The story I'm about to read is from a book called The Gateway by Premasuda Janet Hobbs,
Me,
And it's available on Kindle.
In the book,
I write fables to describe the felt understanding of what the spiritual journey is like,
Because these things are really not talked about and they're hard to put words to.
So,
Here's a fable and it's called Learning How to Move Through Psychological Walls.
And it is a very metaphorically true story about what it's like to move through your inner walls inside you as you make breakthroughs into more truth.
So,
You might go through a period where you feel very stiff and very thick in your body.
And that is a physical experience of kind of some of your beliefs,
Of your rigid beliefs that maybe you're moving through.
And so you will go through periods like that and then all of a sudden you'll be through it.
And that feeling of heaviness and of tension and stiffness will melt.
And your movements will become more fluid,
Your thoughts will become more fluid,
And your viewpoint will be broader.
So,
Here is one of the stories and it's about going through these walls.
So,
It's entitled Learning How to Move Through Psychological Walls.
Once upon a time,
There lived a young man who came from far away and built a house that was beautifully situated on a hilltop above a lake.
He was happy at first,
But over time he noticed something odd about his home.
Periodically and unpredictably,
All the doors would disappear,
Imprisoning him.
His first response was to panic and he would frantically bang into the walls,
Clawing at them,
Ripping the wallpaper desperate to escape.
As time passed,
He became used to the house's quirk and no longer panicked.
He bought an axe and simply accepted the need to constantly build new doors.
But it was exhausting and laborious and seldom did he have the time or energy for anything else.
For a while,
He tried to live outside,
But it was cold and wet and he missed his fireplace and his books.
So,
He came back in.
So,
Despite a few bumps and bruises and the endless work of making new doors,
He continued to live there.
It was hard to know exactly when he learned the art of being able to go through walls.
You know how these things happen.
Our new steps are often a mix of desperate desperation or an accident,
Or we finally get fed up with all our old thoughts and habits and agree to change.
Anyway,
One day in his frustration and his pain,
He walked into the wall.
He became the wall.
He could feel the hardness of it and the hardness within himself.
He could feel how stiff and inflexible it was and his own stiffness and inflexibility.
It was in ways a terrible experience.
It is a terrible thing to feel one's withholds against life,
To feel one's stubbornness and all the things that keep one from living fully.
When he felt this way,
He wanted to jump off a bridge,
But he couldn't because he was the wall.
And the whole point was he couldn't move.
He couldn't shift his perception.
He was stuck.
He was the wall,
And the wall was he.
It was very unpleasant being a wall.
But on the other hand,
He was really sick of building new doors over and over.
So,
He just let his experience be.
He accepted it.
He didn't try to fix it or escape it or change it,
Which was his usual life strategy and often ours.
And then suddenly,
He found himself through the wall on the other side.
He had moved through the wall.
How had he done that?
So,
He turned around and became the wall again,
Feeling stuck and blocked and unhappy all over again.
But it wasn't quite so bad this time,
And getting through it didn't take so long.
It was very funny.
The walls became a little thinner and a little more transparent every time he did it.
And he got faster and faster at doing it.
And the walls got thinner and thinner as they do.
And then it happened that he almost didn't mind becoming a wall because the process was so quick.
And his awareness grew so much every time he did it.
Inevitably,
The day he decided he didn't mind being a wall was the day the walls disappeared.
He became simple,
Transparent light,
And he could move easily wherever he wished to go.
He became so happy.
He became a builder of magical houses where people learned to go through the walls with joy,
Which is one of the secrets to life,
As many know now.
So,
All of us feel,
You know,
Blocked by life sometimes.
But really,
What we're being blocked for by is inside ourselves,
And that's where it's curable.
So when we feel our own stiffness,
Rigidity,
Stubbornness,
Distrusting,
And we feel it,
We see it,
But we also feel it in our bodies.
So we actually get stiff,
And we might feel very heavy.
Now,
If you keep thinking,
Keep aiming for a higher kind of life,
If you keep,
You know,
Turning toward a higher power,
To God,
To what is behind this illusion,
You know,
Seek for more meaning,
Seek for more truth,
However you put it to yourself,
You'll find that within your body and within your life,
The walls start getting smaller and thinner,
And you become more mentally flexible,
Probably more physically flexible too,
More compassionate,
More understanding,
Less rigid,
Until finally,
You know,
At enlightenment,
A self-realized person is just one with everything.
There are no walls left.
There is just the direct experience of God in themselves,
And in every other person,
And in all animals,
And in all of life.
You know,
When I was growing up,
There was that expression,
You know,
I would hear,
My mom would say to me,
God is everywhere.
I don't know that she felt that,
But it is true.
God is everywhere.
It's all you're seeing.
It's God.
It's just sometimes we get out of touch with the God within us,
And so we can't see it outside us.
