Sometimes in life we can find ourselves feeling a little bit lost.
If that is where you are at the moment,
I'm in it with you and it can come for a whole number of reasons.
It can be due to heartbreak or grief,
Career loss,
Endings and periods of deep transformation.
Where maybe we just feel like we're in a place where we're confused and we don't know the way forward or there might be lots of potential paths forward but we're not quite sure which one to choose.
That's definitely where I am at at the moment and I've got lots of ideas about things that I'd like to create in my life and ways in which I'd like to move but some of them feel scary and some of them I'm not sure if I can manage to make it happen.
And also some of them feel like they're going against the grain of what we're conditioned to believe in the culture about what we should want in life and how we should be living life and what we should be aspiring towards.
Taking care of our future,
Pension,
A regular secure job or a particular career path.
So when you find yourself being really pulled in a direction that doesn't necessarily look like what you expected for yourself or what others might expect for you,
It can create a sense of internal conflict.
Something that I've been trying to do during this time and it's not always been successful it's definitely been a time of feeling a lot and grieving for things that I hoped for in my life that haven't ended up happening.
Grief obviously isn't always comfortable.
But something that I keep returning to is acceptance.
Just accepting that okay I feel confused,
Do I need to fight it?
Do I need to add additional energy into it by trying to battle the experience that I'm in?
I have been battling it a lot.
I've been battling the experience that I'm in quite a lot but in between battles I've been coming to this notion of acceptance and how important it is to just accept where you're at and that it's okay to feel a bit lost.
It's actually part of life,
So many people,
Probably everyone at some point in life,
The universe,
Sends you curveballs or things that you weren't expecting or sends you in a different direction that might feel scary to begin with but if we can accept that we're just feeling a bit lost and a bit confused that's the first step to managing to navigate it from a place that feels more centered and more balanced and kinder to the self as well,
Just kinder to yourself because actually you're already feeling lost,
You're already feeling overwhelmed so it's not really helpful to then be labeling the experience,
Judging the experience,
Shaming or blaming yourself for not doing x y or z that has led you to this point in your journey.
Obviously all of that's easier said than done,
Like so much wisdom in life,
Practicing it can feel a lot harder than when we just hear it because we have to live it,
We have to experience it and that can be challenging.
So if you're in that too,
If you're struggling with confusion or feeling lost at the moment maybe just sitting with yourself journaling around the question of how can I accept this experience that I'm currently in.
How can I sink into it a little bit deeper and actually really feel everything that I might be needing to feel at this point in my life.
How can I be as gentle as possible with myself as I move through this period of transformation.
What are the things in my life that I can bring in,
In order to make myself feel more comfortable and more safe and maybe that's really simple things like just getting cozy on an evening.
I feel that we can put so much pressure on ourselves to have it all figured out or know the answers all the way forward.
And the truth is that the future is never certain,
We never know what is around the corner,
We can have an idea but truly we don't really know what's awaiting us later today or tomorrow.
Or if tomorrow will ever even come.
I find that often when we get really quiet with ourselves,
Whether somewhere where we feel safe in our homes or preferably in nature,
When we can really begin to drop into the present moment and try to calm the mind a little bit and calm our bodies.
That little whispers of wisdom speak and an inner knowing can emerge that can bring so much comfort and peace to whatever we've been feeling and the most important thing with it is to really slow down.
Getting out in nature can also bring us beautiful gifts,
So I felt guided to go on this walk that I'm sharing with you and I went to meet with a tree that I have a special connection with that I feel very connected to and have gone to seek wisdom from on many occasions.
And this time when I arrived at the spot where the tree is,
For the first time in this spot and I've been here many times,
I saw a kingfisher flying past and it made me cry.
It felt so beautiful to have witnessed that bird there when I'd felt guided to come to this spot,
I'd heard the inner whispers telling me to return to this place that means so much to me and yeah I felt like that was my gift from the universe to show me that even though I'm feeling lost,
I'm always in the right place.
And when I connected with this tree and sat by it and tuned into what it might be wanting to speak to me,
I was hearing to come home to myself,
Come home to yourself.
And that's a message that I've been getting again and again recently during this time of fogginess and feeling confused and overwhelmed,
Is to come home to myself.
So maybe that means something to you also and speaks to you or speaks to your soul and perhaps there's a message in there around how sometimes we feel a little bit lost but perhaps it's an invitation.
An invitation to find or rediscover ourselves all over again.
