Taking Care Of Your Innocence Heals The Injured Child

Children live in the Now. We all are in the Now too but forgetting this, we think past and future really exist.

The deeper truth is that this past and future orientation is just a trick of the conditioned mind. Our egos desperately want us to forget we are divine Beings living in the never-ending Now of eternal life.

Proof of this is that as we heal, our past feels more like a dream, or something that happened to another person, rather than us.

Learning the art of dispassion helps us recover our child-self's love of life.

Dispassion is not alienation or indifference. It is a loving witnessing and acceptance of life as it is, with its exquisite interplay of light and dark.

Several seekers spoke about their own process, which helped the group immensely. Sweet gratitude was expressed at the end for the presence of everyone who attended the satsang.

Speaker: Jenna, Gerald, and Susan
Music: Jenna

Transcript

So a very deep call for grace,

Asking for grace,

Opening for grace,

Remembering grace,

And how it's always there for us.

Just like the love of a really loving mom and dad are always there for the child,

Even if the child doesn't always feel it.

The child might feel alone,

But really,

Really,

Really loved.

And so are we,

Infinitely more than any of our children.

Yep.

Infinitely more than we could ever love anybody else.

We're loved by the Creator.

And it's coming to you.

You're breathing it.

Your body is made up of that.

So it is.

So today,

I want to sort of highlight that Amma has talked about the importance of keeping our innocence,

Of taking care of it as adulthood,

In adulthood.

I think this concept is truly one of the most important ones on the journey,

Because you see,

It is possible to do all kinds of spiritual practices and to miss the connection with how you live your life.

And it is the living of your life,

Taking great care of your innocence.

When Pramasutra looks back,

This is really what I did.

Remember about the tiling the floor,

My second floor of my house with the color,

My childhood?

Yeah,

It was front and center for me.

And the thing is,

If you take care of your innocence,

Over time,

You will feel lighter and more expansive.

And your inner child will be healed as a byproduct.

Because,

You see,

If you're taking care of your innocence,

You're loving your inner child in a very deep way.

And again,

You know,

We can feel foolish,

Taking care of our innocence.

But,

You know,

It will be the ones with cynicism in their hearts that criticize somebody who's taking care of their innocence,

You see.

People who are taking care of their innocence won't criticize somebody who's taking care of their innocence,

They'll recognize it.

Yeah.

You will end up getting support from unlikely places.

I promise you this.

This is what happened with Pramasutra.

Taking care of your innocence is taking care of your heart.

We all get these intuitions,

The dada.

And,

You know,

It is honoring those intuitions and following through with them.

Even if you can't see the importance of it,

You just follow it.

Because your innocent guidance in your heart and your innocent intuition is God.

That's the creator.

That's Alma speaking to you.

It's coming through you.

So,

We might downgrade it,

You know.

We might go,

Oh,

I'm so silly.

I'm having this feeling again that I'm to be a great writer.

And I know that that's just baloney,

So I'm not going to even bother writing.

This is what we do.

Yeah,

It's the innocence that's the most important.

I've told you once before about this woman who was lauded as she crossed over to heaven,

Because she'd spent her life going to therapists,

But she was looking for spiritual guidance.

But this was several decades ago,

When there wasn't as many teachers around,

And the whole subject wasn't highlighted.

She didn't try to,

You know,

Put a band-aid on or put layers of cement over their wounding,

Over wounding.

Sometimes it looks to me that that's what people are doing,

Sort of building cement roads over their wounding,

Letting their ideas of concrete reality steer them away from the dealing with the wounding.

It's all very understandable,

But it's why I'm shining a light on this.

And I'm hoping that coming to satsangs helps protect your innocence.

Okay.

I want to highlight something around this,

And it's about the way our minds work.

When one of my nieces was two,

She stood in front of the chair,

And she said,

Chair.

And I could feel watching her and hearing the way she said it,

That for her,

She was the chair.

There was no barrier between her and the chair,

Between her essence and the essence of the chair.

It was like one.

And it was in the way she said chair.

And she was fully present,

Like two-year-olds are.

