My most painful,
Dark,
And tender moments are the ones that have offered me the most freedom.
Even though I want to resist and turn away from them when they arrive,
I have learned that they hold the keys to release me from the shackles of my limited self.
And in turning towards my pain,
I am able to return to my body and to the innate knowing that I am acceptable and good just as I am.
My pain reconnects me with the love that I am made of and allows me to feel it flowing through my veins from the temple of my beautiful heart.
But in order to reach this freedom,
I must journey to the places that I do not want to go.
I must walk into the deepest,
Darkest caverns of my being,
My mind pulsing with fear as it tries to stop me from facing all the parts of me I have pushed away,
Stuffed down,
And rejected.
And as I walk bravely into these unknown spaces,
I hold within me the light of my heart.
A light that carries so much goodness.
A light that,
When brought into these caverns,
Melts away any untruths,
Uncertainty,
And shame.
A light that shows me I am loved even when I am my darkest,
Most stormy self.
A light that reminds me I am not what I have done,
That lovingly encourages me to learn from the things that I used to let pull me into deep pits of pain and suffering.
We are born with an unshakable knowing of who we are,
But it is rare that we are taught to nurture this unique and beautiful essence.
It is not often that we are encouraged to be different,
To feel deeply,
To grow and evolve and change as we journey through life.
And so we pretend that we feel no discord or pain,
Believing that everything should be fine,
Because on the surface it appears that way.
When we judge so many of our feelings and experiences as good or bad,
We are judging parts of ourselves.
And how does this serve us?
When we allow pieces of ourselves to be scattered like leaves in the wind,
We are saying to ourselves,
I don't accept all of who I am.
And this fragmentation,
This rejection of our magnificent selves,
Is what makes it so hard to truly love all that we are.
And this is not to say you cannot strive to be better,
To learn and grow from your experiences.
But at the root of it all,
If we don't accept all that we have been,
That we are,
We continue to stay caught in this cycle of judgment and untruth.
So I invite you,
Sweet soul,
To take a few deep breaths into your body,
This amazing vessel that you've been given,
And see if you can let go of the grip you have on yourself.
Feel your body relax,
Stop holding,
See your breath as a metaphor for acceptance,
A reminiscence of how innately good and loved you truly are.
Freely and deeply,
You allow yourself to be who you are,
Or you are letting go of the belief that you have any reason to be unworthy of love.
You have never had to earn it.
And in fact,
The more love you pour into yourself,
The more love you allow yourself to feel and receive,
And the more deeply you will feel the innate truth of all of this,
Beating within your beautiful and infinite heart.
This knowing has always been there,
And it's now time for you to remember it.
Allow your pain to guide you into the deepest portals of your being.
You are always being invited to love yourself more.
