Awareness Satsang: Question And Answer About Finding Freedom

Sincere seekers gather with Premasudha to bare their hearts in an effort to purify into more Truth.

Our problem is the general consciousness of the planet is one of materialism, commodification, and consumption. But we can learn to transform, as this satsang demonstrates. Clearly, seekers are inspired, comforted and strengthened by the Love emanating within the energetic safety of Premasudha’s presence.

Let yourself be brought along into a more expansive and compassionate understanding.

Immense blessings to you.

You are worthy of love.

Transcript

Shivali, You have a question? Yeah. Good evening, Ma'am. How are you? I'm good, Thank you. Yeah, Sweet one. I, Um, Um, How do you get over the fear or, Um, This thing that God might fail you or he might betray you or, Or, Like, You are a, That you yourself, You're a, I think I have a problem in this, That there is a little bit non-acceptance that I'm not extremely successful or there is a fear that God might, Uh, Betray me or fail me or, You know, And, Um, He's putting me through a lot of difficult situation though he, I've, I've had a lot of grace. There is, Has been a lot of, Um, Pain in this journey too and I kind of just sometimes wanted to stop and sometimes there is a, When I, If I, When I want to stop, There is a fear that God might fail me or punish me when I just find it too overwhelming and I wanted to stop because it's been lesson after lesson after lesson for a long time. Even when I've been hurt by other people, I have tried to find what the hurt was and I've tried to surrender it to God and I've been trying, But there came a point where I felt just, Maybe, I don't know, Like, Um, A fear that God might betray me or fear me or I, Myself, Have a thing that, You know, When I've given everything up, Now I'm just very vulnerable. I feel very vulnerable and I feel like, You know, This thing when I'm opening myself up to God, Staying in the present, Trying to connect with him, I feel like, You know, There is a fear that he might fail me and there are some times when I've been very hurt and I've been facing failure and all these things and it has really affected me and this thing. I, I would like to know a little bit about that, What your perspective on this is. Yeah, Yeah. You know, Sweet one, I think everybody here can relate to what you're saying. I think can relate to what you're saying. I think everybody has felt this way, Okay? Or does even feel this way, Okay? All right. Um, So, It's sort of like, How can I, I'm sort of feeling what's wanting to come that's going to help you the most. Yeah. I, I keep coming back to, I mean, You, It's very unusual to me that somebody would have such a desire on the spiritual journey, Um, That it would be so intense at the same time as you're being, Doing a residency in the medical thing. This is sort of like somebody, You know, Who's dry, Who's on a, On a, A boat, A kayak, And they're doing extreme rapids, Okay? So, You know what rapids are in the, In a river, You know, With rocks and, And just to survive, They have to pay a great attention to manner, Managing the boat. And at the same time, They're, They're wanting to be enlightened, Do you see what I mean? And they, They're wanting to think about God. And it's, It's sort of like, You know, The, The energy of contemplation is so different from what you're in right now, And you're trying to do it both. Now, This is extremely heroic on your part, But what it does is, You see, The picture I'm getting is when you come to me, It's your head is so enormous, And your heart is small. Okay, It's not fault, You have a really big heart in there, You're just young, And you're in this training, Okay? You've been training your head for a very, Very long time. For a very long time, It's been a condition, You, You have to achieve this merit in order to be brought forward. You see, You have to pass your exams, You have to perform, And you're bringing the same consciousness to your relationship with God, And it is completely a different consciousness. God doesn't work like that. Okay, But I'm just, I'm, I'm working with you to make sure that the words have the most chance to get through to you. You're not bad for having this enlarged head, But you keep knocking on the door to me, And presenting this head, And not liking my answers, And your head will not like my answers, And your head will tell you that God is betraying you, Or that you're being punished, When it is not true at all. It is the opposite. So how do you feel in your body when I say this? I guess, I feel, I guess I feel disappointed. I mean, Even when I've emailed you, You've been giving me the same answer, And I'm trying to get it. I really am to focus on my chest area. I really am doing my best, Trying to see the patient in a more compassionate way, And feeling, And I know grace has touched my life, And I'm trying to be more grateful and come from the heart, But and I'm trying to surrender