I take a deep breath in and if it's a safe option for me now,
As I breathe out I close my eyes.
I take another deep breath in and together with the air I let go any tension from my body.
I take a third deep breath in and as I breathe out I relax my mind.
Just for a moment I don't have to think about anything.
Now I see an image.
I see myself at my earliest memories.
So I'm around 4 or 5.
I see that picture.
What am I doing?
How am I feeling?
How I look like?
I imagine a timeline.
It starts then.
The middle is where I am now and the end is far in the future.
I want to fill in the stops from my earliest memories to where I am now.
I don't want to label any successes,
Any failures,
Any memories.
I just want to peek randomly moments from my life and see them and see how I've grown.
I don't want to reflect on any events.
I don't want to think about any goals accomplished or not.
I pick another age.
One I can vividly remember but I don't want to think about the reason why I remember it.
I just pick the age.
Again,
How do I look?
Where am I?
How do I feel?
In the next stop,
I am around 15,
16.
How do I look?
What do I do?
How do I feel?
What did I love to do when I was 15?
What did I love to do in the previous stops?
In the next stop,
I am 18.
I am an adult.
How do I look?
How do I feel?
Where am I?
What do I do?
What do I love to do?
I pick a few more stops until the age I am now.
Again,
I think about every stop.
How do I look?
How do I feel?
What do I do?
Where am I?
What do I love to do?
And I come to now.
How do I look?
What do I do?
What do I love to do?
Where am I?
Do I do any of the things I loved to do when I was younger?
Do they still matter to me?
And if they do and yet I stopped doing them,
Why?
Can I start again?
Can I start again today?
From all the ways I've grown,
Which one is my favorite?
From all the ways I haven't grown up,
Which one is my favorite?
Now looking vaguely in the future,
In my future selves,
From any potential future selves I could have three,
Five years from now,
How do I look?
What do I do?
What do I like to do?
Where am I?
Assuming that Friday is a feeling,
How will I experience some more Friday on Monday morning?
