise destination to reach.
The worn wooden bench.
You had paused for a moment now seems to merge with the outline of your own bed.
The same warmth.
The same familiar texture beneath your hands.
Now resting.
Still on the sheets.
The scent of old roses and damp earth has now filled every corner of your room.
Merging with that clean.
Familiar fragrance you felt earlier.
As if the two scents had become a single one.
Entirely your own.
With no foreign trace left.
The objects found under the grass.
The Notebook.
The ribbon,
The smooth stone.
Now seem to be resting somewhere against your chest.
No longer has memories to carry.
But as quiet proof that you have in reality.
Never stop belonging to yourself.
Birdsong in the apple tree has turned into a very soft inner murmur.
Similar to your own breath going in and out.
Light.
With nothing left to keep watch over.
You no longer really know where the garden ends and your bed begins.
The warmth of the sun on your neck.
And that of the blanket against your shoulders.
Have blended together.
Like two lights which by overlapping.
Create only one condition.
Somewhere beneath the heaviness slowly filling each part of you.
There is still a very old trace of that bond that cost you more than it offered you.
But that trace tonight.
Is fading too.
Like a perfume worn too often that ends up with time.
Disappearing completely from the fabric.
Golden path you were following just a moment ago.
Continues to stretch within you.
Calm.
Without visible end.
Exactly like this capacity you have always had to keep moving forward.
Even after walking through a garden overrun with brambles.
What you thought you had lost in this garden.
Your notebook.
Your ribbon.
Your smooth stone.
Continues to rest against you.
Quietly,
As a silent proof that nothing essential in you has ever really disappeared.
And like that ray of sun that passed through the branches of the apple tree.
Before dissolving into the evening.
You let yourself sink and turn.
A little lower.
A little farther.
Toward that sleep.
Wear your own fragrance.
Your own presence.
Finally takes up all the space.
And if you are not yet asleep?
Please repeat the following positive affirmations.
Until you fall asleep.
Your unconscious will then take over.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.
I am gradually finding my own inner compass again.
I deserve a relationship that nourishes and respects me.
My past does not determine what I deserve today.
I can trust myself again.
I am able to recognize what does me good.
I am gradually freeing myself from what did not belong to me.
I choose my own peace of mind.
A little more each day.
I am worthy of love.
Just as I am.
I am learning again to listen to my own inner voice.
I forgive the person I was when I did not know yet.
I am rebuilding myself at my own pace.
I am able to recognize my own worth.
I trust time to heal what needs to be healed.
I allow myself to feel what I truly feel.
Each day.
I reclaim a little more inner space.
I am not responsible for the wounds others have inflicted on me.
I choose the bonds that help me grow.
I am safe in my own presence.
My heart is learning to open again.
In full trust.
Even after what I have been through.
I am rediscovering the simple pleasure of being myself.
I deserve gentleness,
Including from myself.
I let go of what no longer serves me.
I fall asleep in the rediscovered peace of my own presence.
I drift into a sleep that belongs only to me.
I choose to treat myself with the same kindness I offer to others.
I am able to begin again.
Without having to forget everything.