everything. I really am. I'm taking your advice seriously every day, And trying to go focus. You have told me in the mail to focus on the heart, And I've been genuinely practicing that, But there are times like, For example, I had worked really hard for a particular result, But the result hadn't come, And I felt a bit, I felt shattered about that, But still, I just went in. I remembered your advice, And I went into the heart, And I was just sitting with it, Sitting with it, Letting it express itself. But it feels, It just feels like no matter how much I do, How much I sit with it, It doesn't seem to end. It just doesn't seem to be enough. There is just one more thing that is coming up, One more, Or just simply just being unreasonable fear or something. Does everybody hear echoes of their own experience, Please? Can you, Does this remind you of anything you guys listening to, Shivali? Yeah, Like they're all going like, This is what it's like, And Sweetie Pie, It's like, You know, How do I put it? It's like talking to you, Sort of like talking to a hedge fund manager who's wondering why the results of his enlightenment training are not coming in the same way that the money results come. He's going like, How come there's no profit to doing this? How come it's not producing quantifiable results? Well, You know, If this was a business, As hedge funders would say, It's like it's going broke. Yeah, You're doing that, Sweetie. I mean, You're in medicine, But it's the same energy that you're applying to God and to the spiritual journey, And Sweetie Pie, It's not going to work. And, You know, The universe will keep showing you this is not going to work, This is not going to work. You can't say, When I say focus on the heart, And you can't say, Okay, I've done this for two weeks, I want to see a result. Even that thinking will block the result. That thinking is the hedge fund manager wanting results right away. And I've said to you, This one speaks from 40 years of experience. It's sort of like, Sweetie Pie, How dare you? I'm going to be very like, How dare you, As a medical resident, A young medical resident with a whole lifetime of learning how to sort of function in the ego, How dare you complain that, You know, The spiritual journey is not producing results on your timetable? Okay. Right. Right. Do you see the arrogance in this? Okay. Yeah. You see, And you're going to go like, And I hate to do this to you, But Sweetie Pie, Something has to punch him his ego. It's like, Ah, Just think of it. It's like a hedge fund manager saying, I want these results, And I want to profit, And I want to be a multi-millionaire spiritually as a result of my tiny effort to come into the heart. Yeah. Like, Look, Like, Sweetie, But I can't criticize you because look at you. You're, You're serving humanity. You're, You know, You'll be working 18 hours a day. It's like, Even the fact that you have any energy for spirituality is a huge achievement. Sweetie Pie, I, You know what I think? I think you should just like, Don't even, Just kind of like go off duty with it a bit. Like, Just be ordinary. Like, You know, Please come to satsangs if you want, But during your day, Just be chevalier. Don't even try to, Don't even try to get it. Just be yourself and just see what happens. I'll hold you energetically. Okay. As you do this, I'll hold you. And yeah. Yeah. You're off duty. Ah, Yeah. Let's see. Oh, Sweetie. Oh, You guys, Please pay attention to this because yeah, This is, Yeah. Oh, Sweetie Pie. Oh, Chevalier. You're so adorable. Oh, Sweetie. Yeah. And so Chevalier, This is how love comes in. Love comes in when we like realize that we're, Yeah. And the sorrow underneath the ego, We begin to feel it. We feel this sorrow, This sorrow of not allowing love in. We feel this sorrow and so love comes in then. Right. Yeah. I've just thought that maybe if I loved it enough, Maybe if I lost myself in loving it enough, That, You know, Hopefully something might happen. Maybe that, As you said, Is a very huge pride thing. Because whenever I had free time, I've committed to this 100, 000% of myself. Yeah. And just giving myself more and more. Yeah. Because listen, Sweetie, You're turning spirituality into a commodity. And hear this, You guys. And it is not a commodity. It is you. It's the truth of you. It's not a commodity. You see, Yeah, It's not something you can manipulate and you can be like a hedge fund manager about. Yeah. It's just you. Like, I am looking at God in human form. Chevalier, I am looking at you as like God in human form. And you've just, You're just, Yeah, You've just been out of touch with this because of your conditioning and your training. It's okay, But you, You know, In a funny, I mean, In a, It's really kind of a terrible way. You, You're setting up the conditions for the most pain because you're such an ardent seeker. And at the same time, You're locked in this worldview. And, Sweetie, You know, You can't afford to move out of this worldview when you're