Hello and welcome to five minutes in nature with me Liz Scott.
On the 19th day of my pilgrimage as I walk across England following the energy lines of the Michael and Mary currents and today you find me just on the outskirts of somewhere called Trull,
T-R-U-L-L.
I started the day at a place called Greenham.
I'm in the county of Somerset and for a lot of day I've been following the River Tone and off the River Tone there have been little churches many of whom have had the Mary energy current running through them and I'm probably about a mile and a half now from the end point and it's been a delight.
This morning in particular as I was walking I felt almost like a toddler.
I was kept seeing things and I went back to take photographs of things or to look up on my phone to see what particular plants were and just had this lovely sort of sense of immersing myself in in nature.
It was a really special moment I saw sweet violets.
I've never seen them before but they were blossoming these tiny white blooms at the bottom of a tree trunk.
So it's been a close-up look at nature and this last little bit as I wandered down the track towards Trull is a chance for me just to slow down and reflect on the day itself.
And you know I think for me this day has been bittersweet.
I've reflected on the extraordinary support that I get from people,
People that listen to this,
People that are supporting me with messages along the way.
I feel that warmth and love and my husband drives the camper van and makes sure that I'm well fed and looked after and helps drop me off and pick up and collect the car at the end of the day.
So I truly am very fortunate to have so much support and yet also in my family I notice that whilst my sister is absolutely supporting me,
Other family members are absent and it's their absence of support that feels like a big hole in my life.
And it's that bittersweet,
Isn't it,
Where you feel the warmth of love and the warmth of generosity and support that I felt towards me as I have engaged on this walk.
And there's also this sort of emptiness,
This hole,
This gap and it is a sadness and I'm sitting with it.
I'm not analysing it.
I'm not trying to overthink it because I know there are nuances in trying to work out the whys and wherefores of people's actions.
It's not wrong or bad and I'm not blaming anybody because people just do what makes sense to them.
Me too,
I'm human.
But I think it's worth mentioning this.
It's something that keeps bubbling up for me today and for me nature is a great nourisher.
It gives me such nourishment being out in nature.
Even now on these quiet lanes in Somerset I can see birds flying and look at the the ivy growing out of the hedgerow and the stitchwork that's just started to emerge and oh my goodness I can just see,
Isn't that interesting,
As I've paused I can see sweet violets,
The white violets that I'd seen for the first time earlier in the day,
Here they are again.
It's like it's a message to me to say you're okay,
You're on the right track.
And that's what I am seeing so much is that there are things for me to learn,
There are things for me to reflect on,
There are things that will be shifting for me in my life as I walk and I reflect at a really deep unconscious level that I probably will never intellectually understand.
And I've also got to be aware that there are things that I don't understand and I cannot change.
And for me when I talk about acceptance it's about I can feel the pain and the sadness that I'm maybe not getting the support I would like but equally the acceptance is that it's okay,
I can be with that pain,
I can feel it because that pain all it is for me is a representation of love,
It's love for my it's absolute love for my family.
So I hope that makes sense for you today that reflection of love and hope and sadness they can all exist together and that's what I'm really sitting with today as I complete my walk on the 19th day of my pilgrimage.
