Already awesome.
Horses as my compass.
Finding my true north with the three principles.
Imagine believing you were fundamentally broken for decades.
That's what I lived with,
Labelled with depression and anxiety,
Carrying them like heavy weights.
Therapies offered glimpses of relief,
But never lasting freedom.
I even found myself excited about medications that promised to lift the darkness.
This diagnosis became the story about who I was,
My identity.
My thoughts and feelings,
Labelled bad,
Seemed proof of a broken me.
But amidst the darkness,
There were glimmers of light.
These glimmers came in the form of my beautiful horses.
Spending time with them brought a sense of peace and wholeness I hadn't known before.
Their gentle presence seemed to soothe the storm within.
A sanctuary,
Allowing me to connect with a deeper part of myself.
I believed they were the key to my happiness,
The missing pieces that made me feel whole.
I couldn't imagine life without them.
No surprise then that my life revolved around horses.
It seemed that I was meant to live and work in the equestrian world.
Much more than just companions,
Their grace and strength inspired me,
Keeping me grounded and providing a source of sanity amid life's chaos.
Little did I know,
My horses were guiding me towards a profound,
Life-changing truth.
A few years ago,
I encountered something called the three principles,
Or the inside-out understanding.
This was the start of a life-altering journey.
My first realisation was shockingly simple.
I am not my thinking.
I don't have to believe all my thoughts.
They're not all true.
Simple,
But a revelation.
Then I started to see that my feelings came from my thinking.
From me,
Not from things outside of me.
Another revelation.
Then,
The biggest insight of all,
It knocked me sideways.
All along,
I'd been searching for peace of mind,
Resilience and good feelings outside of myself.
By changing or controlling my situation,
My circumstances,
Even the people I loved.
But it was within me.
I'd been born with it,
An innate well-being.
Like the sun in the sky,
It was always there,
Just hidden beneath the clouds of insecure thinking.
I wasn't damaged,
Broken,
Or mentally ill.
I just believed I was.
Everything I ever needed was already there,
And always would be.
My beautiful horses,
I realised,
Weren't the source of my wholeness.
These gentle guides had helped me settle,
Helped quieten my busy mind,
So that I could reconnect with the innate health that was always within me.
As my understanding of the three principles developed,
I tapped deeper into an inner well of peace,
Wisdom and resilience,
Independent of external circumstances.
I simply felt better,
More of the time.
And it wasn't about fixing anything.
It was about recognising the awesomeness that was already there.
Can you imagine the difference this made?
Seeing myself as unbroken,
Healthy,
And yes,
Even awesome,
Transformed everything.
The story I believed was just that,
A story I could rewrite.
The awesomeness wasn't something to achieve.
It was already there,
Waiting to be embraced.
Are you ready to discover your own awesome within?
Join me on this journey of self-discovery and explore the three principles.
You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Remember,
You are already awesome,
Just waiting to shine.