in this training. Do you understand? Just get through the training. Just be as loving as possible and just get through this training. You know, Don't even be as loving as possible. Just be yourself. You're off duty. Okay. You're off duty. I'll hold you. I'll hold you. Yeah. You're off duty. Great. Stop trying. Yeah. Oh, Sweetie. Oh, Sweetie. See? Yeah. Look at all the people there. They feel for you. They know this in themselves, Shivali. This isn't, This is what we're all running. Yeah. Oh, Sweetie. Thank you for coming forward. Special prayers to you. Everybody, Everybody's sending prayers to you, Sweetie. They all are. I can see it. Yeah. Aw, Sweetie. So, This will help, Just this. How much longer do you have in your training? I have another two years. And if I do try for a super speciality, Another two years. Maybe I'll just stay two years for the post-graduation training. Okay. So, Just, You're off duty. I'll hold you. Thank you. Thank you. You don't know Amma yet, You know. Yeah. Yeah. It's okay. You're really high. Yeah, Sweetie. You're a really high-quality spiritual seeker that you would even be wanting to do this when you're so loaded up. But just, Yeah. And just see how it goes. And next week, Maybe, Just let me know how it's going. Okay? Let me know how it's going. Yeah. And can you, Can you do it, Let me, Don't email me about it. Do it by you turning up. Okay? And speaking. Okay? Yeah. And just know all my love's coming to you all the time. Yeah. Yeah. And you deserve it. Yeah. You really deserve it. Yeah. Aw, Sweetie. Yeah. Okay. Wow. That was a very good question. Yeah. Right. Might have made us all speechless. Because it's so weird. Yeah. That turning spirituality into commodity. And if I do this and this, Then I'll get that and that. And it's like, That's not innocence. That won't work. Yeah. Laura. Yeah. Sweet one. Thank you. It's so good to see you and everyone. I need to ask you about sacrifice because I heard about sacrifice last night on the satsang. And so, That's all Amma does. And if we, That if I don't try to do that for my housemate, Why not sincere? Okay. This is good. It's another very powerful question. So, It goes exactly to religiosity, Which is one of the things that impedes you guys the most. Okay? So, The religiosity is, Well, You know, If somebody needs something or wants something, Then, You know, You have to sacrifice your own self and your own desires and to fulfill them. And what this can turn into is kind of like the abused woman staying with this terrible man, That kind of energy. Do you understand this? We have to put ourselves in the equations. And you guys and, You know, Chivalry, All of you, Put yourselves inside your life. So, If I'm walking past, You know, And there's somebody on the street and they're begging, I go with my feeling about whether to give them money or not. Do you know? I do not go, Oh, I must sacrifice for all these people on the street. I pay attention to the inner data of who my being wants me to give to. Do you see? I follow the guidance. This thing of sacrifice is part of the overhang of the patriarchy where women just lose all, Historically, Have lost all sense of themselves and they were just servants. We look at Mother Nature as we are, She's to help us. We just take from her. That is the prevailing thing. Come on, You guys. This rape of Mother Nature. We have this kind of of raping energy going on. And when it unites with the religiosity of sacrifice, Then it gets really perverse. So, Listen, Sacrifice is, Please, You sacrifice your ego for God, Laura. That's what the sacrifice is. So, No matter how Amma feels, She turns up for Darshan because that is her service. But her soul is, She's really here to do this. She's not sacrificing herself for some, To serve another person's ego at all. Do you know what I mean? Like, Yeah. Laura, It's this religiosity that you struggle with and it isn't just you. Everybody does. You're right. It's not being religious and being taught to sacrifice and not afraid of. And I felt my heart just melt as you were talking. And it is sacrificing my ego to God because my ego thinks it's only valuable if I'm sacrificing myself for someone and helping someone and doing for them. And that's ego. It's wanting to be liked and to be approved of. I don't need that to do that. Yeah. The most, This above all to thine own self be true. Okay. This is the hardest thing for seekers on the journey. This above all to thine own self be true. But the joke is, That is what this one did. That is what I did. I paid attention to my data about when to sacrifice myself and when not to. And there've been some situations where, You know, With my family line, Where I was, You know, Not being treated well, But I could see their God selves. So, I put up with it. Do you see? And Amma got, Like, She had that. She's got really mad at me about allowing that. Do you see? Because it was a phony sacrifice. I was sacrificing awakened God self to serve, To endure people who were