It can become too easy to lose sight of the ways our desire to belong can at times lead us astray.
Lead us astray from holding and accepting ourselves in the way we deeply need to.
Of how our desire for deep love can at times make us believe such a thing can only be received from people and places outside of us,
Taking us further and further away from our hearts.
So I invite you now to change that,
To direct and guide all your attention to yourself in this now moment.
To acknowledge the things you may have felt shame for,
Disempowering them with your ownership,
And then letting it go.
Welcoming a new canvas of being and holding of love for yourself.
Find a comfortable position and gently close your eyes now.
Taking a long deep breath in and out.
Allowing each breath to melt any tension you are holding into the ground beneath you.
Falling deeper and deeper into a peaceful state.
As you allow each breath to further soften and open you.
As you listen to the following words.
Oh how pain has sat in the depths of my heart,
With its razor sharp edges,
Pinching each breath.
That I wait with a perpetual yearn,
Hoping it will provide a reprieve from the sorrow it leaves me with.
I sit before the softest parts of me,
Battered by the judgment,
Shame,
And dishonor of my own tongue and lips.
I sit here with the tears I have caused,
Disowning and betraying myself more than anyone beyond me.
In this moment,
I acknowledge the flaws of it all.
Of how harsh I have been towards myself.
Of how hard I have pierced sharp words towards the softest parts of me,
The most human parts of me.
Leaving me not feeling enough.
I now stand before myself,
In love,
In openness,
In trust,
With hand to my heart,
And say I'm sorry.
I am sorry to the parts of me I abandoned.
Believing that there was a love far greater out there than I could ever give to myself.
I am sorry to the parts of me I led astray.
Believing that every unique part of me that didn't look,
Sound,
And move the way deemed worthy,
Was not worthy of my acceptance.
I am sorry to the parts of me that were falling apart,
With pain coursing the veins of my cheeks,
Holding mountains of tears,
Only to be buried by denial that they weren't worthy of being held and heard.
I stand here before myself,
With hand to heart,
Giving my deepest love to me,
Honoring all of me.
The parts of me that I once disowned,
I now fully embrace.
The love yearned from others,
I give fully to myself,
With unquestionable grace.
I no longer question the power of my softness and openness.
I love all of me,
And promise that no one and nothing will ever take me away from this beautiful truth.
Take a few minutes now to sit in the softness of this space,
That these words have helped you connect with.
Allow this space to speak to you,
To soften you further,
To help you release any shields you carry that prevent you from forgiving yourself,
And allow you to embrace the totality and beauty of all of you here in this moment.
Slowly welcome the present moment,
By allowing some gentle movement back into your body,
While slowly opening your eyes into the space in front of you.
May this practice be a reminder of the healing power of giving the deepest love to yourself.