Fully present,

Being present with the chair,

And seeing no difference between her essence and the chair's essence.

There was no separation in the words,

Or very tiny.

Okay.

So,

We start off like this.

And then we go along,

And we see a lot of chairs.

So,

We stop paying so much attention,

And it just becomes a chair.

And it becomes almost a symbol.

You know,

Actually,

We get into the spelling of chair,

And that's a symbol of the chair.

But even,

You know,

We stop looking,

Say,

At chairs,

Or anything else.

We stop looking as deeply as this child was looking at the chair.

Some of you are getting breathless.

I'm not surprised.

This is really going to be challenging your egos.

We stop paying attention.

We start lodging in our heads and our idea of the chair,

Rather than the essence of the chair.

And we go into past and future.

We come out of the now.

Okay.

Now,

Coming into power,

Awakening,

Is moving back into that now.

And I talked about this last time.

Moving out of past and future into now.

Now,

You guys,

I'm going to point out something about how we're so tricked,

And we don't realize it.

So,

You guys,

Right now,

Are in the now.

Right now,

You're present with being the satsang,

Listening to Premasuddha.

And you will have memories of being a small child in the past,

And you can imagine being an older person in the future.

But,

You guys,

There is no now,

Past and future,

Really.

It's all now.

So,

When you were a child,

You were in the now.

When you were a teenager,

You were in the state of being a teenager in that now.

Now,

We can't go into the past.

We can't go into the future.

We're in the eternal now.

Christ said,

You're in eternal life.

That we all are in eternal life.

We're in the now of our soul energy,

No matter what our heads are doing.

So,

We're in the now of our soul energy,

But our heads may be just like we package up the chair and make it a less than a full frontal experience of essence in the now.

We package it up into an idea of our heads.

So,

You may have ideas in your heads about past and future and objects,

But actually,

You are in the now of eternal life.

In lots of ways,

Time goes right through us and alters our physical appearance.

But,

We remain the soul.

We're always the soul.

We never leave the soul,

You guys.

Yeah,

We never leave the soul.

It's just our heads that are diluted.

This is why you come out of your heads into your hearts.

When you come into your hearts,

You become fully present in the now.

As you do that,

Your wounding becomes healed and your past is like a dream you had about a whole other person.

Which is,

In fact,

The truth of things.

That is much more the truth of things because this whole thing is a dream.

Our heads do not want to relinquish control.

And,

This is where dispassion comes in.

Premasutha is going to bumble around the explanation of dispassion.

It's not an alienated cutoff.

Like,

You know,

Sometimes people say,

Oh yeah,

That's her issue.

Or,

Somebody was telling me that there's a new child-rearing manual that tells mums of babies that it's okay to let your child cry because you need your you time.

I'm like,

Okay,

This is the West going really crazy.

It would be far more stressful to try to resist going to a crying baby then.

But,

Anyway.

So,

I'm not talking about alienation or defensiveness.

I'm talking about dispassion.

It's sort of the ability to have short sight and long sight at the same time.

So,

You know,

In order to parent,

You actually need dispassion in that,

You know,

Babies are going to wake you up and cry.

And,

You have to have a sense of,

Okay,

Babies are just going to do this.

I might as well give over to the whole thing.

It's just going to be this way,

Or else you have a really terribly difficult two years.

Yeah,

A bit of dispassion.

Dispassion of a mum with a three-year-old who spills their milk.

Oh,

Well,

Three-year-olds are going to do that.

Being able to have this kind of neutral quality,

Neutral perspective that is not alienation.

But,

I'll tell you,

When I first began becoming dispassionate,

I used to feel like I was becoming a little bit of a sociopath,

Because,

You know,

Things like death,

People dying,

Didn't disturb me the same way.

I had kind of less grief,

Because I actually knew that they were fine.

They just changed form.

But,

I remember as I was moving this way,

Feeling like,

Wow,

Am I weird?

Am I super numb?

So,

When you're becoming dispassionate,

You get some level of control perspective over your emotions that's unusual.

You'll notice the difference,

But it's a good thing.