not, Who were asleep, Treating me badly. It's not the right way. You take care of your God self. You listen to your God self. You follow it. It gets bigger and bigger and bigger. Yeah. It's sort of like, As you keep going, It becomes clearer and clearer. What is your ego and what is your God self? And then you keep choosing your God self. No matter what. Yeah. Laura, It's just, You keep kind of trying to figure this thing out from your head. And what you really need to do is come in and love yourself more deeply, To really do it. Because you keep yourself more deeply, To really do it. Because you keep going up into your head and asking advice about this. And you need to just go, I'm going to love Laura. I'm going to be true to Laura. I've got nothing to lose. Right. Right. I mean, Really just live that way. Just be Laura. Don't even think of spiritual seeker Laura so much. Don't do that. Just be Laura. And make the choices that make your heart feel expanded and don't do the things that make your heart feel contracted. Or that feel off at all. Really, It's to follow. Okay. So, I'm going to give you an example of doing this. My cousin offered me to, She said, Oh, She'll do my publicity, Do a publicity thing. This is years ago. And so, She did it, But then she billed me for the actual printing. So, For me, I could not pay her. And it's too complicated to explain. Inside myself, I could not pay her, Even though I knew that on another level, I had to. The nuts and bolts, The family line, Human relationships, All of that. Okay, You guys. So, I did not override my feeling that I could not pay her. I stayed with it. I stayed with it. I stayed with it. I was true to it, Even though it was inconvenient and it felt wrong. Okay. But deeply felt right. Okay. Within three months, I mean, What happened was this really wealthy guy, Who was a client at the time, Came for, I was doing massage at the time. And he said, How are you? And I said, Oh, I'm just struggling with this. This is just something that's coming up for me. I'm in this dilemma. And he said, Let me pay for it. So, I went, Okay. Do you see the universe solved it? Okay. This is what I did in spades. I was true to myself. I would pray and the universe would solve these difficulties. I did not override what I felt in my heart with, Oh, Premasudha, You should do this. Okay. And that's what's different between the way I've lived my life and what you guys have done. And I'm wanting to help you move into this more expanded way. And then you find out that God really loves you because you're being true to yourself. So, God comes in behind you. You see, The data was coming from my God self. So, If I overran that, I would get a whack from the universe. Or I'd get that, You know, Yeah, I just couldn't override myself. That's what I want to teach you guys. Don't override what you deeply know, Even if it's inconvenient. Just be true to it and turn to God. So, With your friend, If you didn't have the feeling to do it, Then don't do it and let the chips fall. But pray, Pray and be sincere, Like, You know, Wanting to move into your God self. Yeah, It's a way of deep integrity, You know. Thank you. And what you just said about how the universe will whack me, It comes out physically. I do get nauseous or a headache or very heavy, Just like you said before. My body tells me it's not okay. Okay, But sometimes, Yeah, The body thing, Sometimes, You know, That transpersonal, Transcendent body approach, Sometimes these symptoms are part of us going up. But it's okay, Laura, It's all good. You know, Nausea can be moving into more truth. Headache can be emotional conflict about whether to move into truth or not. Yeah, It's not quite so bad and good, Sweetie, As you think. This religiosity is this bad and good thing. Yeah, You guys, Those lines of bad and good, It's all religiosity. Yeah, Please get that. What is bad is when you are taking an action and you feel really crummy about it. And it's not aligned with your true self. But maybe you have to do that in order to suffer enough that you make a different choice in the future. You guys, You see, The thing, You're God in human form. You're here to walk your God self within your humanity. You're here to express your God self in your humanity. Yeah. And our egos don't like it. And teachers are just here to, Like, Reassure us, Shine a bit of light. Yeah. Oh, My heart goes out to you guys. Yeah. Come on, Somebody else got some. I'm starting to talk again. I don't want to do this. You hear me. You hear my voice. Sonic drill you all the time. Come on. Questions. I'll just give you an example what I'm talking about. I'm starting. I'm going to be sending you an email about some prayer times, Eight o'clock in the morning and eight o'clock at night. And it's for peace. And I know that I hear that the Berlin Satsangs doing some of the same sort of thing. But anyway, You could join in and just join in at your own time wherever you are. Or join in with me. And it was going to