You know,
At the root of all of our egos is the feeling of being really separate.
So this is in everybody in the world apart from,
You know,
Self-realized people or,
You know,
Avatars who were born enlightened.
They know they're one with the universe and never lose it.
But most of us,
You know,
Were born as little,
These little munchkins and we know that we're part of God,
That we're all that is.
But then,
You know,
As the months go by,
It dawns on us that we're separate,
That we're separate from these people who are taking care of us and who we love.
And at the same time,
We will be picking up on the parameters of our family emotional climate,
You know,
What's considered bad and good and how dense or awakened the family is,
You know.
So we get our cues about how to fit in.
Now,
The kind of heart of the problem is that kids know they cannot survive on their own.
So they lose their connection to the soul.
This is what happens.
We lose it or we seem to lose it.
Actually,
We never lose it.
But we take on the ego and it feels as if we have to turn away from our soul in order to cope in this reality.
And for the child,
That moment,
Those moments where they realize that they have to give up themselves,
Give up their connection to truth to take on this family climate,
Which will be,
You know,
Alienated,
It's alienated from their truth in order to survive and fit in is a very scary,
Sad moment.
That's why the ego is based on this grief at where we left our truth to fit into our family climate.
And there's fear.
There's fear.
It comes in with that we know we can't survive if we stay,
If we stay,
If we try to just stay connected to our truth and,
You know,
Don't fit in.
But if we upset our family enough,
You know,
They'll abandon us.
So that's the fear.
This is what goes on with little kids.
And that there's an anger connected to it.
It's like,
You know,
This is strong.
It's kind of a rage that you've been asked to turn away from your true self.
And nobody is consciously asking you to do this.
It's just the way the human condition is set up.
We come here to be wounded and we have this choice about whether we connect up with our truth in the course of our lives or whether we stay within the shell.
But this is why all of us,
We will have like at our is a deep underlying grief and also a fear.
OK,
And,
You know,
An anger.
So if we experience our anger and just stay with it,
Observe it,
You know,
Try not to buy into the storyline.
If you cannot take it out on anybody,
Just observe the anger.
And this is what's particularly possible during meditation.
Somebody who's built,
You know,
The habit of the structure of meditation.
It gives them space to feel this material.
But,
You know,
Even if you haven't been a big meditator,
Maybe you can just catch yourself when you're angry and going like,
OK,
I'm angry and just.
Start to observe it.
OK.
Now,
If you feel anger right to the end,
You will come to love.
If you feel fear right to the end,
You will come to love.
If you feel sorrow in you right to the end,
It will come to love.
And that's what the person who becomes self realized does.
They just feel all that stuff over time until there's no more of that left,
No more dense material left.
And then what happens is your soul,
Your soul floods in to your mind and body.
And you,
You sit on the throne of your selfhood.
So you walk around with the wisdom that you had as a small child,
As an infant,
That kind of huge wisdom you were born with.
And you get to your ego's transformed so that you get to express this great wisdom in your life.
Is for most of us where our ego stops us from expressing the truth of us.
OK,
So.
I just really want to tell you,
If you didn't know that it is possible to heal entirely in the course of a life.
Just have to get really honest about how you're feeling and what you're what you're.
Just with the truth of you,
Just get really honest.
Look at yourself and be honest about whether you like yourself,
Whether you like your circumstances.
And if you don't.
You can.
You can start to heal.
You can.
Learn how to.
Allow the healing.
And it will require that you face emotions that you won't want to feel and you'll have some thoughts come up that you won't want to think.
But if you just go,
OK,
I'm clearing.
It's all clearing.
If you have that attitude,
Then gradually over time.
The light can come in.
To your body,
To your mind.
To your whole life.
It's a very gradual process.
It has to be gradual or else it's destabilizing.
But I just want to show you what can be done.
You know that when we start to heal,
When we turn to ask more from life to,
You know,
When we turn and we want to become who we're born to be,
Our ego will set mobilize fear,
You know,
And say,
Look,
Don't do that.
Don't do that.
Too dangerous.
This is fear.
So you know,
If you walk around in fear for a few days,
It's not the end of the world.
And if you,
You know,
Just feel the fear and keep the,
You know,
See a mantra or pray,
The fear will let go and you will start seeing more clearly.
Or you know,
A deep sorrow might come up,
But you can feel it and go,
I'm clearing this is clearing.
Now,
During these periods,
Like eat well,
You know,
Get exercise,
Do everything for yourself.
But I just do to say,
You know,
It really is possible to heal.
Okay,
Hope this helps.