Because on your journey,

When the pendulum's going from joy to sorrow,

You can be dispassionate and go,

Okay,

Well,

The pendulum's going to sorrow.

I'm just in the dark phase,

But the light will be coming back.

Yeah,

And it will take you out of fear and stop you from,

You know,

Fussing and prolonging the dark period.

Some of you,

This is like pressing your buttons on a couple of levels.

One is,

It's asking you to become a little bit more non-attached,

So that's pressing your buttons.

But,

There's another level that it's asking you to,

Like,

Really wake up more.

Yeah,

To really allow your growth.

And that's pressing some of you.

It's okay.

You know,

When we,

Yesterday I was talking about how alienated the West is,

And as you see this more,

You become more dispassionate.

You're less hooked into the culture.

You're less hooked by the goals of the culture.

You're freer.

You're freer just to be yourself.

That's why it's so important.

You're freer to be yourself.

And,

Of course,

This might be harder for we women with our emotional nature.

Not always.

But,

As the woman allows her inner man,

As her inner man awakens,

As she allows this,

And allows her feminine to be supported by her inner male,

She'll become steadier and objective.

I got a bulletin.

It was very like the one with Gabriel coming with Tell Them to look inside.

Tell them the answers are inside.

I got another bulletin coming saying that Premasuda was to ask you to become like this more.

To do it.

To do it.

Yeah.

It's sort of to let yourself become like the teacher.

We get more like the teacher as we go on.

We do.

It's how it works.

Like I said,

We have this habit.

We've been taught to sort of come in,

Sit down,

Shut up,

Be passive,

And just allow ourselves to be filled up.

And then we write an exam and we pour it all out.

But this isn't like this.

This is training in how to walk the journey.

I got a real bulletin about that.

So I feel like Premasuda is going to be coming more dispassionate with you guys as part of that.

Right.

And I always feel such great warmth and want to kind of reassure you and give you hugs and everything.

And that's all good.

But yeah,

This is training.

And it's to live it as much as possible,

You know,

Slowly.

I get it,

Slowly.

But Premasuda got a correction is what I'm saying with this correction in how I'm to work with you.

It'll be good.

It'll free you.

It'll free you.

That's what you want.

You know,

Your freedom.

I know this is a lot to get your minds around.

But the thing is,

What happens is,

With just constant practice and sincerity,

You just find yourself moving this way,

Becoming this way.

Yeah.

You just,

You know,

Something beyond you moves you forward,

And you just find yourself with a deeper understanding.

Pay attention to your bodies.

You know,

There's margins for error.

Yeah.

It's like have a deep intent,

But understand that there's room for error.

There's,

This is a bumbling process.

But you know,

The universe is always talking to us.

I mean,

You know,

That,

I mean,

Just getting interested in what the universe is saying to you in your lives,

Like looking for signs.

I mean,

That's a way to develop this passion.

It's always all right in front of us.

You know,

Even like,

For example,

I went to get my shoulders,

I get this,

I can't remember what it's called.

It's like inject sugar water injected into my shoulder joints,

And it's to catalyze the healing.

It sort of creates a scar tissue,

And it catalyzes healing.

And I hadn't been for months,

Because I'd been away,

And she'd been actually sick.

So,

And so when she was injecting my shoulders with this,

My shoulders were really tight.

I mean,

I could really feel it.

And she commented,

And that was data.

I mean,

I realized,

Well,

You know,

I kind of realized why.

I mean,

There's so much happening in the inner and outer world.

And I was moving into feeling like Premasuddha had to make it better for everybody,

Really,

Really.

And when,

With that feedback,

Premasuddha made a big shift.

It's like,

And it's a,

You know,

That is so much what I did as a little one with my mom.

She was in such distress.

It went on my shoulders,

Like even as a tiny one.

She told me that when I was two,

She was sick.

And I pulled the covers up around her.

And I said,

Mom,

Don't worry about me.

I'll go next door and play with the greys.

You know,

It's like,

Man,

I was emotionally taking care of her very early.