do a whole social media blitz. And you know what? I woke up this morning and it was like I got a big no from the universe. The energy wasn't right. It was not to go forward. So, There I'm going like, Okay. Okay. Now, The thing is, I know just the act of prayer is the most powerful thing. So, Whether it goes out in social media or not, Doesn't matter so much. But it certainly is not going to work if the whole energy of the prayer is different from the energy of putting it onto social media. Right? You see, It's exactly that. If it's not aligned, It's like how could it work? Yeah. Everything has to be aligned with truth as best you can. Yeah. So, I just have to wait till things change, You know. There's no criticism or anything. It just is. Yeah. You live like that. Sometimes your dreams come true, Sometimes not. If they don't come true, You purify. Purify. Go. If your dreams aren't coming true, Realize that the problem is you, Not God. If you're going through a rough time, God is trying to help you awaken and understand. And you're just getting the results of your actions in other lives. It's not God's fault. You're just always getting data about you and your own soul. That's it. That's it. So, You know, A thing like this, It's just the universe asking for a realignment into more truth. And it's all good. You just follow. Just follow. Yeah. Michael? Hi. I'm just wondering, Are you still going to have the prayer sessions? Yeah. And I'll send out an email to all of you guys about them. It just won't do a social media blitz. It's okay. It's all good. Okay. It's all good. The most important thing is just the prayer going out. And yeah, If you feel to join. And maybe the social media thing will come later. Don't worry. Yeah. Lovani, Did you want to say something? Sometimes you guys move around, And I don't know whether you're wanting to ask or not. Oh, Back in Germany and doing fine, Feels like. Lots and lots of emotions. Just any further advice on dealing with those emotions? I've been trying just to feel them, Sit with them, Meditate, Have time for myself, You know, Quiet. Feels good. They're pretty intense, But it's all good. Yeah. There's this deepening into the heart that's calling right out of your head. And that's why I was promoting the, You know, With the time away, Where you could just be with yourself. Because even if the therapy doesn't suit you, You know, Even if the party line of what they're talking about, You don't have to, You can just use the time to just be fully with yourself. Because you're a little bit like the hedge fund manager, Trying to navigate and try to organize. And it isn't a fault, You're just trying to sort your experience. But Lovani, For you, I don't see anything really getting better for you until there's this drop into the heart. Right. Just a kind of Geronimo into the heart. And I feel you need time and space and to be a little bit off duty in order to do it. Okay. But you sound better. This is all good. This is all good. It's like what you're saying is all good. It's all good. It's just, I feel there's this jump into the heart that wants to happen. And it just feels you need a little bit of safety for that. But let's just see. We'll just, You know, Just follow your best guess, Your best, You know, Just proceed. I mean, If the universe wants you to be dropped into your heart, You'll be dropped into your heart. So just we'll just find out. Yeah, But you're better. I can see you're better. We're, We're staying in a very nice place. That's very supportive. I haven't had to go to the store or anything. Anjaneya has been spending wanting to and been spending a lot of time with his father, Since we got back on Monday. And that feels good for for all of us. So I have had more off duty and and support in that. As in the meals are just on the table kind of the thing. That's good. Good. Good. Okay. And the one thing that you can be really assured of is I will nag at you till you do this. Or I might even give you the cold shoulder if I get you know, But when you do it, I'll know. You see, You could be in a situation where everything's taken care of, You're holding on still at the hedge fund level. Do you see? Or you could be in a situation. Yeah, This is it. Yeah, Busted. You see? And you can present like a good spiritual student. Yeah, I'm doing it right. I've got this, You know? Yeah. Right. Okay. And, You know, Just, Just here, It's sort of like with Shivali are getting the same thing. Just go off duty with this. Bhavani. Don't worry about, Don't worry about it. Go off duty. It's like just almost forget about what I'm saying. And just keep doing what you're doing. Okay. Just keep doing what you're doing. Yeah. Because sometimes we can monitor ourselves so much that we stop the leap. We're monitoring have I done what Premasuda wants? Am I doing it right? Am I doing it? And it's like, That stops the leap. It's another version of the hedge fund manager. You know, It's so funny, You guys, We're all a bit