My Higher Power sent your beautiful presentation to me this morning after the intention challenge to move with ease.
I’ve been trying all my life to “win” the praise, appreciation and recognition of my family for my contribution to the household because when I was little my various injuries had me stuck in my room on my bed waiting to heal while other family members worked outside. At the end, I was ridiculed for goofing off while they were working hard. That was a cruel blow — it wasn’t fair!
When I broke my back and suffered extreme pain that didn’t waned by over the counter pain relievers, I’d be stuck in my bed again waiting for the pain to go down but decided to help the household by doing the paperwork and phone calls because I was able to use a specialty pillow that helped me use an iPad (computer).
I was getting tons of things done but because no one saw it; so, it didn’t count. Even when I explained what I did. Nowadays, I contribute to the household still doing the finances, bills, support documentation for the tax preparer, phone calls and so forth, and I do this on the kitchen table but they are in a different room, and it’s still invisible.
I’ve neglected my health and wellbeing for them and heading for LOTS of trouble because of it. All of my doctors and psychologists are trying to help me steer away from this devastating behavioral pattern of expectation that will NEVER HAPPEN.
Blindly, I’m following exactly what my Dad did to no avail. But I’m reaching out for help and your presentation helps me steer to a different compass point.
Thank you.
Blessings to you and all on this journey.
Warmly,
Anne