So,

You know,

Here it was again,

The echo of all that.

It's just paying attention and being humble and responding to the data that's staring you in the face.

And Premasuddha had a lot of understanding for why my shoulders would be like that right now.

It's like this,

It's sort of like you guys,

Endless,

I don't know,

This self-awareness.

You know,

As you allow yourself to come into more self-awareness and respond,

Respond to yourself.

So,

You know,

Not only did I set up another appointment for August,

But I've worked with this energetically,

You know,

Meditated on it.

You respond to yourself.

Because this is another thing I was,

You know,

When I say in the West,

Our,

Even our horoscopes,

They refer to the sun sign,

Really,

That's the reference.

Whereas in the East,

It refers,

The horoscopes will refer to the moon and to the ascendant,

Which changes every couple of hours.

So,

It is more a personally focused horoscope than ours.

Ours references the sun.

The East,

They reference the moon and the ascendant,

Which changes every couple of hours.

So,

It is more of a deeper look about that individual.

Right.

The stuff,

You see,

Our outward focus is everywhere.

It's in everything.

And it's not bad,

Like,

You know,

Premasuddha's outlook is a marriage of West and East.

This is what can happen.

We can just,

You can move into a very broad understanding.

But this,

You know,

When I say the taking care of yourself,

The self-awareness and responding to yourselves,

You know.

So,

Okay,

I'm going to come to these weedy kind of examples.

I have a good pair of thongs with a little bit of stuff underneath the foot that pokes your whatever points,

You know,

For different organs and everything.

But they,

They're,

I got a new solid pair of sandals.

I bought myself a solid pair of sandals with good arch supports and good underneath the ball of the foot,

Like a really solid shoe.

You know,

I wouldn't have done that in the past.

I would have just kind of ignored the fact that these sandals were,

They were knocking my foot off a bit around my big toe.

I would have ignored that.

It's this stuff,

You guys.

Just loving yourself,

Caring for yourself on all levels.

Right.

And knowing that you're entitled and the universe will make room as you do this.

There is one,

I saw a clip of a movie star talking that her,

Her thing of success was to get a pair of Jimmy Choo shoes.

You know,

Those are the ones with the red sole,

But she'd worn it only twice because they weren't very comfortable.

I mean,

That's,

That's how,

Right?

So,

You're right.

Yeah,

To take care of yourselves.

And honor yourselves,

Your,

Your intuitions.

But also,

Yeah,

What your body needs.

And be gentle with yourselves.

You know,

Yeah,

It's not good to distract yourselves,

But you can,

Just knowing that you're distracting yourself is better than not knowing it.

I feel like I'm trying to light a fire with,

And it's wet.

It's right around this,

Around being good to yourselves,

You know,

And being a little gentler and less fascist with yourselves.

It's right here.

That's the rub.

It's again,

You know,

Come back to the dispassion.

I mean,

Being step back from it and be a little dispassionate about whatever's bothering you about yourself.

Take a bit more of a long,

Longer perspective,

A little more of a compassionate perspective.

I'll tell you,

The things,

You will stop doing the things that get in the way of your journey.

You will stop over time.

I promise.

I mean,

You'll either leave the journey or you'll just stop doing the things that you know aren't the best for you.

Really,

It's the way it works.

And just be patient.

It's kind of a feeling of a hollowness,

You know.

It's part of what I respond to,

You know,

And I get very fulsome and affectionate with you guys because I'm trying to,

Come on you guys,

You're loved,

You're loved.

But that isn't always the answer.

It's better maybe to ask you to deepen and to deepen into the love that you are.

Deepen into the love that your soul,

Alma,

Has for you and all of us.

Yeah.

Right.

Susan's saying learning how to get old and be less able.

Well,

How about just learning how to merge with self,

You know.

Because if you learn how to merge with self,

Then,

You know,

You'll probably have better health and energy and also you'll be peaceable if there's a decline in energy.

Yeah.

The thing is that for some of you,

I want you to look at the insanity of coming to satsangs and resisting the message.

I really want you to see the insanity of it.