worldly, Right? So, You're getting the hedge fund manager image. That saved me so many words. I just bring that forward. Everybody gets what I'm talking about. Yay. Yeah. So, Bhavani. Yeah, You've got this innocence in you. And there's a level of you trust me. And you know, You trust this one. And underneath you trust your own heart. So, Just be with everything. But understand how tricky egos are. So, Just don't believe your thoughts too much. You can imagine yourself jumping jumping into Amma's arms or something. That's what I would do. I just imagine myself jumping into Amma's arms or jumping into Amma's body. Okay. This wild things. They steer our psyches, You guys. When you do that stuff, It is like two years of meditation. Really. Just do that zero to 100 imagery. Steering your psyche that way. Yeah. What that does is it avoids a lot of religiosity when you just imagine yourself in Amma's body. Those things. Yeah. Okay, Good. Okay. Okay. There's an energy of sweetness that's going to be coming to you, Bhavani. Yeah. It's kind of a sweetness. And you might wake up with it in the mornings. You know, Don't look for it. But I'm going to pray that I'm going to ask Amma that as it comes in, You notice. Because it is this sweetness. It's a sweetness that comes in. And that's the soul energy. It's kind of a sweetness where we wake up and we're just wake up like a little child. And things feel sweet. And it's when we've allowed our soul energy to come in the middle of the night to help us. Right. Right. That's how that's it. Right. Right. And part of the reason I think these things aren't talked about more in the usual spiritual settings is there's so many different races, Religions, And different cultures, That it would just be so confused to if, You know, It was spoken about these things. It's more, You know, This is a smaller groups like this, It can be transmitted. But just because it's not spoken about widely in religious settings, Doesn't mean it's not true. This is true. This is, This is the heart of the journey. This work is the heart of the journey, You guys. Right. And that's its power. And that's why people have trouble with it, Because they go, What, What? But it's the truth of things. This is what, You know, Amma talks about with, With religions that, You know, The religious training's good. It's sort of like with a little sapling, You put fence around it, You protect it, So it doesn't get eaten. But as it grows, It doesn't need all that. So, You know, The religious training's good, It introduces us into the, You know, The 10 Commandments, Or the price sayings, Amma's sayings, Krishna's sayings, But then we, We have to become our God self in our human lives. That's the job. And so, After a little protection, We take this step of living in truth, Walking our talk. This is where, With the patriarchy, Women, You know, Doubt themselves. And I'm like, But we're coming out of all this, Ladies. The women are rising up, And the men are going to be so happy about this. Yeah, Because it helps free them too. Demosudar? Yes, Ranka. Hi, Nice. That's so good, Because I was just feeling like, I'm going to ask Ranka to speak. Yeah, It's my first time speaking, So yeah. Yeah, It's good. I have a question, Or even more, I'm asking for your help, To, I'm feeling lately a lot of sadness inside and loneliness, When I'm trying to stay with myself, And being with myself, And watching myself lately a lot. And I'm actually kind of trying to avoid going into these feelings. And so, Yeah, I just want to ask for some advice or support for that. Yeah, Ranka. I know how intense they can be. Okay. So, Sadness and loneliness is, You're just feeling what your child self felt like as the ego came on. Do you see? The child felt separate. She was sad, And she felt lonely, That her parents didn't really get her, That the energy in the family didn't really, Wasn't the real energy. And she felt sad and alone, As she gave up her connection to herself, To fit in with the family. So, When we're recovering our true self, We feel these feelings again. Okay. And I can feel that your trust in the Creator is, You know, It's not so high right now. It's not so high, Right? We talked about those, You know, With the five lives, Remember? Yeah. And some of the, That what you're facing is clearing a level of heavy brutality. Okay. Okay. So, Sweet One, This is where my heart really goes out to you, Because I had this in spades. Yep. Yep. Yeah, Really, I, I, I, My heart goes out to you. Like, Yeah, For what it's like to be a beginning seeker, Raising kids, And feeling this kind of stuff. Mm-hmm. Right. Right. Okay. So, I'm just going to be with you for a minute. It's like the cells of your body don't know how to receive love, And that's what you're feeling. Yeah. Okay. Okay, Good. So, You said right. So, That's, That's good. Okay. So, You, You're aligning with the truth. Okay. So, Okay. So, Just knowing that, And that it's just coming up to be cleared. So, It's just coming up so that you can