Braving choices.
How much we crave to be understood.
To forge a path that is in line with our hearts purest and deepest desires.
To have words and actions that sing out from the tips of our fingers.
To fill a blank page with ink and vision.
How much we crave.
Our freedom to be.
Our freedom to be unchained,
Untethered,
And untangled from a world that has created this vision for us already.
How much we yearn for the space to breathe.
The space to fill with art and music and movement and slowness.
And how much we yearn to feel at home with who we are and with those who we reside with.
To know who we are.
To see within us,
To see our hurt,
To read our thoughts,
To be needed deeply.
Yet how much do we know that above all else this is in the everyday.
We already have it at our fingertips.
We already have the freedom to be.
We already have the breath,
The art,
The music,
The movement,
The slowness.
It is in the gentle waking and sitting up in bed.
It is in the first contact you make as your feet gently press against the hardwood beneath them.
It is the sliver of sun that peaks its way through where the curtains don't quite meet.
It is the warmth tickling your arm,
Raising hairs and welcoming a brand new day.
It is in the sounds of the kitchen,
The coffee grinding while wafting in the air.
It is in the embrace you give your canine companion before you head off to a new day.
And it is in the relationship with those around you,
A dance,
A presence and a choice,
Always a choice.
To see that these cravings and yearnings can be met through the simple and the unnoticed.
Always a choice through the moments in between the due.
Always a choice through the spaces in between the words.
Always a choice through the dampness underneath the tears.
The choice to be understood and to understand you.
The choice to step into desire and craving and creativity.
The choice to release the expectation of what should be or what should have been.
The choice to see your life through the lens of love,
Of understanding,
The misunderstanding.
So here's to understanding,
The misunderstanding.
Here's to feeling deeply needed through meeting your own needs.
Here's to feeling deeply needed through meeting your own needs.
To the choice.
Close your eyes.
Relax your eyebrows,
Your shoulders,
Your eyelids,
Your temples.
Relax your sit bones.
Allow your shoulders to fall slightly.
Unclench your jaw,
Unsqueeze your hands.
Welcome your heart space into this moment.
Open it up even further.
And take an inhale,
One,
Two,
Three into this space.
And exhale more love from this space,
Three,
Two,
One.
One more time,
Inhale,
One,
Two,
Three into your heart space.
And emanate more love from your heart space as you exhale,
Three,
Two,
One.
Maintain your consistency of breath,
Whatever works for you.
And ease yourself into this present moment,
This place of love,
This place of belonging and acceptance of where you are in this moment.
This place of choice to be where you are in this moment.
This place of longing for choice to be where you are in this moment.
See that light,
That sunlight,
That sliver of sunlight coming through a window in the morning shining onto your skin and feel the warmth on your arms now.
Embrace in that golden glow.
And as you feel this warmth of this natural sunlight on your skin,
Ask yourself,
What do I crave?
Where in my heart do I feel misunderstood?
Where in my heart can I feel more understood?
Inhale this sun into your body.
Allow it to radiate from the inside out,
Shining,
Illuminating the room that you're sitting in.
And ask yourself,
What is freedom to me?
What is freedom to be?
Where is freedom in my life right now?
Where are the moments and the spaces in between in my life right now that go unnoticed?
Where is the choice that I have in my life right now?
And as this room glows brighter with the sun coming in through the window pane,
Absorb the sunlight,
Or better yet,
Become the sun.
Become the rays.
Become the warmth.
Become the luminescence.
Smile from the inside out.
And affirm to yourself,
I am the gentle waking and sitting up in bed.
I am the first contact of my feet against the hard wood.
I am the sliver of sun that peeks its way through the curtains.
I am the warm embrace I give my canine before I head off to my day.
I am the relationship to dance,
To presence,
And to choice.
I am the moments in between the doing.
I am the spaces in between the words.
I am the dampness underneath the tears.
I am understood.
I am choice.
I am needed.
I am understood.
I am needed.
I am choice.
I am understood.
I am needed.
Feel your final waves of warmth being the sun that you are,
And return to your physical body whenever you're ready.
Wiggle your fingers.
Wiggle your toes.
Take a deep inhale and a deep exhale through the nose.
And remind yourself that through all you crave and through all you desire,
Although feeling so misunderstood,
Although feeling that you long for a life that is different,
A life that is slower,
A life that is more present,
More peaceful,
More at ease,
A life that is creative.
This life is through choice.
This life is through choice of seeing this in your life at this moment right now.
See the choice and see where in your life right now this desire is there and it is already satisfied.
Much love.