And,

You know,

Pramasiddha feels it,

So.

Okay.

It's okay.

But it's just kind of insane,

Right?

It's kind of like,

Why would you do that?

And then,

You know,

If you talk to Pramasiddha on the phone,

You want her to really think you're a good student.

Yeah.

I mean,

This is,

I'll tell you,

This is what Pramasiddha is getting dispassionate about.

It's like the tricks people play.

I'm like,

Okay.

It's okay.

It's all it's all good.

But if you do see,

I mean,

Use your dispassion,

See the insanity of it.

Like,

Why would you,

Why would you hold on to your ego with your will?

Yeah.

Right.

Good.

Well,

I'm glad that you're smiling and you're not beating yourselves up,

You know.

Yeah.

Well,

Just listen and just be with it.

You know,

Be with it like it's an energetic hug.

You know,

Just listen and listen with an open heart.

Or have 10 million more lives here on the earth plane,

Repeating the same lesson.

See,

The resistance is really,

You know,

Think of the resistance as resisting,

Resisting being that two-year-old and speaking and being in full presence.

That's what you're scared of.

Because you'd be powerful,

You know,

In a love powerful way.

Pramasiddha had a lot of trouble learning how to be a leader because I was the third child.

I was the youngest for seven years,

And then I was the third child.

I was just kind of used to being bossed around,

You know,

Or told that whatever I was doing,

It was not quite right.

It took a lot of energy and effort to trust my data and stand with it.

But that's what works,

You guys.

You kind of experiment.

Remember the taking care of your innocence,

You know.

And Dhamma,

You know,

Recently I saw one of her clips where she was stating that very clearly.

And it takes a lot of courage,

You know,

Because you have to honor yourself.

You have to honor your intuition.

You have to honor your wounded child.

Put your arms around your wounded child.

Yeah,

And there are two kinds of silences,

You know.

There's the dead silence of alienation,

Of abandonment and alienation.

And it's heavy,

Like,

It's suffocating and heavy.

And then there's the silence of the divine,

Which is,

You know,

Full of all the beings in all the worlds.

I mean,

There's so much going on in it.

But in order to be able to see and feel that silence,

How alive it is,

You have to be steering towards loving yourself,

Honoring yourself,

Honoring your heart,

Loving respect of yourself and others.

Guys,

Innocence is the most powerful energy in the world.

Dhamma says this,

And it's true,

Because it's your soul.

There's a bit of a disconnect and a restlessness.

That's it.

But I'm feeling a desire to be present,

A willingness,

A greater willingness to be here in the moment than when before we started.

You know,

And if you're,

Say,

Fighting what Pramasutra is talking about,

Just observe yourself doing that.

You don't have to try to fix.

Just observe it,

And you'll be fine.

And ideally,

You know,

Just listen with an open heart.

I mean,

With stuff Abraham said,

Like I said,

I just listened with an open heart.

I mean,

I really knew he knew,

And I really knew I didn't know,

So I just listened to all of it with an open heart.

I didn't argue with any of it.

I didn't always understand what he was talking about.

In fact,

A lot of the time I didn't understand what he was talking about,

But the energy,

I could feel the energy of peace,

And I knew he knew what he was talking about.

Yeah,

So yeah,

Love your teacher,

You guys.

If you love your teacher,

You love yourselves,

Too.

We don't like devotion in the West.

I mean,

I wasn't big on it either.

It's come later in life,

Believe me,

The whole thing of devotion.

I didn't really get it before.

I was always trying to figure things out.

We're such doofuses,

You know,

Divine doofuses.

Yeah,

It's just like little kids,

You know,

You see how beautiful they are when they're sleeping.

Oh,

It's a comedy.

Are there any questions or comments?

Hi,

Pramasutha.

Yeah,

No.

I just,

When you said that about little children and how beautiful they are when they're sleeping,

An image popped into my mind.

I've been watching The Chosen,

Which is the story of Jesus and his disciples,

And the image and the latest episode was when they're in the Garden of Gethsemane,

And Jesus asks them to keep watch,

And they have trouble.