just kind of embrace this. And, You know, It's going to be cleared. It's going to shift. You will have a shift. I promise you. I promise you, Either now or in the near future, But your body will, Okay, You're, You're arguing with me a little bit underneath. I can feel it. It's sort of like, Well, How is this possible for someone like me? Right. But, Okay, You guys, Do you, Do you hear yourselves? This is what we're like. You guys, I was like this too. Right. This is what we do. Okay. You're, You are your God Self in human form. Your God Self is way stronger than your humanity. Well, It's way, What the, What your God Self knows is way more powerful than the thoughts of right or wrong of your humanity or the self-judging of your humanity. Right. You see, Franco, Where, Where you are and where I was, It's hard to believe in the God Self because of the patterns, The experience of the brutality of life. Right. Right. Right. Okay. Okay. You see, We're just being with the truth of things. I'm not trying to fix Franco. You guys, I'm giving her an embrace, An understanding embrace of infinite comprehension. Right. That's what we need from teachers. And this is what we need from ourselves, You guys. It's like receiving darshan inside yourself, But it can take years to be able to do it. So don't worry. Don't worry. Yeah. It's okay. Good. Okay. So I can feel you opening and there's this darkness around your heart and you've opened, But you're not quite sure about whether it's okay to let this darkness go, Because part of you thinks that it's really the truth of things. See, This is what we're like, You guys. We privately think it's the truth of things. So, But here's this opening. You've opened. Yeah. And there it goes. That's it. It's like when you open the shades, The light shines in. So you know, It's not really a matter of deciding to let go of the darkness. What happens is the light just starts showing itself. And then you go, Wow, This is the truth of things. Yeah. That's interesting. I'm trying to help you too much. It's so subtle, You guys, But the subtleties can get in the way. Like all these things. But we'll just, You see, Just be true. I just witness with love. It's this darkness. It's like you've opened, But the darkness feels so familiar that it's like your mind can't quite get around that maybe it doesn't exist. Right. That's it. Because your mind is built on the fact this darkness exists. You guys, But it's actually not true. It doesn't exist. Your mind doesn't even exist. You don't even exist. We're dream figures, You guys. We are all in eternal life. We are all our soul energy. Having this dream in which we're experiencing ourself as a dream figure. Yeah. Franco, What would you need? And just say the first things that come to your mind, You know, Or bumble away, Just be human. What would you need in order to give up this? I'm kind of saying I want to say ghost, This darkness, This fear, This, What would you need in order to do that? Safety. Right. Right. Yeah. Right. Right. Right. And it's feel like you haven't felt safe in a long, Long time, Maybe. Yeah. Right. It's very beautiful. Yeah, It's like, I always feel like a little child that needs the support from their parents again, Still, You know, Not being able to support herself and save myself. Yeah. Yeah, That's what we feel like, Though. We do. We do feel like that. I felt like that the whole time. It was just there was nobody to support me. So I had to deal. But it's interesting. There's there's a softness. I don't know if you're feeling it, But it's like there's this self-understanding percolating in. It's funny, You're so sensitive that as soon as I start speaking about this stuff, It starts wilting. Right. Yeah. Yeah. You know. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. This is what we're like. I was like this. Oh, Bless your heart. It's all good. You see. You cannot fail, You guys. You can't fail on the journey. The feelings that you will get where you feel like you're failing is coming because your soul wants you to know that you're failing to follow your heart on a deeper level. Do you get that? Any feelings of failure you've you've got you've you've got it's just your soul saying you're failing to feel me and be me and express me. Right. It's not anything outward at all. You know, Frank, It feels like things are a little softer for you. Since you started to speak. Does it feel that at all? Yeah, I feel that. Yes. Right. Okay. So the fact it feels softer is there's been a shift more into your heart and coming out of your head a little more. Okay, Then we get the feelings of softness. I especially want to help Amma's children decode some of these because it gets missed. The heart of the journey gets missed by not knowing these things. See, Sweetie, I think you're just going to have to be patient with yourself if you if it was like me, I had these I had this brutality thing. And it tell you, Sweetie, As you grow out of it, The light within you will become as