Being A Mom

this guided story invites you to step inside your mother’s body, to see the world through her eyes, feel her movements, and sense her emotions. what begins as a strange, dreamlike experience unfolds into a deeper realization about love, empathy, and understanding between parent and child. it’s a poetic journey through memory and perspective, reminding us that behind every role, there’s a heart quietly trying to connect.

Transcript

Why is it so bumpy like like like I guess bus driver seat I couldn't find a description why is it so bumpy it's a bus wait is this a bus I mean it's too smelly is this meat who I'm looking through the eyes of someone holy I'm looking I'm driving a body whose body is this before I go crazy sounds like my mother wait I'm actually right I am driving my mother's body I must be dreaming so just let me be is this me I'm looking at myself through through somebody else's body and I'm guessing this is mom because she never stops moving she either goes to the kitchen to the living room Kamila me to actually not close my door pick up the clothes from the floor that's my mom I am driving my mom's body looking right through her eyes sitting on this bumpy I don't know what to call it but looks like a throne comfy I don't know how I got here but let's hope I can get out of here and I'm looking at myself oh well I did not expect myself to look like this I look like a teenager I'm literally sleep no face in the wall typical me and I look so sad headphones on my mom is talking right now but I cannot hear what she's saying from here let alone but if I'm inside here who's inside of me does that make sense can I actually control what my mother says let me try hello this is I I heard myself talking mom's voice hello hello hi let me try like knocking on the door I have headphones on let me just enter how do I move oh it's even bumpier I'm moving I just like speak into existence stop move stop so as soon as I like did the breathing and started speaking okay okay okay if I start um if I start talking she will actually follow my actions okay okay let me just poke my buddy hey wake up this is fun get up let me smack my ass should I say I woke up she woke up hey like what's something I would love to hear mom tell me as a teenager oh my god my my thoughts are so loud I'm okay I'm okay sweetie I'm okay honey wait you've been sleeping all day are you okay oh my god I'm standing up I'm okay are you okay no you did nothing wrong I just thought I should talk to you in love can I I don't I don't sound like a teenager I don't sound like you shut up my mom would never curse um let me help you make your bed no I want to I usually say it but I want to today okay just let me be I'm your mother okay you do the left side I do the right corner here okay let's go teamwork fist bump huh we never did that fist bump come on I'm your mother listen to me I'm starting to sound like mom okay don't move that fast okay balance okay balance you know that Bluetooth is connected type of thing yeah so let's move at the same time in alignment okay good I don't have to count all right let's do it all right I almost forgot how my bed is hard to make okay do you mind if I open your window or do you actually love the smell here okay you do it okay okay um you know I was thinking you like like the lemon cake do you I rent I have never seen myself run this fast can I actually run this fast hey wait for me oh I forgot to say move move move I noticed how sometimes I don't have to say it and it just happens all right so tricky confusing but okay shall we start yeah we first think like the cake yeah lemon cake do you have like an idea or you want it to look like what do you mean I'm gonna get it let me get you talk too fast okay oh shush huh all right now that we have an idea let's check the ingredients all right this is where we're going to bake it and let's check the ingredients now what great great nothing's perfect nothing's perfect okay hmm so I'll go get it where are my car keys I can drive that would be a fun experience hey I'll be back okay sweetie so watch the dogs I'll be back it's my first time driving the car I wonder why where mom is she better not be inside of me you all right she usually hides wait I can actually tell mom's buddy to show me where she hides the key car key car car key okay I got used to this bumpiness all right oh the mirror go back I'm looking at my mother I look so sad she looks so sad why do I feel her now my mom has the most beautiful smile in the world but she was faking it all this time she just she just wanted to be part of my world but I discarded her I kept pushing her away mom just wanted to be cool in my eyes and the more I pushed her away the more she hated herself and couldn't provide that feeling I was longing for I don't feel like baking the cake anymore maybe I should give myself timeout where is she I'm gonna punish that little girl she's just a buddy mom also is a buddy what matters it's what's inside of her because that's what we'll never see but we would feel once I find a way to actually go back to my body and fight where mom is I promise that I will try to actually see through her from now on and not like at her yellings and instructions and I'll just try to see mom