And the first time that they have trouble staying awake,

He wakes them up and gives them the task again to stay vigilant,

To stay awake.

And the second time he comes back,

And they're asleep again.

And at first,

When he sees them,

It's in their adult form.

But then it flashes away,

And it flashes back,

And they're little boys asleep.

And it's a beautiful scene.

He just takes them in,

Sort of drinks them in.

And he leaves them be.

So that image just came into my mind.

Thank you.

Right.

Gerald,

I want to talk to you in any of the question times.

And I just wondered if you had anything or how you're doing.

You've been pulling me a little bit.

Yes,

Indeed.

I'm good.

I'm honestly really good.

I really am kind of processing a lot in this satsang,

I would say.

I would say that I do feel this being in between a lot of flourishing,

Of being in my power and in my inner child.

But then this something else just pulling me back and saying,

No,

It's not time yet.

Take it easy.

And kind of this berating going on.

Right.

And I've been feeling it a lot in my body lately.

Right.

This is what I can observe so far,

And what I'm able to articulate,

Right?

Yeah,

I know.

So it feels like,

Though,

That this symphony has come out of your head a little bit.

And yeah,

It's come into your body more.

Yeah.

It's always time,

You know,

With focusing on the inner child.

It's not a to-do list.

It's just when you get that little child had your blueprint for your life in his heart,

That you don't get the blueprint for your true life without loving this child.

But the child's not separate from you.

That child is in your heart.

And in that child's heart is a blueprint for the life you came here to live.

So it's not,

It's not a to-do list thing.

But it's like,

Which is,

I can feel this.

It's kind of how you're you're doing it.

I'd love to see just a self-love develop in you.

Like,

Oh,

Of course my little guy needs love.

Of course he deserves my love.

In fact,

I am this little guy.

I'm living my life at the level of the injured child.

You see,

We don't,

We can't compartmentalize it.

It's us in our current state.

So if we want to heal,

We have to start loving ourselves.

And as we do that,

The wounding comes up.

Right.

So there's a kind of,

I feel in your heart,

There's a movement in your heart.

And yeah,

And I feel that one of the things you might have to face is that there's a fear of being alone,

You know.

And this is the abandonment all our kids feel underneath.

It just takes time.

Yeah,

You can't rush it.

And I can feel sometimes that guys choke on this stuff because your socialization doesn't make any room for it at all.

And your socialization doesn't equip you guys to,

With the higher emotional IQs that would help this work.

But I can feel that there's a level that your back's against the wall here.

Ah,

Sweet one.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You're really loved,

You know.

And sometimes just being witnessed at a deep level helps.

And it's slow.

It is slow.

And we don't do it.

Something beyond us does it.

And there's no magic elixir to take away the pain.

There's just stepping into more and more understanding of life,

More and more understanding of yourself.

That's it.

Yeah.

Just to add to that,

I completely understand it.

Because it's a few days ago,

I felt completely lifted.

And it was something was lifting.

And I was very much with full energy and feeling myself completely and surrendering feeling,

Feeling the trust that everything will be fine,

Everything is as it should be.

And then a few days after,

It started to dip.

Right.

So this is when your words and this transmission really resonates,

Because I have to understand this is still a process and it's not.

I can't really expect the check on the to-do list to be checked off magically from one day to the next.

That's it.

And remember the pendulum,

After every breakthrough,

The ego will try to assert control.

You just watch it.

Okay,

I had an opening.

Okay,

So here's the darkness.

Yeah.

Yeah,

It's a very because I saw you like part of you just wants to go to the top of the building and,

You know,

Fly,

Step off the building and fly,

You know,

Like fly spiritually and everything.

And,

You know,

We,

We end up getting our wings spiritually.

As we just do what you're doing,

We have these openings,

We have this,

Then we go into darkness,

We doubt,

You just keep talking to God,

Do your best with it,

You don't have to be perfect.

And it will swing back to the light.

And it just goes on and on.

As you get make progress,

You feel more and more peaceful,

Even with the swings,

So they don't ripple the water at all.