powerful as the it seems to be the opposite right now. Do you understand this? This patterning of brutality that I that this one came from is part of why this work has a lot of love power in it. Okay, This please. It's sort of like, It turns you into a millionaire as you navigate it. Because it's a principle of like when something's really thin and difficult, If you've got the character and the energy to to keep at it, The gift is off the charts. Okay, You're wondering if you have the character or whatever. Okay, That's just the head again. It's like Frank, You'll do it in your own soft way. You know, It's Yeah, That's the kind of power I'm talking about soft power. I'm not talking about any kind of force or anything, Just the soft power. I think I'm beginning to make mud pies with all my words. I'm getting in the way. But please understand, I see this and that you're surrounded by grace, And I'm surrounding you by grace, And I'm seeing Amma's smiling face. Sweet one, I'm seeing her smiling face right next to yours. She's happy with what you're doing. Okay, There's no. Yeah, No criticism. I mean, Again, I can't. But when I see your face, That is a big, That is a big thumbs up. Right. Right. Right. Right. And yeah, And anything to keep your mind up. Anyway, You know, I was I had a funny day yesterday where a lot of it was very cloudy, Emotionally inside myself. These, You know, Our emotions come up like the weather. Okay. It's just like the weather. And it's just, Just it's the weather of the day. It's not true. The truth is your true nature. And I've just had a lot of experience with doing this. So there were clouds kind of emotionally, But it's like, I really know. The Creator is everything. So it's didn't throw me back like it used to. But there's this big clearing occurring on the earth right now. And it's intense for all of us. Yeah. Like, I'm a wave. I just saw like, I'm a waving like happy. She's happy. Okay, Blessing. Thank you, Frank. You see, You guys, We can't judge our progress. Please. You can't. You can't. Can't judge your progress. Yeah. You know, This to the hedge fund manager. Our, Our progress is never enough. We're not doing it right. But actually, It is this hedge fund manager energy that is blocking it. So just don't listen to it. Or her could be a her. I'm feeling a very fine energy coming in. It's if to help us all become more finally tuned to what the universe is wanting to the truth of our God selves. More finally tuned. It's like moving through this past this energy of brutality that's been sitting on the world for a long time. As if your, Your bodies are becoming more finally tuned with it. So remember, Don't worry about things. It just happens. You just make progress. You know, You know, When you say, You know, Look, I have some a style house to keynote oven to oven to me all the beings in all the worlds. Be peaceful and happy. That helps you. That helps every cell of your body. If you think of that all the beings are represented by all the cells of your body. So if you're praying for all the beings, You're also praying for all the cells of your body. Because we are everything. So it is one of the most healing prayers you can do. And one of the most accelerative things to do is to help people. So this work of mine, You guys, Like I say, I was a very flawed seeker. So it's actually this helping other people that accelerate me so quickly. And sometimes if we got family and everything, We've got a lot of demands. So I'm not, But even the thought of, You know, Loca has some a style house to keynote oven to even the thought of may everybody be happy. And, You know, There's one way to say it where may they attain peace and happiness. But it's actually just more loving, Just may they be happy and peaceful. They don't even have to attain it. Can they just be it? Can they just feel it? Right. And you guys, This, My prayers for you go up all the time. Yeah. Yeah. And these just don't judge yourselves. Please try not to judge yourself. So because it's the hedge fund guy judging you. Yeah. Okay. You got that. Okay. Oh, You guys blessings. Thank you for coming. I just, I'm overjoyed to see your faces and there's this fine tuning and it will be subtle and don't look for it. Okay. Don't go. Where is the fine tuning? Don't do that. Just maybe notice that you're, That you're going up subtly. Don't look for it. It's sort of like fall over it, Trip over it. Hey, I'm thinking differently than I did do that. Don't look for stuff. If we look for stuff, It's like what Alma says. It's like planting something and digging it up. It just doesn't grow. Yeah. Just, Just take it as truth that you you're, You're being more finely tuned. The cells of your body are gradually opening to more truth just at a pace that's your highest good. And you're right on track. It's all happened before anyway, So you can't even fix yourself. You're just finding out what you chose. Okay. So infinite forgiveness, Infinite compassion. Yeah. Blessings you guys.