You're in a swing,

But you're just so peaceful,

But you're not disturbed.

Right.

Right.

Good.

Good.

You have made real progress out of your intellect since I last met you since I last saw you.

So it's good.

And that opening.

That's it.

That is the healing.

That's how our little child gets healed.

That kind of thing.

And just keep,

You know,

Just keep doing what you're doing.

It's messy.

It doesn't make sense to us.

We go,

Yeah,

We go,

Oh,

I'm doing it all wrong.

No,

It's like this.

And this is where compassion for humanity comes,

Because you know how hard it was for you.

So you go like,

Yeah,

It's hard for everybody.

I'm really,

I feel really fulfilled by what you said and witnessing the progress.

Yeah.

You see,

You guys,

Here's an example.

He wasn't arguing with Premasuddha.

I'm poking you.

I'm poking you.

I'm teasing.

It's okay to argue with Premasuddha.

Okay.

Certainly through the zooms.

It's okay.

I shouldn't even have teased you that way.

Oh,

Well,

Premasuddha talks too much.

Okay.

Last call for comments.

Oh,

Yeah.

Susan's thanking us all.

Yeah.

Thank you to everybody for coming,

Bringing your energies and your dear hearts.

Yeah.

And your humanity and your divinity and the whole as a whole.

And I appreciate,

I appreciate your telling,

My hearing you say that your shoulder reacts to what your insides are doing,

Because I have to,

When I get to the mirror,

I'm like this,

And I have to consciously bring my shoulders flat.

So I know I need to start looking more deeply for something on the inside that is causing my,

I don't know if it's that the weight of responsibility that I'm trying to hold up,

But I'm going to.

Little kids do this a lot.

Little kids will do this.

They put their shoulders up.

So I think we do this.

Yeah.

And which one goes up,

Particularly the left?

Left.

Left.

The left side is the feminine.

It's often a little scarier,

A little more sensitive than the right side.

Okay.

But sweetie,

I mean,

Gently,

Like,

Don't,

Don't go looking for it to fix it.

I mean,

Just go like,

You know what I would do?

I would just imagine Amma weaving gold love into your shoulders.

And imagining that will tend to,

The reason for it will tend to bubble up.

Do you see any guys?

Yeah,

You,

If you work towards loving and supporting yourself,

The reasons for your attention and everything will bubble up in your consciousness.

If you,

When we go looking,

We,

You know,

It's a very,

It's a,

The wounding's scared.

So sometimes we go looking with trying to fix and then we don't get the answers because we're not being loving enough.

We're being too bossy,

Like a bossy,

Angry mama who's scaring the child instead of loving the child,

Right?

Rocking the child and giving the child love and space.

And then the answers will bubble up.

Good question.

Good bringing that up,

Susan.

Thank you.

That helped the group.

Yeah.

Or imagine Amma putting a golden energy around your shoulders,

Just around it to wear during the day and the night.

I'll tell you,

That will do more.

That will signal your psyche that you're ready for a healing.

Right,

Right.

Good.

That's it.

Yes.

You know,

Amma says the female way of spirituality is much softer than the male way.

And that's what's so great about it.

You can do stuff like that.

You just do something with your imagination,

With your deep intent,

And that steers your psyche a certain way.

But we need the male energy,

You know,

To keep us meditating,

To keep us steady.

But we really need to give room to the feminine.

Right.

Because she heals so well,

So easily.

Right.

It is our true nature as women to heal and be healed organically.

That's it.

Susan,

I feel you need to stop nitpicking at yourself.

It's like,

Leave yourself alone a little bit.

Like,

You know,

Sometimes we did have moms who they gave us chores all the time.

They were intrusive,

You know.

So sometimes we can be that way with ourselves.

That's it.

That's it.

And I see a big light being given permission to come from inside.

It's very exciting for Pramasutra.

What dreams may come,

You guys?

Blessings to you.

May your week be just filled with light and love and self-awareness and self-forgiveness and self-compassion on all your hearts.

That's so sweet.

Okay.

Bye,

You guys.

Bye.

You're with me.